March is Spring Fever

-March 31st. It is finally time to announce another month is down in my books. This is going by so fast and I wouldn't trade anything from the life experiences I've had. This is my life and I'm not changing it. Thank you for reading -March 30th. Laundry Day -March 29th. I woke up pretty late to a call from Kadee. We chatted for a few minutes and I got out of bed and started watching The Office with my mom. We laughed and chatted for a bit and than she went and got my brother. While she left I jumped in the shower and cleaned the house. It made some time go by pretty quick so that was nice. After the house was cleaned and me as well. I sat down to keep watching The Office and have some Pb and J's. This was pretty much the whole day with talking to Kayla every other hour. -March 28th. Saturday and finally a chance for me to get out of the house all day. My whole family and Sheila's family was going to I think all our firsts' Roller Derby Match. It was quite the day! We got to watch girls throw and push other girls around. Our team ended up losing but it was still a good experience. After the Match my Mom, Sheila and I went to Chili's to get some dinner. It was some bomb ass dinner besides the faggot blue guys coming in and having dinner. At the end of dinner I went to the bathroom and I guess our waitress told my Mom and Sheila that her boyfriend beat the fuck out of her, went to jail and got released. Than went to the hotel that her and her kids were staying at and shot out the windows. Than she stated that she was scared because she got pulled into the office by her manager because he called and was flipping out. She was scared he was going to shoot up the place so we bounced out their really quick. Oh what a night -March 27th. Justin came over to visit because he hasn't bee out of West Jordan and no one has really visited me. We had some good talks while listening to some good ol' hardcore. We were to get some food and Ryan pulled in and I was like what the fuck? It was good to see Ryan, I haven't seen him in quite some time. We headed down to Noodles in Justin's rental car. We arrived there and once again Adam was working and I joked with him about this picture I found of him on Flickr. We got some food, sat down, chatted about what's been going on and hung out. On our way out Ryan noticed that he walked out with their cup and said fuck it. We went back to my place to hang out. I really wanted to go benching and some how The Wall of Fame got brought up. I said I knew where it was and we all have never been there so we were pumped. We drove up there and had some difficulty finding it but than we finally found it. It was the highlight of the day. It's been awhile since I've taken pictures and I finally got to start on my Panorama for School. I played in the River for quite some time. Ryan and I had a blast jumping from rock to rock and finding a bunch of random shit. That was pretty much the day. -March 26th. I got a Journal yesterday and left it with Kaysha by accident. I gave her the green journal. I received mine back today and I'm pretty pumped to start writing in that little guy when I travel. It is also officialy Spring Break now! SCORE; I get to sit inside the whole time with barely anyone who comes and visits. In 8 days though I get to see Kayla and than it's my birthday. So I'm getting ready for that. -March 25th. Went to the Springville Art Museum today with my school. That was pretty fun and it was a nice place with a bunch of great work. There was some stuff that me and my friends could have easily out done in there but it was nice to see the things we did. During lunch we stopped down in Provo and I ran down to Death or Glory to kick with the boys down there and made Breck take me to Wendy's. We had some good talks and I found out some stuff that has been happening in the South. Afterwards he took me to the bus and we headed home. It was a good day at school. -March 24th. It was just another Tuesday. House Arrest blows...I kinda wish I had a ankle bracelet so I can re-inact Disturbia. My neighbors aren't even interesting to try to find things out. Except for the people who live across from me. They leave their door open some times and their computer is right next to the couch. -March 23rd. It was the beginning of the week and I really wish Kayla would have got to stay another day because she didn't go to work. School was really the highlight because I found this litte thing on Flickr today during Commercial Art. -March 22nd. Dinner Date with Kayla was today. We woke up pretty early once again. We got ready and sat aruond the house, chatted with my Mom, cuddled, made jokes, ate popscicles and watched The Office. A little later Kayla and I was getting hungry and we decided to have Noodles and Company for a second night. We ordered in and Kayla went and got it. I told Adam to hook it up with some drinks so we got that for free. She came home and we had dinner together. We watched The Office and made silly jokes. I've never had something that means so much. I mean come on..we are adorable. -March 21st. After Kayla spent 4 hours in the car just to come see me and I talked to her mother most of the night we fell asleep and woke up pretty damn early. It was about 10 o'clock am and that isn't like us. We got ready, ate cereal and ventured around the house. Nato ended up showing up when we were getting ready and brought me food and kicked it with us for a bit. Kayla got upset with her friends and Nato and I cracked jokes and laughed. Around 2:40ish we all left. Nato left with Fat Anthony and we headed down town to get my hair cut. That was the highlight of the day. I've needed one so bad and I finally got it cut all off. Afterwards we all ordered in food for dinner. My Mom ordered Mexican Food and we ended up ordering at one location and than went to another. Kayla and I ordered in Noodles and Company because that's our thing. We stopped at 711 afterwards to get some drinks and headed home to watch The Office and eat. After dinner Kayla and I cuddled and made jokes. She ended up falling alseep on the couch while we were watching The Office and I went and got ready for bed. Kayla got up to join me and we sat in bed and talked. Nato called around like 2 and came over to spend the night. It was a good day at sea -March 20th. It was a beautiful day today and I have to sit inside all day. Fuck House Detention. Kimmeh came and visited me which was really nice. Since none of my other so called friends have. It's been relaxing I assume. I've done some reading, writing and have listend to a good portion of music. Later Kayla got on and informed that she was going to come down tonight because she couldn't take it anymore. It made the rest of my day -March 19th. HARRY SOLD OUT OF VEGETARIAN!!! Probably one of the greatest days of my life. Carnivores 1. Veg heads 0 -March 18th. After my allergies kicked in I came home and slept the rest of the day. I've been really tired lately -March 17th. Trying to get back into a routine with court shit on my mind. Honestly wish I would have stayed in Seattle and took some consequences. Least I would have my youth. -March 16th. Got home around 8ish from the Road and had court at 10. HOLY FUCK is it stupid as fuck. I don't even know where to begin with the shit they are trying to get after me. It doesn't even make sense...but as long as you have a badge, and a crooked system you can charge anyone with anything. FUCK YOU FUCKING FUCK! -March 15th. Woke up to our last day in Seattle. It was a day filled with rain. I didn't want to go back to Utah. Nato and I played a prank on our friends stating that we weren't coming home and that we were staying. So that was pretty fun. We drove around the city last time and got in our last photos. We stopped at the Harbor and looked over to Canada and than it was off to the baseball park. This trip had made my life. Fell asleep a few times on the way back, stopped in Portland and than came home. Fat Anthony got pulled over again and got a ticket this time. It was one hell of a road trip. -March 14th. This is all I have to say. This is the beginning and the ending of the day. FUCKING WOW! Fuck who you want to see. I stage dived and piled on with Terror. We are not tough, we are not hard, we are not cool, we are all fucked up kids. Doesn't matter if you have long hair, or short hair. Whether your light skin or dark skin. Or have a dick or a pussy...we are all fucked up kids who have gathered in one single place for one thing. Music. It was a good rainy day in a place I want to call home so badly. I've met some people and ran into a friend who left us all. It was nice meeting you Jaimie and Aubrey. It was also nice meeting all the locals. -March 13th. Around 10:30ish we were talking about what to do since Dan's parents have cracked down and got all strict. The boys started talking about a road trip. Everyone threw in their suggestions. First it was going to be Boise, than it went to Wyoming for fireworks, than Denver and finally Seattle was the last destination. Everyone was getting hypy; except for Ivan because he knew he couldn't go and had to sit home with gays. I told Nato and Anthony just to wait a day and I could go...we said fuck and we were going to talk my Mother into it tonight. We headed over to my house and got into my house. My Mom was walking around and we told her that we were going to Seattle. It took a minute for my Mom to realize what was going on and had to ask us multiple times if we were really going. We said hell yeah we weren't playing and all she said was "you have school". I told her that it was an un important day after Nato was answering all of the questions she asked me. I made a few calls and tried to get a hold of Melanie. But since she changes her number every other week I couldn't get a hold of her and had to leave her a voice mail. We packed our shit and grabbed our bags. After we got everyone that was going and was set on going. Nato called or received a call from Brian and we went and seen the new born baby. It's so weird to think that I'm so close to someone and they have a kid which is now going to be apart of mine and my friends lives. The baby is beautiful and has both features of Brian and Courtney. CONGRADULATIONS KIDS!!! We left the hospital to meet up with Anthony at his house. We threw his shit in the car and we headed down to Provo to pick up his friend Alicia. By the time we picked her up it was 1 o'clock and hit the road. The drive to Boise consisted of us guys singing N'sync and Backstreet Boys. We bumped a bunch of old tunes such as The Crannberries, Mortal Kombat(FULL FUCKING SONG), Space Jamz and than the typical road trip music: Trash Talk, Bracewar, (n1nth) cloud, and Y@K Ballz!. Somewhere after we got this boost of energy I was out like a light. Possibly an hour later I woke up to Anthony nudging me asking me if I could get in the glove compartment. I woke up and looked over to see red and blue lights flashing behind us. We laughed for a minute and I got to searching. The cop ended up coming on my side and it was really awkward. This took place around 5 am. Once again I was out for the rest of the trip. I would wake up to adjust and get situated, pick a song, and drink my orange shit. I was up for the rest of the trip a little while before we reached Portland. We drove around Portland for an hour trying to find the Mall. My good friend Melanie called us up when we were at the 711 and told us she was going to meet us at the mall. We got to the mall and it was ridicolous. It was a three story mall with a fucking ice rink in it. We complained about why our mall doesn't have one and than argued with a Phone Sales Man. We ended up walking around the mall and found this little Pirate Shop. It was very sweet little shop. Not to long after we kicked it in their Melanie and Jordan walked in. It was so nice to finally see this girl who has had such a big impact in my life. After four years we finally sealed something to do on our to do list. It was very nice to meet Jordan as well. He makes one of my best friends happy and has showed her what a real boyfriend can be like. Plus that mother fucker is taller than I thought. We chatted for a bit and laughed at dumb little things. We asked Melanie if she knew any vegan places for Anthony to eat at and made fun of him like we usually do for eating turtle food. After we got a few places for him to eat at. Jordan said we had to cross the bridge into the city. One of my favorite things about Portland so far had to be the bridges and the whole city. We arrived in the city and parked in China Town. We started our adventure from their to find this Veganoplis place. We stopped at a Starbucks to ask for directions and found out that the little vegans went out of business. We laughed our asses off and the guy gave us another place to eat. It was called Rocco's...it was a little pizza shop that had Vegan Pizza. This place was fucking bomb! It was pretty sweet though...The slices were bigger than our faces and they sold beer at this place. You don't get that shit in Utah. Pizza was amazing and was so close to the road it was like eating in the middle of traffic. Anthony didn't want to eat his Vegan pizza because it had mushrooms and some shit he didn't like. So Nato and I eat that shit! After we got food we went back down to Chinatown so Anthony could eat. That place was really creepy with some crazy asian lady on the tv. Once Anthony was done eating it was time to get on the road. We had three hours ahead of us due to traffic. I love the road more than anything. This road trip has to be one of my favorite trips. Just everything about the road is incredible. The nature, the bridges, the overpasses, the train tracks, the road and the images. I fell alseep on and off during the last three hours of the trip. We finally arrived to Seattle around 8 o'clock. We have drove around the city, ate food, got lost, checked out the Stratisphere and got a dope ass deal on a Hotel. We got a room with a King Size Bed. A hottub in the room and a extra bed. It's legit and probably the greatest thing to me right now. -March 12th. Today was a pretty good day. I got Married to Hannah in Adult Roles and for some reason found myself shaken. My mom checked me out right before lunch to deal with some things and I ended up going to lunch with my Mother and driving around talking. Once we did what we had to I went back to school to tell Shelly that I was done for the day and to talk to my brother. Afterwards I bumped into Hillary and spent half an hour talking to her. After school I had to take my brother downtown to get a hair cut. We ended up chatting and than coming home afterwards. I hung out by myself for a bit till my mom got home. Than we went to Jamba Juice, confirmed some paypal stuff and I ordered some clothes. Today was the first time I've had Jamba in almost a year. The last time I had Jamba was with Taryn around the ending of the school year. I ended up falling asleep and didn't finish my Jamba Juice. I'm pretty upset about it....than Nato came over and we ended up taking a mini-roadtrip through the canyon with Ivan and Jon Jon. It was a pretty laid back day. -March 11th. I spent the day with a friend who has become a good part of my life. He will be missed...I will write more later. -March 10th. Some of my friend Sara's writing. I really enjoy reading here writing. In a way it's been a big inspiration. -It's in the Wind I expect too much. from you, from me, from the world. I expect too much, but too much by their standards not mine. what I expect, what I need, what I know can and will happen, is not too much, but just enough. we are so much more. so much more than everyone says that we are and can be. what they tell me is beauty and joy isn’t enough for me. I must and will have more. and I will because the little gap in my heart that causes me so much pain, the skip in the record that needs to be filled, gives me room to find the extraordinary. and I will. my heart will feel more than you ever thought a heart can feel and my mind will see things that no one even knew existed: the little gossamer threads that tie life together, and which, if you don’t look carefully enough, you will miss as you see things moving in space and not the ties that bind them. just watch me. -March 9th. About an hour into the day I'm glad to call it a day. It was planned to be a "headache day" and sure enough that's what it has been. The headache has came, thoughts have rushed, Shook Ones has played my Ipod out. It's times and nights like these were I don't feel much. My Ipod repeats my favorite songs and bands like a broken record. My hair gets dirty and I procastinate on taking off my socks. I get hot and cold flashes that torture me into ripping off and throwing on my Champion Hoodie. Is this the Change I've been looking for? Or is this what I've been destined to do? Is this your so former God's punishment for me not being able to look up and call him Father? I'm only a brother; and no Son. I've forgot what's it's been like to be a Son cause my Father was never there. I've become a Brother among families and families. I'm still moving things for my chance....moving things to put in the perfect place to make me. I've made a name for myself and I've started to do something with my life. I will be remembered in someones eyes....I just hope they remember me enough to visit my tombstone and celebrate my death. That's a thought that has scared me into not sleeping. Will people say they miss me enough to visit my death