Old Guards, New Methods

I've spent my life growing up and helping others. I've always been the one to extend my arms with open hands. Have been the one to lend a shoulder for friends and family to cry on. I've been the one that cares for others when everyone else turns their heads. When is it my time to receive the open hands? When is it my time to have a shoulder to rest my weary head on? I've grown into something the mirror doesn't see anymore. I'm not the same person I once used to be. If myself ran into the person I used to be. We would be strangers; we wouldn't even acknowledge one another. I've lost interest in humanity. I've lost the love and strength I used to surround myself with. I'm on a new road.... I'm back on the road your heart will always be able to take you back home. The road you've scraped your knee's & elbows on; trying to get away from. It's Fall of 2009. I'm on the road to find and better myself. I've had my new skin fitted over these organs and tissues. I can finally say I'm happy. I can't wait for our sick humanity who don't appreciate life to finally fail. I can't wait to watch you mother fuckers sink.

18 hours 9 minutes

Over 800 miles there is a girl in a city. A girl who has nothing to do with dairy products. A girl who doesn't need to fill her empty stomach on murdered flesh. A girl with point of views that make you look at the situation in a different way. A girl with a good head on her shoulders. A girl who only wants one thing out of life; to die young. A girl that simply serves food out of the back of her car. A girl who gives back. A girl with work that has influenced me. A person who can easily be looked up to in life. Her pictures have my eyes attention. Every image keeps them wondering from top to bottom. Taking the whole photograph in; not leaving any space uncovered. Her words leave me in awh. They make me think about what made her use the words she did, for the photograph she used. The way her photograph meets the words and the way her words tell the photograph's story; inreality it is something else. She writes about life & how it should be....fast, young, at her best. People talk about wanting a change; how come more people can't be like this girl I know and be the change they want to see?

Livin the City

Where climbing roof tops was only a place to climb to think and get away from everyone. You forget how good you had it when it's not yours anymore

It seems like the days are growing longer. It's like time passing for the tree's. To slowly let go of their green leaves that they've spent months preparing for. Waiting for this one moment, to slowly let go so they can start the cycle again. We are both impatient. There's an irritation under my skin, and has been growling rapidly. I know what I want. It's like summer descending into fall. It's something I want so bad and it's right in front of me. Yet is seems miles away, and out of my reach. Bring me 2010, bring me that road I've been dying to start new on. I want out

-Owen

Owen is enviroment friendly, fixed gear, my transportation. Even on our bad days...he doesn't complain where we go.

The Last Page

After the "One Year" project of mine. I am gladly to say that it is finally done with. With pages ripped out, and pages lost, the memories written, and the memories I will have to look back on. It has been a year of my life I will never forget. You can read most of the year on here and the other on myspace.com/dailyounceofcutenesss in my blog section. I will keep writing but not daily. There is more stories and adventures to come but it is time to put this beast to rest. -Thank you to everyone who kept up, and read my life. -Ricco Cordova

June

-June 10th. Kayla and I's eight month ann. We played Ultimate Frisbee tonight and it was the ending of Frisbee. In the intense event of our ultimate frisbee match. I'm sad to say that Whack Frisbee has been put to sleep. Devin had a furious block and karate chopped him in half. We went and kicked it over at Forum for a bit and kicked it after Ikso Tko painted. Devin and I dropped Ivan off afterwords and went over to Beto's to enjoy a very fucking amazing breakfast. Afterwards we went to the Raven's nest were we hung out till we had to leave so Devin could drop off the car. Now I'm just chilling listening to Fired Up! I need to start blogging the way I do! So there will be amazing stories here soon! 1 Frisbee Down, Summer just beginning. -June 9th. Hung out and kicked it -June 8th.Ultimate Frisbee Match -June 7th. Hung out and Ultimate Frisbee Match -June 6th. Kayla came down. -June 5th. Last day of High School and the start of my life. -June 1st-June 4th. was all school.

