-January 31st. My alarm clock woke me up around 10:46ish. I pushed snooze and ignored it. I would wake up everyone so often to check the time. Before I knew it; it was almost 2 or three. I found myself helplessy falling asleep. Later on I woke up once again. But this time to my fan being shut off. I turned over and it was fucking Nato. He had wondered over to hang out and go to the show. I got out of bed through some clothes on and started getting ready. Nato and I chatted a bit and then got fucked up on Life. We had a few bowls of Life Cereal (cinnamon style). Afterwards I finished getting ready. It got to the point where Nato called everyone who was supposed to ride up with us and NO ONE answered. Nato was pretty furious and was like fuck dude, do you just want to head up there right now? I said I'm down. I grabbed my hoodie and my camera and we left. We chatted for most the ride and played some The Mood and bumped some funky beats. Once we got to about 106th Ivan called Nato to see where we were at. Nato told them that we were on our way down there already. We almost had to turn around to go get him but he found a ride down. Nato and I pulled over to the Chevron to fill up the tank and grab some drinks. Once we had our Pepsi Cola, oil in the car, and gas we were back heading south. We still talked, laughed and listened to music till we got to Provo.
We arrived in Provo City and headed over to Death or Glory to see what was happening. It was 80's day at the shop. Ronnie and Ernest were Blades of Glory, Mike was of course "Coach". We were at the shop for quite a bit which conisted of hanging out, laughing, talking and watching some pretty funny videos. Provo's B-Money is so much better than Salt Lake B-Money; sorry homie. After Mike free styled some Straight Edge Acoustic shit Nato and I headed over to this girls house he knew. No one knew how to drive in the city. Nato was telling all the BYU fans that we were better cause we are 14 and 0. I had to correct him and let him know that we are 13 and 0. We laughed for a moment and than I got a call from a really close friend with some really bad news. I'm so sorry this has to happen to you. I can't explain my sorrow and wow. To have a bestfriend already be in a coma, and than a family member who is so close to you take a fall, have brain damage, and not make it. I honestly don't think you could understand what my friend is going through. I give you my wishes and the best of luck for the situation. Only time can tell what happens.
After the call Nato and I talked and than we were finally at her house. Walking up her drive way was death. I honestly don't see the point of a drive way so long and why it has to be on a slant. We hung out for a bit there because Nato and her had to talk some things out. I hung out listening to music and eating peanuts. Nato was finally ready to head down to the show so we did.
We headed over to Pier 49 Pizza and arrived shortly. The place had to be lame and call themselves a "business" so the only way you were getting in that place is if you were in a band. Other than that you had to buy something to get in. We arrived around 7 something and EVERYONE had to wait outside till about 9. Most of everyone went to the Food and Drug Store to hang out and warm out. Cory and I hung out in his tonka truck and blasted the heater. We talked shit on everyone outside freezing their balls off and listend to Lionheart. We got out of the car and started talking to everyone and just hanging out. This went on for a good amount of time. Saying what up to people you haven't seen in awhile, making sure everything was good in their lives and you know how all that goes. Ivan and I decided to head over head over the Store to get some foods and drinks. Dizzle and Glasses came with us. We arrived there and it was like the "Cool Spot" to be. EVERYONE in their god forsaken minds was in there. We got what we needed and bounced over to the Bk Lounge because we wanted some good food that was cheaper. We arrived and there was a bunch of scenesters up in their and fucking C-Los and Toby. We had some big hugs and way too many laughs. Ivan got come cheeseburgers for us and I stole Toby's Fries and his Straight Edge Drank. Some time passed and we were having a good time in the Bk Lounge and finally decided to head back to Pier 49. We got back and had to wait in line for quite a bit.
After yelling at chick watching the door and calling her a bunch of dirty names. Yes I know it was inapproiate and offensive but we were having a good time.
The doors finally opened. Money was thrown down, hands were stamped, people were moving. It was such a good turn out; I'm going to have to say probably one of our greatest turn outs. We packed that place fool. We had two stories full of people. Feign opened the place going and got shit moving. It was the first for our homie Anthonee and it was a good ol time. After Feign Fear Me Dear, Decima and Bring on the Night played. During Bring on the Night a fight broke out and it was fucking Nato this time. I guess some chick got pushed and her mexican friend or boyfriend thought he could get tuff and push Nato. Nato was furious and went ape shit. I was in the front, right behind BOTN and stood up on the chair to watch half my friends pull Nato back from tearing this kid apart. The set was done and we all went outside to get the scoop. While we were outside I guess some shit went down inside and we came back in and that same bitch was talking shit to Anthonee this time. Dan P wasn't having that shit so punched a bitch for not being on her lease and a few other kids cracked her in the mouth and it was pushed outside. Security thought they were cool cause they had hammers and could shut the show down. We all shared a good laugh and some are you ok's and headed back in side.
A little later Joe came inside and was like dude I just stole these Rock Stars from the store and told them to fuck off. Not even 15, 20 minutes later the BLUE GUYS showed up. They pulled Joe outside and were talking to him. Adam G, Jake, Dizzle and a few others watched from the window. They turned Joe around and started putting the cuffs on. I grabbed Adam and told him we need to find Matt or Toby and let them know. We took off and found them. Let them know what was up. I headed outside to put a hold on the arrest and the security guards were fucking dick heads. FUCK THEM TOO! Finally I got to an Officer and told them hey you need to wait so we can let who he came with what was going on. They put Joe in the car and we ended up talking to the police. To see the fear in someones eyes of being arrested is the worst fucking feeling. Especially when you have been put in that position of being placed in cuffs. The cop drove off and headed to the grocery store and Toby and I started laughing. Not too much later Joe came flying in the venue saying FUCK THE POLICE! THEY CAN'T HOLD ME DOWN! haha it was a good time. This mu'fucka didn't get shit. He got off clean. It was good to know that a close friend wasn't going to be spending the next week in Utah County Jail.