bed? Or use me as a way to get out of work and school? Answers and thoughts that keep me up throught the night I call sanctuary. You know the quote from Stand By Me and how you never have the friends you do when your twelve? I thought about it today for some odd reason more than others. The other night I had a dream, I guess even a nightmare. I was in my old neighborhood and they were tearing my friends old house down. And for some reason we went in it...I don't know for memories or just to break things but I was walking up the stairs with someone..someone who is a blurr to me. We were walking up the stairs to the second floor. Which would lead to Justin and Brennan's bedroom. There was family pictures of this family that was almost my family. For some reason I broke down...I cried my eyes clean. Since that dream I've thought about the Helstein family and how much I miss them. That family was supposed to be there forever. I was supposed to Jr. High with my bestfriend. Go to school dances, experience growing up forever. They moved away and I haven't heard from them in years. I don't know if this has to do with being a Senior and almost graduating. But it's starting to hit me. The closest people I've had in my life have seemed to go on to bigger and better things. It gets to me...what do I have to look foward too? It scares me sometimes -March 8th. A Sunday with an overcast that showed my life in the heavens above. It showed blue skys with shades of grey. The only thing I've been looking foward to. Y@K BALLZ! with the boys. A last minute show and one artist I thought I would have never seen. It was a good day down at the shop. Nato and I got in dirt cheap because we are homies and went down to Carl Jr's to get some food. I've always felt dirty when I eat there...I don't know why but I feel homeless or scummy. The show was amazing, KOSHA DILLZ was sick. Check out that lil jewish homie. Nice guy great music. From Definition opening up, to open mic and watching friends and strangers freestyle to Kosha Dillz was amazing but during Y@K's set I started getting that feeling...the same feeling of when you don't get a call from a loved one, the same feeling of being away from home as if you are a runaway, the same way you feel when you look back at the friends you once had or even the promises your parents coulnd't keep. Music is my life...and I got put in this mood for one song. I seen the disapointment in my friends eyes when the set was over and he still hadn't played that one song. Once he thanked everyone and brought up that the song that wasn't played and why it hadn't been played. He told the story of why he was now going to play it. The excitement and sparkle in my friends eyes and including of mine made all of those past feelings of insecurity and of confusement away. Y@K played "Spy On You" and that was the night. Plain and simple. From beginning to the end. You have to know my friends, the memories that song has and brings. The meaning...the night -March 7th. Woke up and started playing some Halo. Jumped in the shower and got ready. Nato got home right when I got done getting ready and started back up my Halo Game. We went and got food and than went to a party for his friends. I ended up knowing some people from the party and they were people I haven't seen since they graduated or moved. It was a pretty ok night... it's always nice to get away from things and surround yourself with people who don't know you outside of those walls. It was like the party scene from SLC Punk. I was Herion Bob and didn't say much. It was in reality a weird night. Afterwards we met up with everyone at CC and tried to decide what to do for the night. We sat around and chatted. Nato, Alyssa?, and I went back to Brians to call it a night. I watched Stand By Me as they fell asleep. After the movie I played some Halo and than fell asleep with my two blankets feeling completely alone. -March 6th. It was a blurr really... -March 5th. Fashion show, with Keylow and Werst. -March 4th. I headed down to BFE with Werst to photograph this thing he was painting for a Fashion Show. The day started off pretty good and than it got really cold. We met one of the biggest dogs ever. A stray dog that looks like you would find it running on the Train Tracks, and probably some of the nicest people/hippies ever. Once it started getting cold we built one of the ghettoest huts ever. We decided if we were homeless we would do it easily. It was ghetto but was legit as fuck and kept us warm as the Sun came down and the storm pushed it's way in. We finished around 6ish and had to wait a few hours for a ride. We doodled in some magazine and I ended up passing out. Around 8ish we left and finally got to come home. We got free passes to the Fashion show tomorrow though and had a lot of pizza. I was out like a light bulb as soon as I got home. I got some sleep that I've really needed but still need more. -March 3rd. I couldn't get much sleep today. I went to bed an hour before I had to be up for school. -March 2nd. I've looked back on prior events in the last months that I started this 365 blogging project. I I'm so glad everything that has happened so far has happened. These last couple of months things have been good for me. I love every life I lead and every culture I have. There are more days I cherish than others. You probably wouldn't know it because they barely happen. I'm sure only a handful of people know when I love my life and the people who surround me. From the thought of what my Aunt Tami told my Mom. I'm glad people can look at my life or read about it and envy what I have. It seems very simple and care free but at the end of the days I still have the same problems and thoughts a fully complexed person has to deal with. These last couple of Months I've kinda been getting sick. Sick with this routine. It's a constant routine of school, breaks, hang out, friends, girlfriend, emotions, and stress. I love my road trips; they are probably only thing that has kept me sane except for the days I spend with the old hang out kids from Uprok. Everyone has been so hyped up on "Change" and how we need it. Where is my Change at? I'm still waiting for something new and don't know how much longer I will be able to wait. Patientance is something I've mastered growing up...but it's starting to run out as the days and the same routine drags on. I need something....I need another breath of fresh air. In a way I'm honestly lost with myself. I don't know what I want...it could be the Change and not about Obama. To sum up how things are though other than my wishing for "Change". It's perfect and going really good. I'm still connected to my Mom, Lorenzo and the rest of my Family. My friends have been getting to me and I'm still trying to find my niche. My art and culture are going very well and I will be entering a Weber State Univeristy Art thing coming soon. School is also almost done and I'm slowly crossing days off the calendar. My hair needs a haircute and I will possibly help out Christina with a modeling thing in about two weeks. I will also be helping her add a few more things to her shop. If you are a local and need a haircut check out Kaos Saloon. We are bringing the Salt Lake City life back into our lives. Denver Roadtrip needs to come faster than two weeks as well. RAIN FEST! I only have a few months left and that year wait for Europe really needs to speed it's process up. I've become close to new people and I hope they become more apart of my life. And my Ipod seriously won't die! Now that you've read that all and might be a little lost. This is Ricco. This is who I am. This is my Spring Cleaning. Nothing has felt better than this! I've become a lover of our Utah Valley Polution. It always seems to come in at times like this in my life. It's like the dirt in my life. Soon it will be gone and will be back to blue skys. I will always have my blue skys to look up too! -March 1st. This month started off on a Sunday; and what a glorious Sunday might I add. It was an nice grey and overcast sky. I spent the day with Kayla. We laid around the whole bed holding eachother for seconds upon minutes wishing we wouldn't have to let go of eachother. Around 6ish we decided to start moving around and make some food. I picked up around the house and grabbed our blankets, Kayla made us some pb and j's and I got the milk and chips. We went to our tradition of wrapping up in our blankets, eating food, and watching a movie. After our little snack Kayla and I cuddled and watched Baby's Mama Kayla ended up leaving around 7 or 8ish. After she left I came back in my house to finish Baby's Mama and called Hannah. We chatted about our project and after 30 or 45 minutes of talking about the assignment she ended up coming over. We chatted for a bit and finished Baby's Mama. My mother ended up coming home a little later and we all laughed and talked. Hannah left an hour after and I went and got dinner. Ended up coming home and finished the first day of my Spring Fever. I'm way past due for Spring!

February

-February 26th. It was the last day of the school week. We have Friday off due to parent teacher conference. My proposal turned out really cute and good. I had the best one in the class and showed a lot of people of who I really am. The day ended and I came home to help my Grandparents with some things. Had some lunch and fell asleep till 6. We were having pizza tonight for movie night. Ashlyn and McEllie stopped by again cause they were in the neighborhood. It was a really laid back night. I kept falling asleep, Lydia called, talked to some old friends and now I will finish my night with talking to Kayla. -February 25th. My grandparents are in town and are staying with us till they leave. We had some amazing mexican food just as I remember growing up and eating at their dinner table. We all sat around and chatted, watched American Idol and more. Ashlyn and McEllie came over to play with my Super Heros and then left. Later in the night my Grandma and I went to the store to get some supplies for my proposal. I know your thinking your only 17! Why you getting married and to who? It's not a real proposal. It was an assignment for my Adult Roles class so you don't have to worry reader. My Grandma helped me get things ready for the proposal. It turned out perfect. I was really satisfied with it. -February 24th. Tiefighter played tonight and it was amazing. I thought they were playing yesterday cause I thought it was the 24th than but it wasn't. Around 5ish we headed down to Provo for the show. It was Nato, Cody, B-Money and I all in the car. We called up Adam G and we decided to pick him up on our way down. Once we picked him up and was about to get back on the freeway we stopped at the gas station for gas, drinks and sweets. B-Money and I walked over to Mickey D's to grab some food before the show. As usual the rest of the car ride was sing-a-longs and good ol talks. We finally arrived in Provo and Pier 49 was actually letting people inside before the show. It defiantly beat the cold. All the bands played good tonight. Urban Terror jumped on stage in between one of the bands and did a Bearclaw cover. All the bands played and I couldn't wait till TieFighter. Finally Tiefighter was up and I was pumped. Not a whole lot of people knew about Tiefighter. So it was Nico, Mark and I running around all pumped and singing along. They played an amazing set and every song I wanted to hear. Defiantly one of my favorite bands that I have seen live and some very nice guys. That was my night and how I wish I could relive it!! -February 23rd. It was Monday. The highlight of today was that I went bowling and beat everyone on my team once again! After school I went to Brians and hung out with Nato for a bit. Brian and Courtney came home and Nato had to go to work. I ended up falling asleep while Brian played Fight Night. They were leaving and I had Brian drop me off at home. I slept for the rest of the day and woke up at 11:23ish and checked some stuff, talked to some kids and did my daily routine. I just hope I will be able to fall asleep tonight and not reply yesterdays night. -February 22nd. It wasn't your average Sunday. I was up by 12 trying to work on some stuff that needed to be done. Things weren't going the way they were suppose to so I gave up on it for the day. Once I got back home I got ready for the day and waited till Nato came and got me. We hit up the bank and it was off to Uprok. We arrived at the shop and it was dead closed. We called up our homie and asked how this was suppose to go down. He told us and than told us to come over to Model Citizen and kicked it while they worked on some stuff. Nato and I started walking and Dekoi came flying by honking his horn and screaming. We kept walking to our destination and found all the homies painting. Days like these are just a break from my day to day routine. It was a nice overcast day and we just got to kick it with a good set of kids. Stem, Anemal, Dekoi, Kier, Phuze, Gilby haha, Demr, and Kuhr was getting down on the wall. This would be the first time I would meet Kuhr and finally get to watch him paint out of the 7 or 8 times I've missed the oppurtunity. That dude is probably one of the funniest people I've ever met. It was more fun talking to him than watching him paint. After hanging out a bit at the wall Nato and I were getting pretty hungry and went to grab some food at Burger King. We got there and ordered our food. Some homeless fool one a free Whopper by playing that quarter game with the spinning axel. All of the homeless people were celebrating and were pumped off the win haha. It was pretty funny to watch this all go down. Nato and I ate pretty much our Dinner and than bounced over to Uprok to kick it with everyone and wait for the show to start. We hung out for another 45 minutes while we waited for the guys to get to Salt Lake City. They arrived and were getting set up. It was finally time to have this show that we've all waited for. Egadz! through down first and holy shit was that dude amazing. I wanted him and Broken to battle but it didn't go down. After Egadz! Broken played a few tracks and then FINALLY (n1nth) cloud got up and killed it as usual. It's always a good time when our homies from the East come down to play. Restiform was like 3OH!3 and no one was getting in to it. We left pretty early during that set after chatting with broken, grounded, norm and egadz. We went back to my house to through some stuff down on itunes and hang out. The show was out way early so there was plenty of time in the night just to hang out. It was a nice way to end this eventfufilled week. -February 21st. Today felt like a Sunday. It was a laid back day. I hung out with my mother for most of the day. Nato called me up stating there was a slight chance that we might be heading up to Grand Junction. He came and got me and went over to Brians to bbq and play things by ear. His woman couldn't make the trip so we ate and hung out for the whole night. That was most laid back Saturday I have had in awhile. It was nice to have things not so cluttered and peaceful. -February 20th. We all woke up around 1ish 2ish and watched Step Brothers. Everyone got ready and we had some cereal. My brother came home and than my mother and we all visited for a bit. C-los and the girls decided they were going to hit the road. They all left around 4ish. After they left I called up Nato to come get me. It was Brian's birthday today. Everyone was over at the house for this event. Brian got birthday beatings, we played video games, ate food, laughed and etc. Later in the night we all went to the gym to play some basketball. We played a good hand full of games and called it a night. We bounced back to Brians once again and everyone did their own things. A few people left and the rest played games. Around 2 or something we decided to go back to the gym to play some more ball, hot tub, swim and sit in the steam room. We were at the Gym for pretty much the rest of the night. I didn't end up coming home till 4 am and passing out. It was a long and nice day. -February 19th. Today felt like a Friday to me considering it was only Thursday. I got checked out for 8th period and Jeze and I went to Ihop to get some food and visit. We chatted with Dallas and I got a Sundae. It's been at least 5 years since I've had a Sundae. So this topped the day off as the cherries topped my Sundae! I came home and straightened up the house because Kayla was coming in town. After I picked up the house I ended up falling asleep. I got some hours in and I woke up to Nato and everyone banging on my door. It was time to mob down to Provo. We had some good talks on the way down and laughs. Once we made it into town we did the usual and stopped at Death or Glory to see the boys. It was just another night at the shop. Ronnie and Breck weren't doing to much, Coach was getting inked and we hung out. Soon it was time for us to head down to the show. We arrived with Nico and Dan running around and shared our exchanges of I miss you and How have you been's. We paid got in; I got to see Kayla, old friends and had a good time. Open Fire is dope as crack. hahah I'm glad I got to see those boys live and hopefully they will take my word and jump on Rain Fest. So we will see what the future has for that to come! I Declare War was amazing. Everyone got real hyphy, John(singer) kicked me in the leg, I busted Corbin's lip open, circle pits, two steps and a variety of other things happened. At the end of their set we made them play one more and than everyone