...May Flowers

-May 27th. Spet the day away again. My body has been trying to heal. -May 26th. Slept most of the day away. -May 25th. Spent 13 hours in a car till we got home in Salt Lake to find home in our beds. -May 24th. We woke up for the last and final day of Rain Fest. I don't think I would have ever said this, but I was so glad it was the last day and there wasn't one more. My voice is completely gone right now, my neck and collar bone are fucked up, I have about 6 Van Classic shoe marks on my back, and I completely miss my mother and late conversations with Kayla. We woke up at a good hour to get ready and have some food. Once everyone was ready and fed we headed down to the venue. We were a little off our schedule than the other days but Ivan and I were still at the front of the line. While we waited outside; Ivan and I headed over to Domino's to get a pizza. We split this amazing pizza and had some good laughs with our Pepsi and Orange Soda. We scarfed down that shit and headed to the doors. I ended up spilling pizza all down my shirt and got some on my shoe. So I wasn't too happy on that one. The doors opened up within the hour and we all got in perfectly fine. This last and final day of the show was fucking crazy. Every band was off the chain and was way too crazy for the place. We had more time to kick it in between sets. We found out some interesting news and I've lost a lot of respect for someone. The bands were amazing again. Broadway Calls was so fucking ridiculous. Trash Talk, Grave Maker, etc. They all did an amazing job. As of now we are sitting in our hotel getting ready for bed. We have check out tomorrow at 11. We will be leaving way earlier than that so I will see you readers tomorrow. Oh by the way....Dan sucks so we don't have too many pictures. -May 23rd. I woke up and thought that we all had slept in past the show. I looked over at the clock to see that it was only 11 a.m. It was such a good relief. We all woke up and made some sandwich's, got ready, brushed our teeth and headed out the door. We got there about an hour early and kids were already lined up at the door. We kicked it for a bit until they opened the doors and things started moving. We headed down to the venue and hung outside for a bit till they opened the doors again. Once again all the bands did an amazing fucking job. Q-Fresh was cooking up some mean Bbq and Ice Cream out in the streets. We kicked it with some bad ass kids and had a good fucking time at the show. What a good fucking day. -May 22. We woke up around 9 a.m. We got up and had some peanut butter and honey sandwiches. Everyone got dressed and brushed their teeth. A few of us ran back and forth from our room to Kimmeh's to pick up Otter Pops. Everyone was finally getting done getting ready and was doing there own things. Derek and Jake bounced after they woke up to leave to Seattle for awhile. Kyah, Ivan and I walked around to different grocery stores trying to find Polaroids for my camera but could find nothing. Ivan and I ended up getting food at McDonalds. Everyone out here in Tacoma are so friendly. I was filling up my drink and the dude next to me started asking me how my day was and all that friendly stuff. After we ate we headed back to the hotel. Once we arrived we found no one in our rooms. We called up everyone to find out that they headed over to the Mall across the street. So Kimmeh, Morgan, Kyah, Ivan and I all headed over there too meet up. It was an ok little mall. I picked up a few Seattle Mariners bracelets and found out some of the best news of the day. KEN GRIFFERY JR. has returned to my all time favorite baseball team. So you better watch out. After we decided to head back to the hotel to grab some things and head down to the show. We got stuck in traffic and everyone was driving slow as shit. We seen some amazing trees and some dope ass graffiti along I-5. We finally arrived to the venue about 3 or 4 hours early and just kicked it. We checked out what was inside and found some old ass shit. I bought an Allegiance Vinyl, Sinking Ship shirt and a Bracewar shirt. The day was already an amazing day with just that. We kicked it for a few more hours until they opened the doors. They finally opened up and let all of the pre-sale ticket holders in first. Finally we Ivan and I got in because we had to pay. The show was pretty much speechless. I don't even know where to begin with how amazing all of the bands were. Sixes, Gone but not Forgotten, Poverty Bay Saints, Ill Intent, Vanguard, Lewd Acts, Killing the Dream, The Warriors and Wisdom in Chains were all fucking amazing. We kicked it with Lewd Acts for a bit and than chatted with the singer of Killing the Dream. One of the nicest guys ever. The show was fucking nuts. Best part about it is there is still two days left. The ones who are missing out on this; I am so sorry. It's so fucking amazing. -May 21st. I had to go to school for a bit so I could go to my class that I need to graduate. There was an assembly in between 2nd and 4th. I went to 4th and did absolutely nothing but play games. Finally 4th period was over and it was time to grab some lunch and bail out of school. I left school to find Justin waiting in the parking lot. I jumped in and we headed down to Brian's to pick up Ivan. We arrived at Brian's to find Ivan drowsy as fuck. Cody was packed with his clothes and food and he delivered the bad news that he could not come with us to Tacoma because Kimmeh bailed out on him. Which is really fucked up.. We had to part our ways and head to my house so I could grab my bag and money. We pulled up to my house to find that my Mom was home as well. We chatted for a bit and cracked some jokes. I made a second run through my things to make sure that I had everything I needed and we were on our way to the car to load the stuff. After my things were packed it was time to head out to Dan's to pick him and Evan up. We arrived a little later than we expected due to Construction in Sandy. We arrived and we loaded up the cooler with Ice, drinks, meats, and other things that needed to be cold. I stacked that shit like a tetris king and it was finally time to hit up McDonalds and fill up with gas. Within the hour we were on the road already bumping Tiefighter and laughing our asses off. The rest of the drive consisted of good ol hardcore music, pit stops at random gas stations, food, talks and good ol laughs. And you can't forget the near death experiences. Once we pulled into Oregon we chased down a train that was in motion and it was probably one of the best lines I've seen. I finally got to see a Plant Trees on a freight. Which was funny because I was looking at a bunch of his stuff on Flickr, earlier that day. Finally with the estimated time of 12 hours we finally reached our destination. We drove around Tacoma for awhile checking out the city and looking at the venue. We drove around the city a little more and seen this homeless guy that appeared to be dead. He was passed out in the middle of the road. Defiantly had to be a highlight of the day. We finally decided that we would drive over to were Kimmeh, and the other kids were staying. It took us a good 4 to 5 hours to find this fucking hotel. We kept getting false directions by the locals and there was a bunch of anger in the car. In this adventure of finding this Hotel, we drove by the dock and kicked with the boats, we seen more trains than ever, a bunch of nothing, and some scummy punks. We finally arrived at the hotel around 6 am and called it a night. -May 20th. I have court today and it's going to be a pretty busy day. Gotta do laundry and pack my bags. We leave tomorrow! -May 19th. Today was Kayla's birthday! After school she arrived to pick me up. We listened to some Hour of the Wolf and headed home. We actually ended up racing my brother home and I; of course beat him. I ended up falling asleep and taking a power nap before Justin showed up. Justin wanted to head downtown to Pibs so he could pick up some clothes. I woke up and put my shows on and we headed down to Pibs Exchange. After Justin picked up some sweet shirts; including a Life Long Tragedy shirt we bounced over to Noodles and Company for Kayla's Birthday Dinner. We ate and chatted for a bit and than a good friend (Brian Wilson) showed up to work a little late. Once the food was settled and it was time to move we headed over to Brian's to watch some movies. A few hours went by and Kayla had to leave. We had to drive back to my house so she could get her things and her car. We said our goodbye's and than went to Sunset to kick it for the night. Everyone ended up showing up and we had pile ons in the parking lot, skate sessions, and other things of the source. It was a pretty eventful Tuesday. -May 18th. I woke up this morning to a day which I wanted to do nothing but lay in bed. I also had to leave a beautiful women I call mine in bed, asleep and content. I don't know what is going on today. Hopefully I will get some of that damn homework done that I've been needing to do. So far it's a good day. AND I found this just barely. It made me laugh because all of my friends and family know how much I am on FLICKR!! So here's a laugh for today! After school I came home to fall asleep for a power nap. I woke up around 5 to get up and keep the day going. I got a few calls confirming that Dan P. was having a Pool Party. My family ordered in pizza so Kayla and I drove down the street