Made for War was up next and the ones who have supported these fucking Grand Junction homies we call our brothers and family (YES INCLUDING YOU MATT). The set started off and Matt's michrophone was being lame and we couldn't hear him. Adam G and I tried telling the sound dude and he was a fucking douche bag. FUCK THAT GUY! We got someone to get the mike working and it Game on. I'm pretty sure these boys had a good time and probably one of their best shows. Pile On's! Dancing, Two Steps. It was a good first local show. I can't even describe the energy of everyone. Sorry Matt for sitting on top of your shoulders for the Pile on! The cops came back and tried to shut the show down. We put it on hold for a second and all of a sudden C-los screams. FUCK THIS! PICK UP YOUR FUCKING FEET! And that started shit off. By this point we didn't care if the show got shut down. Because if it was going to get shut down we were going to have fun and not give a fuck. That's exactly what we did. One of my best times with these boys and my family was on this nihgt. The show was so amazing and WOW that's all I can. So amazing and holy shit. Anyone who missed this show you should greatly be pissed off at yourself and greatly jealous.
I'm defiantly feeling the after fects of this show take a toll on my body. It was worth it though. Chelsea Grin played last and that's all to say. Not to exciting. It was just Chelsea Smile.
I will be able to get some sleep. It's not the sleep I want but I will tell you about that tomorrow. Goodnight and I will see you in Feb.
-January 30th.
-January 29th.
-January 28th.It was early day at school today. So after I was out of class I ran home to make some food and watch some of the Bench Warmers. Around 2:25 I got back in my car to get back to school to start remediation. Today went by pretty fast and then once I was almost done I started getting really tired. Then it was finally six and it was my time to leave. My mom came and picked me up and we went home. I ended up falling asleep till around 10 and here I am writing about my days and talking to girl that gets me through the day.
These last two weeks could have not been any better. I usually come home to find myself hanging out around my house and than I log in to find my msn icon pull up with a notification from Kayla. I couldn't have been any happier with doing the littelest things in my day. I'm so thankful for what I have in my life. My life is perfectly content. I'm in love; but not just with a girl. With my surrounds and my way of living. I'm glad to be the person I am this day in my age. I really can't wait for warm weather though! That's what's up!!!!!
-January 27th. Started remediation after school today. Once I got home I just hung out around the house until Justin came over. We didn't do much; I raided his laptop cause I needed new cd's and then we went to FYE to check something out but Justin forgot everything closes at 9. He dropped me off and I came home to lie down and ending up falling asleep till like 12. I was very upset that I didn't get to talk to Kayla and when I logged in I had a few little things saying "I love you" and goodnight. It was a very laid back day.
-January 26th. Went and took some flicks today and watched the motion of trains pass me by. Ended up being wrapped up in words and words talking to Kayla. Very short day but very eventful.
-January 25th. The phone woke me up today. After jumping out of bed I realized that my neck was fucking killing me. It was the worst pain ever. It was to the point where I crawled back in bed and sat there for hours. Not moving, not messing with my muscles. Then Devin called and was like hey I got a new camera and wanna go take flicks. So he came over with Adam G and some beezy. We ended up driving around in the snow for hours. Took some flicks and headed up to the Top of the World. I've never seen the City be caught up in a storm. You could hardly see the place I call home. It was a good Sunday. I came home pretty early and ended up chatting with Melanie. She called while she went for a walk. We chatted and then I got off the phone. Since then I have been talking to Kayla ever since. aldhadkfhakdf I can't even explain!!
-January 24th. I woke up to a dark cloudy day. I opened my windows and listened to the rain fall outside of my window. It was a perfect way to start out the day. I didn't do much. I hung out with my for part of the day and watched Sandlot about 6 times. Later in the evening Devin came and got me and we headed to do the usual. Hung out for a bit and bounced way early. I came home and talked with Kayla for the rest of the night. 3 am to about 7:33ish. I'm glad we got to talk about the things we did and so glad that she feels better. I love falling asleep to her voice.
-January 23rd. Had possibly two hours of sleep at most. Could hardly stay awake in most of my classes. Came home and fell asleep for most the of the day. I woke up to the phone ringing. Devin wanted to see if I was coming out and didn't think I was. Around 9:12 Kayla called. Talked for maybe half an hour and then she had more important things to do. Called up the homies and bounced. It was a good ol time seeing everyone at the end of the week. Devin and Ivan came and got me and we went to get some food. We hit up the gas station afterwards so Ivan could get some frozen slurpee and the lady behind the counter gave it to him for free. hah Devin and I was laughing at this redneck and this little mutant. hahaha ofuk but Booga and Shuga is the highlight of the night. The fog has been the most amazing thing ever. The last time I remember it being so bad is when I was little. Cruz, Lorenzo and I all went and started building our fort in the woods. I miss the good ol days of the neighborhoods. Today was just ok...nothing to special
-January 22nd. Almost the end of the week. We had Senior Talent Show this morning so that ment I got to sleep in for a bit. My sleep schedule has been completely
ruined, so I needed this more than anything. I came home to find my self jumping in my bed and calling it a day. Woke up and talked to Kayla for the rest of the night. I know exactly why I don't get much sleep. Tonight was an amazing night. I'm glad to share more firsts with eachother.
-January 21st. Came home and pretty much hung out around the house. I ended up cleaning my room and listening to music. My mom came home around 4 and we talked for a bit. I went and checked the mail to see if my merch has arrived yet. It still hasn't and I'm getting pretty fucking pissed. A few hours later we were all getting pretty hungry. So my mom ordered some pizza because she is obesessed with it and I went and got Wendy's. When I pulled into my parking spot Nato, Ivan and Anthonee were pulling up the same time I did. We all ate dinner and have been hanging out since. Ivan doesn't know how to stay out of trouble, Nato and Anthonee almost caused a riot at Wal-Mart and I passed the fuck out. The rest of the night consisted of us talking about how lame Wal-Mart is and watched Superbad. I'm talking to Kayla once again and I can tell it's going to be a late night. I get to sleep in tomorrow. Senior Talent Show tomorrow!
-January 20th. Today was Obama's inauguration. I didn't think it was that big of a deal till I watched it. It was my first experience of ever watching one of these. People from all 50 States traveled from their homes to Celebrate this day in History. There was a old couple from Los Angeles who arrived the night before to stand in 30 degree weather for hours upon hours. They were missing the 80 degree weather back home. Watching Barracks face as he walked Penn. Ave and the joy that was brought to his face and all the excitement and happiness of the crowd made me feel good to be an American. I know that sounds lame and all but I would have never thought I would have seen the first African American President in my life time. I mean this was a big election. A women and black man ran. It makes me feel good to be where I am.
After school I came home to find myself waiting for Kayla. She has been the only thing on my mind all day. I ended up taking a nap around 5 waiting for a phone call to wake me up from my sleep. I woke up around 10 to find my love online with the best news ever. Since then I've been caught up with her. Only finding myself to focus in on her smile, her laugh, her voice, her love and heart. I love this women. I love you Kayla.
