After I got back on the road and looked around at what was going on around and I realized how much I love Salt Lake City. Everyone that talks shit on this amazing mormon filled state can't talk shit when they come to our city. I don't know anyone that has disagreed with how amazing our city is. Salt Lake City > the few cities.
I arrived at Dans to find Amadine, and the rest of the New Mexico kids. I was welcomed with tight hugs from the friends and family. Food was provided with the beverage of 23 amazing flavors! Gotta love the Doctor Pepper! The rest of the day consisted of hanging out with the boys, waiting for our homies, and sharing our last night with our brother. It's been a very fulfilling day without even thinking about the worst of the weekend. After Devin and Adam G finally arrived we could finally get down to business and start our meeting. This is when shit got emotional...Anthonee started it off and honestly broke down. After that it put me in a thinking mood that has left me speechless since...I want to get out of the place I love so much to be a nobody. I want to not worry about going in public and seeing people I know. I know that I will miss it though...I love being the person I am and having the people in my life that I have. This is something I'm scared about giving up and seeing Anthonee break down knowing that he will be leaving his brothers behind; it really got to me cause I know for a damn fact I wouldn't be able to hold my own head up. The hugs and the love was passed around and since then we've been keeping our chin's up and having a good time. Everyone is watching Star Wars and doing other random shit in the basement. Devin and I are sitting on laptops side by side laughing and talking about shit. Justin and Adam G are hanging by our sides just chilling and enjoying our so called 'stolen days'. These last couple of days have been some of the greatest days I've had since Childhood. This is something I'm not willing to give up and something I fear of losing when I leave.
This has been one of my favorite and mot memorable thanksgivings. Even thought it was yesterday I've had the chance to extend this tradition.
Thank you to everyone who has showed their appreciation and love on the holidays. Thanks to all of my boys who came out and hung out with us during this busy days. Thank you to Amadine and the New Mexico kids for driving 9 hours to spend this weekend with us. It has been amazing..209 -November 27th. Thanksgiving day. After I woke up, showered and got ready I waited for my mother to come pick me up so we could go to Shiela's for Thanksgiving. My mother and I drove over to the West side to enjoy a good family dinner. After my mother and Shiela finished preparing dinner, we all sat down to enjoy our feast and watch Football. We shared talks and laughs about numerous things. Once we were stuffed to the max that our stomachs would allow us it was time to lay back and let it digest. Around 6:07 I called up my boys to see what was going on. I got the heads up to come on up and kick off the rest of our Thanksgiving weekend off. I arrived at Dan's to walk downstairs to find Anthonee playing Wii and everyone sitting around talking shit and laughing. Once everyone woke up from there Thanksgiving naps and got the blood flowing, the night had officially started. We sat around, shared our laughs and jokes. Messed up the house and watched stupid videos on youtube. Someone got the bright idea to grab my camera and starting taking flicks of our night. Devin, Ivan and I headed down to my house to grab the rest of my equipment so we wouldn't have to make the trip back to my house tomorrow to grab it. By the time we got back it was time to head downtown and take our so called "promos". Hahah it was a damn good time with only about eight(8) of us. We got some sick as flicks that would make the camera flip shit. Blasted some bomb ass shit!!!! We came back after our promos was done with to throw them down on the laptop and upload that shit up. Since then we've sat in the basement, talked like vatos while Anthonee was on the phone with was some beezy, drank sprite and listened to (n1nth)cloud. Braden and I hit up Beto's to get some late night food, hit up 711 after wards to get some pepsi and some fountain drinks. Took a turn down the wrong road and got lost and finally found our way home. From then we've been in the basement doing the same old fun shit. It is now 6:01 and Braden, Anthonee, Nato, Mark, Makenzi and I are the only ones up. Probably not going to be cause we are waiting for amadine, mario and a few other New Mexico kids to get here. It's been one hell of a Thanksgiving with both of my families. I couldn't be anymore thankful for the life, friends, and family that I have. Happy Thanksgiving and Black Friday is for fucking nuts! -November 26th. It started off good. But somewhere between coming home from school and sitting down at my house things went down hill. Probably one of the worst days that I've had. -November 25th. I came home after a long day of school, going to the shop, and hanging out with my boys only to come home and log in to find something amazing. I didn't plan on writing about this, but she thinks she can one up me. She has defiantly reassured to everyone how madly in love she is with me and honestly one of the best things I've read for her. I am glad to have another person get involved in this 365 thing I've started for myself. It