to pick it up so we could all eat. We picked up the pizza and headed home to eat pizza and watch the Sandlot. After words we headed over to Dan's to spend the day in the pool. It was a very nice day. -May 17th. It was hiking day for Kayla and I. We got ready for the day and filled our water bottles up with water and ice. Nato showed up in the process of getting ready for the trip; so we invited him. We got everything ready and finally got a hold of Ivan and asked if he wanted to come along. We drove up to the point and we started our Journey. We are all out of shape but we had a blast. We over looked the valley, jumped over broken cars, laughed and watched Ivan run down a hill. It was a beautiful day for a Sunday Hike -May 16th. Kayla and I woke up pretty early and had breakfast. We ended up getting ready for the day. We ran down to Smith's to pick up some Groceries and headed back home to eat. -May 15th. Today was Arts Fest at my school. I got checked out around 9 to go home and pick up Kayla. We came back to my school to hang out for a bit and check some things out. I ended up taking 3rd Place in Photography for my school. The same images that took 2nd and 3rd at the Fashion Place Art Show. We ended up leaving around 11 o clock to get some Noodles and Company and talk over a meal. Once we were done eating my Mom was on her way to come see the Arts Fest and my photos that were entered. We stuck around for a bit to see my friend Jew do some Poetry and it was way too good. Good Job Jew! Afterwards we headed to my place to hang out for a bit, and than to Brian's. They were all leaving for the show and I wanted to go to Graffiti Fest. We decided we would go to the show and headed down there with everyone. The show didn't seem like it was going to be that great so we drove Four Blocks North to the Free Speech Zone to hang out with the homies. There was live paintings by Coup, Aster, Mask, Endur, Phuze, Riktor, Demr, Dust and than a bunch of Hippies and live music. It was a pretty eventful day. My camera ended up breaking later that night. The lens won't come out so I have to get it checked out. It ruined the night for me and I went home to eat and pass out around 10:30. -May 14th. Pretty much this is for the day. Kayla comes in town as well tonight around 7. Way to stoked. -May 13th. I really need to finish my drawings for credit. I need to get an extended time period. Yet it's one of those days where I want to do nothing but glue my face to the window. This isn't exactly how it is in my city; but it's pretty close. Photo Cred:Tom Sykes -May 12th.Just another day wrapped up in the blankets. Photo Cred:Austin Durant -May 11th. Kicked it at my house all day and hung up things on my wall. Did some homework for my stupid packet and fell asleep waiting for Kayla to call me back. -May 10th. It was mine and Kayla's 7 month ann today. It's been one hell of a time; and I've loved every second of it. I can't even begin where to explain how happy I am with you Kayla. I was hanging things up on my wall and stumbled upon some drawings that she had drew. They were dated with the dates and times. Those were about 3 and 4 months ago and it made me smile to read the words that were on the backs of these papers, and know that we still say them today. We have grown to be in each others lives, and have been welcomed in each others families. Happy 7 Months Gorgeous. I'm still face first in the dirt, I'm still your biggest fan; yet I'm still yours. I love you -May 9th. I woke up around 4 in the afternoon to call up the boys to see who was going to the show. We arrived at the show and Chance played first. After they finished up their set Kimmeh showed up and lit the garbage on fire. It swarmed up in a big flame, making it so we had to leave. We left cause half of my friends have warrants and didn't want to get involved with the pigs. Once we arrived at Anthonee's we found out that these metal head kids were talking shit when we left. One of the PAAP kids told them "I wouldn't talk shit on them because they will come back and fight you!" So we showed back up and I called it. We would confront the kids and they would deny it. Anthonee got crazy and started yelling as usual. Hit a fire crotch, some bitch called the cops, cops showed up, we ran, they beat us to the front door and asked what was going on. We told them what was up and they Documented a few kids; including Anthonee. Told us why so many cops had to show up. There was about 12 or 13 cars that showed up with multiple cops. After we had everyone back with us we bounced to Anthonee's for a minute and than to Dan Price's to meet up with everyone. We headed over to Sun Set after wards to hang out and than I called it a night. It was a pretty eventful day. -May 8th. I didn't go to my last periods and ended up going to donate Plasma with Nato and Nico. We were there from 12 till about 5 o' clock. Nico and I walked around for a bit while we waited for Nato and checked out a legal wall. After we drove down to Nico's so he could get yelled at, and take a shower. Later in the day we met up with Justin and Nato and Taco Time and than bounced to go pick up Ivan. Later in the night we went to some party with Justin and than went to Sun Set Coffee to play Capture the Flag. That lasted till about 4 o' clock A.M. -May 7th. Drove around and went hiking down at Sun Crest. Nato and them got lost and went to the wrong side of the valley. So Kimmeh, Justin, Braden and I went hiking for a few hours. It was probably one of my favorite hikes. We found some Government type of Bomb Shelter thing. We lied at top of this mountain on our backs looking up at a black blanket full of hole punches. It was honestly one of the best things I've seen in a while. Sat up there and talked and made wishes on shooting stars. We ended up leaving the mountain to come home and I arrived around 6 A.M. in the morning. Than had to awake and go to school at 7. What a terrible day. -May 6th. Probably just kicked it at Sunset. -May 5th. I was going to rant about something but it's been over a week so this is it for the 5th. It needs to be Memorial Day so the pools can open up and I can go swimming. -May 4th. I'm sicking of hearing about this Swine Flu non-sense. But Melanie did catch a good photo. So credit to my family of Melanie Sparks. I got this from my friend Sara and I had to steal it. So to all of my readers go here.(http://www.bringtheawesome.com/) -May 3rd. I didn't end up going to bed till about 7:30 this morning. I woke up around 9 o' clock to Tyler and Casey making some grilled chicken. I got up and had some chicken with the fella's for breakfast and lied down afterwards. I fell alseep listening to Casey name off Area Codes and have Tyler and Torrey try to guess them. I later woke up around 4 to head over to Tyler's and go back to sleep. We headed over there and just talked about life. It was one of those life talks where everything seems so important. My Mother came and picked me up around 6 and we drove over to Sheila's to meet up with Lorenzo. He didn't show up so we watched Seven Pounds and had Ice Cream. It was a very relaxing Sunday till later on..... -May 2nd. I woke up at a good solid 2 O'clock. I got online to check my stuff and get back at Tyler for Casey's Birthday BBQ. Within a minute after hitting him up he called and checked if I still wanted to go. I told him I had to get ready and I would meet up with him at his house within the hour. We had to kick it at Tyler's for a bit till the party got started. We checked out some old ass magazine's and worked on some canvas. We headed over to Casey's around 7. The party started off slow but as the night grew into it's depth of darkness things started going. It was a damn good party and I crashed at Casey's. Happy Birthday Old Friend! It was very nice seeing you. Also it was nice meeting everyone tonight and seeing a bunch of old friends. -May 1st. Finally Friday after a week that went by half quick, and half way slow. I came home and took a nap for a few hours and than hit up Harry to see if they were all still going to the movies. They were so I told them I would be on my way over. Before I headed on over I headed to help my Grand Parents back their stuff into their car so they could go stay with my Dad. Once they had left my Mother and I was on our way to dropping me off. It took us a minute to find the house because they just barely built that part of the Neighborhood, but we found it. We hung out at Zac's till everyone got to the house. I played Terrance in Chess while we waited and kicked his ass. Shortly after the game everyone was gathered up and we went to go see Xmen Origins. It was an amazing movie, and very well done for being played off the Comic Book. They could have done Deadpool better and the accent of Gambit but it was very good. After the movies we went and picked up Joey in the rainy weather. Joey was an idiot and went to the wrong movie theater and missed out on the movie. So we all gathered up at McDonalds to eat and kick it. Once the food was in our stomachs we went back to Zac's to play some Halo 3. I pretty much owned all night! Harry beat me once and that was in Swords; first round on 300 gravity. It was a pretty good night. I'm a little upset that my favorite month is over; but May is just as good. There's still a lot of rain in May and that's all we've seen so far. April showers brings May Flowers. Photo Cred to Melanie Sparks.