kicked it acopella to FireStorm. We ended up hanging out at the Ozz for a few hours. We all just kinda chatted while watching the local samoan's play ping-pong and pool. Got to listen to some good ol Reggae, and had some good laughs. Everyone was going to get a hotel and go down to Salt Lake City and hang out but things ended up changing. So another hour went by and we all got hungry and decided to head down to Brians. We arrived and he was cutting his hair, we asked him if he wanted to go get dinner for a little Birthday thing. He was down so we all headed to Denny's. Dinner was the perfect thing to do after the show. C-los is my boy...that's all I gotta say! When we went to pay we ended up buying a Shammork and put it on the wall. Once dinner was settled in everyone's stomachs we went back to Brians to play video games and hang out. I got a Running Riot! Another way to end the night. Than C-los, Holly, Kayla and I decided to go to my house to get some sleep. We arrived home and set up our beds, had some water and watched Step Brothers. Kayla and I didn't end up going to bed till like 8 tops. Today was a good day! -February 18th. Around 6 o’clock yesterday I gave one of my good friends a call to see what was going on for the night. He was at a friends birthday party and had to go pick up Ivan. He told me that today was the day that we were taking Ivan out to Vernal. I told him that I was up for the trip and I would give him company for the road. Everyone met up at my house around 7 o’clock and got on the computer so that we could Map Quest the fastest way possible for the drive. Nikki ended showing up a little bit later to I guess to drop off her Jetta. She bought everyone snacks and drinks and I thought she was going to come along for the trip. She had other plans though I guess. She had to deal with some relationship problems with one of my friends. So she went on her way and we got in the Jetta and started our adventure. We stopped at Wendy’s to get some food for the drive. We cracked some jokes with the lady at the drive-in and had some good laughs, paid for our food and started our way up the Canyon. By the time we arrived in Park City my stomach was killing me. Eating 25 chicken nuggets, large fries, and a large Coke wasn’t feeling to nice. I’ve never been so full in my life. I could barely finish my dinner; I had to give out some of my food to the other guys cause I couldn’t finish. I pulled my sit back to relax and at least attempt trying to get comfortable. We drove for hours and finally ended up in some town. Nato filled up with some more gas and asked the lady for directions. We got the directions and we were off, a few hours went by and we knew something wasn't right. We stopped and waited for a car so we could flag them down. Come to find out we were going the wrong and was on our way to Moab. -February 17th. I don't remember -February 16th. Justin, McEllie, Ashlyn came over and we had pizza and hung out. -February 15th. I don't recall what happened. -February 14th. Happy Valentines Day! I started mine off around 2 o'clock this morning. Kayla had been working on a suprise for me all night and it was just perfect. She is my first Valentine I've ever had and the first person to actually give a Valentines gift. Well besides the elementry Valentine's day where you would build boxes for other students to put cards in. I love you Kayla Rae Anderson so much! Later is when the rest of the day will go down. So I will be killing time until the Sun decides to call it a rest and give the other side of the world some love. -February 13th. Finally the week was over. I was supposed to head over to Josie's to kick it with her and P.O.S but I couldn't get a hold of her. I talked to Kayla while I was trying to get everything planned out and than I finally decided that I didn't want to go to the show anymore and I would rather spend the day talking to Kayla. Kayla and I talked till she had to go eat dinner. I took this oppurtunity to go get my mother and I dinner. Mom ordered pizza and twenty minutes later I had to go pick it up. I arrived at the place and had to wait another ten minutes because some lady ordered 28 LARGE PIZZA'S!! It was the most ludicris thing I've ever seen. They hooked it up with a free 2 liter of soda though. Afterwards I came home and had dinner with my mom. Once I was done with dinner Kayla and I talked for a bit more before I headed over to Brians. I was there for a bit and than Nato and I went to go get Ivan from work. We headed over there and arrived early; so we went drove down the street to get some drinks and than to go get Ivan. While we were at 711 I your teamed Nato with some gross classy Juggalo's! Nato wasn't too happy! Ivan called shortly after and we went back down the street to pick him up. He headed over to Alyssa's afterwords so Ivan could spend time with his women. We did this for the rest of the night and than I came home. When I cam home my night wasn't even close to being done. I logged in and sure enough my love was still up working on my Valentines Suprise. She finished it up and we spent the rest of the night talking and ended up falling asleep on the phone together. Ending my nights with her like that makes 280 miles worth the wait. -February 12th. I hung out with the usual -February 11th. This last week pretty much I haven't felt like writing. I still have that feeling of where I feel something wrong but I still can't place my finger on it. -February 10th. It was nice to be home. There was a part of me that felt like there was something wrong. I ended up crying to my mom and calling it a day. It was a weird day. -February 9th. Hung out at the Denver Mall all day. Nato met up with this girl he knows, walked around, got kicked out of the mall, got food, and came home in terrible snow conditions and a bunch of good times in the car. -February 8th. I thought we were supposed to be heading home today. The guys had different plans though. We weren't leaving till Monday. We hit up a mall close to where we were staying, made jokes with Hollywood because we were "famous" people. Laughed a shit ton. Came home to play a pick up game and drink hot co-co. The night was just a hang out night. We watched Cloverfield, and whatever was on the t.v. It was a pretty relaxing night just hanging out with the guys. -February 7th. Ivan woke me up around 9 to take him to work. My knee was killing me and it took about 10 minutes to get out of the door. I dropped him off and came home to pass out. Later I got a call from the homies asking if I still wanted to go to Denver. I said I didn't know if I wanted to because of my knee and I had no money. We left it at that and a "I'll call you back" within an hour I got a call saying it fuck it dude! You need to come with us. So I packed my bags up and waited for David. David arrived a few hours later with Anthony and we hit up the gas station and Mickey D's to get some food. We got another call saying that Anthonee wanted to go so we went and got him. Afterwords it was finally time to hit the freeway. We were on the road forever! We had our road trip songs, talks and our moments of watching David push his car to the max. It was only 125 but we were making some damn good time. Wyoming is the most boring place to drive through! We ended up getting pulled over for doing 107 and tailing to close to the car in front of us. The officer was a real asshole and demanded that we paid 290$ in cash right there or we were going to jail. David only had his debit card and asked if he could go get cash. The officer told us to go back to the truck stop and he would follow. It was some real bullshit. After the cop took the money we were free to go on our way. We picked up some treats and talked shit on the cop and got back on the road. For the rest of the drive I dazed in and out of sleep, sang songs with the boys and laughed. We were pretty close to Denver when we got the call from Nato and the guys saying that we needed to hurry because there was two bands before CDC. We arrived in time to this little Punk House/Place. It was not so much diverse as California. Just a whole lot of punks. We chatted with CDC and some other dude who was selling old merch from bands that he had collected over the years. The bands that we got to watch was very good. A fight broke out between a hardcore kid and some punk during CDC. That was pretty funny, other than that it was a damn good show and look for me on the CDC Dvd!!!!! Afterwards we headed on down to our Motel. Nato almost killed us and went down a one way street which was pretty funny looking back at it. We arrived at Royalty Palace. This place was straight up Ghetto. You know the Motels people stay at in the movies? With blood stains and gross carpet and just nasty. Well this is what we got! We didn't believe the guys when they told us the room was horrid. We seen it for ourselves though when we arrived. The night went on and people made their trips to the gas station and other places. We spent most the night laughing and talking. Nato passed out to the point where we thought he was dead. Joe started dancing naked over Nato and doing Power Squats. I've never had a night where I've laughed so hard. Nato ended up waking up later in the night after we had a blast in the ghetto of Colfax. We showed him the video and Nato was furious. Nato wanted to mace Joe, but I recommend the fire extinguisher and Nato sprayed Joe down with it setting the fire alarm off that we thought was broken. It was one hell of a night in Colfax. Afterwards we left to get food and I should have been on my way to Grand Junction. But there was a big part of me that was telling me that I shouldn't. I followed my gut and stayed with the boys. David called in some places and got his hook ups and we got a real hotel that we could check into later. Nato, Cody and I headed back to the ghetto, got ready for bed and got a call saying come to the new hotel. They are letting us check in early! We bounced on down there to get a good morning of sleep. What a first day in Denver!!! -February 6th. The last day of the week and the first day to kick off the weekend. School went by slow as it could. After school I spent the time picking up the house for my Mother and getting my clothes ready for the Viewing. I ended up taking a little power nap. I woke back up to my Mom asking me if I knew what the time was and had to get going. I headed down the Viewing and actually went to the wrong Funeral Home so that was awesome and awkward. I called Lyndsey and found out where it was and got down there. I visited for a minute and paid my respects. I don't like the feeling of death. I don't like being in it's presence. I've escaped it plenty of times and I don't like that fact that nothing is forever. It brought a lot of the Nichols Family together. Family came across the states to see their loved one. I had a few tears shed on my shoulders and had to go. After changing out of my dress clothes it was time to go the show. The show was good besides the fact that I hurt my leg. I was bummed on that one; because that is the first time that I've ever been hurt at a show. Afterwords Kayla and I came back to my house and tried to spend as much time possible together before they had to go later that night. Once she left Ivan and I headed downtown to resolve some things at Nikki's. We had some damn good talks, met up with everyone and hung out. Later we went to Beto's and talked to some crazy crackhead and than came home. Ivan and I chatted some more while I iced my knee and laughed at Step Brothers. It was one way to start the weekend off. -February 5th. My last and final day to sleep in I passed up and didn't even go to school today. Today I mobbed down to Layton with a bunch of the homies to paint Propaganda Skate Park in Layton. I got a call around 8:30ish from Scr. 01 telling me to get up and he is coming to get me regardless. I got ready, ate some breakfast and watched a little bit of Step Brothers. With in a couple of hours him and Werst had arrived at my house to pick me up. We headed out around 11 and we started the drive by stopping at NPS to meet up with Dekoy and the rest of the homies. We arrived and chatted for a bit, we had to go pick up some kids so we got back in our cars and headed that way. We drove in a circle for a bit for some odd reason. Once we had everyone in the cars and had filled up the tanks, it was time to hit the Free-way and head on down to Layton. Scrubs, Werst and I ended up chatting the whole way up their while drinking our powerade and pepsi's and trying to catch up to Dekoy's van because that steez can haul ass!!! About a half hour later we arrived to our destination. This place was HUGE!!! It was a very nice set up for a indoor skatepark. Everyone chatted with eachother to find out who was doing what and who wanted what spots. Dekoy talked to the owner to see what he wanted and he wanted a big roller on the floor that said Propaganda. Phuze thought it was stupid idea and told the dude straight up. Scrubs, Werst and I went to the store to get some supplies and get some paint. We drove around for a good twenty minutes trying to find a store and than we found a Lowes. We mobbed up in their, went to the bathroom and than picked out the color for the paint. Once the paint was mixed up and we had our supplies and Scrubs was done throwing cards down isles we checked out and bounced to get Wendy's. Once we picked up food it was time to go back to Propaganda and get started. By the time we arrived back the boys had already started on the floor. A few other kids had started painting in the back. A few others were hitting the ramps and this went on for hours before the other set of us bounced home. Werst ended up getting sick so I finished his fill and we got things done a little faster. It was about 11 o' clock before we called it a day and everything was done. We cleaned up our mess and headed home. Werster fell asleep in the back; Scrubs and I had a life talk and it was a good one. I'm very glad I had the chance to hang out with these kids. It's been awhile and I'm not giving it up. -February 4th. Today was the second day of sleeping in till 9! I love having testing passed off and not having to worry about it. School was school and went by like usual. It seems to go by a lot faster when you don't think about Summer Break so much. Nikki and ABC came and got me and we headed to the mall. We stopped at Wal-Greens before so we could develope our pictures from the day before and headed to the mall. We were at the mall for quite a bit and than we bounced up to Nikki's and hung out. We ended up watching Requiem for a Dream and what a trip that movie was. I'm so glad I don't know anyone close that goes through that or have lost anyone in my life to something like that. It was a pretty laid back day. We went back to the train yard again but just to watch trains pass on by. It gave me the idea of getting a train set track. Like dumb little train sets that old people have. Yeah that's what's up!!! -February 3rd. Today was the first day of being able to sleep in till 9! The Grand Slam thing was going down at Denny's but I took sleeping in over food. School was pretty good and pretty quick. I came home and hung out with my Mom for a bit. We had dinner and than Nato and Nikki came and got me. Nikki stumbled upon my Fish eye camera and instantly requested that we go take pictures. I grabbed four rolls of film, the camera and we were gone. We got about half way down to Salt Lake before Ivan called us up asking if we could buy some pizza's for the kids he works with because he doesn't know how to cook. We made a U-Turn on 7th and headed to Little Cesars, got the pizza and headed to Ivan's work. Once we arrived we gave him 1PAC-Man pizza, and 1 complete pizza and than bounced back to Sl. We arrived at the train yard and took pictures for a bit and than bounced back to the car. Afterwards we bounced on over to Brian's to hang out and so Nato could get a haircut. Today was a very good day; you have no idea all what happened. Nikki gave me a Spa Facial and it was way relaxing. It was a first for me and I highly recommend it. Courtney has some bomb popscicles by the way and the damn pizza bites burnt my mouth. (photo taken by: Ricco Cordova 9/02/09) Today was a good day. -February 2nd. You know that feeling right before you get sick of having a heavy head and feeling slow? That's how all today was. I only did an hour of remediation and found myself stumbling to my bed when I arrived home. I slept for a good couple of hours and awake and 8 to get dinner. After dinner Ivan and Devin showed up to visit soon. It was a pretty damn good day besides the fact that I felt like a bag of bricks. -February 1st. I was supposed to get up and walk trax with Nick and take some flicks. I evidently decided not to get out of bed and feel my body weight sink lower into my mattress. I was way to tired to get out of bed. Kayla ended up getting me out of bed with a phone call. I miss her so much... Nadia, Michelle and Chelsex was supposed to come over but didn't because Nadia is lame and had homework. I headed up to Nikki's so I could get my headphones. Chatted for a bit and than Devin and Ivan showed up. I hung out for a little longer and than bounced to come home. Lyndsey and Micheala came over for a bit and chatted. It was a good nice little visit and that's all what happened. It was an easy going Sunday but a very good one to start off the first day of February. I'm getting closer and closer to being done with this 1 year project.