will take you by suprise, you will hate the words that come out of your mouth, you will love the passion that will flow, you will look back to see your life. One of the greatest things I've done, and I want to maintain this in my life. This is my memoir. For me, my friends, my family and one day a family of my own that I will have. I am completly happy with my life, it is content and perfect. I am in love with a woman that lives 4 hours away in her words. I would have never expected this to come upon us two. I would have never thought that my late night myspace buddy would be the girl of my dreams. The one I've been praying for, the one that keeps me trying. It all started as a joke. A prank to pull on our friends, and to get a fellow friend to stop liking her. According to her I had her around my finger within the first two nights. It was the worst cliche of love at first sight. We both new that we wanted eachother, and how badly we would die to have one another as theirs. In other words MINE. It's odd to think that by getting to know her in such a short amount of time, and to pull this prank on our friends that we were actually dating... that we would actually be setting ourselves up for the real deal, and it's something we didn't expect. We ended up falling for eachother during this plan and only time has taken us to where we are. It's been an amazing 1 Month and 15 days with you Kayla. You are the protector of my heart, the shoulder I can cry on, my eye candy, my love, my babe, the one I call mine and my Kool-Aid. You have a set of eyes that I can always find myself getting lost in, a hand that fits perfect with mine(like a puzzle piece) you have lips I could get stuck to forever, a hug worth not letting go of. You've held my heart with care and protection. You've kept it safe and out of dangers way. We both know we have something that most people read about, or see in a movie and would do anything to have what we have. You are so many things that words and metaphors can barely explain. You've been the one to keep me falling for you though. Day in and day out. You've been the one to catch me when I fall. The best part is when I fall for you, I don't have to worry about getting hurt. There is always the chance of getting scrapes and bruises. But with the proper set of gear, we never have to worry about going to the E.R. FUCKING WOW Kayla..I don't know what else to say about you babe. I know for one thing though.. you are the one that holds my heart, the one I call mine and you are the only one I love. -Thank you for so much. Love the boy of your dreams, your Romeo, your monkey, your boyfriend and the one you call yours. I'm hoping this completes your day, as much as you complete mine -November 24th. I had an amazing conversation with the women I love. Everytime she calls, I swear I fall for her more and more everytime I hear that smile, the laugh, her voice, her sweetness, hearing that I'm her boy. You've been the only thing on my mind since we've got off the phone and I will shortly meet you in our dreams. I can't wait for tomorrow. ps. Thanks Giving is going to be hard as fuck! I get two of them with my family! -November 23rd. A long night of painting and moving shit, I finally let my eyes rest only to be disturbed of the beautiful sounds of hip-hop and mtn paint being shaked. I hopped down from my 2nd level bed to come out of the GS room to find Dekoy blasting the wall! After that Retards got up on the back wall and it was time for everyone to put in there work that we've been waiting for. Hung out, talked, laughed for hours and watched the homies paint. I finally left the shop to come home to get some good sleep and some food. I ended up catching every green light from 4th south; all the way to 48th. It was a damn good day. -November 22nd. After getting a pretty good sleep, my Mother told me to get up for the day. Woke up and got ready for the Tail Gating Party. Grabbed my hoodies and my camera and we were off to meet up with the rest of our group. We headed over to Shiela's to pack up our food and all of our other accesories for the day. When everything was checked off and packed tight into the vechiles we headed over to Subway to get our sandwhiches for our lunch. A few of us decided to eat half of it and save the rest for when we get up there. Once they were settled in our stomachs we were once again off to the road. Only this time we were heading over to Smith's to grab some drinks. Once we got to Smith's me and mother got distracted after withdrawing money and picked up some movies. Superbad and 21 for like 14 bucks. That's a fucking steal! Finally it was time to head up to the Tail Gating lot to hang out. We hung out at the lot from about 12 to 3 something. Everyone got together and we started our Ute walk down to the Stadium. We arrived thinking we were late because both teams were on the field but only to find out that were a little early. We got settled after EVERYONE decided that our row was the walk way. Finally it was time for Kickoff. The biggest game we've been waiting on for the year and it was finally here. The game was a damn good game. But of course University of Utah came on top by a good point spread of 48-24. Making us 12-0 and on our way to the BCS Bowl!!! After the penalty of having fans on the field with 2 minutes left the game was finished and I've never seen so much Red on something. I honestly don't think the field is big enough.