April Showers

-April 29th. My Grandparents ended up cooking dinner so I had to stay home till dinner was ready. By the time dinner was ready Nato came over and was going to stay for dinner. After dinner we headed over to B-Money's to pick him up. We stopped at Brian's for a second and then left. We went and picked up Ivan and for some reason I've been tired as fuck. We drove around complaining till we found something to do. Nico met up with us at trax and we headed to Taco Bell afterwards. Taco Bell started with Nico arguing with the cashier because he won a game, and it ended with Nico yelling at random girls. After Taco Bell we headed up to Shayne's to hang out with everyone. We spent most of the night up there playing halo 3 and making fun of Jared's conversations on COD 4. It was a pretty ok night. We decided to leave Shayne's and meet up with Kimmeh, Morgan and Kai? at Sun Set Coffee. We were there till about 3 A.M and I couldn't stay awake for the rest of the night. On our way home from the shop Nato got pulled over again. That would be twice in one day for him. The Cop was the biggest piece of shit ever. He walked up to the car and asked Nato if he spoke English because the passengers didn't have there hands on top of the seats so he could see them. Than he asked me what I was trying to hide because I was moving around so much. I looked at him confused and replied I've been asleep with my head on the sit so I can see where you thought I was moving around. I said my Water Bottle is on the ground, but I don't know why I hide that. He picked it up and I told him Water was in there and he could drink it, sniff it, do whatever he need to. He asked me how old I was and I replied 18. He looked at me and said you know it's illegal to give a officer false information. I replied back I'm not giving false information. Than he had to be super tough guy. When is your birthday than? I replied April 6th, 1991. He asked me for my name and all that shit and than walked off. The cop was the biggest piece of shit. Fuck Cops, they are worse than the Swine Flu and fuck their quota!!! He ended up letting Nato go with a ticket and just bounced because we didn't do anything. Fucking faggot! -April 28th. I kicked it with Nato all day. We picked up B-Money and they went to there screw up class. Afterwards we picked up Ivan and drove around for a bit. In the evening we headed down to Nato's so he could change his brakes because they are so bad it sounded like we were stopping ourselves with boulders. Than on top of it the car sounded like a space shuttle and I feared for my life every time we came to a stop. It was quite the day. -April 27th. It was pretty much a crazy day. School went by way faster than usual. We started to discuss what a crazy month this has been. Justin sold out of Straight Edge, Newton bought in, Shayne sold out of Vegan and want's to be a cop, Sam cheated on Cody and now they are getting a Divorce, Adam Gay is going to have a baby, Dan P and Cheltz broke up, and Nato keeps on getting pulled over. It has been quite the month for bizarre month for things to happen. I'm still waiting on my room to be finished by the way. It still hasn't been painted, and I'm still waiting. Hopefully this week things will get done. -April 26th. It was Sunday and Kayla's last day in town. Today was day I refused to get up because I just wanted to hold her for so much longer. She finally got me up and we got ready so we could go eat. We had to go pick up Ivan and Kendra and than double back and hit up Noodles and Company for lunch. Noodles was so amazing! They were on their A+ game again. Afterwards we drove to an old spot where I got arrested. We walked around and enjoyed the nice weather. Than we headed down town to show Kendra some of our legal walls and all of the local spots. We ended up state street and past the Capital to the top of the World. It was pretty cold for some reason. Everyone took in the view and than we left. We drove a little ways up the street to Enzyme Peak and decided to hike it. Ivan and Kendra took the side of the Mountain in order to get up their faster. Kayla and I stuck to the trail for most of the time. It kicked our asses. We arrived at the top and rested for awhile. The sun was starting to go down and Kayla and I sat and cuddled and watched it. We spent a few hours up there and than hiked down/rock climbed. We ran down a hill, chilled in a cave -April 25th. Kayla and I woke up to my mom doing laundry and laughing at us sleeping. We lied in bed for a bit and I was kind of stubborn and didn't want to get out of bed. We finally got up and started getting ready. We had a bowl of cereal and chatted with my family. Kayla started getting ready and I chatted with my grandma and gave Kayla a pair of Diamond earrings. We both finished getting ready and were both getting hungry. We headed to Wendy's to grab some food and talk. Ivan and Kendra kept calling and asking when we would be on our to pick them up. We were about half way done with our food when Ivan called and told us that everyone was already there. Kayla and I finished up our meal and headed toward Ivan's house. We arrived there in about 10 minutes and headed back down to Brian's. It was a pretty good turn out for the bbq. We hung out for a bit and chatted, played with the baby, played halo and just hung out and watched some cop thing. Later in the evening everyone wanted to play football and when it came down to it, no one wanted to. They decided to play basketball instead. I didn't play for the first two games because I didn't want to. Than Cody came in and said they needed help because Brian was messing their shit up. I went and picked up the game and we ended up losing because Cody doesn't know how to guard anyone. I wanted to go to the Drive-Ins but didn't know if they were open or not. So after the game everyone sat around and just hung out. We watched a few things and Kayla and I both got really tired. We ended up leaving around 5 A.M in the morning. We came straight home to cuddle and fall asleep. -April 24th. Kayla and my Grandparents both came into town today. Kayla and Kendra ended up arriving in town around 5 o' clock. We met up with in Draper so that we could all head down to the show. We met them at Smith's. After we met up with them and Nato shouted things at Kendra we headed over to Nato's to drop off Kayla's car. It was finally time to head to the show down in Orem at our buddy Justin's new venue. The show was pretty good. Grant hooked it up fat with some tickets and we had a good ol time smashing and jumping on kids. It started raining a bunch and it was a very good night. I finally got to see Joy Dupree after some months. It was very nice to see you. I'm really sorry your camera broke during the pile-ons and you need to get those pictures up soon. After the show we headed back home to hang out. We did some little things here and there. We went to Sunset and everyone started getting crabby. Later in the night we met up with Dan, Dallyn, Duran, Kimmeh, Morgan, Mark, Hailey, Evan and some other kids down at Beto's. That pretty much ended the night for us. Kayla and I came home to sit in bed and fall alseep for the first in our new place. It was quite the day. -April 23rd. We headed down south to go check out these Freight Trains that have been dead for quite awhile. On our way down there we had to stop at Death or Glory to see our boys. All the boys were there except for Dimples; this is nothing new. The time spent at Death or Glory was taken up with riding the low rider bicycle, drawing on the side-walks with chalk, watching Breck have a water fight with Aurora and the kids, putting bottle rockets in Nico's ciggs, and mostly just talking and kicking it. After we had spent some time at the shop we still had to head a little further South to find these Trains. We arrived at the place in less than 20 minutes. There are over 150 cars full of color just dead. We pulled up to this dirt mound to find this old cop car. We thought it was a cop at first but knew it couldn't have been a cop because of the gangster rims it had. We pulled around the vechile and Ivan said "Is that car moving?" Nico replied "Holy Shit! It's moving! Look at the wheels!" Nato and I looked at the tires to see them rocking back and fourth. We pulled around to see this Cholo mo'fucka fucking the shit out of some chick. We laughed our asses off and sped away. It was honestly one of the funniest things I've ever witnessed in my life. We walked the line till we could see no more. Vader and the Ons cats murdered the back side of the Trains. We seen a few Kuhr handstyles and knew he had been there. It was kinda like a little scavenger hunt. Once the sun passed the mountain just to give off enough light we found Kuhr on the freight. It was honestly of the greatest things of my life to see this in person. Kuhr, the king of freights. After we gazed into this artwork we decided to head back to the car before it got any darker. Nico and Ivan thought they could jump from Train to Train but wussed out. We arrived to the car right when a cop showed up. We thought we were off the hook but we ended up getting pulled over due to people snitching us out. Something about kids are playing on the train tracks. Fucking snitches. We found out though that Nato has his license suspended and a warrant. Nico ended up driving us back to Salt Lake. We had to drop Nico off at Trax and than it was off to Devin's to play poker. All of the Bingham homies were there and that was the night. -April 22nd. It's pretty much MSK week for me. That's all I've been able to look at on Flickr. (photos by RareFind) Some other Life time goals are: Get tattooed by Norm from Msk. Kick it with Revok at a Art Show in Los Angelos. I can't wait for the road trip out to L.A. this summer. I want to go now but I know it will be worth the wait. I can already feel the hot, burning sand underneath my feet and the cold salty water on my skin. I wish there was a way to bring that day sooner. -April 21st. My favorite month of the year has almost gone by. There's been two handfulls of things on my mind. Road Trip to Rain Fest 2009 in May. Road Trip to Sound and Fury Festival 2009 July/August. Want to hit up the L.A. River to flick and see this in person! You can see a little black circle on the B. That's actually Saber sitting on this for scaling. This is massive, one of my favorite pictures of this, and I found it on Google Earth. Props to Saber Awr Msk Wanting to listen to Trash Talk or Stop At Nothing, I can't decide at the moment. Burning a disc full of photo's; I wish I had my Scrub flicks so I could put them on the disk for him. Going back to sleep and wondering if Kayla got up. It's been a nice week and I'm down to own in some Ping-Pong!!! -April 20th. I had Court today and I'm going to trial. I finally got to watch a video that made the news and I'm quite upset with the whole situation and wish you the best of luck homie. We love and support you through this all. You've been set up and the law will pay those fat faggot fucks! Once again I'm sitting in class trying to update my blog and kicking it with Beau and Garret. I've also filled up my limit on my Flickr account and need to invest on upgrading to a Pro Account. Someone should be kind and get good Karma by paying for it. I should be trying to get that done and will be getting a new camera very soon. I'm so stoked! I need to start catching photographs like this. This photo is amazing and I will need to start catching shit like this.