What a day for everyone! I hope everyone had a good day. See ya tomorrow suckas!
-January 19th. Ran some errands with my mom and went got the car from the repair shop. I came home and hung out by myself for a bit, made a few calls to some friends and then Justin came over. We ended up walking from down town to 21st on a adventure. After we reached our destination I didn't feel like walking home so I said fuck that and I heard a freight coming. We were about 50 feet away from the crossing and sure enough my beauty came rolling passed. We hauled our asses to the train and jumped on it. We rode it for a bit till we had to get off because we thought he seen us. It was Justin's first train riding experience.
-January 18th. Family Meeting. Rode Trains with Ivan, Adam G, and Devin. We had to run away from the train because the dude was on his way to come chase us.
-January 17th. There has to be a way I just know it. It can't be the end for such a glorious thing just yet. Not now; this can't be happening. We gotta save them. There has to be a way to
-January 16th. Woke up to Billy and Nikki just chilling and talking. They told me that I had a phone call from my mother and instantly I knew I had to wake up and get shit ready. It was time to Celebrate our Utah Utes 13 and 0 Record. There was a parade going on downtown. I arrived right in time for it and the traffic was ridiculous. It was to the point where traffic was shutting off their vehicles and sitting on top of them. It was a great turn out of people. With people on top of buildings and streets poles. I ran into Shae and Stephen and chatted with them for a bit. Then bumped into Nick and few other homies from school. Afterwards I found my mom and we came home so I could shower and get ready for the day. Came home and showered and talked with Shoni, Lorenzo and my Mother. When I was getting dressed my mother walked in and said that there three girls were here for me. I asked who and she just walked off to let them in while I was getting dressed. Come to find out it was McEllie, Ashlyn and Lilly. We sat around and talked while I got ready and I was going with them for a bit. We ended up driving for hours. We drove to the 64 impala', McEllie wants that car and it's my dream car. After that we started driving around and SEX some how started. Lilly caught a car with a broken headlight and started up the game. We had to explain the rules to McEllie cause she didn't know how to play. Once they were explained the game was in full effect. Lilly and I made a pack that we weren't going to lose this game. We were right. An hour went by and we had Ashyln undressed and McEllie driving around butt ass naked with a scarf covering her self. We had to restart the game because McEllie lost so bad and kept losing. We pulled in some random parking lot so they could get dressed and we talked, and we went got food. We ended up at Wendy's and were waiting quite a bit for our food. My goal was not to spill my food with McEllie's crazy driving. Once the food was gone it was back to the game. Which ended in McEllie losing again and we dropped off Ashlyn and Lilly. McEllie ended up taking me home. We laughed and sang dumb songs and that was the end of that part of the night.
After getting home and ready and I headed down to Nikki's to hang out with everyone. After a bit Cody, Ivan and I bounced to go meet up with Anthonee and ended up finding ourselves going over to Josies and to hang out and watch Jared get inked. We shared a few laughs and some good ol times with eachother and then bounced. A few hours later after hanging out Ivan and I went to my house to crash. Came home around 4
-January 15th. Hung out at Nikki's all day and ended up crashing there.
-January 14th. Finished Remediation and headed down to Nikki's. When I arrived everyone was cleaning and I ate my dinner. Nato and I started talking about some shit and then we got into a good talk about life and morals with Nikki. Sat around for a bit till a bunch of the usuals headed down. Nato and I shot pictures of some cunt. That was a fucking blast. Soon enough everyone was in the house and were talking and sharing our laughs. Ended up watching Assault and then Indecline. After that it was a bunch of random shit on the internet and music. Then Devin found the lysol and started lighting shit on fire. The rest of the night was in flames. We left late around 2. B-money and I chased down Ivan and Devin. Raced for a couple of blocks and then went our different ways. Around 21st we ran into Cody and his brotha and laughed at the green light and then went home. Came home around 3:30ish. Went to bed around 4ish. What a day
-January 13th. Hung out with the Family and did the usual. We busted out the bb gun today and were breaking everything. Ivan broke some glass jar. I shot the Lysol can and it exploded in the kitchen and scared the drunk out of everyone. Spencer passed out and B-Money painted his legs and back silver. It was a very eventful day.
-January 12th. Longest day of school this year. Felt like a monday and it might has well been. Came home and fell asleep around 7.
-January 11th.Trying to get things clear. I'm back to wishing
-January 10th. Week boyfriend, New Year Stress, special day, no effort, more excuses, more three worded sentences. I'm taking my heart off the line. I'm putting my walls back up.
This song is another for the life booking.. Take it how you will...I'm done apoligizing
"Thought you had a million chances.
To stand up and take it all in stride
And just when it seemed that you could do it.
You just found another place to hide.
So I put my hand out
And I tried my best
I'd stay up late at night
To let you get it off your chest
And I lived and lived for your smile
For the light of your life
ANd even if I could give more time
It wouldn't have filled the space in your life
WHen you left me out on a limb
When you left me out in the cold
Did you know I couldn't
Understand at 16 years old
Nothing I could've said,
Would've changed your mind
Years later, you've finally given me
peace of mind
Now a few years later
When you apologized that
With the tears streaming down my face
It made everything, everything"
there's still a lot I'm waiting for
-January 9th. It was finally the end of the week and to throw all of the day to day problems out the window and say fuck it! Got out of school and ran some errands with my mom. Came home and had dinner witht he family. My mom and brother got ready to head out and I awaited for Devin to come and get me. Once Devin arrived and we laughed at eachother we headed over to Wally-World. He had this idea and it really didn't make sense and still doesn't make sense as I write this. As we turned the corner some girls hit on me and Devin and he laughed at them and we carried on with our shopping. Once we were leaving they got all girly and hid there faces and ran. Devin and I both laughed at the fact that we just got hit on at Wal-Mart and bounced.
It was a typical Friday night. Forgetting about the problems and shit that has brought me down and finally didn't have to put a fake smile on. We went got Adam G. around 10ish to get him out. We all sat and chatted about some family problems and how we are going to handle them. Later in the night we headed over to Shaynes so Ivan could wash his fresh ink and leg. Jared and I ended up watching Pineapple Express and laughing our asses off. Once everyone was done from the Strip Club we all met up and went back to our Winter Nights together.