It has been an amazing Football Season here at Home. We still have a few games ahead of us that I will not be attending due to money. I will still support my team!
Our yell, you'll hear it ringing through the mountains near and far!
We're up to snuff, we never bluff, we're game for any fuss.
No other gang of college men dare meet us in a muss.
So fill your lungs and sing it out and shout it to the sky,
We'll fight for dear old crimson for a Utah Man am I!
Ki-yi!
And when we prom the avenue, all lined up in a row,
And arm in arm and step in time as down the street we go.
No matter if a freshman green, or in a senior's gown,
The people all admit we are the warmest gang in town.
We may not live forever on this jolly good old sphere,
But while we do we'll live a life of merriment and cheer,
And when our college days are o'er and night is drawing nigh,
With parting breath we'll sing that song:
'A Utah Man Am I'.
Chorus
Who am I, sir,
A Utah Man am I!
A Utah Man, sir,
Will be 'til I die.
GO UTES!!!!
I arrived home around 8:43ish and called up the homies. Since they are all fucking handicapped and only care about hanging with their women, I got some dinner and editing some photos. Around 1 o'clock my night was just beginning. I ended up talking to McEllie and we decided to hang out since we had to bail on our plans last time. I drove around for a good fucking 20 minutes trying to find her stupid new house because the streets don't know how to put houses near eachother with the same numbers!!! Finally I seen her creeping down the street and picked her up. We ended up driving around trying to find this trail I once knew of, listened to music and caught up with eachother. I'm glad I got to catch up with her. It has been something I've needed to do. After I decided fuck finding this park we drove around Salt Lake. I talked about how much I miss living down there and exchanged our stories of us being in the town. It was a cheap rip off version of a memory lane drive. Soon we ended up on State Street and Uprok was still open. All of my homies were out so we checked it out. Come to find out they were re-paiting it all, making it newer and just a new look.
I talked to Chase and he said I could come down all night and help. Me and McEllie left to drive around for a bit and then she had to be home.
I dropped her off, we exchanged hugs and said our good byes and good nights.
My night was just starting! I ended down to the shop and locked up my car. Walked in and they got the spray gun working and were all ready buffing it. Hours upon hours came through and it consisted of everyone getting to know eachother, a shit load of paint, cold breezes, the heater warm as fuck, hip-hop and a lot of talking and laughter. After the walls were buffed to perfection and everyone planned out what spots they wanted and how to get a hold of the homies they needed. Dekoy and I ended up in the Ghettoslider section chilling on the couches, laughing and painting. I climped on top of the closet cause they was this comfy ass half bed up there and chilled up there. Sat up there and laughed at stupid shit everyone was doing. Around 5 am Dekoy decided he wanted Coffee and went to see who all wanted shit. I was down to hit up 711 and get a pepsi. In between it all I passed the fuck out, about a good 25 feet on top of a square. That was my 22nd day of November. Read on to the 23rd. This is so far a two day job!
TWO FUCKING FOURTEEN!
-November 21st. I vagely rememeber Friday. School went by very quick. The first 30 minutes of school we took notes on why The U of U was going to beat BYU. After that it was a typical school day. I had all of my favorite classes to finish off the week and it couldn't have got any better. After school let out and I was back at home I waited on the boys to figure out what they were doing. Everyone ended up at my place for dinner and to hang out.
Later in the night we got a text that it was one of our good friends birthdays. We loaded up in two cars and headed out the destination. We got there and called up Dan and he said that The Hotel Security were being faggots and kicking everyone out. So if you were staying the night, you had to go in and not come out. If you weren't...well then you were fucked. So we said fuck it we are going else where. We reloaded our vechiles and headed down to Crystal's. We beat everyone there but they arrived with a few boxes of pizza and it was party hard from then. Just sat around, talked, laughed, played some video games, watched the office, had some starbursts and a few Mountain Dews and just hung out. It was a pretty damn good Friday night. Just got to be surrounded the ones I love and throw some new memories in memory lane. It was hot as fuck for some reason in the house...like a fucking sweat shop or something hahahaha
We ended up leaving around 11 something and it felt like 3 am. It was Ivan's fault, he had the neighbors calling the cops because he is black. Came home and got ready for the big day ahead of me. It was a glorious Friday Night. It made another day go by in my books; you finished 214!