(mad photo cred to Keegan Gibbs) -April 19th. I woke up to the phone ringing; I was hoping it would stop ringing or it would be a telemarketer. I crawled off the couch to answer to hear Werst on the other side of the phone. I had to get ready quick so him and Scr.01 could come get me so we could get started on the canvas. That was the whole day! We watched Aerosol from AOD/ARS. That video was so old school it was ridiculous. I ended up losing my bouncy ball as well; that sucked! -April 18th. Did a whole lot of nothing. Ended up driving around and got way too tired, way too early. I kicked it with Ty, Beau and Garret all day and watched some play off games with the homies. Bulls beat the Celtics. Cavs beat the Pistons. It was a pretty good day for a Saturday. -April 17th. Went to Werst's party and took flicks for an image that will hopefully be in In Da Life Magazine. Aaron Roth has it down. That party last night was....(photo by Tom Sykes) -April 16th. I'm sitting in class trying to update my blog as fast as possible. It will be under construction with the picture part till I find what fit's the blogs. Good announcements though is Rain Fest 2009 is finally complete. All the bands are set to play and life couldn't get any better. I wish the god damn electrian would finish the basement so I can paint my room and start living down stairs. Currently...I'm tired as shit and I wish it was Friday. F*@!K I also took this off Revok1.com. It's one of the most random things but it made me laugh a bit right after the image below. I re-updated this blog on the 20th of this month. Enjoi again! -April 15th. Cleaned the old house, ate dinner, hung out, went to Dee's and that was it. That was the whole complete day. A Day To Remember played tonight but I didn't go. So not too much went on. I found this photo on Revok1.com and it pretty much made my day as I came back to add this photo. Enjoi! -April 14th. Today was my little brother's birthday. Happy Birthday Lorenzo! THE BIG SWEET 16! Once the night dowelled into it's self and everyone got done at the Parkway Drive show. Mark, Nato, Ivan, Lyndsey, Kimmeh, Nico came and kicked it for most of the night. Lately I've been tired and it doesn't help any by having everyone over till 3 A.M. -April 13th. Pretty much moved the whole day and than Nato and Ivan came and kicked it later in the night. photo by flickrmao -April 12th. We woke up to Easter Sunday! We headed over to Kayla's families house for some dinner. We were having steak, salad and some bomb ass food. We arrived once everyone was done but it was still a good time. We chatted with everyone, laughed, made jokes at Fat Anthony. After Dinner it was time to leave and go back home. The drive was nuts! Nato and I laughed as we weaved in and out of traffic, drove down the center lane to pass 20 cars, and had some good ol' music. 4 Hours finally went by and we were finally home. Home didn't feel like home anymore... something felt off, it wasn't right. We ended up meeting up with Devin and Adam G because they were out on the Vespa and cruising. The rest of the night consisted with everyone hanging out and doing absolutely fucking nothing. It was a weird night. HAPPY EASTER! by Brandy Shaul -April 11th. Have you ever waken up out of no where? Today this happen because I woke up to the breeze of coldness. I looked down to see Kayla had stolen my blanket and had left me to freeze. I got my blanket and Kayla back to keep me warm and was out for a few more hours. Kayla was wide awake by than and was keeping herself entertained by playing with the candles. Shortly after her int rest in the flame was gone it was time to wake me up. She stole my blanket, sat on top of me, tickled me, kissed me, did everything she could so that I could get up to be with her. I wasn't very happy with this because I had an hour of sleep in the car ride home. Shortly after adjusting my eyes to the daylight Kendra came running down the stairs yelling good morning. We got up and started to get ready for the day. It took a good two hours for everyone to start moving and what not. We headed over to pick up Brenda so we could drop her off at work. Once we dropped her off we headed into the mall and hung out for a bit. We ran into Toby, Holly and Toby's women. A few hours went by and we were finally with Nato and Anthony again and I picked up some new headphones! Finally everyone was getting hungry so we headed over to Apple-bee's for dinner. Kayla and I would be Celebrating our 6 Months that was yesterday. Dinner was good and it was one hell of a time. With plenty of jokes, laughs and Nato hitting on the Waitress it was one hell of a dinner. Once the food was digested we headed back to Kendra's to hang out for the night. Los, Toby and Holly ended up meeting us at Kendra's and they brought a ghetto ass potato gun that didn't work. Once the night died out we watched Pineapple express and went to bed. Kayla and I cuddled and chatted, had ' some pb and js and went to bed. It was quite the day at sea. -April 10th. We woke up pretty early and didn't know when check out was. We grabbed our bags and left our mess and headed out of there. We drove down to the mall so we could meet up with Caitlin. We hung out at the mall for a bit and just checked out what was going on. The mall was pretty big and it was a beautiful day. Nato and I went into Vans to check it out and I ended up getting a nice cholo shirt. I'm very happy that I got it because it's something that I've wanted for so long. Afterwards from walking around we gathered in the mall's parking lot to discuss what to do next. Nato was going to Dinner with Caitlin and her parents. Us boys, were left on our on. We drove around for a bit to find something to do. We got stuck in traffic, saw some ghetto ass ride with switches and drove around with them for a bit. Then Anthony ended up getting us lost, Ivan fell asleep, and after an hour of driving around I fell asleep as well. Once I woke up we were back at the Denver 16th Street Mall. We walked over to this other hotel that we were going to stay at and picked up some left over cookies. We walked around for a bit and than headed to Johnny Rockets for some food. We got some mad cheese fries and waited for the call from Steve. We ate our food and chatted with our waitress and we got the call that we could head over to Chris's place. None of us had ever met Chris, but he is one of the coolest mother fucker ever. Once we got up to his Studio Apartment and watched Life After People; which is by far the best series I've watched. We got to talking and I actually ended up growing up in their neighborhood. My brother is friends with his little sister and Chris and I vaguely remember each other from growing up. A few hours went by and we went out to Dinner with Chris and his wife at this place called Earl's. It was a nice and very fancy restaurant. During dinner it came to the conclusion that Kayla and Kendra were going to be driving down to Denver to get me and Ivan. We hung out and ate dinner with Chris and his wife, watched a waitress drop a beer and have it go over and than headed back to Chris's for a Halo Night with the boys. Once we were leaving we met up with Nato and Caitlin and headed to the apartment. On our way their we seen a fight, and a few arrest. We laughed at the incident and carried on. We arrived at Chris's. Steve and his women were already there; along with Chris from Rebel Force. They ate their dinner and we watched Slum-dog Millionaire which a very good movie. I highly recommend it. Once the movie was over the Xbox started working and it was time for Halo. Nato and I fucking murdered everyone, it was way too easy. Finally Kayla and Kendra had made it to Denver. We hung out for a bit and within a hour we were back on the road to Grand Junction for some sleep. -April 9th. I woke up at 9:06 to see if Kayla had taken Brenda too school. Brenda wasn't up or something so I ended up falling back asleep to The History Channel. Kayla ended up waking me back up around 11. The boys had been calling and was getting ready to hit the road. I got dressed and made sure I had everything packed. We stopped at some little cafe to get Brenda food, and Kayla and I went to Wendy's to grab some food. We too this back way to get to Kendra's. It was a nice little back country drive. Nato and them said that they had already left and I was pretty pissed off that they would pull a prank like that. Kayla and I ended up taking Brenda to school while the boys had their laughs. Once Brenda was at school we zoomed down to Kendra's so I could hit the road. We said our goodbyes and I wasn't happy at all. We were finally on the road to Denver. The estimated time was roughly about 4 hours. Through driving through little snow patches, hard rain, seeing little towns and a shit load of fucking ski resorts. We made it to Denver in about 3 hours cause we are that damn good. I called my Mom to let her know I made it ok and to verify that one of my good friends would be getting locked up. Once again....fuck the police. We drove around the city a few times and did some hotel hopping until we found what we wanted at the Crown Palace. We kicked it at the hotel for a bit and than headed down to the show. Once arrived at this place that looked like a bar we instantly knew it was going to be a 21+ show. Sure enough we asked the people and it was. We ended up talking to Lee (Trash Talk) to see if there was anything he could do. He wasn't able to pull any strings, especially even using my cousins drove here from Salt Lake City didn't work. He told us about this other show that was going on at the Blast-o-mat. They would be swinging by to play for the kids who couldn't get in the bar. Skare Tactic! was playing so instantly we were like fuck yeah. Especially when we found out that the Skare Tactic and Hammerfist show got cancelled down in Cedar City due to Venue problems. The show was simply amazing. All of the band were so amazing to the point where I don't even know where to begin. Trash Talk was later than expected to show up. Skare Tactic played a few more songs and afterwards was a big ol dance and sing party. During all of these sing-a-longs to the songs we all know we started getting asked where we were from. We answered with from Salt Lake City, we drove all the way down here. After talking with a few of the locals and meeting Steve (Killing Kings), Alvino (Crooked Ways) and a few other homies from Wage War, Skare Tactic, Trash Talk. It was honestly one of my greatest birthday shows ever. Thanks Trash Talk for the shout out to all of us, and hooking it up fat. Enjoy the Polaroids! -April 8th. I had Court at 10:15 this morning and it was honestly the most ridiculous and unprofessional thing I've ever seen. Fuck the Justice System, and fuck Cops. I have court on the 20th. After running into a good family friend at court we headed home so I could change and grab my stuff for school. I only went to one period because that's all that was left when I got back. Once school was over I made a phone call and it was set that the road trip would now be taking place. We hit the road around 6. It was a pretty nice drive besides hitting every red light and traffic going into Provo. I came to find out that we would be spending the night in Grand Junction. Once we arrived in Grand Junction we stopped at McDonald's to grab a bite to eat and headed to the Wal-Mart to meet up with Kayla and Brenda. We hung out there for a bit and than we parted our ways. Ivan, Nato, and Fat Anthony would be staying the night at Kendra's. I would be going with Brenda and Kayla to spend the night with Kayla. We arrived and I was really tired for some reason. Keevan was there and it was very nice to see him. than him and Brenda got in argument over some dumb shit. Kayla and I spent the rest of the night watching the History Channel. It was a good show on crucifixion and was pretty damn interesting. -April 7th. I woke up and had to say my good-bye to the women I love. It has become a lot easier to say good-bye. It will hopefully be a few days till I see her next. The house wasn't the same without her here. I slept most of the day and later woke up to eat dinner. I got the computer to upload some things and got in the middle of not finishing because I'm working on some little things at school. You will be able to see them soon at www.flickr.com/project337photography. Melanie got on and told me how sorry she was for missing my birthday. At least I made it into her 365 project she is doing =] by mels. I ended up doing some laundry as well tonight and realized that I was missing a bunch of my shirts. I went into furious style mood and ripped everything part to find them. I ended up finding them at the bottom of my basket, and not the top. I'm sure my brother went through my basket to find some clothes to wash. As of now; I am sitting here writing my daily input on my day and listening to Final Fight. I have court tomorrow morning and I will hopefully get off house arrest and I'm praying my case gets dropped. There's no way in hell I can miss this Trash Talk show in Denver. Pray for me tonight.by Mitchell Wojcik -April 5th. We woke around Noonish to my Mom tapping my arm and letting me know that it was a beautiful day to go up to the mountains. Kayla and I sat in bed for another 15 minutes than we got up to get ready. Once we had everything ready to go and packed we loaded in the car and headed out to pick up Ivan. Ivan wasn't answering so we decided to stop by the Gpc Yard so I can could a picture of the new things. I built some ghetto stepping stool and it ended up breaking and I fell on top of the barbed wire fence. Thank God that Kayla was there to rescue me or I would have really messed myself up. Once we had flicked everything in the yard we decided to try to wake up Ivan again. We arrived and finally got a hold of him; well after we had rang the doorbell and called a few times. Ivan had to shower and get ready so Kayla and I played with Annie and watched some Army thing on The History Channel. Once Ivan was ready to go we headed downtown to get some food and start off our day. We got Wendy's on Fourth and than went to the Project Wall to eat and take some pictures. We drove around all the local spots and took some flicks for about an hour and a half. Once our duties were down in the City it was our time to head up the Canyon. It was such a nice day up in Brighton! We had some good ol car ride talks and laughs. The drive was pretty damn good! We hung out in Brighton for a bit and than weaved our way in and out through the Canyon on the way down. We laughed at the poeple on the side of the road making a big deal over a fucking Moutain Goat. Photo by Calanan Once we were out of the Canyon we decided to go see the new Fast and Furious. Ivan called to check for times and got in a fight with the message dude. It started at 5:30 so we had some time to take some last minute photos and drive. Finally our houre and a half was up and we head to end down to the theater to get our tickets and seats. I ran into a good old friend while we were there. Your still a ugly asshole navajo Gilby!! That was pretty nice to see him. If you haven't seen the new Fast and Furious I HIGHLY recommend that you see it if you are a big fan of the Fast and Furious. Simply amazing! The movie let out and we headed towards Ivan to drop him off. Once we dropped him off, Kayla and I came home to rest. I ended up getting really sick from the pop corn or something. I rested and so did Kayla. Later on I started feeling well and we went and got food again. We chatted a little and laughed and than came home. Kayla ended up being my model for a bit and than we spent the rest of the night talking and hanging out. She played with my back for awhile while I blogged the last couple of days and we ended up falling asleep to Good Luck Chuck. It was a pretty eventful day. -April 4th. Kayla and I woke up around 2 o' clock in the afternoon and had a lunch/dinner. It was a pretty relaxing Saturday due to overcast weather. We sat around most of the day and just watched movies. Possibly around 8 we ordered in our favorite dishes from Noodles and Company. Once again they were on their A+ Games and the food was amazing (kudos). Once we watched Evan Almighty my upstairs neighbors kid decided to drop some kind of bowl a billion times and annoy the piss out of me. Kayla and I ended up leaving to drive all around the Utah Valley. We drove down to Salt Lake to get some Wendy's and to eat and drove up to the Capitol to eat. Afterwards we went from the house by the "U" that lights up, to the new temple in Draper and further. On our way back from our little adventure we ended up seeing the guys driving the street and caught up to them. They were coming home from the Show and was taking a friend of ours home. We ended up following them for the drive and chatted once we arrived at our homies house. We took Ivan with us, and Nato took Fat Anthony home. Ivan ended up leaving his phone in Nato's car so we had to meet up with him at Fat Anthony's house. Once we retrieved Ivan's phone we headed to McDonald's to get some late night dinner to chat and laugh at the delirious Ivan. After our little meal and laughs we took Ivan home to call it a night. What a glorious rainy day. I also came that since their will be a photo for everyday this month. There will also be the photographers name with the picture. Check it out by Mugley -April 3rd. I ended up waking up around 3:40ish to a telemarketer that pretty much shouted the product or whatever it was over the phone to only hear my response of the phone hanging up. Shortly after I went to the bathroom, the phone rang again and after waking up to a telemarketer shouting I was furious. But it was only Kayla on the other line confirming that she was on her way down and to see how the weather was. After I got off the phone with Kayla my Mother, Brother and I headed down to the train yard so I could work on an assignment. Once I was done using my camera our stomach's were ready for food and the clock was getting closer and closer to Kayla's arrival. We headed to our family favorite of fine Mexican Food; La Puente'. We sat around eating our roots and laughing at the love of life. Once dinner was settled in our stomachs it was time to head home and wait for Kayla. Kayla arrived around 10 o'clock. I opened the door to see her standing there in her Colorado hoodie holding a birthday present. We exchanged hugs and kisses and it was back on the road. This time it was to take my brother out to Sheila's for a sleep over. Once that was out of the way we spent a few hours driving around. I took her to the place that I will soon be living and just some other local spots. It was a pretty decent first night. -April 2nd. My goal for this month is to have a photograph for every blog entry. This is my favorite month and I will rant about that more on the 6th. Today was a laid back day. Spent the morning listening to Sugar Ray and looking at my window. I got in the shower to get ready for the day and once I got out Nato was at the door knocking. We kicked it for a little bit til Ivan and Big Anthony came over. We sat around and talked and did the usual nothing but spent the times of our lives doing so. BIG ANTHONY SOLD OUT OF VEGANISM!!! CARNS 4 VEGANS 0 It was a pretty decent day. Kia ended up coming over once the boys went to get food. It was also Rochelle's Birthday! HAPPY BIRTHDAY HARDCORE HEAD CASE! Once Kia had left and some phone calls were made we met up at Wingers the first feast of meat for Big Anthony. The food was mediocre but the conversations and the time we had was worth it all. We ended up getting our waiters number for Ivan and laughed our asses off in the process. We made fun of other people and watched the Denver Nuggets give our Utah Jazz a good run for their money. Once our food was done and the bill was paid for we headed down to Brian's to visit and see the baby. I woke up to a blue and grey day with Sugar Ray in the air. Now I sit on the darkest nights listening to Sinking Ships. It's nights like these I will sit up to watch the rain fall down my window. -April 1st. Happy April Fools! I woke up around 9 something to get ready and to wait for my Mom so we could go meet my Lawyer. Things went well and the dude is a fucking bad ass! Afterwards we headed home for some Lunch. Pizza Roles and talks with my Mother possibly the best thing about being forced to stay home. A few hours went by and my Brother was up and running about things. Around 3ish we headed out to pick up my Mom and to take him out to Jesse's and Brett's. Once we dropped the little brat off it was time for us to head to the Library. I found a good grip of Cd's I've been looking for quite some time now. While I was searching I found a WhiteChapel Cd, ADTR Cd, and a Clifton Cd for the locals who know them. It made me laugh to see this in a Public Library. It was a good day...I even got to play a prank on Kayla. Plus there is only 5 days until my 18th Birthday. It's weird to think that...where has the time gone. I've made memories I will always remember and have a life most people spend their whole lives wishing for. So I can say I'm pretty damn comfortable with who I am. Oh and I could do 5 to 15 years in Prison; what have you done? hahahah