January

-January 31st. My alarm clock woke me up around 10:46ish. I pushed snooze and ignored it. I would wake up everyone so often to check the time. Before I knew it; it was almost 2 or three. I found myself helplessy falling asleep. Later on I woke up once again. But this time to my fan being shut off. I turned over and it was fucking Nato. He had wondered over to hang out and go to the show. I got out of bed through some clothes on and started getting ready. Nato and I chatted a bit and then got fucked up on Life. We had a few bowls of Life Cereal (cinnamon style). Afterwards I finished getting ready. It got to the point where Nato called everyone who was supposed to ride up with us and NO ONE answered. Nato was pretty furious and was like fuck dude, do you just want to head up there right now? I said I'm down. I grabbed my hoodie and my camera and we left. We chatted for most the ride and played some The Mood and bumped some funky beats. Once we got to about 106th Ivan called Nato to see where we were at. Nato told them that we were on our way down there already. We almost had to turn around to go get him but he found a ride down. Nato and I pulled over to the Chevron to fill up the tank and grab some drinks. Once we had our Pepsi Cola, oil in the car, and gas we were back heading south. We still talked, laughed and listened to music till we got to Provo. We arrived in Provo City and headed over to Death or Glory to see what was happening. It was 80's day at the shop. Ronnie and Ernest were Blades of Glory, Mike was of course "Coach". We were at the shop for quite a bit which conisted of hanging out, laughing, talking and watching some pretty funny videos. Provo's B-Money is so much better than Salt Lake B-Money; sorry homie. After Mike free styled some Straight Edge Acoustic shit Nato and I headed over to this girls house he knew. No one knew how to drive in the city. Nato was telling all the BYU fans that we were better cause we are 14 and 0. I had to correct him and let him know that we are 13 and 0. We laughed for a moment and than I got a call from a really close friend with some really bad news. I'm so sorry this has to happen to you. I can't explain my sorrow and wow. To have a bestfriend already be in a coma, and than a family member who is so close to you take a fall, have brain damage, and not make it. I honestly don't think you could understand what my friend is going through. I give you my wishes and the best of luck for the situation. Only time can tell what happens. After the call Nato and I talked and than we were finally at her house. Walking up her drive way was death. I honestly don't see the point of a drive way so long and why it has to be on a slant. We hung out for a bit there because Nato and her had to talk some things out. I hung out listening to music and eating peanuts. Nato was finally ready to head down to the show so we did. We headed over to Pier 49 Pizza and arrived shortly. The place had to be lame and call themselves a "business" so the only way you were getting in that place is if you were in a band. Other than that you had to buy something to get in. We arrived around 7 something and EVERYONE had to wait outside till about 9. Most of everyone went to the Food and Drug Store to hang out and warm out. Cory and I hung out in his tonka truck and blasted the heater. We talked shit on everyone outside freezing their balls off and listend to Lionheart. We got out of the car and started talking to everyone and just hanging out. This went on for a good amount of time. Saying what up to people you haven't seen in awhile, making sure everything was good in their lives and you know how all that goes. Ivan and I decided to head over head over the Store to get some foods and drinks. Dizzle and Glasses came with us. We arrived there and it was like the "Cool Spot" to be. EVERYONE in their god forsaken minds was in there. We got what we needed and bounced over to the Bk Lounge because we wanted some good food that was cheaper. We arrived and there was a bunch of scenesters up in their and fucking C-Los and Toby. We had some big hugs and way too many laughs. Ivan got come cheeseburgers for us and I stole Toby's Fries and his Straight Edge Drank. Some time passed and we were having a good time in the Bk Lounge and finally decided to head back to Pier 49. We got back and had to wait in line for quite a bit. After yelling at chick watching the door and calling her a bunch of dirty names. Yes I know it was inapproiate and offensive but we were having a good time. The doors finally opened. Money was thrown down, hands were stamped, people were moving. It was such a good turn out; I'm going to have to say probably one of our greatest turn outs. We packed that place fool. We had two stories full of people. Feign opened the place going and got shit moving. It was the first for our homie Anthonee and it was a good ol time. After Feign Fear Me Dear, Decima and Bring on the Night played. During Bring on the Night a fight broke out and it was fucking Nato this time. I guess some chick got pushed and her mexican friend or boyfriend thought he could get tuff and push Nato. Nato was furious and went ape shit. I was in the front, right behind BOTN and stood up on the chair to watch half my friends pull Nato back from tearing this kid apart. The set was done and we all went outside to get the scoop. While we were outside I guess some shit went down inside and we came back in and that same bitch was talking shit to Anthonee this time. Dan P wasn't having that shit so punched a bitch for not being on her lease and a few other kids cracked her in the mouth and it was pushed outside. Security thought they were cool cause they had hammers and could shut the show down. We all shared a good laugh and some are you ok's and headed back in side. A little later Joe came inside and was like dude I just stole these Rock Stars from the store and told them to fuck off. Not even 15, 20 minutes later the BLUE GUYS showed up. They pulled Joe outside and were talking to him. Adam G, Jake, Dizzle and a few others watched from the window. They turned Joe around and started putting the cuffs on. I grabbed Adam and told him we need to find Matt or Toby and let them know. We took off and found them. Let them know what was up. I headed outside to put a hold on the arrest and the security guards were fucking dick heads. FUCK THEM TOO! Finally I got to an Officer and told them hey you need to wait so we can let who he came with what was going on. They put Joe in the car and we ended up talking to the police. To see the fear in someones eyes of being arrested is the worst fucking feeling. Especially when you have been put in that position of being placed in cuffs. The cop drove off and headed to the grocery store and Toby and I started laughing. Not too much later Joe came flying in the venue saying FUCK THE POLICE! THEY CAN'T HOLD ME DOWN! haha it was a good time. This mu'fucka didn't get shit. He got off clean. It was good to know that a close friend wasn't going to be spending the next week in Utah County Jail. Made for War was up next and the ones who have supported these fucking Grand Junction homies we call our brothers and family (YES INCLUDING YOU MATT). The set started off and Matt's michrophone was being lame and we couldn't hear him. Adam G and I tried telling the sound dude and he was a fucking douche bag. FUCK THAT GUY! We got someone to get the mike working and it Game on. I'm pretty sure these boys had a good time and probably one of their best shows. Pile On's! Dancing, Two Steps. It was a good first local show. I can't even describe the energy of everyone. Sorry Matt for sitting on top of your shoulders for the Pile on! The cops came back and tried to shut the show down. We put it on hold for a second and all of a sudden C-los screams. FUCK THIS! PICK UP YOUR FUCKING FEET! And that started shit off. By this point we didn't care if the show got shut down. Because if it was going to get shut down we were going to have fun and not give a fuck. That's exactly what we did. One of my best times with these boys and my family was on this nihgt. The show was so amazing and WOW that's all I can. So amazing and holy shit. Anyone who missed this show you should greatly be pissed off at yourself and greatly jealous. I'm defiantly feeling the after fects of this show take a toll on my body. It was worth it though. Chelsea Grin played last and that's all to say. Not to exciting. It was just Chelsea Smile. I will be able to get some sleep. It's not the sleep I want but I will tell you about that tomorrow. Goodnight and I will see you in Feb. -January 30th. -January 29th. -January 28th.It was early day at school today. So after I was out of class I ran home to make some food and watch some of the Bench Warmers. Around 2:25 I got back in my car to get back to school to start remediation. Today went by pretty fast and then once I was almost done I started getting really tired. Then it was finally six and it was my time to leave. My mom came and picked me up and we went home. I ended up falling asleep till around 10 and here I am writing about my days and talking to girl that gets me through the day. These last two weeks could have not been any better. I usually come home to find myself hanging out around my house and than I log in to find my msn icon pull up with a notification from Kayla. I couldn't have been any happier with doing the littelest things in my day. I'm so thankful for what I have in my life. My life is perfectly content. I'm in love; but not just with a girl. With my surrounds and my way of living. I'm glad to be the person I am this day in my age. I really can't wait for warm weather though! That's what's up!!!!! -January 27th. Started remediation after school today. Once I got home I just hung out around the house until Justin came over. We didn't do much; I raided his laptop cause I needed new cd's and then we went to FYE to check something out but Justin forgot everything closes at 9. He dropped me off and I came home to lie down and ending up falling asleep till like 12. I was very upset that I didn't get to talk to Kayla and when I logged in I had a few little things saying "I love you" and goodnight. It was a very laid back day. -January 26th. Went and took some flicks today and watched the motion of trains pass me by. Ended up being wrapped up in words and words talking to Kayla. Very short day but very eventful. -January 25th. The phone woke me up today. After jumping out of bed I realized that my neck was fucking killing me. It was the worst pain ever. It was to the point where I crawled back in bed and sat there for hours. Not moving, not messing with my muscles. Then Devin called and was like hey I got a new camera and wanna go take flicks. So he came over with Adam G and some beezy. We ended up driving around in the snow for hours. Took some flicks and headed up to the Top of the World. I've never seen the City be caught up in a storm. You could hardly see the place I call home. It was a good Sunday. I came home pretty early and ended up chatting with Melanie. She called while she went for a walk. We chatted and then I got off the phone. Since then I have been talking to Kayla ever since. aldhadkfhakdf I can't even explain!! -January 24th. I woke up to a dark cloudy day. I opened my windows and listened to the rain fall outside of my window. It was a perfect way to start out the day. I didn't do much. I hung out with my for part of the day and watched Sandlot about 6 times. Later in the evening Devin came and got me and we headed to do the usual. Hung out for a bit and bounced way early. I came home and talked with Kayla for the rest of the night. 3 am to about 7:33ish. I'm glad we got to talk about the things we did and so glad that she feels better. I love falling asleep to her voice. -January 23rd. Had possibly two hours of sleep at most. Could hardly stay awake in most of my classes. Came home and fell asleep for most the of the day. I woke up to the phone ringing. Devin wanted to see if I was coming out and didn't think I was. Around 9:12 Kayla called. Talked for maybe half an hour and then she had more important things to do. Called up the homies and bounced. It was a good ol time seeing everyone at the end of the week. Devin and Ivan came and got me and we went to get some food. We hit up the gas station afterwards so Ivan could get some frozen slurpee and the lady behind the counter gave it to him for free. hah Devin and I was laughing at this redneck and this little mutant. hahaha ofuk but Booga and Shuga is the highlight of the night. The fog has been the most amazing thing ever. The last time I remember it being so bad is when I was little. Cruz, Lorenzo and I all went and started building our fort in the woods. I miss the good ol days of the neighborhoods. Today was just ok...nothing to special -January 22nd. Almost the end of the week. We had Senior Talent Show this morning so that ment I got to sleep in for a bit. My sleep schedule has been completely ruined, so I needed this more than anything. I came home to find my self jumping in my bed and calling it a day. Woke up and talked to Kayla for the rest of the night. I know exactly why I don't get much sleep. Tonight was an amazing night. I'm glad to share more firsts with eachother. -January 21st. Came home and pretty much hung out around the house. I ended up cleaning my room and listening to music. My mom came home around 4 and we talked for a bit. I went and checked the mail to see if my merch has arrived yet. It still hasn't and I'm getting pretty fucking pissed. A few hours later we were all getting pretty hungry. So my mom ordered some pizza because she is obesessed with it and I went and got Wendy's. When I pulled into my parking spot Nato, Ivan and Anthonee were pulling up the same time I did. We all ate dinner and have been hanging out since. Ivan doesn't know how to stay out of trouble, Nato and Anthonee almost caused a riot at Wal-Mart and I passed the fuck out. The rest of the night consisted of us talking about how lame Wal-Mart is and watched Superbad. I'm talking to Kayla once again and I can tell it's going to be a late night. I get to sleep in tomorrow. Senior Talent Show tomorrow! -January 20th. Today was Obama's inauguration. I didn't think it was that big of a deal till I watched it. It was my first experience of ever watching one of these. People from all 50 States traveled from their homes to Celebrate this day in History. There was a old couple from Los Angeles who arrived the night before to stand in 30 degree weather for hours upon hours. They were missing the 80 degree weather back home. Watching Barracks face as he walked Penn. Ave and the joy that was brought to his face and all the excitement and happiness of the crowd made me feel good to be an American. I know that sounds lame and all but I would have never thought I would have seen the first African American President in my life time. I mean this was a big election. A women and black man ran. It makes me feel good to be where I am. After school I came home to find myself waiting for Kayla. She has been the only thing on my mind all day. I ended up taking a nap around 5 waiting for a phone call to wake me up from my sleep. I woke up around 10 to find my love online with the best news ever. Since then I've been caught up with her. Only finding myself to focus in on her smile, her laugh, her voice, her love and heart. I love this women. I love you Kayla. What a day for everyone! I hope everyone had a good day. See ya tomorrow suckas! -January 19th. Ran some errands with my mom and went got the car from the repair shop. I came home and hung out by myself for a bit, made a few calls to some friends and then Justin came over. We ended up walking from down town to 21st on a adventure. After we reached our destination I didn't feel like walking home so I said fuck that and I heard a freight coming. We were about 50 feet away from the crossing and sure enough my beauty came rolling passed. We hauled our asses to the train and jumped on it. We rode it for a bit till we had to get off because we thought he seen us. It was Justin's first train riding experience. -January 18th. Family Meeting. Rode Trains with Ivan, Adam G, and Devin. We had to run away from the train because the dude was on his way to come chase us. -January 17th. There has to be a way I just know it. It can't be the end for such a glorious thing just yet. Not now; this can't be happening. We gotta save them. There has to be a way to -January 16th. Woke up to Billy and Nikki just chilling and talking. They told me that I had a phone call from my mother and instantly I knew I had to wake up and get shit ready. It was time to Celebrate our Utah Utes 13 and 0 Record. There was a parade going on downtown. I arrived right in time for it and the traffic was ridiculous. It was to the point where traffic was shutting off their vehicles and sitting on top of them. It was a great turn out of people. With people on top of buildings and streets poles. I ran into Shae and Stephen and chatted with them for a bit. Then bumped into Nick and few other homies from school. Afterwards I found my mom and we came home so I could shower and get ready for the day. Came home and showered and talked with Shoni, Lorenzo and my Mother. When I was getting dressed my mother walked in and said that there three girls were here for me. I asked who and she just walked off to let them in while I was getting dressed. Come to find out it was McEllie, Ashlyn and Lilly. We sat