Nato, Ivan and I decided we were all going to go to bed so we bounced from Shaynes down to drop me off. On the way there I had vented about some shit on my personal life and my brothers decided to spend the night. We talked for quite a bit and all passed out.
There's so much I want to say but will keep my tongue behind my teeth.
-January 8th. I'm sick and tired of sitting and waiting for nothing.
-January 7th. I'm listening to my heart cause today sucks more dick than a puerto rican hooker
-January 6th. The first picture of the year on blogspot for me. Goes to xWESTONx because he's always wanted his picture up in my blog. Love ya brotha, merry late x-mas
-January 5th. Did nothing
-January 4th. Got home around 8am this morning and stayed up so I could talk to Kayla. And that's pretty much the rest of the day.
-January 3rd. Woke up around 10 something to Justin beating me with a pillow. We had to pack our shit and check out. Today was the beach day. We made our second runs through the Motel to make sure we didn't leave anything. Got into our swimming suits and shorts and checked out. We headed down to San Monica first and hung out. We walked along the piere to check out what was going on and the beach. Funny story actually. We decided to do a group photo in front of the ocean. So I set my polaroid camera down for stabillity( didn't have my tripod) and then set my Canon on top of it. Had it all set up and the punk ass ocean came rushing at my cameras and got both of them wet. The ocean fucked up the film in my polaroid and my Canon survived the accident. After we hit up San Monica we headed back down to Laguana Beach. The water was so much cleaner and bluer down there. We ended up walking around the beach for a good couple of hours. We rocked climbed over shit, slid down hills, slipped in moss, ran through water, had a fucking amazing time. We ended up on this random rock pretty far out from the beach. Saw a little fish and tried to catch it. That didn't work to well. We ended up finding crabs in that same hole though and tried to catch them. I changed my mind after a few trys because I didn't want to get pinched by one of those fuckers. We headed on our around the beach still. Finally we decided that we would go back to the car and decide what we would do. Before we left Anthony and I decided that we would go swimming. It was colder than fuck, but the highlight and a goal of the trip.
While walking back to our car we find our Homeless Homie (the meat dude) chilling with a bunch of other homeless cats. We got in the car and started headed somewhere. We decided that we didn't want to leave quite yet. We decided that we would watch the sunset and then bounce. We ended up driving through California for a long ass time. One of the best drives ever though. Anthony passed out and Justin and I hit up some grocerie stories to get me some food and some drinks. We headed down to Daytona Beach and hung out for a bit. After that Justin decided he didn't want to stay for the Sunset. We headed our way back home with the Sunset falling behind us. I was a little upset that I didn't get to watch it so I just went to sleep so I didn't have to see it. I woke up a few hours later to Justin on the phone with Kayla saying that I was asleep when I was awake. A few minutes after that we decided that we would hang out in Las Vegas for a bit.
We arrived in Las Vegas around 9ish or 10ish. We made damn good time. We decided that we would walk the strip and hang out. We walked around for a bit and we decided we would watch the Treasure Island Show. They had to end up cancelling the show because they were scared of a little wind. Fucking pussies. After that we headed back to the car so we could move onto our next destination. "Welcome To Las Vegas" sign. We went through the homeless park and seen a bunch of homeless people sleeping in tents. That was some real indecline shit. After that we drove down the Old Las Vegas Strip. That was pretty interesting and then we headed South to find the sign. Once we reached our destion Justin wanted to buy porn while were in Vegas. That was about a good hour and a half adventure. It was pretty fucking funny in the same sense though. Once we did everything we needed to in Vegas and realized we were there for hours we headed over to Jack in the Box to get some food and head home.
After eating and talking we hit the road. Everyone fell asleep besides Justin. I woke a little later and not even 10 minutes later we pulled over for doing 92 in a 75 mph. We laughed and tried to get pictures of the cop lights behind us. That didn't work.
I already miss this
-January 2nd. I failed my attempt of staying up for the Sunset. It was like 6 something and the mofuckin sun wasn't up. I later opened my eyes to palm trees passing us by. Justin had been driving around all morning I guess. He was on a search to find a Motel cause the car wasn't cutting it for him. He found one and got it for a night. Anthony and I snuck in afterwords and all got some sleep before the show. We got up in the afternoon and started getting ready. I started flipping through ESPN to see when the Utah vs. Alambama game started. It hadn't started so I watched the pre-game. Anthony watched a little bit with me and then him and Justin decided to go get some Taco Bell. By this time the football game had started with Utah winning the Toin toss and scoring. Alambama didn't know what the fuck hit them.
Anthony and Justin finally arrived back and it was second quarter. Utes up 14 to 0. We had to leave before half time so we could make it down to Anaheim in time for the show. We arrived in time and bought our tickets for Will Call. We hit up the record store (Off The Chain) next door to Chain Reaction. Find some pretty interesting things up in there. Anthony found a Cherem shirt that no one in hell will fit him and bought it anyways. We headed back over to Chain Reaction to wait for the doors to open. We chatted with a few locals and did a survey for some kids on venues. Finally it was time to head on in to Chain Reaction.
The show was fucking AMAZING!! The energy of the show and the music blew it apart. Every band was so fucking good. It was fun to see everyone react to everyone and to see how diverse the scene was. Something Salt Lake has; Unity. Justin and Big Anthony stayed in the pit and threw down. I was all over the place. From the pit, to pile ons, to stage dives. It was an amazing show. Anthony had his Iphone so we were streaming the football from there. We would check up on the game in between sets and whenever we good. Before the show ended we found out that The Utah Utes had WON the Sugar Bowl. We took it Undefeated. An amazing 13-0 season. The rest of the show just kept getting more amazing. This was a show that physically beat the shit out of me. I've never been so sore. But it only lasted a day and it was the best feeling ever. I will be back hopefully as soon as possible.
After the show we decided that we would hit up a store, grab some pepsi's and hang out on the beach. We stopped at a Food For Less to see where the closest 24-Hour Wal-Mart was. Come to find out; the closest one was two hours away. You would think in such a big state they would have a 24-Hour Wal-Mart in every City. I guess we were wrong. We spent a good half an hour in Food For Less talking with one of the Security Guards and his Co-Worker. The Security Guard was a nice ol' black man. This man was funny as shit. The Co-Worker added to the laughs. It was a good time in Food For Less and the day seemed just to get better and better. They were finally closing and we had our supplies for the night. We shook hands and hugged and bounced back to the hotel.