March is Spring Fever

-March 31st. It is finally time to announce another month is down in my books. This is going by so fast and I wouldn't trade anything from the life experiences I've had. This is my life and I'm not changing it. Thank you for reading -March 30th. Laundry Day -March 29th. I woke up pretty late to a call from Kadee. We chatted for a few minutes and I got out of bed and started watching The Office with my mom. We laughed and chatted for a bit and than she went and got my brother. While she left I jumped in the shower and cleaned the house. It made some time go by pretty quick so that was nice. After the house was cleaned and me as well. I sat down to keep watching The Office and have some Pb and J's. This was pretty much the whole day with talking to Kayla every other hour. -March 28th. Saturday and finally a chance for me to get out of the house all day. My whole family and Sheila's family was going to I think all our firsts' Roller Derby Match. It was quite the day! We got to watch girls throw and push other girls around. Our team ended up losing but it was still a good experience. After the Match my Mom, Sheila and I went to Chili's to get some dinner. It was some bomb ass dinner besides the faggot blue guys coming in and having dinner. At the end of dinner I went to the bathroom and I guess our waitress told my Mom and Sheila that her boyfriend beat the fuck out of her, went to jail and got released. Than went to the hotel that her and her kids were staying at and shot out the windows. Than she stated that she was scared because she got pulled into the office by her manager because he called and was flipping out. She was scared he was going to shoot up the place so we bounced out their really quick. Oh what a night -March 27th. Justin came over to visit because he hasn't bee out of West Jordan and no one has really visited me. We had some good talks while listening to some good ol' hardcore. We were to get some food and Ryan pulled in and I was like what the fuck? It was good to see Ryan, I haven't seen him in quite some time. We headed down to Noodles in Justin's rental car. We arrived there and once again Adam was working and I joked with him about this picture I found of him on Flickr. We got some food, sat down, chatted about what's been going on and hung out. On our way out Ryan noticed that he walked out with their cup and said fuck it. We went back to my place to hang out. I really wanted to go benching and some how The Wall of Fame got brought up. I said I knew where it was and we all have never been there so we were pumped. We drove up there and had some difficulty finding it but than we finally found it. It was the highlight of the day. It's been awhile since I've taken pictures and I finally got to start on my Panorama for School. I played in the River for quite some time. Ryan and I had a blast jumping from rock to rock and finding a bunch of random shit. That was pretty much the day. -March 26th. I got a Journal yesterday and left it with Kaysha by accident. I gave her the green journal. I received mine back today and I'm pretty pumped to start writing in that little guy when I travel. It is also officialy Spring Break now! SCORE; I get to sit inside the whole time with barely anyone who comes and visits. In 8 days though I get to see Kayla and than it's my birthday. So I'm getting ready for that. -March 25th. Went to the Springville Art Museum today with my school. That was pretty fun and it was a nice place with a bunch of great work. There was some stuff that me and my friends could have easily out done in there but it was nice to see the things we did. During lunch we stopped down in Provo and I ran down to Death or Glory to kick with the boys down there and made Breck take me to Wendy's. We had some good talks and I found out some stuff that has been happening in the South. Afterwards he took me to the bus and we headed home. It was a good day at school. -March 24th. It was just another Tuesday. House Arrest blows...I kinda wish I had a ankle bracelet so I can re-inact Disturbia. My neighbors aren't even interesting to try to find things out. Except for the people who live across from me. They leave their door open some times and their computer is right next to the couch. -March 23rd. It was the beginning of the week and I really wish Kayla would have got to stay another day because she didn't go to work. School was really the highlight because I found this litte thing on Flickr today during Commercial Art. -March 22nd. Dinner Date with Kayla was today. We woke up pretty early once again. We got ready and sat aruond the house, chatted with my Mom, cuddled, made jokes, ate popscicles and watched The Office. A little later Kayla and I was getting hungry and we decided to have Noodles and Company for a second night. We ordered in and Kayla went and got it. I told Adam to hook it up with some drinks so we got that for free. She came home and we had dinner together. We watched The Office and made silly jokes. I've never had something that means so much. I mean come on..we are adorable. -March 21st. After Kayla spent 4 hours in the car just to come see me and I talked to her mother most of the night we fell asleep and woke up pretty damn early. It was about 10 o'clock am and that isn't like us. We got ready, ate cereal and ventured around the house. Nato ended up showing up when we were getting ready and brought me food and kicked it with us for a bit. Kayla got upset with her friends and Nato and I cracked jokes and laughed. Around 2:40ish we all left. Nato left with Fat Anthony and we headed down town to get my hair cut. That was the highlight of the day. I've needed one so bad and I finally got it cut all off. Afterwards we all ordered in food for dinner. My Mom ordered Mexican Food and we ended up ordering at one location and than went to another. Kayla and I ordered in Noodles and Company because that's our thing. We stopped at 711 afterwards to get some drinks and headed home to watch The Office and eat. After dinner Kayla and I cuddled and made jokes. She ended up falling alseep on the couch while we were watching The Office and I went and got ready for bed. Kayla got up to join me and we sat in bed and talked. Nato called around like 2 and came over to spend the night. It was a good day at sea -March 20th. It was a beautiful day today and I have to sit inside all day. Fuck House Detention. Kimmeh came and visited me which was really nice. Since none of my other so called friends have. It's been relaxing I assume. I've done some reading, writing and have listend to a good portion of music. Later Kayla got on and informed that she was going to come down tonight because she couldn't take it anymore. It made the rest of my day -March 19th. HARRY SOLD OUT OF VEGETARIAN!!! Probably one of the greatest days of my life. Carnivores 1. Veg heads 0 -March 18th. After my allergies kicked in I came home and slept the rest of the day. I've been really tired lately -March 17th. Trying to get back into a routine with court shit on my mind. Honestly wish I would have stayed in Seattle and took some consequences. Least I would have my youth. -March 16th. Got home around 8ish from the Road and had court at 10. HOLY FUCK is it stupid as fuck. I don't even know where to begin with the shit they are trying to get after me. It doesn't even make sense...but as long as you have a badge, and a crooked system you can charge anyone with anything. FUCK YOU FUCKING FUCK! -March 15th. Woke up to our last day in Seattle. It was a day filled with rain. I didn't want to go back to Utah. Nato and I played a prank on our friends stating that we weren't coming home and that we were staying. So that was pretty fun. We drove around the city last time and got in our last photos. We stopped at the Harbor and looked over to Canada and than it was off to the baseball park. This trip had made my life. Fell asleep a few times on the way back, stopped in Portland and than came home. Fat Anthony got pulled over again and got a ticket this time. It was one hell of a road trip. -March 14th. This is all I have to say. This is the beginning and the ending of the day. FUCKING WOW! Fuck who you want to see. I stage dived and piled on with Terror. We are not tough, we are not hard, we are not cool, we are all fucked up kids. Doesn't matter if you have long hair, or short hair. Whether your light skin or dark skin. Or have a dick or a pussy...we are all fucked up kids who have gathered in one single place for one thing. Music. It was a good rainy day in a place I want to call home so badly. I've met some people and ran into a friend who left us all. It was nice meeting you Jaimie and Aubrey. It was also nice meeting all the locals. -March 13th. Around 10:30ish we were talking about what to do since Dan's parents have cracked down and got all strict. The boys started talking about a road trip. Everyone threw in their suggestions. First it was going to be Boise, than it went to Wyoming for fireworks, than Denver and finally Seattle was the last destination. Everyone was getting hypy; except for Ivan because he knew he couldn't go and had to sit home with gays. I told Nato and Anthony just to wait a day and I could go...we said fuck and we were going to talk my Mother into it tonight. We headed over to my house and got into my house. My Mom was walking around and we told her that we were going to Seattle. It took a minute for my Mom to realize what was going on and had to ask us multiple times if we were really going. We said hell yeah we weren't playing and all she said was "you have school". I told her that it was an un important day after Nato was answering all of the questions she asked me. I made a few calls and tried to get a hold of Melanie. But since she changes her number every other week I couldn't get a hold of her and had to leave her a voice mail. We packed our shit and grabbed our bags. After we got everyone that was going and was set on going. Nato called or received a call from Brian and we went and seen the new born baby. It's so weird to think that I'm so close to someone and they have a kid which is now going to be apart of mine and my friends lives. The baby is beautiful and has both features of Brian and Courtney. CONGRADULATIONS KIDS!!! We left the hospital to meet up with Anthony at his house. We threw his shit in the car and we headed down to Provo to pick up his friend Alicia. By the time we picked her up it was 1 o'clock and hit the road. The drive to Boise consisted of us guys singing N'sync and Backstreet Boys. We bumped a bunch of old tunes such as The Crannberries, Mortal Kombat(FULL FUCKING SONG), Space Jamz and than the typical road trip music: Trash Talk, Bracewar, (n1nth) cloud, and Y@K Ballz!. Somewhere after we got this boost of energy I was out like a light. Possibly an hour later I woke up to Anthony nudging me asking me if I could get in the glove compartment. I woke up and looked over to see red and blue lights flashing behind us. We laughed for a minute and I got to searching. The cop ended up coming on my side and it was really awkward. This took place around 5 am. Once again I was out for the rest of the trip. I would wake up to adjust and get situated, pick a song, and drink my orange shit. I was up for the rest of the trip a little while before we reached Portland. We drove around Portland for an hour trying to find the Mall. My good friend Melanie called us up when we were at the 711 and told us she was going to meet us at the mall. We got to the mall and it was ridicolous. It was a three story mall with a fucking ice rink in it. We complained about why our mall doesn't have one and than argued with a Phone Sales Man. We ended up walking around the mall and found this little Pirate Shop. It was very sweet little shop. Not to long after we kicked it in their Melanie and Jordan walked in. It was so nice to finally see this girl who has had such a big impact in my life. After four years we finally sealed something to do on our to do list. It was very nice to meet Jordan as well. He makes one of my best friends happy and has showed her what a real boyfriend can be like. Plus that mother fucker is taller than I thought. We chatted for a bit and laughed at dumb little things. We asked Melanie if she knew any vegan places for Anthony to eat at and made fun of him like we usually do for eating turtle food. After we got a few places for him to eat at. Jordan said we had to cross the bridge into the city. One of my favorite things about Portland so far had to be the bridges and the whole city. We arrived in the city and parked in China Town. We started our adventure from their to find this Veganoplis place. We stopped at a Starbucks to ask for directions and found out that the little vegans went out of business. We laughed our asses off and the guy gave us another place to eat. It was called Rocco's...it was a little pizza shop that had Vegan Pizza. This place was fucking bomb! It was pretty sweet though...The slices were bigger than our faces and they sold beer at this place. You don't get that shit in Utah. Pizza was amazing and was so close to the road it was like eating in the middle of traffic. Anthony didn't want to eat his Vegan pizza because it had mushrooms and some shit he didn't like. So Nato