around and talked while I got ready and I was going with them for a bit. We ended up driving for hours. We drove to the 64 impala', McEllie wants that car and it's my dream car. After that we started driving around and SEX some how started. Lilly caught a car with a broken headlight and started up the game. We had to explain the rules to McEllie cause she didn't know how to play. Once they were explained the game was in full effect. Lilly and I made a pack that we weren't going to lose this game. We were right. An hour went by and we had Ashyln undressed and McEllie driving around butt ass naked with a scarf covering her self. We had to restart the game because McEllie lost so bad and kept losing. We pulled in some random parking lot so they could get dressed and we talked, and we went got food. We ended up at Wendy's and were waiting quite a bit for our food. My goal was not to spill my food with McEllie's crazy driving. Once the food was gone it was back to the game. Which ended in McEllie losing again and we dropped off Ashlyn and Lilly. McEllie ended up taking me home. We laughed and sang dumb songs and that was the end of that part of the night. After getting home and ready and I headed down to Nikki's to hang out with everyone. After a bit Cody, Ivan and I bounced to go meet up with Anthonee and ended up finding ourselves going over to Josies and to hang out and watch Jared get inked. We shared a few laughs and some good ol times with eachother and then bounced. A few hours later after hanging out Ivan and I went to my house to crash. Came home around 4 -January 15th. Hung out at Nikki's all day and ended up crashing there. -January 14th. Finished Remediation and headed down to Nikki's. When I arrived everyone was cleaning and I ate my dinner. Nato and I started talking about some shit and then we got into a good talk about life and morals with Nikki. Sat around for a bit till a bunch of the usuals headed down. Nato and I shot pictures of some cunt. That was a fucking blast. Soon enough everyone was in the house and were talking and sharing our laughs. Ended up watching Assault and then Indecline. After that it was a bunch of random shit on the internet and music. Then Devin found the lysol and started lighting shit on fire. The rest of the night was in flames. We left late around 2. B-money and I chased down Ivan and Devin. Raced for a couple of blocks and then went our different ways. Around 21st we ran into Cody and his brotha and laughed at the green light and then went home. Came home around 3:30ish. Went to bed around 4ish. What a day -January 13th. Hung out with the Family and did the usual. We busted out the bb gun today and were breaking everything. Ivan broke some glass jar. I shot the Lysol can and it exploded in the kitchen and scared the drunk out of everyone. Spencer passed out and B-Money painted his legs and back silver. It was a very eventful day. -January 12th. Longest day of school this year. Felt like a monday and it might has well been. Came home and fell asleep around 7. -January 11th.Trying to get things clear. I'm back to wishing -January 10th. Week boyfriend, New Year Stress, special day, no effort, more excuses, more three worded sentences. I'm taking my heart off the line. I'm putting my walls back up. This song is another for the life booking.. Take it how you will...I'm done apoligizing "Thought you had a million chances. To stand up and take it all in stride And just when it seemed that you could do it. You just found another place to hide. So I put my hand out And I tried my best I'd stay up late at night To let you get it off your chest And I lived and lived for your smile For the light of your life ANd even if I could give more time It wouldn't have filled the space in your life WHen you left me out on a limb When you left me out in the cold Did you know I couldn't Understand at 16 years old Nothing I could've said, Would've changed your mind Years later, you've finally given me peace of mind Now a few years later When you apologized that With the tears streaming down my face It made everything, everything" there's still a lot I'm waiting for -January 9th. It was finally the end of the week and to throw all of the day to day problems out the window and say fuck it! Got out of school and ran some errands with my mom. Came home and had dinner witht he family. My mom and brother got ready to head out and I awaited for Devin to come and get me. Once Devin arrived and we laughed at eachother we headed over to Wally-World. He had this idea and it really didn't make sense and still doesn't make sense as I write this. As we turned the corner some girls hit on me and Devin and he laughed at them and we carried on with our shopping. Once we were leaving they got all girly and hid there faces and ran. Devin and I both laughed at the fact that we just got hit on at Wal-Mart and bounced. It was a typical Friday night. Forgetting about the problems and shit that has brought me down and finally didn't have to put a fake smile on. We went got Adam G. around 10ish to get him out. We all sat and chatted about some family problems and how we are going to handle them. Later in the night we headed over to Shaynes so Ivan could wash his fresh ink and leg. Jared and I ended up watching Pineapple Express and laughing our asses off. Once everyone was done from the Strip Club we all met up and went back to our Winter Nights together. Nato, Ivan and I decided we were all going to go to bed so we bounced from Shaynes down to drop me off. On the way there I had vented about some shit on my personal life and my brothers decided to spend the night. We talked for quite a bit and all passed out. There's so much I want to say but will keep my tongue behind my teeth. -January 8th. I'm sick and tired of sitting and waiting for nothing. -January 7th. I'm listening to my heart cause today sucks more dick than a puerto rican hooker -January 6th. The first picture of the year on blogspot for me. Goes to xWESTONx because he's always wanted his picture up in my blog. Love ya brotha, merry late x-mas -January 5th. Did nothing -January 4th. Got home around 8am this morning and stayed up so I could talk to Kayla. And that's pretty much the rest of the day. -January 3rd. Woke up around 10 something to Justin beating me with a pillow. We had to pack our shit and check out. Today was the beach day. We made our second runs through the Motel to make sure we didn't leave anything. Got into our swimming suits and shorts and checked out. We headed down to San Monica first and hung out. We walked along the piere to check out what was going on and the beach. Funny story actually. We decided to do a group photo in front of the ocean. So I set my polaroid camera down for stabillity( didn't have my tripod) and then set my Canon on top of it. Had it all set up and the punk ass ocean came rushing at my cameras and got both of them wet. The ocean fucked up the film in my polaroid and my Canon survived the accident. After we hit up San Monica we headed back down to Laguana Beach. The water was so much cleaner and bluer down there. We ended up walking around the beach for a good couple of hours. We rocked climbed over shit, slid down hills, slipped in moss, ran through water, had a fucking amazing time. We ended up on this random rock pretty far out from the beach. Saw a little fish and tried to catch it. That didn't work to well. We ended up finding crabs in that same hole though and tried to catch them. I changed my mind after a few trys because I didn't want to get pinched by one of those fuckers. We headed on our around the beach still. Finally we decided that we would go back to the car and decide what we would do. Before we left Anthony and I decided that we would go swimming. It was colder than fuck, but the highlight and a goal of the trip. While walking back to our car we find our Homeless Homie (the meat dude) chilling with a bunch of other homeless cats. We got in the car and started headed somewhere. We decided that we didn't want to leave quite yet. We decided that we would watch the sunset and then bounce. We ended up driving through California for a long ass time. One of the best drives ever though. Anthony passed out and Justin and I hit up some grocerie stories to get me some food and some drinks. We headed down to Daytona Beach and hung out for a bit. After that Justin decided he didn't want to stay for the Sunset. We headed our way back home with the Sunset falling behind us. I was a little upset that I didn't get to watch it so I just went to sleep so I didn't have to see it. I woke up a few hours later to Justin on the phone with Kayla saying that I was asleep when I was awake. A few minutes after that we decided that we would hang out in Las Vegas for a bit. We arrived in Las Vegas around 9ish or 10ish. We made damn good time. We decided that we would walk the strip and hang out. We walked around for a bit and we decided we would watch the Treasure Island Show. They had to end up cancelling the show because they were scared of a little wind. Fucking pussies. After that we headed back to the car so we could move onto our next destination. "Welcome To Las Vegas" sign. We went through the homeless park and seen a bunch of homeless people sleeping in tents. That was some real indecline shit. After that we drove down the Old Las Vegas Strip. That was pretty interesting and then we headed South to find the sign. Once we reached our destion Justin wanted to buy porn while were in Vegas. That was about a good hour and a half adventure. It was pretty fucking funny in the same sense though. Once we did everything we needed to in Vegas and realized we were there for hours we headed over to Jack in the Box to get some food and head home. After eating and talking we hit the road. Everyone fell asleep besides Justin. I woke a little later and not even 10 minutes later we pulled over for doing 92 in a 75 mph. We laughed and tried to get pictures of the cop lights behind us. That didn't work. I already miss this -January 2nd. I failed my attempt of staying up for the Sunset. It was like 6 something and the mofuckin sun wasn't up. I later opened my eyes to palm trees passing us by. Justin had been driving around all morning I guess. He was on a search to find a Motel cause the car wasn't cutting it for him. He found one and got it for a night. Anthony and I snuck in afterwords and all got some sleep before the show. We got up in the afternoon and started getting ready. I started flipping through ESPN to see when the Utah vs. Alambama game started. It hadn't started so I watched the pre-game. Anthony watched a little bit with me and then him and Justin decided to go get some Taco Bell. By this time the football game had started with Utah winning the Toin toss and scoring. Alambama didn't know what the fuck hit them. Anthony and Justin finally arrived back and it was second quarter. Utes up 14 to 0. We had to leave before half time so we could make it down to Anaheim in time for the show. We arrived in time and bought our tickets for Will Call. We hit up the record store (Off The Chain) next door to Chain Reaction. Find some pretty interesting things up in there. Anthony found a Cherem shirt that no one in hell will fit him and bought it anyways. We headed back over to Chain Reaction to wait for the doors to open. We chatted with a few locals and did a survey for some kids on venues. Finally it was time to head on in to Chain Reaction. The show was fucking AMAZING!! The energy of the show and the music blew it apart. Every band was so fucking good. It was fun to see everyone react to everyone and to see how diverse the scene was. Something Salt Lake has; Unity. Justin and Big Anthony stayed in the pit and threw down. I was all over the place. From the pit, to pile ons, to stage dives. It was an amazing show. Anthony had his Iphone so we were streaming the football from there. We would check up on the game in between sets and whenever we good. Before the show ended we found out that The Utah Utes had WON the Sugar Bowl. We took it Undefeated. An amazing 13-0 season. The rest of the show just kept getting more amazing. This was a show that physically beat the shit out of me. I've never been so sore. But it only lasted a day and it was the best feeling ever. I will be back hopefully as soon as possible. After the show we decided that we would hit up a store, grab some pepsi's and hang out on the beach. We stopped at a Food For Less to see where the closest 24-Hour Wal-Mart was. Come to find out; the closest one was two hours away. You would think in such a big state they would have a 24-Hour Wal-Mart in every City. I guess we were wrong. We spent a good half an hour in Food For Less talking with one of the Security Guards and his Co-Worker. The Security Guard was a nice ol' black man. This man was funny as shit. The Co-Worker added to the laughs. It was a good time in Food For Less and the day seemed just to get better and better. They were finally closing and we had our supplies for the night. We shook hands and hugged and bounced back to the hotel. We arrived at our santuary to eat and watch t.v. We got tired quicker than we thought and decided we would put off the beach till tomorrow. Justin passed out on his broken bed and I fixed the lights. Anthony showered and then played on his phone for a bit and watched some t.v. I walked around for a bit, showered and shut everything off. I got ready for bed and find myself picking up the three polaroids I had of my love. Looked down upon them and wished for her presences. I ended up reading her letter again and plugging my ipod in for the night. I turned off my lights and ended the best day of my life. -January 1st. Woke up in my loves arms and to Justin knocking on the door to get us up for the day. Justin came in and got on the computer and was getting shit set up for the trip. Kayla and I laid in bed for a couple of hours and watched Superbad with Justin, Bam Bam and Jordan. Finally I got out of bed so I could start packing and get dressed. I got ready and packed all I needed for the trip. Double checked to see if I had everything and shut down all the lights and heat. We headed over to Mickey D's on Redwood too meet up with Big Anthony and to grab some food. We all sat, laughed and conversed during our meal before we all parted our ways. Once everyone was done with their food it was time to refill the cups and head on out. Kayla and I had a short good-bye because I was being rushed. Told her I loved her one last time and shut the door. We filled up on gas and checked the oil before we headed on out. Once the car was checked it was time to hit the freeway. Along the way to California we made a few pit stops to grab drinks, grab food, and pee on the side of the road. Once we made it out of Las Vegas we hit some Outlet mall that was ran by Asians. We walked into this Taco Bell/ KFC place and that's all what was in the fucking joint. Hit up McDonalds afterwords and there were more fucking Asians. The place scared the fuck out of me. We were back on the road for more hours and more miles to reach our destination. A few more hours went by and we were finally in Southern California! We arrived in nothing but fog. Could barely see 15 feet in front of you and the smog was eating the car. We arrived in Anaheim and seen the glorious and famous Chain Reaction. Justin and I expected it to be different but we knew were going to have a blast. After talking for a bit and wanting to hit up the beach I said we should hit up Laguana Beach because it was half an hour away. We headed towards down the beach in the mist of the fog. Laughing and complaining about how bad people suck at driving in California. We arrived to this night little City called Laguna Hills. It reminded Justin of a Park City but with an Ocean. We asked some dude dressed as a Elf in a golf cart where the beach was. He pointed straight ahead and we followed that direction. We got out of the cars; pumped as fuck to hear the Ocean waves crash against the rocks and land. We walked over to see something I've missed for so long. A first for the homies, and headed down towards the beach. We talked to some people from Arizona and chatted for a bit. They told us about this camping place where we could camp out so we jumped back in the car to find this place. We didn't end up finding the camp site so we walked around the beach for a bit. And then hit the streets to walk around and check out the surroundings. We were the only ones on the streets and with the sound of the ocean waves crashing and the ocean birds flying. It was a tropical paradise. On our way back from our adventure we ran into a homeless dude. He was complaining about how some fool stole his lighter and how bad he hates lending his shit out. We laughed and your teamed him and then he went off on how he had a big package of meat he was going to eat by himself. Shortly after that we arrived to our car and grabbed our blankets. We sat and chatted for a bit and shortly everyone was going down. I told everyone I was going to stay up for the most part and make sure know people tried to rob us. Shortly after that our homeless homie from down the street came stubbling past us. We talked for a bit more and then he bounced. We thought it would be funny to jack his meat and bounce but we didn't know where he put it. So we called it a night and spent the night on the beach. There was nothing more peaceful than the Pacifics High Tide crashing against rocks and land with the ocean birds singing in the distance. Happy fucking New Year!!!

