November Fest!

-Novmeber 30th. Came home around 7 this morning and literally walked in stripped down, jumped in my bed and was out cold. My mother woke me up around 5 and that is it. Cleaned up the house and we put up our Christmas tree and lights. Later in the evening I called up Kayla to make sure she was alive, talked for a bit and then read Lydia's letter. It's been an easy sunday and the last day of an amazing but slow November. Thank you all for reading my stolen days and hope you will be there for December. Thank you -November 29th. Went to bed around 6 or 7 after playing on the computer and doing stupid shit with Devin. A few hours later people started waking up and everyone let me sleep. Then Amadine sat down and started to wake me up like it was time for fucking school. Wasn't to happy about this. Every once in awhile I would be shook till I opened my eyes to hear everyone screaming and Amadine telling me to wake up. Once again I wasn't happy about this and because it was cold as fuck and I had no blanket on the couch I slept on. So I demanded that she fetch me a blanket. "NO" said Amadine. So I told her to fuck off and then I got my blanket and slept for another 3 hours. I woke up for the last time to Anthonee screaming how gay Starbucks is and Dan running around finding his shoes. Once I was finally up for the day I grabbed one of the Macs and watched Uncut Jerry Springer Fights with Anthonee for hours on end. I sat in my little bundle of a blanket and a shit load of pillows on this couch for most of the day. I stood up around 3:47ish...fuck it maybe even around 4 pm. Anthonee started grabbing his bags and the New Mexico kids were getting ready to bounce. We hugged our brother for the last time in awhile. Made Amadine cry because she didn't want to leave and then walked everyone out. Anthonee was perfectly fine but I'm assuming that changed when they were on the road. Amadine was still crying and still hugging everyone. After we watched a part of the family leave our lives it was decided that Mark, Dan and I were going to go down to The Avalon for The Ghost Inside, Bring Me The Horizon, Misery Signals and Confide or some shit(they sucked). Mark and I was a little pissed off that we paid 20 bucks, they took our ID's and that we couldn't throw down. We walked around and said our what's up to our homies and kids we haven't seen in awhile. Finally the first band(Confide) started their set. About half way through it they got everyone pretty excited and kids started throwing down. Mark, Dan and I was like fuck that shit. We will fuck shit up for The Ghost Inside. Once Confide was done with their set it was time for The Ghost Inside to tear shit apart. THEY WERE AMAZING LIVE. We are really impressed that they didn't suck live. They finished up their set and now we were faced with our decision if we wanted to stay for Bring Me The Horizon. We decided that we would stay and not dance. Shortly after this decision they started their set and we said fuck our plan. We are going to jump on bitches. As we walked down the aisle some scene bitch was being carried up cause she jumped off the speakers into the crowd only to meet the concrete. She was having a seizure but it didn't phase any of us. We did what we had to do and we did it the best. About half way through the set and after a lot people met the concrete and got knocked out cause they didn't know how to stage dive. I was standing behind my homie Josh I felt this warm splat hit my face. I instantly thought who the fuck through water and wiped my face only to find that it wasn't the clear liquid I thought it was. It was crimson red, on my face, and on my shirt. I was fucking furious that some fucks blood was on me. Later I seen some ugly scene cunt with a busted mouth and was like hey I think your blood in on my shit and she was in shock, then poured freezing fucking cold water down my chest to try to clean it. Once again I was furious because this bitch was stupid! Another two songs went by and we decided to cut out early on the last song cause it wasn't the greatest song. We hit up McDonalds for some Extra Large Cokes and to pick up Dan some food. About 45 minutes of sitting in the lobby and talking about numerous topics we headed back to my house to meet up with a few of the guys. These boys of mine brought over Ashley and Chandler. To girls I've watched grow up since I was little. It made my day to see Ashley over at the house cause she hasn't been over in ages. Her and Chandler came over to say what's up to my little brother but of course he wasn't their. About 20 minutes later everyone bounced to call it a night and get a good nights rest. I hit up the space to wait for the girl of my dreams for the fourth night in a row. Only to find myself waiting for nothing....... Nikki and Devin came and picked me up to save me from the night that was going downhill. From there....we've been at the apartment bumping gangsta shit and making memories. It's been one hell of a day for the last weekend of November. Thank you for keeping in check with my days. -November 28th. I woke up with some of my best friends crowded around me talking, playing guitar hero and bumping some good old shit. I ended up falling back asleep. I brought myself to wake around fucking three or some crazy shit to drive home shower and grab some green. I showered and got dressed, played some Solitaire, listened some music and grabbed the car keys and bounced!
After I got back on the road and looked around at what was going on around and I realized how much I love Salt Lake City. Everyone that talks shit on this amazing mormon filled state can't talk shit when they come to our city. I don't know anyone that has disagreed with how amazing our city is. Salt Lake City > the few cities.

I arrived at Dans to find Amadine, and the rest of the New Mexico kids. I was welcomed with tight hugs from the friends and family. Food was provided with the beverage of 23 amazing flavors! Gotta love the Doctor Pepper! The rest of the day consisted of hanging out with the boys, waiting for our homies, and sharing our last night with our brother. It's been a very fulfilling day without even thinking about the worst of the weekend. After Devin and Adam G finally arrived we could finally get down to business and start our meeting. This is when shit got emotional...Anthonee started it off and honestly broke down. After that it put me in a thinking mood that has left me speechless since...I want to get out of the place I love so much to be a nobody. I want to not worry about going in public and seeing people I know. I know that I will miss it though...I love being the person I am and having the people in my life that I have. This is something I'm scared about giving up and seeing Anthonee break down knowing that he will be leaving his brothers behind; it really got to me cause I know for a damn fact I wouldn't be able to hold my own head up. The hugs and the love was passed around and since then we've been keeping our chin's up and having a good time. Everyone is watching Star Wars and doing other random shit in the basement. Devin and I are sitting on laptops side by side laughing and talking about shit. Justin and Adam G are hanging by our sides just chilling and enjoying our so called 'stolen days'. These last couple of days have been some of the greatest days I've had since Childhood. This is something I'm not willing to give up and something I fear of losing when I leave.