-November 20th. Everyone was getting hyphy already for the U of U vs Byu game! Pretty much I did the same ahahahha I can't wait for the day I look back on what I've written. 215
-November 19th. Today was one of those days where it was way to perfect to be inside of school. I like to call these days my Ferris Bueler days. So I cut out a little early to go on my own adventure; to a place that is probably one of the most scummiest thing in people's eyes, but one of the most beautiful things I have. Out where no one can find it, but the ones who do keep in touch and check in. I love being connected to my surrounds. It's something I will have where ever I go. All day it's been a collage of beauty and ship wrecks. I need to stop handling peoples problems, and stop letting my mind wonder till the point it's lost. It helped having my boys around and having a semi-party on Wednesday. Tonight made me realize how happy I am to be Straight Edge and so self confident within myself. It made me realize that if I get something that I want more than anything...well I don't know if I want to leave home for an extended time. I just want to be out of school...and making sure none of my dreams get left on the shelf. 216
-November 18th. I sat in the same exact boat as I did the night before. 217
-November 17th. There are so many and thoughts and emotions I would love to share with you tonight. But I will bite my tongue till the rush of blood rises to the surface. I will one day look back on this day and remember why I'm stubborn tonight. In my eyes...memory lane is still perfection. There's some things I would love to have back. There's one sentence you need to know about tonight and why I love my friends. ' He ain't stopping, he's doing a 106 mph. Fucking faggot!'
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-November 16th. Thank you everyone who racked up those views last night. It was pretty fun watching them rise to an all time all for the day and week!
Today has been one of those days where you wake up numerous times and fall alseep numerous times. Where you just want to lie down knowing your not tired, to find yourself waking up confused. I've never been so sore after a show! My back feels like hell, and my calf feels like death. My new bestfriend has become Hot Showers and Muscle Rub/Relaxer. Today was a damn good day though. Justin and I got to grab a bite to eat at our favorite place(Noodles and Company) right before doors were locked for the night. While eating I ran into a friend I haven't seen in a minute(Ash) Tonight was a good night even though they haven't been so clear these last two nights. My sleep schedule has been destroyed...and even when you aren't any where to be found. For some reason I find myself waiting. I know tonight will be another restless night. A night that consists of you on my mind, tossing in bed, wishing you were by my side, wondering why you aren't here! For some reason I love it...Tonight will end amazing without hearing from you!
To the closest of my friends and family! These words explain where I'll be with you!
'It's the ones we love that we hurt the most when we lose control of our tongues, vent our emotions, and let our frustrations go. It's not right, and there's no excuse. It's not important enough to get angry about. It's not important enough to come between me and you. Don't forget the times we've shared. Don't forget the fun we've had. Don't forget who's always there. Don't forget who's always got your back. 'Cause no one makes it in this fucked up world alone. Without your help I sink like a stone. 'Cause all we've shared is too much to throw away, and you don't mean those hurtful things you say. So don't forget everything we meant, the places we've been, the times we've spent. Even if you push me away I won't let you go. It's not about you or me…it's about you and me together, staying friends as we grow old. I understand where you're coming from, and I respect the way you feel. I hope you would do the same for me. We all say things we don't mean, just learn to let them fly. No, I'm not your enemy. I want to know you for the rest of my life. You're the one I can't afford to lose. And I know, no matter what happens, we'll work this through. So don't forget the times we shared, the fun we've had, the places we've been. I'm always here, no matter what happens, through thick and thin'
Thank you for an amazing weekend!