December's days

-December 31st. I woke up only to find the girl of my dreams that I fell asleep with in my arms, still in my arms. I love the way she snuggles against me and wakes up to my touch. I love seeing those big beautiful green eyes the first thing in the morning. We cuddled in bed for a few hours and decided that today we would go on our lunch date. We got out of bed and headed to the kitchen to make cereal and watch the office. Something you will always find us two doing when we wake up. After we were done eating and I put our bowls in the dishwasher, I headed off to the shower. Kayla remained on the couch keeping our spots warm. After I got out it was time to get ready for both of us to get ready. Justin came over sometime in the evening and we were finishing getting ready. Once we were ready for the day we all headed over to Noodles and Company for dinner. We got our food and it was so fucking amazing. Justin and I just had to show Kayla how bad she was missing out. After dinner Justin wanted to go for a drive so we headed up towards Immigration Canyon. I've never been up there so it was new for me. It was a nice drive. It was filled with sing-a-longs, laughs, and talks. We watched the sun go down and it was amazing. Finally we were on our way back and we decided to check out the house show out in T-Ville. We stopped at Albersations before we got to the show because I had to make a bathroom trip and get some Snapple. We were back on the quest to find this house show, we got lost due to Shayne giving us the wrong Address. Finally we found the house and it was time to tear shit up. we arrived and all of my original family was there and a bunch of close friends. All the bands were amazing for a house show and we had a very fucking good show for the last show of 2008. We tore that fucking house apart!!! After the show we all headed up to Shaynes to celebrate the ending of 2008 and the beginning of 2009. Mom bought CARNIVORE PIZZA!!! and we sat around telling our stories and sharing our laughs with others. Some out in between hanging out with everyone a fire work war broke out. Fireworks were flying in and out from the second floor of the house onto the front yard. This went on for a long time. Finally Ivan and Devin got the idea's of throwing Molotov's. Midnight finally struck and I couldn't ask for anything more than to spend it with the girl I love. We were eachothers first New Years Kiss. I've never been so happy and nervous. After the night slowly died out and a few people almost blew themselves up playing with fireworks. Jordan, Kadee, Justin, Kayla and I headed back to my place so we could call it a night. Everyone went to bed right away. Kayla and I fixed ourselves some Hot CoCoa and snuggled up and drank it. We spent the rest of the night cuddling, kissing, talking, laughing, and watching Step Brothers. It was the best way to end the year and start the year. You have nothing on our relationship! MY RELATIONSHIP > YOUR RELATION SHIP: MY FRIENDS > YOUR FRIENDS - December 30th. After a good nights rest I awoke to a phone call from Justin telling me about a road trip to Cali. We confirmed that it was a go and I got out of bed to find my brother and mother packing yet again. My mom was packing for New Orleans because she was attending The Sugar Bowl to support our Undefeated Utah Utes. My brother was packing because he would be staying the weekend at Jess and Brett's place. Justin headed over around 3ish and we talked about the trip and planned things out. I hung around the house waiting for Kayla to call to let me know if they were in town. They took for fucking ever so me and Justin bounced to The UPS store so he could send something and then we headed on over to Dan's place. We arrived and Billy and Tracie were down from The Wonderful "Sin City." Billy got his lip pierced and it was Tracie's turn to get her ears D punched. We watched Anthonee set up and do his business. Dan had to peace out to gay band practice and we waited. Ms. Logan showed up and hung out with us and finally Jordan and Kayla found their way to the house. I barely waited for Kayla to open the door before I dragged her out into my arms. We sat outside a bit longer than everyone else and held eachother tightly stunned. The night was just beginning...we went back inside to hang out with everyone and we all remained in the basement doing our usual things. Finally the whole family and everyone that was expected to show up finally got over there. From here on out it was hell. Devin got his punk ass over and we headed to go get food. We got some food and headed back to Dan's. I had this plan and didn't know where to find one and I looked up and sure enough Dan had what I needed hanging in his house. I grabbed Kayla and pulled her underneath this plan of mine. Told her to look up only to find a mistle toe above our heads. My first mistle toe kiss, and the first of hers. After kissing for a few minutes Ivan, Kayla and I bounced out with Weston so we could go meet up some other people so we could head to my place and watch movies. We all headed over to Betos so the girls could eat. We bumped into Austin, Dan, and Dallyn over there. Jordan and Devin met up with us at Betos and we all chatted for a bit, eat and bounced. We finally arrived to our destination, stopped at Wal-Mart to get drinks and treats for the night. I got Kayla some flowers and this bright idea to set up her Christmas presents. We had her wait in the living room and Ivan, Caitlin and I set up the gifts. Once they were set I covered her eyes and walked her into the room so she could she her late Christmas. It turned out a lot better than I had planned. I recieved my Christmas card and letter from her and had to read it. It was honestly one of the most beautiful things I've read from Kayla. I never knew she could put so much emotion and love into her words. It defiantly took me off my feet just like she does. We set up a little bed so we could have a talk, everyone watched movies and then bounced. We got ready for bed and it was more than an hour before I was knew the boys weren't coming back. So I shut down the lights and locked the doors and called it a night. Kayla and I spent another amazing night in Fort Ricco in eachothers arms. Talking and making eachother laugh. Nights with here are the thing I look foward into the day. Just knowing that I get to fall asleep next to the women I love, and to find my self waking up with her still in my arms. It completes my day. -December 29th. We packed our bags and grabbed some things. Tightly stacked them in the trunk of the vechile, made our second and third trips around the house to make sure we didn't leave anything, said our goodbyes to our love ones and headed for the road. After about 8 hours of driving and stopping for food and gas we finally made it home from vegas around 7ish. Kayla ended up calling me and I spent the rest of my night un-packing and talking to her. It was the best way to come home. -December 28th. Woke up sicker than sick this morning. Did everything I could so I could get back on my feet before the new years. It sucked. For the third night we had another amazing Mexican dinner. Got ready and headed down to Vegas. It has been the coldest in Vegas. I've never witnessed the weather being so cold during the Winter Months. We walked around the strip for the night and had a good ol family time. Lorenzo and I split up so we could move ahead and let our mom and grandma do their own thing. We ended up at The Miracle Shops walking around and getting "free drinks cards" it was pretty funny because I'm not 21 nor is my brother. A few hours later we met up with the family and headed back to the car. We grabbed a bite to eat and it was on the way home for a good nights rest. I spent the rest of the night watching Taboo for the third night and Hunt or Hunted or something like that. Some shit with Alligators eating stupid people. It was sick wit it!!!! -December 27th. Woke up to my Grandpa making Coffee and some of the family walking around the house. Honestly really did nothing today but lie around. Chatted, snacked on food, and got some things ready for when I got back. We all headed to this giant store type of thing so my mom and Grandma could buy some things. Kayla called and I talked to her for about an hour while I played in a wheelchair. Then some fuck head was jealous and told me to get out cause he wasn't having fun. Afterwards we hit up Wal-Mart and then came home and we spent the rest of the day watching movies with my Grandma. It was a pretty relaxing day. -December 26th. My mother walked in to confirm that the roads were good and we were on our way to Las Vegas. My brother and I got ready in like 10 minutes and were ready to go. We had to wait on our mother to get ready and make sure she had everything she needed for the trip. Once she was ready we headed over to Sears to pick up our car that we would be renting. They weren't there when we arrived so we headed over to Smith's to pick up some Drinks and Snacks for the trip. Once we were done there we headed back over to get the car. They were there so we grabbed the car and we were off to the house to throw our luggage in. Once we were packed it was time to hit the road. It was four hours before we stopped in Cedar City to grab some food and gas. About an hour after that my mother and I switched spots so she could rest. That only lasted about an hour and a half before my mom insisted that she drove because she thought she could get around the snow traffic. She was wrong. A few hours later we arrived in Vegas and to my Grandma's house. They had been cooking all day for our arrival. We had some amazing Mexican food. Probably one of the things I miss besides my Grandma being in Vegas. I forgot how amazing and good it is. We sat around and visited for the rest of night. -Decebmer 25th. MERRY CHRISTMAS! Hope everyone had a good one. -December 24th. Christmas Eve...what beautiful and amazing words. They just bring the vibe and comfort of being home. That is exactly what I did today. Woke up to Devin tapping on my window and waking me up. Went for a drive and talked and then I came home to get ready for the day. The rest of the day was a cozy day at the house with the scent of cinnamon and spice in the air, presents being wrapped, the mother and brother walking around. Today was a good day. FUCK EVERYTHING BE CLOSED EARLY THOUGH! -December 23rd. Woke up early to head over to the Dentist. Afterwords my mother and I ran some errands around the town and grabbed some food. We came home after running our errands and Devin came by to pick me up. I grabbed my clothes and mobbed down town with Devin. We stopped to get him some sick as Taco Bell and headed towards the house. Along the way we seen some random ass Crack Head standing in the street just staring and smoking a ciggy; we laughed for a few minutes and finally got to Nikki's. We arrived an no one was there besides B-Money and Spencezord. We hung out with them and watched the Jazz lose to the Bucks. Spence was fucking furious. It was quite hillarious. Afterwards all of the usuals showed up and we watched the TCU vs. Boise State Bowl Game. That was a good game. I talked to Kayla for a bit and then things got in the dumps. Nikki made dinner and I called Kayla to talk to her for a couple of hours. I'm so glad to have the girl that I have. I love you so much Kayla Rae Anderson. After talking to her I talked to her mom for her bit. Got off the phone with both of these lovely ladies to go back into a room of I love you Ricco and hugs. We hung out for a bit and then Devin and I bounced to found ourselves freezing our fucking asses off in 12 degree weather. Yeah fuck that shit! I swear I almost got frostbite from just standing. -December 22nd. Met up with everyone in the aves and Nikki made us dinner. It was beautiful and so amazing! After everyone filled their stomachs it was time to gear up and hit the hills. It was sledding night! After a few hours of sledding it was time to head back to the place to warm up and hang out. B-money and I ended up watching Dexter and than I had to peace out to come home and go to bed. DENTIST TOMORROW!!!!!! -December 21st. I'm kinda inspired to form a list of things I want to do before I die. This is called a "Bucket List". I don't know if you(reader) has seen the movie but it's a damn good one. Werst got me thinking about shit I want to do in my life. We have greatly inspired eachother in our life times so here's to you little brother. 1. Travel the West Coast in a three week period of time. 2. Visit a Buddist Temple(Asia) 3. Have my own place with a partner, or the boys. 4. Have my place like a art gallery! 5. Move to Seattle or Portland. 6. Jump from a Waterfall 7. Fix up sick ass Fixie or Roadie 8. Sound and Fury Fest and Rivalary Fest 9. Travel across the States. 10. Road trip to Canada! that's all I have but I know my life will be like this everyday (all rights reserved to K.R) -December 20th. Werster woke me around 11ish when he shook the bed and went to the bathroom. I passed out for another hour or so and woke up cause I was starving. Werst got up and got online, I grabbed a bowl of cereal and got to the eating. We stayed in doors for most of the day. Missed Kuhr paint and laughed how lazy Scrubs is. A couple hours rolled by and Werst went back to bed due to a headache. I guess the fool was thinking to hard or something. My Mother and I laughed and chatted in the living room for a bit and then she gave me some money so my brother and I could go grab some food when she left. I woke Werst up and we bounced! After food we went over to Wally-World to get some pepsi-cola and batteries for our camera's. Hours went by and we were still just chilling and listening to music. Once we were done with that we headed over to his house so he could shower and grab some clothes. We spent the rest of the day at his place. We grabbed a pizza and split that shit right down the middle. We put in Bench Warmers and watched that; I thought it was fucking hillarious, had some good laughs. We pulled out the Canvas's and started getting to work while munching on some bomb ass almonds from the mall (you know the ones that are only around X-mas time at Fashion Place? Yeah that's up.) My second mom and her man were watching movies in the other room and Werst and I sat around enjoying our brotherly company. After a short period of time we put in "We are just friends" and then Beau-Beau-Ski-Wotten-Dotten came home from work. He told us that some old dude tried to pick him up and we shared a good ol laugh. The rest of the night consisted of me calling Dumplin and seeing if she still wanted me to head over. Around 3 I called for the last time to wake her out of her sleep and to hear all of the boys in the background. I wasn't leaving any time soon from where I was at so I let the night die at that. Shortly after that Werst and I headed over to Wally-World once again to buy some more Canvas and check the price on a new camera. In the process of him putting the camera on hold I bumped into Jesse and his girlfriend. We chatted about the same ol shit everyone asks about(drama) I rambled on how I don't care and how me and the boys are drama free and howeverything is just perfect. In the process of catching up my amazing and beautiful friend Mellany came up on me with Shelby. We chatted about how if we aren't married by our 30's than we are hitting eachother up and getting married. We both confirmed that we were DEAD set on this thought. Laughed about it and then bounced. I talked to Jesse for a bit more about setting up a New Years Show in Provo with all the homies and then Werst and I bounced back to his place. Conclusion of the night. Beastie Boys and Canvas; pulled in my parking stall around 5:43ish. What a fucking Saturday! -December 19th. After school I was caught in a blizzard. I was driving for 2 hours when it really should have taken about half an hour. Headed over to Oakley's to watch the homies paint. Scrub was putting in work. Werst and Omen was sitting around just chilling. I came over and complained about the streets and we watched Scrub do his thing. Oakley went and picked up Kiloe and he come over all pissy cause he just woke up and didn't do shit. Omen left to hit up a show at Kilby. Werst, Scrub, Oakley and I sat around and watched Oakley spin some shit. It was pretty fresh! We all headed out around 9 o'clock. Oakley went up to PC for a party and Scrub went home for food and sleep. Werst and I headed back over to my place to hang out and crash. Before we reached my house we checked out this abandoned place. We headed towards the back and found a glorious parking lot filled with about 2 feet of snow just chilling. I said fuck it and we raced through it only to find our selves drifting through this glorious parking lot with snow flying over the car. I don't know if you surf..but it was like going through the tunnel of the wave. But in this case it was nothing but the greatest snow on earth!!! We came home hung out and I passed the fuck out before he did. He woke me up to show me some chick and I went back to bed. That was the kick off to the weekend. -December 18th. I don't remember; this is all I wanted (all rights reserved to K.R) -December 17th. Stayed home sick with Food Poisioning all day. =/ -December 16th. My brother and I woke up pretty early.