This has been one of my favorite and mot memorable thanksgivings. Even thought it was yesterday I've had the chance to extend this tradition.
Thank you to everyone who has showed their appreciation and love on the holidays. Thanks to all of my boys who came out and hung out with us during this busy days. Thank you to Amadine and the New Mexico kids for driving 9 hours to spend this weekend with us. It has been amazing..209 -November 27th. Thanksgiving day. After I woke up, showered and got ready I waited for my mother to come pick me up so we could go to Shiela's for Thanksgiving. My mother and I drove over to the West side to enjoy a good family dinner. After my mother and Shiela finished preparing dinner, we all sat down to enjoy our feast and watch Football. We shared talks and laughs about numerous things. Once we were stuffed to the max that our stomachs would allow us it was time to lay back and let it digest. Around 6:07 I called up my boys to see what was going on. I got the heads up to come on up and kick off the rest of our Thanksgiving weekend off. I arrived at Dan's to walk downstairs to find Anthonee playing Wii and everyone sitting around talking shit and laughing. Once everyone woke up from there Thanksgiving naps and got the blood flowing, the night had officially started. We sat around, shared our laughs and jokes. Messed up the house and watched stupid videos on youtube. Someone got the bright idea to grab my camera and starting taking flicks of our night. Devin, Ivan and I headed down to my house to grab the rest of my equipment so we wouldn't have to make the trip back to my house tomorrow to grab it. By the time we got back it was time to head downtown and take our so called "promos". Hahah it was a damn good time with only about eight(8) of us. We got some sick as flicks that would make the camera flip shit. Blasted some bomb ass shit!!!! We came back after our promos was done with to throw them down on the laptop and upload that shit up. Since then we've sat in the basement, talked like vatos while Anthonee was on the phone with was some beezy, drank sprite and listened to (n1nth)cloud. Braden and I hit up Beto's to get some late night food, hit up 711 after wards to get some pepsi and some fountain drinks. Took a turn down the wrong road and got lost and finally found our way home. From then we've been in the basement doing the same old fun shit. It is now 6:01 and Braden, Anthonee, Nato, Mark, Makenzi and I are the only ones up. Probably not going to be cause we are waiting for amadine, mario and a few other New Mexico kids to get here. It's been one hell of a Thanksgiving with both of my families. I couldn't be anymore thankful for the life, friends, and family that I have. Happy Thanksgiving and Black Friday is for fucking nuts! -November 26th. It started off good. But somewhere between coming home from school and sitting down at my house things went down hill. Probably one of the worst days that I've had. -November 25th. I came home after a long day of school, going to the shop, and hanging out with my boys only to come home and log in to find something amazing. I didn't plan on writing about this, but she thinks she can one up me. She has defiantly reassured to everyone how madly in love she is with me and honestly one of the best things I've read for her. I am glad to have another person get involved in this 365 thing I've started for myself. It will take you by suprise, you will hate the words that come out of your mouth, you will love the passion that will flow, you will look back to see your life. One of the greatest things I've done, and I want to maintain this in my life. This is my memoir. For me, my friends, my family and one day a family of my own that I will have. I am completly happy with my life, it is content and perfect. I am in love with a woman that lives 4 hours away in her words. I would have never expected this to come upon us two. I would have never thought that my late night myspace buddy would be the girl of my dreams. The one I've been praying for, the one that keeps me trying. It all started as a joke. A prank to pull on our friends, and to get a fellow friend to stop liking her. According to her I had her around my finger within the first two nights. It was the worst cliche of love at first sight. We both new that we wanted eachother, and how badly we would die to have one another as theirs. In other words MINE. It's odd to think that by getting to know her in such a short amount of time, and to pull this prank on our friends that we were actually dating... that we would actually be setting ourselves up for the real deal, and it's something we didn't expect. We ended up falling for eachother during this plan and only time has taken us to where we are. It's been an amazing 1 Month and 15 days with you Kayla. You are the protector of my heart, the shoulder I can cry on, my eye candy, my love, my babe, the one I call mine and my Kool-Aid. You have a set of eyes that I can always find myself getting lost in, a hand that fits perfect with mine(like a puzzle piece) you have lips I could get stuck to forever, a hug worth not letting go of. You've held my heart with care and protection. You've kept it safe and out of dangers way. We both know we have something that most people read about, or see in a movie and would do anything to have what we have. You are so many things that words and metaphors can barely explain. You've been the one to keep me falling for you though. Day in and day out. You've been the one to catch me when I fall. The best part is when I fall for you, I don't have to worry about getting hurt. There is always the chance of getting scrapes and bruises. But with the proper set of gear, we never have to worry about going to the E.R. FUCKING WOW Kayla..I don't know what else to say about you babe. I know for one thing though.. you are the one that holds my heart, the one I call mine and you are the only one I love. -Thank you for so much. Love the boy of your dreams, your Romeo, your monkey, your boyfriend and the one you call yours. I'm hoping this completes your day, as much as you complete mine -November 24th. I had an amazing conversation with the women I love. Everytime she calls, I swear I fall for her more and more everytime I hear that smile, the laugh, her voice, her sweetness, hearing that I'm her boy. You've been the only thing on my mind since we've got off the phone and I will shortly meet you in our dreams. I can't wait for tomorrow. ps. Thanks Giving is going to be hard as fuck! I get two of them with my family! -November 23rd. A long night of painting and moving shit, I finally let my eyes rest only to be disturbed of the beautiful sounds of hip-hop and mtn paint being