and I eat that shit! After we got food we went back down to Chinatown so Anthony could eat. That place was really creepy with some crazy asian lady on the tv. Once Anthony was done eating it was time to get on the road. We had three hours ahead of us due to traffic. I love the road more than anything. This road trip has to be one of my favorite trips. Just everything about the road is incredible. The nature, the bridges, the overpasses, the train tracks, the road and the images. I fell alseep on and off during the last three hours of the trip. We finally arrived to Seattle around 8 o'clock. We have drove around the city, ate food, got lost, checked out the Stratisphere and got a dope ass deal on a Hotel. We got a room with a King Size Bed. A hottub in the room and a extra bed. It's legit and probably the greatest thing to me right now. -March 12th. Today was a pretty good day. I got Married to Hannah in Adult Roles and for some reason found myself shaken. My mom checked me out right before lunch to deal with some things and I ended up going to lunch with my Mother and driving around talking. Once we did what we had to I went back to school to tell Shelly that I was done for the day and to talk to my brother. Afterwards I bumped into Hillary and spent half an hour talking to her. After school I had to take my brother downtown to get a hair cut. We ended up chatting and than coming home afterwards. I hung out by myself for a bit till my mom got home. Than we went to Jamba Juice, confirmed some paypal stuff and I ordered some clothes. Today was the first time I've had Jamba in almost a year. The last time I had Jamba was with Taryn around the ending of the school year. I ended up falling asleep and didn't finish my Jamba Juice. I'm pretty upset about it....than Nato came over and we ended up taking a mini-roadtrip through the canyon with Ivan and Jon Jon. It was a pretty laid back day. -March 11th. I spent the day with a friend who has become a good part of my life. He will be missed...I will write more later. -March 10th. Some of my friend Sara's writing. I really enjoy reading here writing. In a way it's been a big inspiration. -It's in the Wind I expect too much. from you, from me, from the world. I expect too much, but too much by their standards not mine. what I expect, what I need, what I know can and will happen, is not too much, but just enough. we are so much more. so much more than everyone says that we are and can be. what they tell me is beauty and joy isn’t enough for me. I must and will have more. and I will because the little gap in my heart that causes me so much pain, the skip in the record that needs to be filled, gives me room to find the extraordinary. and I will. my heart will feel more than you ever thought a heart can feel and my mind will see things that no one even knew existed: the little gossamer threads that tie life together, and which, if you don’t look carefully enough, you will miss as you see things moving in space and not the ties that bind them. just watch me. -March 9th. About an hour into the day I'm glad to call it a day. It was planned to be a "headache day" and sure enough that's what it has been. The headache has came, thoughts have rushed, Shook Ones has played my Ipod out. It's times and nights like these were I don't feel much. My Ipod repeats my favorite songs and bands like a broken record. My hair gets dirty and I procastinate on taking off my socks. I get hot and cold flashes that torture me into ripping off and throwing on my Champion Hoodie. Is this the Change I've been looking for? Or is this what I've been destined to do? Is this your so former God's punishment for me not being able to look up and call him Father? I'm only a brother; and no Son. I've forgot what's it's been like to be a Son cause my Father was never there. I've become a Brother among families and families. I'm still moving things for my chance....moving things to put in the perfect place to make me. I've made a name for myself and I've started to do something with my life. I will be remembered in someones eyes....I just hope they remember me enough to visit my tombstone and celebrate my death. That's a thought that has scared me into not sleeping. Will people say they miss me enough to visit my death bed? Or use me as a way to get out of work and school? Answers and thoughts that keep me up throught the night I call sanctuary. You know the quote from Stand By Me and how you never have the friends you do when your twelve? I thought about it today for some odd reason more than others. The other night I had a dream, I guess even a nightmare. I was in my old neighborhood and they were tearing my friends old house down. And for some reason we went in it...I don't know for memories or just to break things but I was walking up the stairs with someone..someone who is a blurr to me. We were walking up the stairs to the second floor. Which would lead to Justin and Brennan's bedroom. There was family pictures of this family that was almost my family. For some reason I broke down...I cried my eyes clean. Since that dream I've thought about the Helstein family and how much I miss them. That family was supposed to be there forever. I was supposed to Jr. High with my bestfriend. Go to school dances, experience growing up forever. They moved away and I haven't heard from them in years. I don't know if this has to do with being a Senior and almost graduating. But it's starting to hit me. The closest people I've had in my life have seemed to go on to bigger and better things. It gets to me...what do I have to look foward too? It scares me sometimes -March 8th. A Sunday with an overcast that showed my life in the heavens above. It showed blue skys with shades of grey. The only thing I've been looking foward to. Y@K BALLZ! with the boys. A last minute show and one artist I thought I would have never seen. It was a good day down at the shop. Nato and I got in dirt cheap because we are homies and went down to Carl Jr's to get some food. I've always felt dirty when I eat there...I don't know why but I feel homeless or scummy. The show was amazing, KOSHA DILLZ was sick. Check out that lil jewish homie. Nice guy great music. From Definition opening up, to open mic and watching friends and strangers freestyle to Kosha Dillz was amazing but during Y@K's set I started getting that feeling...the same feeling of when you don't get a call from a loved one, the same feeling of being away from home as if you are a runaway, the same way you feel when you look back at the friends you once had or even the promises your parents coulnd't keep. Music is my life...and I got put in this mood for one song. I seen the disapointment in my friends eyes when the set was over and he still hadn't played that one song. Once he thanked everyone and brought up that the song that wasn't played and why it hadn't been played. He told the story of why he was now going to play it. The excitement and sparkle in my friends eyes and including of mine made all of those past feelings of insecurity and of confusement away. Y@K played "Spy On You" and that was the night. Plain and simple. From beginning to the end. You have to know my friends, the memories that song has and brings. The meaning...the night -March 7th. Woke up and started playing some Halo. Jumped in the shower and got ready. Nato got home right when I got done getting ready and started back up my Halo Game. We went and got food and than went to a party for his friends. I ended up knowing some people from the party and they were people I haven't seen since they graduated or moved. It was a pretty ok night... it's always nice to get away from things and surround yourself with people who don't know you outside of those walls. It was like the party scene from SLC Punk. I was Herion Bob and didn't say much. It was in reality a weird night. Afterwards we met up with everyone at CC and tried to decide what to do for the night. We sat around and chatted. Nato, Alyssa?, and I went back to Brians to call it a night. I watched Stand By Me as they fell asleep. After the movie I played some Halo and than fell asleep with my two blankets feeling completely alone. -March 6th. It was a blurr really... -March 5th. Fashion show, with Keylow and Werst. -March 4th. I headed down to BFE with Werst to photograph this thing he was painting for a Fashion Show. The day started off pretty good and than it got really cold. We met one of the biggest dogs ever. A stray dog that looks like you would find it running on the Train Tracks, and probably some of the nicest people/hippies ever. Once it started getting cold we built one of the ghettoest huts ever. We decided if we were homeless we would do it easily. It was ghetto but was legit as fuck and kept us warm as the Sun came down and the storm pushed it's way in. We finished around 6ish and had to wait a few hours for a ride. We doodled in some magazine and I ended up passing out. Around 8ish we left and finally got to come home. We got free passes to the Fashion show tomorrow though and had a lot of pizza. I was out like a light bulb as soon as I got home. I got some sleep that I've really needed but still need more. -March 3rd. I couldn't get much sleep today. I went to bed an hour before I had to be up for school. -March 2nd. I've looked back on prior events in the last months that I started this 365 blogging project. I I'm so glad everything that has happened so far has happened. These last couple of months things have been good for me. I love every life I lead and every culture I have. There are more days I cherish than others. You probably wouldn't know it because they barely happen. I'm sure only a handful of people know when I love my life and the people who surround me. From the thought of what my Aunt Tami told my Mom. I'm glad people can look at my life or read about it and envy what I have. It seems very simple and care free but at the end of the days I still have the same problems and thoughts a fully complexed person has to deal with. These last couple of Months I've kinda been getting sick. Sick with this routine. It's a constant routine of school, breaks, hang out, friends, girlfriend, emotions, and stress. I love my road trips; they are probably only thing that has kept me sane except for the days I spend with the old hang out kids from Uprok. Everyone has been so hyped up on "Change" and how we need it. Where is my Change at? I'm still waiting for something new and don't know how much longer I will be able to wait. Patientance is something I've mastered growing up...but it's starting to run out as the days and the same routine drags on. I need something....I need another breath of fresh air. In a way I'm honestly lost with myself. I don't know what I want...it could be the Change and not about Obama. To sum up how things are though other than my wishing for "Change". It's perfect and going really good. I'm still connected to my Mom, Lorenzo and the rest of my Family. My friends have been getting to me and I'm still trying to find my niche. My art and culture are going very well and I will be entering a Weber State Univeristy Art thing coming soon. School is also almost done and I'm slowly crossing days off the calendar. My hair needs a haircute and I will possibly help out Christina with a modeling thing in about two weeks. I will also be helping her add a few more things to her shop. If you are a local and need a haircut check out Kaos Saloon. We are bringing the Salt Lake City life back into our lives. Denver Roadtrip needs to come faster than two weeks as well. RAIN FEST! I only have a few months left and that year wait for Europe really needs to speed it's process up. I've become close to new people and I hope they become more apart of my life. And my Ipod seriously won't die! Now that you've read that all and might be a little lost. This is Ricco. This is who I am. This is my Spring Cleaning. Nothing has felt better than this! I've become a lover of our Utah Valley Polution. It always seems to come in at times like this in my life. It's like the dirt in my life. Soon it will be gone and will be back to blue skys. I will always have my blue skys to look up too! -March 1st. This month started off on a Sunday; and what a glorious Sunday might I add. It was an nice grey and overcast sky. I spent the day with Kayla. We laid around the whole bed holding eachother for seconds upon minutes wishing we wouldn't have to let go of eachother. Around 6ish we decided to start moving around and make some food. I picked up around the house and grabbed our blankets, Kayla made us some pb and j's and I got the milk and chips. We went to our tradition of wrapping up in our blankets, eating food, and watching a movie. After our little snack Kayla and I cuddled and watched Baby's Mama Kayla ended up leaving around 7 or 8ish. After she left I came back in my house to finish Baby's Mama and called Hannah. We chatted about our project and after 30 or 45 minutes of talking about the assignment she ended up coming over. We chatted for a bit and finished Baby's Mama. My mother ended up coming home a little later and we all laughed and talked. Hannah left an hour after and I went and got dinner. Ended up coming home and finished the first day of my Spring Fever. I'm way past due for Spring!