We arrived at our santuary to eat and watch t.v. We got tired quicker than we thought and decided we would put off the beach till tomorrow. Justin passed out on his broken bed and I fixed the lights. Anthony showered and then played on his phone for a bit and watched some t.v. I walked around for a bit, showered and shut everything off. I got ready for bed and find myself picking up the three polaroids I had of my love. Looked down upon them and wished for her presences. I ended up reading her letter again and plugging my ipod in for the night. I turned off my lights and ended the best day of my life.
-January 1st. Woke up in my loves arms and to Justin knocking on the door to get us up for the day. Justin came in and got on the computer and was getting shit set up for the trip. Kayla and I laid in bed for a couple of hours and watched Superbad with Justin, Bam Bam and Jordan. Finally I got out of bed so I could start packing and get dressed. I got ready and packed all I needed for the trip. Double checked to see if I had everything and shut down all the lights and heat. We headed over to Mickey D's on Redwood too meet up with Big Anthony and to grab some food. We all sat, laughed and conversed during our meal before we all parted our ways. Once everyone was done with their food it was time to refill the cups and head on out.
Kayla and I had a short good-bye because I was being rushed. Told her I loved her one last time and shut the door.
We filled up on gas and checked the oil before we headed on out. Once the car was checked it was time to hit the freeway. Along the way to California we made a few pit stops to grab drinks, grab food, and pee on the side of the road. Once we made it out of Las Vegas we hit some Outlet mall that was ran by Asians. We walked into this Taco Bell/ KFC place and that's all what was in the fucking joint. Hit up McDonalds afterwords and there were more fucking Asians. The place scared the fuck out of me.
We were back on the road for more hours and more miles to reach our destination. A few more hours went by and we were finally in Southern California!
We arrived in nothing but fog. Could barely see 15 feet in front of you and the smog was eating the car. We arrived in Anaheim and seen the glorious and famous Chain Reaction. Justin and I expected it to be different but we knew were going to have a blast. After talking for a bit and wanting to hit up the beach I said we should hit up Laguana Beach because it was half an hour away. We headed towards down the beach in the mist of the fog. Laughing and complaining about how bad people suck at driving in California. We arrived to this night little City called Laguna Hills. It reminded Justin of a Park City but with an Ocean. We asked some dude dressed as a Elf in a golf cart where the beach was. He pointed straight ahead and we followed that direction. We got out of the cars; pumped as fuck to hear the Ocean waves crash against the rocks and land. We walked over to see something I've missed for so long. A first for the homies, and headed down towards the beach. We talked to some people from Arizona and chatted for a bit. They told us about this camping place where we could camp out so we jumped back in the car to find this place.
We didn't end up finding the camp site so we walked around the beach for a bit. And then hit the streets to walk around and check out the surroundings. We were the only ones on the streets and with the sound of the ocean waves crashing and the ocean birds flying. It was a tropical paradise. On our way back from our adventure we ran into a homeless dude. He was complaining about how some fool stole his lighter and how bad he hates lending his shit out. We laughed and your teamed him and then he went off on how he had a big package of meat he was going to eat by himself. Shortly after that we arrived to our car and grabbed our blankets. We sat and chatted for a bit and shortly everyone was going down. I told everyone I was going to stay up for the most part and make sure know people tried to rob us. Shortly after that our homeless homie from down the street came stubbling past us. We talked for a bit more and then he bounced. We thought it would be funny to jack his meat and bounce but we didn't know where he put it. So we called it a night and spent the night on the beach. There was nothing more peaceful than the Pacifics High Tide crashing against rocks and land with the ocean birds singing in the distance.
Happy fucking New Year!!!
-January 30th.
-January 29th.
-January 28th.It was early day at school today. So after I was out of class I ran home to make some food and watch some of the Bench Warmers. Around 2:25 I got back in my car to get back to school to start remediation. Today went by pretty fast and then once I was almost done I started getting really tired. Then it was finally six and it was my time to leave. My mom came and picked me up and we went home. I ended up falling asleep till around 10 and here I am writing about my days and talking to girl that gets me through the day.
These last two weeks could have not been any better. I usually come home to find myself hanging out around my house and than I log in to find my msn icon pull up with a notification from Kayla. I couldn't have been any happier with doing the littelest things in my day. I'm so thankful for what I have in my life. My life is perfectly content. I'm in love; but not just with a girl. With my surrounds and my way of living. I'm glad to be the person I am this day in my age. I really can't wait for warm weather though! That's what's up!!!!!
-January 27th. Started remediation after school today. Once I got home I just hung out around the house until Justin came over. We didn't do much; I raided his laptop cause I needed new cd's and then we went to FYE to check something out but Justin forgot everything closes at 9. He dropped me off and I came home to lie down and ending up falling asleep till like 12. I was very upset that I didn't get to talk to Kayla and when I logged in I had a few little things saying "I love you" and goodnight. It was a very laid back day.
-January 26th. Went and took some flicks today and watched the motion of trains pass me by. Ended up being wrapped up in words and words talking to Kayla. Very short day but very eventful.
-January 25th. The phone woke me up today. After jumping out of bed I realized that my neck was fucking killing me. It was the worst pain ever. It was to the point where I crawled back in bed and sat there for hours. Not moving, not messing with my muscles. Then Devin called and was like hey I got a new camera and wanna go take flicks. So he came over with Adam G and some beezy. We ended up driving around in the snow for hours. Took some flicks and headed up to the Top of the World. I've never seen the City be caught up in a storm. You could hardly see the place I call home. It was a good Sunday. I came home pretty early and ended up chatting with Melanie. She called while she went for a walk. We chatted and then I got off the phone. Since then I have been talking to Kayla ever since. aldhadkfhakdf I can't even explain!!
-January 24th. I woke up to a dark cloudy day. I opened my windows and listened to the rain fall outside of my window. It was a perfect way to start out the day. I didn't do much. I hung out with my for part of the day and watched Sandlot about 6 times. Later in the evening Devin came and got me and we headed to do the usual. Hung out for a bit and bounced way early. I came home and talked with Kayla for the rest of the night. 3 am to about 7:33ish. I'm glad we got to talk about the things we did and so glad that she feels better. I love falling asleep to her voice.