shaked. I hopped down from my 2nd level bed to come out of the GS room to find Dekoy blasting the wall! After that Retards got up on the back wall and it was time for everyone to put in there work that we've been waiting for. Hung out, talked, laughed for hours and watched the homies paint. I finally left the shop to come home to get some good sleep and some food. I ended up catching every green light from 4th south; all the way to 48th. It was a damn good day. -November 22nd. After getting a pretty good sleep, my Mother told me to get up for the day. Woke up and got ready for the Tail Gating Party. Grabbed my hoodies and my camera and we were off to meet up with the rest of our group. We headed over to Shiela's to pack up our food and all of our other accesories for the day. When everything was checked off and packed tight into the vechiles we headed over to Subway to get our sandwhiches for our lunch. A few of us decided to eat half of it and save the rest for when we get up there. Once they were settled in our stomachs we were once again off to the road. Only this time we were heading over to Smith's to grab some drinks. Once we got to Smith's me and mother got distracted after withdrawing money and picked up some movies. Superbad and 21 for like 14 bucks. That's a fucking steal! Finally it was time to head up to the Tail Gating lot to hang out. We hung out at the lot from about 12 to 3 something. Everyone got together and we started our Ute walk down to the Stadium. We arrived thinking we were late because both teams were on the field but only to find out that were a little early. We got settled after EVERYONE decided that our row was the walk way. Finally it was time for Kickoff. The biggest game we've been waiting on for the year and it was finally here. The game was a damn good game. But of course University of Utah came on top by a good point spread of 48-24. Making us 12-0 and on our way to the BCS Bowl!!! After the penalty of having fans on the field with 2 minutes left the game was finished and I've never seen so much Red on something. I honestly don't think the field is big enough. It has been an amazing Football Season here at Home. We still have a few games ahead of us that I will not be attending due to money. I will still support my team! Our yell, you'll hear it ringing through the mountains near and far! We're up to snuff, we never bluff, we're game for any fuss. No other gang of college men dare meet us in a muss. So fill your lungs and sing it out and shout it to the sky, We'll fight for dear old crimson for a Utah Man am I! Ki-yi! And when we prom the avenue, all lined up in a row, And arm in arm and step in time as down the street we go. No matter if a freshman green, or in a senior's gown, The people all admit we are the warmest gang in town. We may not live forever on this jolly good old sphere, But while we do we'll live a life of merriment and cheer, And when our college days are o'er and night is drawing nigh, With parting breath we'll sing that song: 'A Utah Man Am I'. Chorus Who am I, sir, A Utah Man am I! A Utah Man, sir, Will be 'til I die. GO UTES!!!! I arrived home around 8:43ish and called up the homies. Since they are all fucking handicapped and only care about hanging with their women, I got some dinner and editing some photos. Around 1 o'clock my night was just beginning. I ended up talking to McEllie and we decided to hang out since we had to bail on our plans last time. I drove around for a good fucking 20 minutes trying to find her stupid new house because the streets don't know how to put houses near eachother with the same numbers!!! Finally I seen her creeping down the street and picked her up. We ended up driving around trying to find this trail I once knew of, listened to music and caught up with eachother. I'm glad I got to catch up with her. It has been something I've needed to do. After I decided fuck finding this park we drove around Salt Lake. I talked about how much I miss living down there and exchanged our stories of us being in the town. It was a cheap rip off version of a memory lane drive. Soon we ended up on State Street and Uprok was still open. All of my homies were out so we checked it out. Come to find out they were re-paiting it all, making it newer and just a new look. I talked to Chase and he said I could come down all night and help. Me and McEllie left to drive around for a bit and then she had to be home. I dropped her off, we exchanged hugs and said our good byes and good nights. My night was just starting! I ended down to the shop and locked up my car. Walked in and they got the spray gun working and were all ready buffing it. Hours upon hours came through and it consisted of everyone getting to know eachother, a shit load of paint, cold breezes, the heater warm as fuck, hip-hop and a lot of talking and laughter. After the walls were buffed to perfection and everyone planned out what spots they wanted and how to get a hold of the homies they needed. Dekoy and I ended up in the Ghettoslider section chilling on the couches, laughing and painting. I climped on top of the closet cause they was this comfy ass half bed up there and chilled up there. Sat up there and laughed at stupid shit everyone was doing. Around 5 am Dekoy decided he wanted Coffee and went to see who all wanted shit. I was down to hit up 711 and get a pepsi. In between it all I passed the fuck out, about a good 25 feet on top of a square. That was my 22nd day of November. Read on to the 23rd. This is so far a two day job! TWO FUCKING FOURTEEN! -November 21st. I vagely rememeber Friday. School went by very quick. The first 30 minutes of school we took notes on why The U of U was going to beat BYU. After that it was a typical school day. I had all of my favorite classes to finish off the week and it couldn't have got any better. After school let out and I was back at home I waited on the boys to figure out what they were doing. Everyone ended up at my place for dinner and to hang out. Later in the night we got a text that it was one of our good friends birthdays. We loaded up in two cars and headed out the destination. We got there and called up Dan and he said that The Hotel Security were being faggots and kicking everyone out. So if you were staying the night, you had to go in and not come out. If you weren't...well then you were fucked. So we said fuck it we are going else where. We reloaded our vechiles and headed down to Crystal's. We beat everyone there but they arrived with a few boxes of pizza and it was party hard from then. Just sat around, talked, laughed, played some video games, watched the office, had some starbursts and a few Mountain Dews and just hung out. It was a pretty damn good Friday night. Just got to be surrounded the ones I love and throw some new memories in memory lane. It was hot as fuck for some reason in the house...like a fucking sweat shop or something hahahaha We ended up leaving around 11 something and it felt like 3 am. It was Ivan's fault, he had the neighbors calling the cops because he is black. Came home and got ready for the big day ahead of me. It was a glorious Friday Night. It made another day go by in my books; you finished 214! -November 20th. Everyone was getting hyphy already for the U of U vs Byu game! Pretty much I did the same ahahahha I can't wait for the day I look back on what I've written. 