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-November 15th. Kayla and I didn't end up going to bed until 8, maybe even 9ish in the morning. The heat finally got to me and woke Kayla and I up around 11 and then we drifted in and out of sleep until Noon. We ended up sitting in Fort Ricco until Daniel gave the go ahead that we were leaving. We said our good byes and then we ended up coming back because AK forgot his pants with his wallet in them. So we had to say our goodbyes once again and then it was time for another 4 hours of black pavement! (I'll write more later)
Ps. Keep those Blog Views Coming. They've gone up 15 in about 20 minutes
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-November 14th. End of the week and I don't think it could have been more of an amazing day!! The sky was nothing but blue for miles, and school was quite easy and fast. I mean in English Class we watched Jackass 2. haha Yeah that's how we roll on Fridays in Beh's class! In photo I made a call to see if there was room for me in a vechile so I could follow up on my secret mission that I forgot to tell you readers about. When it came down to it I had a ride and had to bail out of class like a fucking ninja! The ninja plan didn't work so I just left.. haha I met up with my ride at the front of the school and it was off to fill up the tank, grab my clothes, and get on the road that I've traveled so many times. Traffic was pretty bad getting out Provo but it cleared up and then we got stuck behind some real royal fucking asshole truck drivers that wouldn't let anyone pass. Once we passed those fucks we hauled ass! 221
The whole way there I could only think of one thing; that the girl of my dreams was going to be so suprised and hopefully everyone kept their mouth shut about me coming down. After 4 hours on the road we were in Grand Junction, a little lost but we were there. We got a call from either Dan or Corbin that said hurry the fuck up cause we aren't starting until Ricco get's here. Instantly I was like loud ass mo'fucka's can't keep their mouth shut! We arrived at the VFW and man was Kayla suprised that I was actually back in her arms. After we could finally let go of eachother it was time to have a good ol time with my friends and family. Days like these, are my best days! It was an amazing show and an amazing time with everyone. I ended my night in Fort Ricco with Kayla! About two or three hours later all of my boys came rushing at the Car to inform me that I just missed out on this girl taking 10 cocks in and around her mouth. I guessed she has dick taking ability's. I guess Dan started fucking her, she called for Ian to double stuff her, Andrew threw down in her booty hole, Ak and Corbin masterbated on her stomach, The Asian was getting a hand job, Jake was getting a foot job or something, Davis and Kory were alseep, some girl was fingering her self on the floor, Jordan was getting a hand job, and Daniel got a hand job also and then cried hahaahahahha What a fucking night
Fort Ricco was back once again ahah that was my 222 sucka's!!!
-November 13th. John Mayer- Your Body Is A Wonderland. 223
-November 12th. Today I woke up feeling like shit, called my mother and got the ok that I could stay one. Ended up falling alseep after getting on the web and didn't wake up till about 5 o'clock. There was only one thing on my mind all day and it was 10x as werst as ever before. Finally through the day my lady met up with me to start our night. I don't know if you've ever sat there and just start thinking about someone who is in your life and feel your heart race pick up and kick your chest. FUCKING WOW! 224
-November 11th. I feel like wrapping this week at a Tuesday. It's been raining like cats and dogs down here in Salt Lake City, Utah. I've never been so happy and have looked foward to my days. Pretty much...this is explains it all. Here's the song of my week.
Cant you see that its just raining
Aint no need to go outside...
But Baby, You hardly even notice
When I try to show you this
Song is meant to keep ya
From doing what your supposed to
Like waking up too early
Maybe we can sleep in
Ill make you banana pancakes
Pretend like its the weekend now
And we could pretend it all the time
Cant you see that its just raining
Aint no need to go outside
But just maybe, laka ukulele
Mommy made a baby
Really don't mind the practice
Cause your my little lady
Lady lady love me
Cause I love to lay here lazy
We could close the curtains
Pretend like there's no world outside
And we could pretend it all the time
Cant you see that its just raining
Aint no need to go outside
Aint no need aint no need Mmmm MMmmm
Cant you see cant you see
Rain all day
And I don't mind.