-January 23rd. Had possibly two hours of sleep at most. Could hardly stay awake in most of my classes. Came home and fell asleep for most the of the day. I woke up to the phone ringing. Devin wanted to see if I was coming out and didn't think I was. Around 9:12 Kayla called. Talked for maybe half an hour and then she had more important things to do. Called up the homies and bounced. It was a good ol time seeing everyone at the end of the week. Devin and Ivan came and got me and we went to get some food. We hit up the gas station afterwards so Ivan could get some frozen slurpee and the lady behind the counter gave it to him for free. hah Devin and I was laughing at this redneck and this little mutant. hahaha ofuk but Booga and Shuga is the highlight of the night. The fog has been the most amazing thing ever. The last time I remember it being so bad is when I was little. Cruz, Lorenzo and I all went and started building our fort in the woods. I miss the good ol days of the neighborhoods. Today was just ok...nothing to special
-January 22nd. Almost the end of the week. We had Senior Talent Show this morning so that ment I got to sleep in for a bit. My sleep schedule has been completely
ruined, so I needed this more than anything. I came home to find my self jumping in my bed and calling it a day. Woke up and talked to Kayla for the rest of the night. I know exactly why I don't get much sleep. Tonight was an amazing night. I'm glad to share more firsts with eachother.
-January 21st. Came home and pretty much hung out around the house. I ended up cleaning my room and listening to music. My mom came home around 4 and we talked for a bit. I went and checked the mail to see if my merch has arrived yet. It still hasn't and I'm getting pretty fucking pissed. A few hours later we were all getting pretty hungry. So my mom ordered some pizza because she is obesessed with it and I went and got Wendy's. When I pulled into my parking spot Nato, Ivan and Anthonee were pulling up the same time I did. We all ate dinner and have been hanging out since. Ivan doesn't know how to stay out of trouble, Nato and Anthonee almost caused a riot at Wal-Mart and I passed the fuck out. The rest of the night consisted of us talking about how lame Wal-Mart is and watched Superbad. I'm talking to Kayla once again and I can tell it's going to be a late night. I get to sleep in tomorrow. Senior Talent Show tomorrow!
-January 20th. Today was Obama's inauguration. I didn't think it was that big of a deal till I watched it. It was my first experience of ever watching one of these. People from all 50 States traveled from their homes to Celebrate this day in History. There was a old couple from Los Angeles who arrived the night before to stand in 30 degree weather for hours upon hours. They were missing the 80 degree weather back home. Watching Barracks face as he walked Penn. Ave and the joy that was brought to his face and all the excitement and happiness of the crowd made me feel good to be an American. I know that sounds lame and all but I would have never thought I would have seen the first African American President in my life time. I mean this was a big election. A women and black man ran. It makes me feel good to be where I am.
After school I came home to find myself waiting for Kayla. She has been the only thing on my mind all day. I ended up taking a nap around 5 waiting for a phone call to wake me up from my sleep. I woke up around 10 to find my love online with the best news ever. Since then I've been caught up with her. Only finding myself to focus in on her smile, her laugh, her voice, her love and heart. I love this women. I love you Kayla.
What a day for everyone! I hope everyone had a good day. See ya tomorrow suckas!
-January 19th. Ran some errands with my mom and went got the car from the repair shop. I came home and hung out by myself for a bit, made a few calls to some friends and then Justin came over. We ended up walking from down town to 21st on a adventure. After we reached our destination I didn't feel like walking home so I said fuck that and I heard a freight coming. We were about 50 feet away from the crossing and sure enough my beauty came rolling passed. We hauled our asses to the train and jumped on it. We rode it for a bit till we had to get off because we thought he seen us. It was Justin's first train riding experience.
-January 18th. Family Meeting. Rode Trains with Ivan, Adam G, and Devin. We had to run away from the train because the dude was on his way to come chase us.
-January 17th. There has to be a way I just know it. It can't be the end for such a glorious thing just yet. Not now; this can't be happening. We gotta save them. There has to be a way to
-January 16th. Woke up to Billy and Nikki just chilling and talking. They told me that I had a phone call from my mother and instantly I knew I had to wake up and get shit ready. It was time to Celebrate our Utah Utes 13 and 0 Record. There was a parade going on downtown. I arrived right in time for it and the traffic was ridiculous. It was to the point where traffic was shutting off their vehicles and sitting on top of them. It was a great turn out of people. With people on top of buildings and streets poles. I ran into Shae and Stephen and chatted with them for a bit. Then bumped into Nick and few other homies from school. Afterwards I found my mom and we came home so I could shower and get ready for the day. Came home and showered and talked with Shoni, Lorenzo and my Mother. When I was getting dressed my mother walked in and said that there three girls were here for me. I asked who and she just walked off to let them in while I was getting dressed. Come to find out it was McEllie, Ashlyn and Lilly. We sat around and talked while I got ready and I was going with them for a bit. We ended up driving for hours. We drove to the 64 impala', McEllie wants that car and it's my dream car. After that we started driving around and SEX some how started. Lilly caught a car with a broken headlight and started up the game. We had to explain the rules to McEllie cause she didn't know how to play. Once they were explained the game was in full effect. Lilly and I made a pack that we weren't going to lose this game. We were right. An hour went by and we had Ashyln undressed and McEllie driving around butt ass naked with a scarf covering her self. We had to restart the game because McEllie lost so bad and kept losing. We pulled in some random parking lot so they could get dressed and we talked, and we went got food. We ended up at Wendy's and were waiting quite a bit for our food. My goal was not to spill my food with McEllie's crazy driving. Once the food was gone it was back to the game. Which ended in McEllie losing again and we dropped off Ashlyn and Lilly. McEllie ended up taking me home. We laughed and sang dumb songs and that was the end of that part of the night.
After getting home and ready and I headed down to Nikki's to hang out with everyone. After a bit Cody, Ivan and I bounced to go meet up with Anthonee and ended up finding ourselves going over to Josies and to hang out and watch Jared get inked. We shared a few laughs and some good ol times with eachother and then bounced. A few hours later after hanging out Ivan and I went to my house to crash. Came home around 4
-January 15th. Hung out at Nikki's all day and ended up crashing there.