215 -November 19th. Today was one of those days where it was way to perfect to be inside of school. I like to call these days my Ferris Bueler days. So I cut out a little early to go on my own adventure; to a place that is probably one of the most scummiest thing in people's eyes, but one of the most beautiful things I have. Out where no one can find it, but the ones who do keep in touch and check in. I love being connected to my surrounds. It's something I will have where ever I go. All day it's been a collage of beauty and ship wrecks. I need to stop handling peoples problems, and stop letting my mind wonder till the point it's lost. It helped having my boys around and having a semi-party on Wednesday. Tonight made me realize how happy I am to be Straight Edge and so self confident within myself. It made me realize that if I get something that I want more than anything...well I don't know if I want to leave home for an extended time. I just want to be out of school...and making sure none of my dreams get left on the shelf. 216 -November 18th. I sat in the same exact boat as I did the night before. 217 -November 17th. There are so many and thoughts and emotions I would love to share with you tonight. But I will bite my tongue till the rush of blood rises to the surface. I will one day look back on this day and remember why I'm stubborn tonight. In my eyes...memory lane is still perfection. There's some things I would love to have back. There's one sentence you need to know about tonight and why I love my friends. ' He ain't stopping, he's doing a 106 mph. Fucking faggot!' 218 -November 16th. Thank you everyone who racked up those views last night. It was pretty fun watching them rise to an all time all for the day and week! Today has been one of those days where you wake up numerous times and fall alseep numerous times. Where you just want to lie down knowing your not tired, to find yourself waking up confused. I've never been so sore after a show! My back feels like hell, and my calf feels like death. My new bestfriend has become Hot Showers and Muscle Rub/Relaxer. Today was a damn good day though. Justin and I got to grab a bite to eat at our favorite place(Noodles and Company) right before doors were locked for the night. While eating I ran into a friend I haven't seen in a minute(Ash) Tonight was a good night even though they haven't been so clear these last two nights. My sleep schedule has been destroyed...and even when you aren't any where to be found. For some reason I find myself waiting. I know tonight will be another restless night. A night that consists of you on my mind, tossing in bed, wishing you were by my side, wondering why you aren't here! For some reason I love it...Tonight will end amazing without hearing from you! To the closest of my friends and family! These words explain where I'll be with you! 'It's the ones we love that we hurt the most when we lose control of our tongues, vent our emotions, and let our frustrations go. It's not right, and there's no excuse. It's not important enough to get angry about. It's not important enough to come between me and you. Don't forget the times we've shared. Don't forget the fun we've had. Don't forget who's always there. Don't forget who's always got your back. 'Cause no one makes it in this fucked up world alone. Without your help I sink like a stone. 'Cause all we've shared is too much to throw away, and you don't mean those hurtful things you say. So don't forget everything we meant, the places we've been, the times we've spent. Even if you push me away I won't let you go. It's not about you or me…it's about you and me together, staying friends as we grow old. I understand where you're coming from, and I respect the way you feel. I hope you would do the same for me. We all say things we don't mean, just learn to let them fly. No, I'm not your enemy. I want to know you for the rest of my life. You're the one I can't afford to lose. And I know, no matter what happens, we'll work this through. So don't forget the times we shared, the fun we've had, the places we've been. I'm always here, no matter what happens, through thick and thin' Thank you for an amazing weekend! 219 -November 15th. Kayla and I didn't end up going to bed until 8, maybe even 9ish in the morning. The heat finally got to me and woke Kayla and I up around 11 and then we drifted in and out of sleep until Noon. We ended up sitting in Fort Ricco until Daniel gave the go ahead that we were leaving. We said our good byes and then we ended up coming back because AK forgot his pants with his wallet in them. So we had to say our goodbyes once again and then it was time for another 4 hours of black pavement! (I'll write more later) Ps. Keep those Blog Views Coming. They've gone up 15 in about 20 minutes 220 -November 14th. End of the week and I don't think it could have been more of an amazing day!! The sky was nothing but blue for miles, and school was quite easy and fast. I mean in English Class we watched Jackass 2. haha Yeah that's how we roll on Fridays in Beh's class! In photo I made a call to see if there was room for me in a vechile so I could follow up on my secret mission that I forgot to tell you readers about. When it came down to it I had a ride and had to bail out of class like a fucking ninja! The ninja plan didn't work so I just left.. haha I met up with my ride at the front of the school and it was off to fill up the tank, grab my clothes, and get on the road that I've traveled so many times. Traffic was pretty bad getting out Provo but it cleared up and then we got stuck behind some real royal fucking asshole truck drivers that wouldn't let anyone pass. Once we passed those fucks we hauled ass! 221 The whole way there I could only think of one thing; that the girl of my dreams was going to be so suprised and hopefully everyone kept their mouth shut about me coming down. After 4 hours on the road we were in Grand Junction, a little lost but we were there. We got a call from either Dan or Corbin that said hurry the fuck up cause we aren't starting until Ricco get's here. Instantly I