The telephone is singing
Ringing its too early
Don't pick it up
We don't need to we got everything
We need right here
And everything we need is enough
Just so easy
When the whole world fits inside of your arms
Don't really need to pay attention to the alarm
Wake up slow, yeah wake up slow
You hardly even notice
When I try to show you this
Song is meant to keep ya
From doing what your supposed to
Like waking up too early
Maybe we can sleep in
Ill make you banana pancakes
Pretend like its the weekend now
And we could pretend it all the time
Can't you see that it's just raining
Aint no need to go outside
Aint no need, Aint no need
Rain all day and I really really really don't mind
Can't you see cant you see,
You gotta wake up slow
I had to do this one today because the last couple of days I've only wanted to write about the rain and the girl of my dreams. So I'm mixing it up a little for you viewers. Enjoi my 140th day of writing. Here's 225
-November 10th. Today was mine and Kayla's One Month ann. The day couldn't have started off with a better way. Stayed up till 4 in the morning talking to this women; wishing she could be here for it, instead of 'Maverick City' I wish she was there so I could have gave her something to remember...instead we are settling for msn conversations and fucking web-cam I hate being .. calling it a night and waiting for her in my dreams. I awoke about 2 hours later to go to fucking school! It was a perfect Monday in my eyes..a nice stormy day! I couldn't pass this oppurtunity. I ended up skipping first to fall asleep in my car with the rain hitting the car and music in the background. I was so perfect with the moment and thought of Kayla and how bad I wish she could be here for days like that. Days where the rain is coming down so hard and we are able to lie in bed all day together. After I decided to go class, feeling like shit cause I'm sicker than sick. School wasn't too bad.
Afterwards everyone came over. Ivan, Nato, Alee, Boston, Alex, B-Money, Dan, Ryan, Chelsea, Corbin, fucking everybody showed up. Even a homie I haven't seen since he left for training. It was an amazing fucking day. But the one I should have been spending it with...is 4 hours away. Fucking fuck
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-November 9th. Went to the mall for about two hours. Got judged hardcore by some bitches in Famous Footwear. Later we headed over to Justin's girls house to meet her. It was a good ol time with everyone who was there. We ended up eating, playing Rock Band, laughing at shit on youtube and getting to know eachother. The day went a lot better than expected after some faggot forgot how to merge on the highway and almost took us off the road. Punk ass bitch! I had an amazing talk with the girl I love and pretty much spent the night wrapped up in feelings of comfort and trust. I couldn't have been anymore happy. 227
-November 8th. Hung out with the boys. Had a meeting and everyone went off to do their own thing. It was a kicked back day. 228
-November 7th. Physically I'm sitting in cold winter weather. Watching the sky put up a fight against grey clouds to keep the snow away. In reality; I don't mind watching the war.
Cause mentality...I'm on the best vacation ever!
(All rights reserved to Kevin Russ)
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-November 6th. School sucked but what do you expect from a place like that? Didn't use my vocal chords to much at school cause I was in my own world the whole day. After school sucked for awhile due to my own reasons.
Finally though it was time for FOOTBALL! I couldn't be upset on Football day. Something like that is un heard of. Today was our biggest game besides Oregon State and BYU. We played TCU who stomped all over Brigham Young and made them cry. haha I was way nervous going into this game. TCU has been on their game all season.
Kick off started off the game and TCU kicked a field goal. By the end of the first half we were playing like shit and the score was 10 to 6. There was a lot of false hope in our fans. We didn't think we were going to pull back with the way we were playing. Then from out of the sky a gift of something was delievered and we took the game 13 to 10. Keeping us Undefeated and 10-0. BYU you better be damn scared cause San Diego doesn't stand a chance.
U-T-A-H UTAH UTAH FIGHT FIGHT FIGHT!!
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-November 5th. Things started to turn around today. I had the chance to go up to the University to check out some Work Shops because of my ethnic. I had amazing time with my group of friends from school and had an amazing time in the work shops. I still understand why they put me in the Asian group? But it was a good ol laugh, and a fun time. I wish the day didn't end as soon as it did and I really wish school was like that everyday. Going back to a regular school day after this is really going to suck.
It was the first snow of the season and it has just been coming down ever since I woke up. Not going to lie I was pretty stoked on it. I had some good conversations with a lot of my friends and a very heart-to-heart conversation with a friend of mine that I only see at school. It was a little odd to talk about our love lifes and learn about eachother in those aspects. She didn't know how I was and I didn't know how she was. When it came down to it..we both had similar situations.
After ending an amazing day at school, I came to a warm house. Worried the rest of the day and fell asleep for the rest of the day.