-January 14th. Finished Remediation and headed down to Nikki's. When I arrived everyone was cleaning and I ate my dinner. Nato and I started talking about some shit and then we got into a good talk about life and morals with Nikki. Sat around for a bit till a bunch of the usuals headed down. Nato and I shot pictures of some cunt. That was a fucking blast. Soon enough everyone was in the house and were talking and sharing our laughs. Ended up watching Assault and then Indecline. After that it was a bunch of random shit on the internet and music. Then Devin found the lysol and started lighting shit on fire. The rest of the night was in flames. We left late around 2. B-money and I chased down Ivan and Devin. Raced for a couple of blocks and then went our different ways. Around 21st we ran into Cody and his brotha and laughed at the green light and then went home. Came home around 3:30ish. Went to bed around 4ish. What a day
-January 13th. Hung out with the Family and did the usual. We busted out the bb gun today and were breaking everything. Ivan broke some glass jar. I shot the Lysol can and it exploded in the kitchen and scared the drunk out of everyone. Spencer passed out and B-Money painted his legs and back silver. It was a very eventful day.
-January 12th. Longest day of school this year. Felt like a monday and it might has well been. Came home and fell asleep around 7.
-January 11th.Trying to get things clear. I'm back to wishing
-January 10th. Week boyfriend, New Year Stress, special day, no effort, more excuses, more three worded sentences. I'm taking my heart off the line. I'm putting my walls back up.
This song is another for the life booking.. Take it how you will...I'm done apoligizing
"Thought you had a million chances.
To stand up and take it all in stride
And just when it seemed that you could do it.
You just found another place to hide.
So I put my hand out
And I tried my best
I'd stay up late at night
To let you get it off your chest
And I lived and lived for your smile
For the light of your life
ANd even if I could give more time
It wouldn't have filled the space in your life
WHen you left me out on a limb
When you left me out in the cold
Did you know I couldn't
Understand at 16 years old
Nothing I could've said,
Would've changed your mind
Years later, you've finally given me
peace of mind
Now a few years later
When you apologized that
With the tears streaming down my face
It made everything, everything"
there's still a lot I'm waiting for
-January 9th. It was finally the end of the week and to throw all of the day to day problems out the window and say fuck it! Got out of school and ran some errands with my mom. Came home and had dinner witht he family. My mom and brother got ready to head out and I awaited for Devin to come and get me. Once Devin arrived and we laughed at eachother we headed over to Wally-World. He had this idea and it really didn't make sense and still doesn't make sense as I write this. As we turned the corner some girls hit on me and Devin and he laughed at them and we carried on with our shopping. Once we were leaving they got all girly and hid there faces and ran. Devin and I both laughed at the fact that we just got hit on at Wal-Mart and bounced.
It was a typical Friday night. Forgetting about the problems and shit that has brought me down and finally didn't have to put a fake smile on. We went got Adam G. around 10ish to get him out. We all sat and chatted about some family problems and how we are going to handle them. Later in the night we headed over to Shaynes so Ivan could wash his fresh ink and leg. Jared and I ended up watching Pineapple Express and laughing our asses off. Once everyone was done from the Strip Club we all met up and went back to our Winter Nights together.
Nato, Ivan and I decided we were all going to go to bed so we bounced from Shaynes down to drop me off. On the way there I had vented about some shit on my personal life and my brothers decided to spend the night. We talked for quite a bit and all passed out.
There's so much I want to say but will keep my tongue behind my teeth.
-January 8th. I'm sick and tired of sitting and waiting for nothing.
-January 7th. I'm listening to my heart cause today sucks more dick than a puerto rican hooker
-January 6th. The first picture of the year on blogspot for me. Goes to xWESTONx because he's always wanted his picture up in my blog. Love ya brotha, merry late x-mas
-January 5th. Did nothing
-January 4th. Got home around 8am this morning and stayed up so I could talk to Kayla. And that's pretty much the rest of the day.
-January 3rd. Woke up around 10 something to Justin beating me with a pillow. We had to pack our shit and check out. Today was the beach day. We made our second runs through the Motel to make sure we didn't leave anything. Got into our swimming suits and shorts and checked out. We headed down to San Monica first and hung out. We walked along the piere to check out what was going on and the beach. Funny story actually. We decided to do a group photo in front of the ocean. So I set my polaroid camera down for stabillity( didn't have my tripod) and then set my Canon on top of it. Had it all set up and the punk ass ocean came rushing at my cameras and got both of them wet. The ocean fucked up the film in my polaroid and my Canon survived the accident. After we hit up San Monica we headed back down to Laguana Beach. The water was so much cleaner and bluer down there. We ended up walking around the beach for a good couple of hours. We rocked climbed over shit, slid down hills, slipped in moss, ran through water, had a fucking amazing time. We ended up on this random rock pretty far out from the beach. Saw a little fish and tried to catch it. That didn't work to well. We ended up finding crabs in that same hole though and tried to catch them. I changed my mind after a few trys because I didn't want to get pinched by one of those fuckers. We headed on our around the beach still. Finally we decided that we would go back to the car and decide what we would do. Before we left Anthony and I decided that we would go swimming. It was colder than fuck, but the highlight and a goal of the trip.
While walking back to our car we find our Homeless Homie (the meat dude) chilling with a bunch of other homeless cats. We got in the car and started headed somewhere. We decided that we didn't want to leave quite yet. We decided that we would watch the sunset and then bounce. We ended up driving through California for a long ass time. One of the best drives ever though. Anthony passed out and Justin and I hit up some grocerie stories to get me some food and some drinks. We headed down to Daytona Beach and hung out for a bit. After that Justin decided he didn't want to stay for the Sunset. We headed our way back home with the Sunset falling behind us. I was a little upset that I didn't get to watch it so I just went to sleep so I didn't have to see it. I woke up a few hours later to Justin on the phone with Kayla saying that I was asleep when I was awake. A few minutes after that we decided that we would hang out in Las Vegas for a bit.
We arrived in Las Vegas around 9ish or 10ish. We made damn good time. We decided that we would walk the strip and hang out. We walked around for a bit and we decided we would watch the Treasure Island Show. They had to end up cancelling the show because they were scared of a little wind. Fucking pussies. After that we headed back to the car so we could move onto our next destination. "Welcome To Las Vegas" sign. We went through the homeless park and seen a bunch of homeless people sleeping in tents. That was some real indecline shit. After that we drove down the Old Las Vegas Strip. That was pretty interesting and then we headed South to find the sign. Once we reached our destion Justin wanted to buy porn while were in Vegas. That was about a good hour and a half adventure. It was pretty fucking funny in the same sense though. Once we did everything we needed to in Vegas and realized we were there for hours we headed over to Jack in the Box to get some food and head home.