was like loud ass mo'fucka's can't keep their mouth shut! We arrived at the VFW and man was Kayla suprised that I was actually back in her arms. After we could finally let go of eachother it was time to have a good ol time with my friends and family. Days like these, are my best days! It was an amazing show and an amazing time with everyone. I ended my night in Fort Ricco with Kayla! About two or three hours later all of my boys came rushing at the Car to inform me that I just missed out on this girl taking 10 cocks in and around her mouth. I guessed she has dick taking ability's. I guess Dan started fucking her, she called for Ian to double stuff her, Andrew threw down in her booty hole, Ak and Corbin masterbated on her stomach, The Asian was getting a hand job, Jake was getting a foot job or something, Davis and Kory were alseep, some girl was fingering her self on the floor, Jordan was getting a hand job, and Daniel got a hand job also and then cried hahaahahahha What a fucking night Fort Ricco was back once again ahah that was my 222 sucka's!!! -November 13th. John Mayer- Your Body Is A Wonderland. 223 -November 12th. Today I woke up feeling like shit, called my mother and got the ok that I could stay one. Ended up falling alseep after getting on the web and didn't wake up till about 5 o'clock. There was only one thing on my mind all day and it was 10x as werst as ever before. Finally through the day my lady met up with me to start our night. I don't know if you've ever sat there and just start thinking about someone who is in your life and feel your heart race pick up and kick your chest. FUCKING WOW! 224 -November 11th. I feel like wrapping this week at a Tuesday. It's been raining like cats and dogs down here in Salt Lake City, Utah. I've never been so happy and have looked foward to my days. Pretty much...this is explains it all. Here's the song of my week. Cant you see that its just raining Aint no need to go outside... But Baby, You hardly even notice When I try to show you this Song is meant to keep ya From doing what your supposed to Like waking up too early Maybe we can sleep in Ill make you banana pancakes Pretend like its the weekend now And we could pretend it all the time Cant you see that its just raining Aint no need to go outside But just maybe, laka ukulele Mommy made a baby Really don't mind the practice Cause your my little lady Lady lady love me Cause I love to lay here lazy We could close the curtains Pretend like there's no world outside And we could pretend it all the time Cant you see that its just raining Aint no need to go outside Aint no need aint no need Mmmm MMmmm Cant you see cant you see Rain all day And I don't mind. The telephone is singing Ringing its too early Don't pick it up We don't need to we got everything We need right here And everything we need is enough Just so easy When the whole world fits inside of your arms Don't really need to pay attention to the alarm Wake up slow, yeah wake up slow You hardly even notice When I try to show you this Song is meant to keep ya From doing what your supposed to Like waking up too early Maybe we can sleep in Ill make you banana pancakes Pretend like its the weekend now And we could pretend it all the time Can't you see that it's just raining Aint no need to go outside Aint no need, Aint no need Rain all day and I really really really don't mind Can't you see cant you see, You gotta wake up slow I had to do this one today because the last couple of days I've only wanted to write about the rain and the girl of my dreams. So I'm mixing it up a little for you viewers. Enjoi my 140th day of writing. Here's 225 -November 10th. Today was mine and Kayla's One Month ann. The day couldn't have started off with a better way. Stayed up till 4 in the morning talking to this women; wishing she could be here for it, instead of 'Maverick City' I wish she was there so I could have gave her something to remember...instead we are settling for msn conversations and fucking web-cam I hate being .. calling it a night and waiting for her in my dreams. I awoke about 2 hours later to go to fucking school! It was a perfect Monday in my eyes..a nice stormy day! I couldn't pass this oppurtunity. I ended up skipping first to fall asleep in my car with the rain hitting the car and music in the background. I was so perfect with the moment and thought of Kayla and how bad I wish she could be here for days like that. Days where the rain is coming down so hard and we are able to lie in bed all day together. After I decided to go class, feeling like shit cause I'm sicker than sick. School wasn't too bad. Afterwards everyone came over. Ivan, Nato, Alee, Boston, Alex, B-Money, Dan, Ryan, Chelsea, Corbin, fucking everybody showed up. Even a homie I haven't seen since he left for training. It was an amazing fucking day. But the one I should have been spending it with...is 4 hours away. Fucking fuck 226 -November 9th. Went to the mall for about two hours. Got judged hardcore by some bitches in Famous Footwear. Later we headed over to Justin's girls house to meet her. It was a good ol time with everyone who was there. We ended up eating, playing Rock Band, laughing at shit on youtube and getting to know eachother. The day went a lot better than expected after some faggot forgot how to merge on the highway and almost took us off the road. Punk ass bitch! I had an amazing talk with the girl I love and pretty much spent the night wrapped up in feelings of comfort and trust. I couldn't have been anymore happy. 227 -November 8th. Hung out with the boys. Had a meeting and everyone went off to do their own thing. It was a kicked back day. 228 -November 7th. Physically I'm sitting in cold winter weather. Watching the sky put up a fight against grey clouds to keep the snow away. In reality; I don't mind watching the war. Cause mentality...I'm on the best vacation ever! (All rights reserved to Kevin Russ) 229 -November 6th. School sucked but what do you expect from a place like that? Didn't use my vocal chords to much at school cause I was in my own world the whole day. After school sucked for awhile due to my own reasons. Finally though it was time for FOOTBALL! I couldn't be upset on Football day. Something like that is un heard of. Today was our biggest game besides Oregon State and BYU. We played TCU who stomped all over Brigham Young and made them cry. haha I was way nervous going into this game. TCU has been on their game all season. Kick off started off the game and TCU kicked a field goal. By the end of the first half we were playing like shit and the score was 10 to 6. There was a lot of false hope in our fans. We didn't think we were going to pull back with the way we were playing. Then from out of the sky a gift of something was delievered and we took the game 13 to 10. Keeping us Undefeated and 10-0. BYU you better be damn scared cause San Diego doesn't stand a chance. U-T-A-H UTAH UTAH FIGHT FIGHT FIGHT!! 