(6:30) A first for me not to hit snooze and crawl back into the warmths of my layered blankets. I got some good sleep; considering I was out by 8 P.M. We walked outside to find out a fucking blizzard. I'm assuming it started snowing after I went to bed and it didn't stop all day at school. After school Garrett and I grabbed his car and went drifting for a few hours. Headed to Wendy's for some Drift food and filled our stomachs. After eating and getting some free food from the cool dude behind the counter(UPS TO THAT DUDE!) Garrett took me to my car. We raced down a snow filled street while two old people watched us in shock! I ended up coming home and walking into the warmth, security, and comfort of "HOME". Since then I've been in my house walking around, talking with my mother and making plans with the boys, and trying to figure out what I'm going to get Kayla for Christmas. I have an idea but I'm not sure yet. I want to give her something that is going to xONE UPx everything she's gotten from a past boy. I want to give her the feeling she gives me. Even on the snowiest days with this girl. She makes it feel like a Tropical Paradise. Being Snowed in with her and being FORCED to stay another day was Morgan Freeman's(GOD) gift to the both of us. I don't know what else to say...but she defiantly gave me the best snow day of my life and made it seem like I was at the beach all weekend long. Check it out (all rights reserved to K.R) -December 15th. Woke up out of coldness! Grabbed my hoodie looked at the time after suggling up next to Kayla to find out it was 11:30. I was like fuck..we didn't go meet your mom on her break so I could meet her, and Spencer wants to go. I called Spencer up and he was like I'm on my way. I packed up my stuff and threw on some comfy clothes for the drive. After packing I layed down with Kayla for the remaining time. We chatted, cuddled and laughed till he arrived. Spencer arrived shortly and it was time to do the one thing I hate the most. Say goodbye! We said our goodbyes, came back for more kisses and then I was gone. Spencer and I drove down to the Bk Lounge to grab some food before we left. We sat there and talked shit on the servor. When I asked for A Rodeo Burger she got all pissy and was like "WE DON'T HAVE THOSE!" We got our food and hit the freeway. We eat and blasted some I Declare War and talked more on how he eats babies. The roads were way good until we hit price. We were doing 30 for the time being. Then the snow just kept coming down. More and more snow just kept coming our way. Spencer was a little nervous and said we might have to spend the night in Price. The GPS was gay and died again. So we through that shit out the back window and bumped some Mortal Kombat and decided people should dance to this at Raves. haha We made pretty good time coming home. Arrived home to a BEAUTIFUL covered snows and a sunny day. Apparently there was a Avalanche the day I was in Fruita, and it took a womens life. Our Mountains don't fuck around cause she was Skiing in bounds. For some reason..I was sleep deprived and had bags under my eyes. I made a few comments, told Kayla I loved her and was in bed by 8. It was a laid back Monday; though to me was my Sunday! 192 -December 14th. Kayla and I woke up at a pretty good time today. Only to find us not leaving bed for hours. We sat in bed watching Dumb and Dumber, making jokes, and cuddling on this Snow Day. We finally got up and grabbed some breakfast around 4 o' clock in the evening. After our breakfast it was time to get ready for the day. Got ready, waited for Kayla, watched the whole (n1nth) cloud show that I missed, and hung out with C-los and Holly. They brought some kind of snacks over and we all hung out. Brenda went to Dinner with her Fam so the four of us headed over to Kayla's so I could meet her family. Her mother wasn't there, but I was honored to meet her Father and her brother Dakota. After having the chance to meet these people the four of us headed over to the Bk Lounge to feed our faces. Got our food and came back to eat. Watched Labyrinth and have spent the rest of the night laughing, making cruel jokes, having awkward moments, wanting a pepsi and loving the snow. Tomorrow I will hopefully come home. 193 -December 13th. Woke up late afternoon. Had a few bowls of cereal with Kayla and then got ready for the day. We spent most of the time terrorizing Brenda's room and throwing her care bears around. We sat and did nothing all day. We waited for Brenda to get off work, and Holly to come over. Holly and Brenda made some bomb ass potatoes and later Arther had Kayla make Snickerdoodles! Around 10ish the storm blew in. It was Fruita's first snow of the season and I was sitting there thinking when the fuck is this going to stop. It just kept coming down. I really wanted a pepsi so I took the chance of going to get one. Kayla and I fired up Brenda's SWEET RIDE and headed off towards the Gas Station. On the way there we could not see through the back window, the front window had ice on it and the defroster took too long to defrost. We stopped by City Market first cause it was on the way and they had vending machines outside. Well Fruita has to be gay and close stores early, and their machines. So it was back to the Gas Station where we got Pepsi and Dr. Pepper. We drove and drifted some corners on the way home. We arrived at Brenda's to snack on some Snickerdoodles and get ready for the bed. Tonight was the night I got snowed in Fruita with the girl I love. 194 -December 12th. Woke up and got ready. I had to make sure all the clothes that I was bringing on the trip were dry. They showed no signs of being damp so it the go ahead to pack. Went to school for a couple of a periods and then at lunch it was time to eat and meet up with Spencer in the parking lot. Headed out and Spencer was supposely waiting for an hour he was saying(asshole) We were both a little hungry so we decided to grab some food before we headed on the trip. NOODLES AND FUCKING COMPANY!!! Got some discounted food and got to see Mister. Adam H. After we ate our Penne Rosa and whatever that green shit was we were off to the car. On our way out Spencer was talking about getting munchies for the trip. The pepsi dude just left his car wide open so I was like pull over and I'll grab that case of Gatorade. We pulled over and everyone in their god for saken minds was just staring. A little sketch so we bounced and hit up Phillips, stole some drinks, filled up and raced down the freeway. Once we got out of Provo and were headed through the Canyons we stopped playing with the GPS cause it was gay and wouldn't shut up; I fell alseep for a good half an hour. I fell asleep to some good ol breakdowns and woke up to some Gangsta Ass Luda!!!!! The window was dirty as fuck and you couldn't see the lines on the road. I asked Spencer how it managed that and he said it started to rain right after I was out and then the dirt just smeered. He had the brite idea to through his Noodles cup at the window to get it wet. Doing 70 and throwing a drink down at your own window isn't a good idea. The wind pulled back the cup and only covered a little portion of the top left window. The rest was on Spencer and down the inside of the door. We laughed about this for a good 5 minutes and I went back to going in and out of sleeps. I would wake up every once in awhile to through my stunna shades on and talk to spence. We got caught up behind some diesels and spencer it was time to take advantage of the passing lane and dropped down to third and we flew by everyone like nothing. We didn't end up stopping. We just kept increasing our speed till about 120 and then coasted for a bit. Five minutes later Spencer flew off the road like a mad man and was like FUCK I HAVE TO PISS. We both ran out of the car to take a bathroom break. While we taking care of Nature a few trucks came by and honked their horns(they knew what was up). Me and Spencer rushed back to the car. Put on some BBABH and was destined to catch up and honk back. This time we increased our speed and our arrival time by doing 140 for a good 20 minutes. Finally we passed our last stretch of Desert with a shit load of trains in the distance and made it to Green Mile. We were still not doing the speed limit but who gave a fuck? About another hour went by and we bumped some gangsta ass shit. We put in I Declare War and decided that their singer has been "breeing" since he was three. He eats babies heads for breakfast, and eats nails for snacks. Right before this I got on the subject on how Lesbians are funny because when they fuck it's like taking two cars and running them into eachother. It's fucking stupid, and it's just plain funny. 30 Minutes went by and we were to our destination. We went to the mall cause Brenda was answering her phone so I could see Kayla smile. We found Brenda but Kayla was off doing something. We met up with Toby, Jake and some beezer and sat in the food court. About 15 minutes later the oh so familar face that keeps me up at night was approaching my way. Toby and I decided I should just get up and leave when she came to the table. So I did only to see an expression of a jaw dropping face saying "REAL MATURE". After the jokes and Kayla being retarded we walked around the mall ALL FUCKING DAY!(fucking stupid) I told Toby to hit up C-los because that's the only reason I was in town. Los and Holly came about 2 hours later. We all went and got dinner and had to wait 40 mintues for them to catch a nigga chicken, kill it, cook it and give it to me. Once my stomach was fool and we were getting looks from everyone in Wendy's we bounced back to the mall to grab Holly's car. We drove around for a bit and headed to Wal-Mart to buy groceries and other things. We headed back to the mall to get a hold of Brenda and was going to tell her that we were going with Holly and Los and would meet back up with her later. That didn't happen and we just sat in the car and listened to Carlos yell at everyone. Brenda finally pulled up with her boyfriend and we were off to her place. First we had to stop at her moms to deliever a present or something. Hung out for a bit and chatted in Kayla and I's room and then called it a night. Kayla set up the bed, I put in Superbad only to find out it didn't work and fell asleep around 5ish? I don't know..but I slept amazing. 195 -December 11th. Trisha came and got me and we headed over to the mall to visit Dan at work. We sat there for a bit talking and chatting and trying to get our plans straight for our Road Trip. Pretty much got down the the point where I knew my ride was going to bail. Dan informed with me some infor that a homie of mine was going down to Grand Junction the same time I was. I hit him up and made sure that he was till heading down to GJ for the weekend. We confirmed that he could give me a ride and that we would go our sperate ways until Sunday. After everything was set up and I was now going to Grand Junction for sure Trisha and I bounced from the mall and headed down to Nikki's. We talked along our ride down there and we finally reached our destination. All of the usuals were there. We all shared some good laughs and takls. Then Nikki was getting ried or some thist and put in the Hulk and then left the room. Justin, Nato, John Brown, Myself and Trishaa(was gay on the computer) watched that for a bit. I came to the conclusion with a few of the boys that Edward Norton is CHUCK NORRIS!!! That's what was up. I bounced to my house to do some laundry and get packed for another adventure to my xKool-Aidsx Arms once again. Around 1:32 Lyndsye and Micheala came over with some Pepsi and some candy. We visited for awhile because I don't remember when the last time I've caught up with them too. They left, I passed out. Tomorrow will be another day =] 196 -December 10th. Went to school, came home, took pictures, went to bed. 197 -December 9th. Around 5 o'clock my mother was awake, getting ready for work. I ran outside really fast to retrieve the phone from the car so Kayla could see what time she had to leave. We were blessed with a few more hours. I came inside to find out that in the short period of time that I was gone; my mother had came in and met the one I call mine. So far so good... Shortly after laughing about the situation we fell back in bed. We sat and talked, traced our fingers over eachothers skin, and smiled my brother was now waking up. He walked in and we didn't even feel the need to look up. Kayla remained wrapping her arms around me and cuddling with me. Introduced my brother to the girl who has kept me smiling and cracked a few jokes. It was nothing but good vibes. About half an hour later my brother was ready for me to take him to school. Kayla came along for the ride. We dropped my brother off and it was back to my house to fall back into blankets for a bit longer. We came back, layed in bed for a bit, had some breakfast and then I had to take her to somewhere I highly hate. That place was leaving..We were both pretty bummed on the drive to meet up with Matt. There we were..letting eachother go for yet again, another time. We hugged one last time, kissed the lips we call ours, and I drove away from the girl that should be here as we speak. From then...all I could do was look back in my mirror and wait till the distance took them out of my sight. I hate saying goodbye.. I called up Bonnie to see if they were over at Ihop still and met up with them. Hung out at Ihop and felt like shit. I was so sleep deprived I didn't even want to attempt school. We all bounced from Ihop and I headed back to my house for some breakfast and to get ready from school. Still with no sleep hours with me I grabbed my keys and bounced. Almost fell alseep a couple of times at the wheel I had finally made it to school. Went to the rest of my fourth period. Went to Print