After eating and talking we hit the road. Everyone fell asleep besides Justin. I woke a little later and not even 10 minutes later we pulled over for doing 92 in a 75 mph. We laughed and tried to get pictures of the cop lights behind us. That didn't work.
I already miss this
-January 2nd. I failed my attempt of staying up for the Sunset. It was like 6 something and the mofuckin sun wasn't up. I later opened my eyes to palm trees passing us by. Justin had been driving around all morning I guess. He was on a search to find a Motel cause the car wasn't cutting it for him. He found one and got it for a night. Anthony and I snuck in afterwords and all got some sleep before the show. We got up in the afternoon and started getting ready. I started flipping through ESPN to see when the Utah vs. Alambama game started. It hadn't started so I watched the pre-game. Anthony watched a little bit with me and then him and Justin decided to go get some Taco Bell. By this time the football game had started with Utah winning the Toin toss and scoring. Alambama didn't know what the fuck hit them.
Anthony and Justin finally arrived back and it was second quarter. Utes up 14 to 0. We had to leave before half time so we could make it down to Anaheim in time for the show. We arrived in time and bought our tickets for Will Call. We hit up the record store (Off The Chain) next door to Chain Reaction. Find some pretty interesting things up in there. Anthony found a Cherem shirt that no one in hell will fit him and bought it anyways. We headed back over to Chain Reaction to wait for the doors to open. We chatted with a few locals and did a survey for some kids on venues. Finally it was time to head on in to Chain Reaction.
The show was fucking AMAZING!! The energy of the show and the music blew it apart. Every band was so fucking good. It was fun to see everyone react to everyone and to see how diverse the scene was. Something Salt Lake has; Unity. Justin and Big Anthony stayed in the pit and threw down. I was all over the place. From the pit, to pile ons, to stage dives. It was an amazing show. Anthony had his Iphone so we were streaming the football from there. We would check up on the game in between sets and whenever we good. Before the show ended we found out that The Utah Utes had WON the Sugar Bowl. We took it Undefeated. An amazing 13-0 season. The rest of the show just kept getting more amazing. This was a show that physically beat the shit out of me. I've never been so sore. But it only lasted a day and it was the best feeling ever. I will be back hopefully as soon as possible.
After the show we decided that we would hit up a store, grab some pepsi's and hang out on the beach. We stopped at a Food For Less to see where the closest 24-Hour Wal-Mart was. Come to find out; the closest one was two hours away. You would think in such a big state they would have a 24-Hour Wal-Mart in every City. I guess we were wrong. We spent a good half an hour in Food For Less talking with one of the Security Guards and his Co-Worker. The Security Guard was a nice ol' black man. This man was funny as shit. The Co-Worker added to the laughs. It was a good time in Food For Less and the day seemed just to get better and better. They were finally closing and we had our supplies for the night. We shook hands and hugged and bounced back to the hotel.
We arrived at our santuary to eat and watch t.v. We got tired quicker than we thought and decided we would put off the beach till tomorrow. Justin passed out on his broken bed and I fixed the lights. Anthony showered and then played on his phone for a bit and watched some t.v. I walked around for a bit, showered and shut everything off. I got ready for bed and find myself picking up the three polaroids I had of my love. Looked down upon them and wished for her presences. I ended up reading her letter again and plugging my ipod in for the night. I turned off my lights and ended the best day of my life.
-January 1st. Woke up in my loves arms and to Justin knocking on the door to get us up for the day. Justin came in and got on the computer and was getting shit set up for the trip. Kayla and I laid in bed for a couple of hours and watched Superbad with Justin, Bam Bam and Jordan. Finally I got out of bed so I could start packing and get dressed. I got ready and packed all I needed for the trip. Double checked to see if I had everything and shut down all the lights and heat. We headed over to Mickey D's on Redwood too meet up with Big Anthony and to grab some food. We all sat, laughed and conversed during our meal before we all parted our ways. Once everyone was done with their food it was time to refill the cups and head on out.
Kayla and I had a short good-bye because I was being rushed. Told her I loved her one last time and shut the door.
We filled up on gas and checked the oil before we headed on out. Once the car was checked it was time to hit the freeway. Along the way to California we made a few pit stops to grab drinks, grab food, and pee on the side of the road. Once we made it out of Las Vegas we hit some Outlet mall that was ran by Asians. We walked into this Taco Bell/ KFC place and that's all what was in the fucking joint. Hit up McDonalds afterwords and there were more fucking Asians. The place scared the fuck out of me.
We were back on the road for more hours and more miles to reach our destination. A few more hours went by and we were finally in Southern California!
We arrived in nothing but fog. Could barely see 15 feet in front of you and the smog was eating the car. We arrived in Anaheim and seen the glorious and famous Chain Reaction. Justin and I expected it to be different but we knew were going to have a blast. After talking for a bit and wanting to hit up the beach I said we should hit up Laguana Beach because it was half an hour away. We headed towards down the beach in the mist of the fog. Laughing and complaining about how bad people suck at driving in California. We arrived to this night little City called Laguna Hills. It reminded Justin of a Park City but with an Ocean. We asked some dude dressed as a Elf in a golf cart where the beach was. He pointed straight ahead and we followed that direction. We got out of the cars; pumped as fuck to hear the Ocean waves crash against the rocks and land. We walked over to see something I've missed for so long. A first for the homies, and headed down towards the beach. We talked to some people from Arizona and chatted for a bit. They told us about this camping place where we could camp out so we jumped back in the car to find this place.
We didn't end up finding the camp site so we walked around the beach for a bit. And then hit the streets to walk around and check out the surroundings. We were the only ones on the streets and with the sound of the ocean waves crashing and the ocean birds flying. It was a tropical paradise. On our way back from our adventure we ran into a homeless dude. He was complaining about how some fool stole his lighter and how bad he hates lending his shit out. We laughed and your teamed him and then he went off on how he had a big package of meat he was going to eat by himself. Shortly after that we arrived to our car and grabbed our blankets. We sat and chatted for a bit and shortly everyone was going down. I told everyone I was going to stay up for the most part and make sure know people tried to rob us. Shortly after that our homeless homie from down the street came stubbling past us. We talked for a bit more and then he bounced. We thought it would be funny to jack his meat and bounce but we didn't know where he put it. So we called it a night and spent the night on the beach. There was nothing more peaceful than the Pacifics High Tide crashing against rocks and land with the ocean birds singing in the distance.
Happy fucking New Year!!!