230 -November 5th. Things started to turn around today. I had the chance to go up to the University to check out some Work Shops because of my ethnic. I had amazing time with my group of friends from school and had an amazing time in the work shops. I still understand why they put me in the Asian group? But it was a good ol laugh, and a fun time. I wish the day didn't end as soon as it did and I really wish school was like that everyday. Going back to a regular school day after this is really going to suck. It was the first snow of the season and it has just been coming down ever since I woke up. Not going to lie I was pretty stoked on it. I had some good conversations with a lot of my friends and a very heart-to-heart conversation with a friend of mine that I only see at school. It was a little odd to talk about our love lifes and learn about eachother in those aspects. She didn't know how I was and I didn't know how she was. When it came down to it..we both had similar situations. After ending an amazing day at school, I came to a warm house. Worried the rest of the day and fell asleep for the rest of the day. 231 -November 4th. Bad day number two! Obama was elected president so that was defiantly a good thing. And finally got some things off my chest but I don't know what will happen in the future now that they are out there 232 -November 3rd. Honestly one of my worst days. It started off pretty good and then some where, some how in Slcc Art I started thinking and I instantly got kicked off Cloud Nine. Everything I attempted to do was good, then some where in the middle of it all I would start thinking. End up giving up and half assing it so I could lie my head down and try to figure out why I'm like this. I'm pretty sure I know why but I don't even know. I miss last November....I wish this person was awake to help me through this. I hate writing about this terrible day. It's all sad and depressing; not my style at all and it pisses me off just reading it. Right now I'm too the point where I would give up everything I have just to have what I want the most. Just me against all odds. Fuck this day 233 -November 2nd. I feared going to sleep on the night of November 1st. I knew I would be waking up to my last day with someone who means so much to me. I know the distance is becoming a big factor; fucking stupid miles! But other than knowing that, Kayla and I woke up pretty early, thank you to Adam G. I guess everyone peaced out a lot earlier than we did. But it was daylight savings, so we got an extra hour of rest. After about a few hours of talking to Kayla we cleaned and tucked away Fort Ricco for the last time this weekend. Ended up back in the apartment hanging out with everyone before we left. We made sure we had everything and packed up our bags for the last time. Carlos came over to say by, cause he received a text from Adam G saying they were gone. Carlos got a call from some recording dude, and invited the remaining of us to come fill in for the chants! It was a go with the remaining crowd. We made sure everything was packed, and followed Carlos to the place. We got into this dudes house, I'm assuming. Waked into the kitchen to find his board and spoke about how we were going to do this. MFW set things up and we all gathered into a little room, listened to the beat through some old ghetto blaster head phones and let our sings scream out TOMORROW MEAN NOTHING TODAY IS ALL WE! We ended up doing another track and getting it to sound pretty fucking brutal. After we recorded it was our time to finally leave. It took Kayla by suprise that it was happening this soon and quick. We had a good long goodbye and as tough as it is to say goodbye to the person you love. Not knowning when the next time you will see this person, and be able to feel the warmth and security in there arms really takes a toll on you. It defiantly makes you a stronger person though. In all aspects of traits. You can never compare what you have, to what I have. I will be a cocky asshole but what I have is better! What I have > What you have! I only feel like I can write down how I feel and the thoughts that rush through out my head about my experiences in my life. I can't even explain how happy I am that I started this 365 blog. It has taken a big part of my life to do something like this. To let my friends read what I write, and people who I hardly know. But I can't stop..... until then, write ya tomorrow! -November 1st. I don't think there is any better way to start off a month, by waking up four or five times to the person you love and your friends coming in and out of Fort Ricco to say what's up and show their love. After Justin went on his walk him and Nato came by Fort Ricco to say what's up and see what was going on. Justin had some bad gas due to some Starbucks Coffee shots or some bullshit! I'm so honored to have the things I have in my life. I'm thankful for everyone who came down to Grand Junction with us. There was a lot of people who came that I haven't seen in weeks, and at the most months. After cleaning and folding away Fort Ricco it was time to go inside: shower, eat, see everyone, and get ready for the day. Most of the day consisted of everyone coming in and out of Fort Ricco, watching t.v., playing video games, laughing, telling stories, and waiting in line to shower. It was a good day to catch up with everyone and just being around the ones who mean the most. We ended up doing this until it was time to go to xTyrantx. We ended up hanging around the venue until the locals setted up. Justin, Kayla and I went off to go get some food. I don't know what everyone else did. Came back and enjoyed one hell of a show! Thank you for everyone besides some douche bags who played! I wish One Choice could have made it; but what can you do. There is always trouble on the road. Everyone else brought a show to remember. Thank you Made For War, Bring on the Night, Sworn For Chance, Some local band, THRIVE!!! and xTYRANTx for playing! After the show we had some fun and laughs at some cornfed american faggs! All met up at the house, showered and set up Fort Ricco. It's the best feeling knowing that you can tell your friends and family goodnight, that you love them all and you will see them in the morning. After everyone said goodnight it was time for me to go to bed. Kayla and I set up Fort Ricco, lyed down and had some talks I didn't expect. I couldn't ask for a more perfect thing =] This wasn't even half of the cars we had, but this is all we had together at the moment!