Making and PASSED THE FUCK OUT!! After that I decided I couldn't make the rest of the day and went home to pass out. I slept for awhile, talked to Kayla off and on, went to Shiela's, fell asleep again, came home and talked to Kayla for the rest of night. Tonight we both knew that she still should have been in my bed in my arms, but only time will tell when that thought is reality. I could re-live this day of no sleep with the girl I'm head over heels for everyday. -December 8th. Sleep deprived from excitement and lack of rest. School went by so god damn slow and I was so tired I didn't want to go to remediation. Went home for a bit and got things set up and hung out for awhile. Made a few calls around and finally found someone to save me from my house. Ivan, Nikki and Trisha came and picked me up around 10:15ish. We stopped at Wal-Mart to get some drinks and then head down to the aves. We got to Nikki's and a handful of people where there. Everyone expected and some new faces. We all ended up hanging out, chatting, surfing the web and doodling. While I was on the web I was speaking with Tara about Kayla's arrival and making sure what was happening so I could go see her. Towards the end of the night everyone had their face glued to their paper sketching shit out. Dumplin ended up falling alseep and stole the dog(lyndsey marie) that loves me more away. Ivan and I made way more than enough calls to Matt's phone to see where they were at but no answer. After everyone was done drawing they put in Iron Man. I sat there and tried to finish as much as I could before the light went out. Drew in the dark for a bit with my ipod as my back light and then received a phone call from a oh so familar voice. It was the voice that has came me up so many nights prior to this, the voice of happiness. I talked to Kayla for a bit and after she asked where I was I told her I was on my way too meet her. It was now about 1:20ish and I decided that I was not going to sleep on this night. Some where in between getting off the phone with her and having Ryan took me home. I came up with a plan; a plan to steal Kayla away from everyone from the night so we could spend it together. I had Ryan take me to 711 so I could pick up some Hot Chocolate for Kayla and I. I ended up over filling one of the cups and then burnt my tongue on the boiling chocolate beverage. We paid for the Hot Chocolate, got Ryan some food and gas money and it was off to buy flowers. The whole time I had made a plan to be a ninja so they couldn't see me but then he found another store. I ran in and saw some beautiful pink roses, turned out they were dying and out of the corner of my eye I seen these sparkling Red ones. I grabbed them without checking the price, checked out and bounced. I got a call asking where I was and replied "Down the street, I will see you in a minute". Come to find out they were at the wrong Wal-Mart. This gave me time to grab my vechile and get everything set up. We waited for quite awhile because Tara and Sara had no idea how to find my house. Finally I got them where I could see them and was all smiles. I finally was in arms length of the one I call mine. All smiles and the warmth of her body; my head was in the fucking clouds. After we chatted with everyone we said good night to Tara, Sara, Ryan and Matthew. I walked to my car and got in...Kayla walked around right into the plan. She opened the door and was forced to move the blankets. Only to find a dozen of Roses with her name on them. She claimed them and was nothing but a red face and smiles. We parted our ways from the rest of the group and told her that she had hot chocolate waiting for her. We headed North for the rest of the date. She had no idea where we were going. I've never seen her so happy. Seeing that smile and her eyes light up was the night for me. She was glued to the window looking out the surroundings that I call Home. We hit the city and I showed her usually what the day consists of and who I am. After the drive through the city and some talks it was time to finish off the trip. Ended up past the Capital to the "Top of the World" aka Enzyme Peak. We parked the car and I told her to grab her hot cocoa and her blanket. She was in nothing but awh..looking around and only finding herself to be looking at me. I asked for her hand and told her it gets so much better and guided her through the fresh greatest snow on earth. We were then found in eachothers arms, wrapped up in blankets and drinking hot chocolate. Being cute and just having the most amazing thing ever. After cuddling and kissing eachothers cold lips we headed back to the car. She started walking over to the door thinking she was getting in before I stopped her and told her I don't think so. Opened the door and sat her down. I found her then waiting for the kiss before we left. We headed down the road and started talking about what to do next. We drove around for a good 20 minutes before I decided on either another peak. It was that or back to my house. We both felt more comfortable going back to my place so we headed there. Once we arrived at my place and got out of the car, we found eachother holding hands and I've never felt something so right. It didn't seem like she was leaving...this seemed and should be the way it is now. We quitely snuck into the house, and into my room. It was then were we could finally have our late night conversations and didn't have to wish for eachother by one another's side. She finally got to see what the boy of her dreams does on a nightly routine with her on the phone. We got in bed and was so fucking content being able to cuddle and hold one another. I honestly didn't want this to end. We sat up all night talking, watching A Knight's Tale, cuddling and just being who we are. Since we didn't sleep I have to carry this day on. So far this was one of the best days spent with her. I love you Kayla Rae Anderson. I'm so glad you were by my side through out the night. -December 7th. Sunday. Didn't want to do anything today. I was pretty sore for some reason. Later in the day I met up with all the boys down at trisha's. I some how ended up talking to Kayla later in the day after receiving a few things that she was passing through town. Talked to her till we both fell alseep and that was the day. -December 6th. I woke up to Mark telling me how Winston beats me at snoring. Laughed a bit and headed up to the hotel to shower. After everyone was showered and I was partly dressed Mark grabbed his Stunna Shades and yelled bitches we are going to Vegas, better get ready!!! We all loaded up in the bus and headed our way to Rio Grande so we could park. Once we were parked and locked up the motion of freight trains came flying by. It was honestly one of the best ways to start off the days because some other random dude was more pumped on the trains then I was. It never fails at putting a smile on my face and giving a romantic and breathe taking movement. After the freights passed we headed into the Rio Grande to decide when we wanted to hit up the buffet and plan out our day. We walked around the Rio and checked out some shops, then we met up with some girls that Mark had knew. Said what's up and bounced to the Shuttle to the strip. We headed North on the strip first on our adventure. Checking out our favorite hotels and getting some excerise so we would be pumped for dinner. We walked the entire strip with plenty of activities. We headed over to The Fashion Show mall and went into Hot Topic to see if they had the Chelsea Grin cd and Hermione Merch. We complained and then Mark and insisted that EVERYONE had to go through their own door and look like a bad ass when you came out of it! We all picked up our doors and on the count of 3 busted through them like g's! Then Mark's flipping off the camera just started. We hit up all the hotels and ran into a bunch of priceless things. There was some bum over by Bally's that was talking about he doesn't give a fuck if he is drunk or not, shit he could have been drunk. It was some funny shit. Dan and I's main goal was to get every stripper/hooker card that we could so we could give the stack to his mother. They were the baseball cards. We had a good time hitting up all the hotels. Dan almost got in a fight with a bunch of scene d-bags and then Mark and Brad ragged on him for the rest of the weekend. We hit up Game Works at some random point and played some video games, then after that we went to the Coke place. Dan and I decided we were going to try 16 different beverages from around the worlds. A few of the other boys ended up doing the same and we all hated this white like sprite drink. The first of it was ok then fucking disgusting. It was like strong cough medicine and it burned like no other. It was pretty fucking disgusting but all the others were pretty damn good. After we visted hotel after hotel, gambled, and walked the trip it was time to head back to the Rio for dinner. Once we waited a good 45 minutes for the shuttle and figured it would have been faster if we walked. We were finally there. We arrived at the Rio and rushed to Dinner. Got our table and ate a ridicolous amount of food. Brad, Anthony and Jason ate so much Crab it was priceless. Everyone else did their own thing and stuffed their stomachs. After about 5 plates from everyone, a couple of bathroom trips, and desert we headed back to the bus to go pick up Bill and Tracie. We all ended up back at the hotel for some more swimming and tubbing. It was our last night in Vegas. Dan and I weren't so pumped on it. We ended the night in the bus with a big group of people. One of the greatest days and best trips ever. -December 5th. Today was the day I gaven the chance to visit my second home. A place where you would look at my lifestyle and wonder why the fuck I would want to go back. It's been my second home, it still makes me feel like a little kid at Disney Land for the first time. Even though my second home isn't in California. I know I can always reside to Viva Las Vegas!!! I've been in shock all day and have never been so pumped for a trip. It was the beginning of the weekend! We hit were already and on the road around 1:15. We had a legit set up in the bus. 6 bunk beds, 1 tv, dexter, a whole lot a food, and "the neighborhood". Our adventure down South wasn't too bad and then we got caught up in Payson and everyone was flipping the fuck out. There is never traffic in Payson and we were there sitting in it. We were all pretty content with our spots. Some would take a minute to rest their ends and others like myself were glued to the tv. After 4 hours of Dexter and few gas station trips were finally in St. George meeting up with some beezy's at Jack in the Box. Mark and I laughed at them and Dan and Anthony chatted away. We thought it was funny that they would text Dan the whole way down saying how excited they were for us to get there and didn't even end up talking. We laughed about that for a good 20 minutes and it was time to focus on more Dexter and snacks. We only had half the battle with the road completed. About 3 hours and 47 minutes later we were on our final stretch of pavement. Mark and I laughed about the 24 hours porn department and Mark was making sure that he was taking a run away mexican out of state hahah. It was last call and we could finally see the aura of Las Vegas! We were all pumped as fuck and I stayed glued to the windshield, sitting on some random things to just to be in awh. We drove through the strip, I was looking at the one thing that I know where ever I am at I will feel connected to =] and hit up our hotel for check in. Once we had our bags pulled in and everyone decided where they were going to sleep we hit up Billy the kid, Tracie, and Kristy to come hang out. Once they arrived it was HOT TUB PARTY! Just imagine about 7 dudes running around in their underwear and bringing the ruckus. We tubbed for a couple of hours then headed back to the hotel to shower off and get some rest for the day a head of us. Jason, Brad and Jordan crashed in the hotel and the rest of us brought our party to the bus and stayed up for a couple more hours before we fell asleep. It was the beginning of our amazing guys only trip in my second home. 202 -December 4th. I don't really care about anything. Once again fucking stupid! I want to write something so private that the world will never know of. But that defeats the point of my writing...I want everyone to see it and know how I feel. So I'm not going to say anything at all.203 -December 3rd. Waited up once again for nothing. Fuck fuck fuck fuck December 3rd. Stupid fucking day! All I want to do is run...run into the thing that always leaves, yet always comes back. I want to meet the sunrise that I so desperately wait for on the weekends and wake up too during the week. The sunset is an all day process and I am glued to the windows waiting for it fall at the right time. When that time comes..I'm weightless, happy, content. I would love nothing more than to capture these feelings in a jar. To be able to put my prize possession next to my bed. To have it whenever I please....to the eye I'm a man. To the heart I'm a sailor. I'm a slave to rhe rocky blue sheets with diamonds strewn across them. They move my life in beautiful and dangerous motions. I'm a slave to the day...it has complete control of me.204 -December 2nd. Today's blog will have a part of December 1st and later the real December 2nd will take a part. Today was a legit as fuck Monday! I had a 12 hour school day. Came home to a fixed dinner and waited for Rochelle to get off work and give me the call. Trisha and Nikki messaged me telling me that they wanted to come kidnap me but then I got the call and I grabbed my shit and bounced. Not thinking because I was in a hurry to get the fuck out of my house I forgot to do a couple of things my mother had asked of me. I got in the little Rabbit and we zoomed off with no destination until we were entering Sandy when we decided we would go down town to see the lights. We arrived to our destination and were on the hunt for a bathroom. On the way to Carl Jr's we passed something that had the stench of death, and piss. It was the corner of New York haha. After we took a bathroom break we were off to get hot chocolate and walk around South Temple and check out all of the Christmas lights. We walked around and talked for a good hour; possibly longer and then that. It was my goal to be in the the back ground of everyone's pictures that they were taking and being a smartass to everyone watching fucking statues. After we walked around for a bit longer and I stole Rochelle's apple and ate it we decided to head back to the car. We were supposed be heading home but instead we ended up talking about everything for I don't even know. Time was lost when we started talking. Talking and being able to vent about things to someone of the same sign(aries) is such a better positive thing than to talk to someone else who isn't. These past couple of days I've kicked my ass emotional, and am getting my shit together to be all what I can be. Thank you Rochelle and Melanie for getting my head in the game. -December 1st and 205 -December 1st. I'm kicking off December a little early. I still believe in one man, one women. I still believe in true love. I still believe in love at first sight. I still believe in trust. I still believe in loyality. I still believe in Big Foot. I still believe everything happens for a reason. I still believe in what I stand for. I still believe in my friends. I still believe in my family. I still believe within myself. You can't change this! x206x