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-November 4th. Bad day number two! Obama was elected president so that was defiantly a good thing. And finally got some things off my chest but I don't know what will happen in the future now that they are out there
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-November 3rd. Honestly one of my worst days. It started off pretty good and then some where, some how in Slcc Art I started thinking and I instantly got kicked off Cloud Nine. Everything I attempted to do was good, then some where in the middle of it all I would start thinking. End up giving up and half assing it so I could lie my head down and try to figure out why I'm like this. I'm pretty sure I know why but I don't even know. I miss last November....I wish this person was awake to help me through this. I hate writing about this terrible day. It's all sad and depressing; not my style at all and it pisses me off just reading it. Right now I'm too the point where I would give up everything I have just to have what I want the most. Just me against all odds. Fuck this day
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-November 2nd. I feared going to sleep on the night of November 1st. I knew I would be waking up to my last day with someone who means so much to me. I know the distance is becoming a big factor; fucking stupid miles! But other than knowing that, Kayla and I woke up pretty early, thank you to Adam G. I guess everyone peaced out a lot earlier than we did. But it was daylight savings, so we got an extra hour of rest. After about a few hours of talking to Kayla we cleaned and tucked away Fort Ricco for the last time this weekend. Ended up back in the apartment hanging out with everyone before we left. We made sure we had everything and packed up our bags for the last time.
Carlos came over to say by, cause he received a text from Adam G saying they were gone. Carlos got a call from some recording dude, and invited the remaining of us to come fill in for the chants! It was a go with the remaining crowd. We made sure everything was packed, and followed Carlos to the place. We got into this dudes house, I'm assuming. Waked into the kitchen to find his board and spoke about how we were going to do this. MFW set things up and we all gathered into a little room, listened to the beat through some old ghetto blaster head phones and let our sings scream out TOMORROW MEAN NOTHING TODAY IS ALL WE! We ended up doing another track and getting it to sound pretty fucking brutal.
After we recorded it was our time to finally leave. It took Kayla by suprise that it was happening this soon and quick. We had a good long goodbye and as tough as it is to say goodbye to the person you love. Not knowning when the next time you will see this person, and be able to feel the warmth and security in there arms really takes a toll on you. It defiantly makes you a stronger person though. In all aspects of traits. You can never compare what you have, to what I have. I will be a cocky asshole but what I have is better!
What I have > What you have!
I only feel like I can write down how I feel and the thoughts that rush through out my head about my experiences in my life. I can't even explain how happy I am that I started this 365 blog. It has taken a big part of my life to do something like this. To let my friends read what I write, and people who I hardly know. But I can't stop..... until then, write ya tomorrow!
-November 1st. I don't think there is any better way to start off a month, by waking up four or five times to the person you love and your friends coming in and out of Fort Ricco to say what's up and show their love. After Justin went on his walk him and Nato came by Fort Ricco to say what's up and see what was going on. Justin had some bad gas due to some Starbucks Coffee shots or some bullshit! I'm so honored to have the things I have in my life. I'm thankful for everyone who came down to Grand Junction with us. There was a lot of people who came that I haven't seen in weeks, and at the most months.
After cleaning and folding away Fort Ricco it was time to go inside: shower, eat, see everyone, and get ready for the day. Most of the day consisted of everyone coming in and out of Fort Ricco, watching t.v., playing video games, laughing, telling stories, and waiting in line to shower. It was a good day to catch up with everyone and just being around the ones who mean the most. We ended up doing this until it was time to go to xTyrantx.
We ended up hanging around the venue until the locals setted up. Justin, Kayla and I went off to go get some food. I don't know what everyone else did. Came back and enjoyed one hell of a show! Thank you for everyone besides some douche bags who played! I wish One Choice could have made it; but what can you do. There is always trouble on the road. Everyone else brought a show to remember. Thank you Made For War, Bring on the Night, Sworn For Chance, Some local band, THRIVE!!! and xTYRANTx for playing!
After the show we had some fun and laughs at some cornfed american faggs!
All met up at the house, showered and set up Fort Ricco. It's the best feeling knowing that you can tell your friends and family goodnight, that you love them all and you will see them in the morning. After everyone said goodnight it was time for me to go to bed. Kayla and I set up Fort Ricco, lyed down and had some talks I didn't expect. I couldn't ask for a more perfect thing =]
This wasn't even half of the cars we had, but this is all we had together at the moment!