October Breeze

-October 31st. Me and Anthonee ended up waking up to the house phone ringing it's jolley ass off. Then Ivan's alarm clock waking us up. It wasn't cool at all. Everyone sat around played video games, laughed, eat and chilled on the web. Now we are at Ivan's packing and getting ready but we still have to wait till 10:30 to leave this place. I will keep you updated -October 30th. The last day of my school week! It went by quick as hell and it was time to meet up with everyone and set up our weekend. We all met up at Jakes to situate our rides and it was off to Provo! We talked to the owner of Muse into letting us be able to dance and have a good time. He was helpful and agreed with us. We had to wait all night for the two bands we wanted to see. We sat in the lobby just hanging out, taking pictures in the photobooth, laughing at eachother, and just having a nice get together! I got to see a a lot of people I haven't seen in awhile, and meet some people that I've been waiting to meet. I don't know how Adam G convinced his parent to come down and hang out but it was worth the while and a fucking blast. I'm sorry Joy for you having a bad night, and also to Nicole. Wish my guy friends weren't dicks but what can you do. The show was a very good turn out...there were a few little problems. Girls Girls Girls and Dudes Dudes Dudes. It was a great night and pictures will be up sooner or later. Thank you to Joy Dupree Photography! 237 -October 29th. The days get closer and closer. Days become hours, and the hours slowly turn into minutes. I'm so excited for this weekend and hoping that all of the plans go through so we can hit the road. After this trip I honestly don't know how much longer I will be able to wake up, and live my daily life without you being a phone call away. Today is a very good day; the sun is shining it's warmth, the locals are out and about. What a beautiful Ash Wednesday =] I'm so glad I have the girl of my dreams!!! You wish you could have what we have! 238 -October 28th. Cops need to find better things to do with their jobs then locking up my homies for dumb shit. How do you legally stop someone when they are walking and search them. Then arrest them. FREE RADIO/IVAN! Fucking boner biting faggot ass cops! 239 -October 27th. It would be very nice to enjoy a boat ride on a lake; whether it be in the fall or spring. It's something I want to accomplish! 240 -October 26th. Mentally... 241 -October 25th. I'm so honored to be your first son. Your Peanut.I have my mother to thank for everything I have in life! From giving me life to making me the man I am today! -Thank you Lorine Cordova. You are the most beautiful women and the strongest person I laid eyes upon; with my own two green eyes. You have done a wonderful and an amazing job at raising me Lori. You watched me crawl, smile, throw-up, walk, run, grow, get hurt, cry, laugh, etc.. You've been the one who's been there no matter what to take care of me. To give me the hugs and comfort when I was scared and lost. You give me the confidence to be the best that I can be in life. You've taught me such morals and beliefs that I wouldn't trade for. You are my everything in life. You are the only women in my life Lori. I honestly don't know what I would do with Lorenzo and I if you picked up your bags and left. I look up to you more than anyone in life; I always have. From being a happy family with a loving father and having a front yard, to the times where we had enough money for food and lived out of our Maxima. I don't even have the words to explain how much I love you. As the days grow, and Lorenzo and I fight and you feel like you've failed at keeping a family together. Know that I love you with every part of me. Because if it wasn't for you I would have absolutely nothing in my life. You've made me the honest person I am today. -Thank you Lori for life. We put the ILY back in FAMILY! 242 -October 24th. For the one's who have witnessed me and this kid throw our dukes up and fight; or have heard about me talking about how much I hate I hate the kid, and how happy I would be if he would just go fucking die! Possibly the few of a few know that I really love my brother. I wrote this blog back in August but due to Myspace difficultiies I'm re-doing it. -Thank you This is the only thing I have to blood besides my Mother. We look after eachother when we need it the most, and we give eachother the father figure we don't have. I've watched my brother grow as a person. We have something a lot of people can't learn in school, or by reading a step by step book. Even though you know I hate you...deep down you know I love you with every breath I can create. Even with broken knee's I would still walk just to see you smile. I love you Lorenzo M. A. Cordova; I don't know what I would do if I lost you....You're the little shit I love to call my brother! We are putting the ILY (I love you) BACK IN FAM-I-L-Y!!!!!! 243 -October 23rd. I figured I would take a week off to write about the one's who have impacted my life the most. It's something I've wanted to do and I finally think I have the words straight for everyone. I was browsing through my blogs and I've wrote about a lot of people, but there is someone I've left out of this pictures...so this one goes to Lydia S. Slaker. -Thank you for making me the man I am today. I don't even know where to begin with telling you how thankful I am that you've been a big impact in my life. I look back at all of the pictures, all of letters, all of the full messages, all the fallen tears and all of the uplifting smiles we've had. And I realize that you've made a stronger person than I was. You helped me learn the confidence in myself to speak my mind and share my feelings without worrying. You've witnessed me in my worst times, and you've been the one who picked up when I needed the guidance and the hands I needed to lift me onto my feet. You've been there in those warm summer nights; and you've been there in those cold october nights that slowly turned into freezing winter nights. You gave me some of my best memories, and something I will always hold onto forever. We've been there for eachother on our happiest days, and have been there for eachother when we needed to cry. You know how big of an impact you have on me, and I know it goes for you too. I've been there for you when you need me, and I plan to remain by your side in life. There's nothing more that I could ask for from you. You've given me everything I could have ever asked for. I'm just glad to still be close to you and consider you a best friend. I'm very happy for you and Matthew. He's a better looking version of me anyways and I'm glad you have something in your life that can give you all the joy and happiness you need by your side. There's so many words that can describe what we've been through. I can't set my mind on one of them...so I'm taking the time to thank you. (I think I'm done for now) -Thank you Lydia Suzanne Slaker for making me stronger. This is 244 and I'm taking the time to talk about the one's who mean the most!!!! -October 22nd. Today went right by pretty quick, I don't recall learning or doing one thing in a class today. I slept my school day away and it's pretty pathetic. School ended at 2 and it was time to make up a class. I have a friend in that class with me, we've known eachother since 7th grade. I was minding my own business doing my work and Eric was asleep at the computer desk right next to me...out of the corner of my eye I seen my friend on the ground shaking. I've never witnessed anyone have a seizure before. It was a scary moment to see someone I know be in that situation; helpless and out. It really hit me to see someone in that condition..I've kinda have just dread on it all day. It's experience's like these that make me appreciate the one's I have around me. The one's I've watched grow. He came out of the seizure and puked on my hoodie according to Eric. And for some reason my teacher felt all bad about the situation. She said that I was all cute and all this stuff for letting my friend use my hoodie to support his head. It was very odd and now she has my hoodie cause she wants to wash it. Kinda of odd.... Since I got home, my mind has just been racing with thoughts. I sit here thinking of the past and the future. It seems like it rained a lot last Fall and I miss it. I miss hanging out with my brothers in Ryan's car driving around blasting Jedi Mind and (n1nth) cloud. I miss the beginning of something that has become a part of my life. My mother also thinks I'm becoming sick....I think she's right, but my immune is perfect. I'm just sick of the day to day life I'm living. I want out....I want to start my new life and begin my future. I don't know...I'm past this High School shit; oh yeah! FUCK HISTORY! 245 -October 21st. As the days progress, my feelings increase, my need for sleep becomes a must, my passion to live grows and my will to make her happy is complete. Tonight might be the night I get more than two hours of sleep. I'm fucking stoked. 246 -October 20th. I need a good night's rest. 247 -October 19th. It has been 117 days and even more than that since I've started blogging my year. I look back on it have I've realized that I've grown as a person, and have become stronger in a lot of area's of life. I've had a couple of little crushes in these days, but now I'm finally settled down with some one who is perfect for me in this time of my life. This week has been one of my most successful week in writing. I had about 200 views this week. It blows my mind that my readers are reading my stolen days. I've also noticed that I've been the one to influence a few other people I know into writing about there days, and writing about their thoughts and feelings. I had no idea this would have had such an impact on the ones around me and the ones who look foward to reading about my days. I want to thank everyone once again, who's been apart of my life. Have you ever had nights where you just want to plug in your headphones just so you can hear the music louder and clearer? This is that night. I've grown a passion for writing, it is now something that is apart of my life and honestly will maintain to be a part of it in the future. Right now I'm in the prime of my Senior year; everything is in my favor for me. I'm a little to excited for the future but these are my stolen days and I don't think I'll be giving them back!! 248 -October 18th. It was football day today! We played the lovely Colorado State and gave them a beating of 49 to 16. I got a nice little red sun burn at the game and bumped into a few kids from school that I didn't expect to see. After winning and making our record 8 - 0 and showing BYU what football is all about! I came home to hang out and collect some thoughts by myself. Shortly after that Justin stopped by to hang out and later Nato showed up. I ended up falling asleep on everyone due to only two hours of sleep prior to game day cause of Kayla (way to go babe) I later woke up to a room full of my brothers. Everyone kinda did their own things through out the night and then we all met up back at my place to decide that we were going to have a movie night. We headed over to Justin's for a movie and didn't even doing that. It was a great Saturday to be honest =] 249 -October 17th. The most relaxed Friday ever. Woke up to a bunch of bullshit and laughed. Started the day around 4ish and left about 5ish. I went home to shower and meet up with Justin and Nato. We headed over to a coffee shop so they could get their fix. Nato ended up talking to some beezy's and chatted with them. Later we made a phone call to some kids we haven't seen in a minute. We all decided to get some Beto's before we bounced over to the Boing! House. We shared stories, laughs and good ol memories of the past. As the night progressed we destroyed the street. After everyone was feeling to call it a night we headed home. I arrived home assuming and looking foward to getting a good nights rest before game day. As usual I got caught up with the girl of my dreams and she kept me up all night. Once again an amazing conversation and how I can't explain how happy I am with her. I ended up calling my night in about 8:30 ish. A couple hours before I had to get up and celebrate FOOTBALL DAY! THIS IS OUR FRIDAY NIGHTS! 250 -October 16th. Today I'm getting the chance to blog about October 14th and my response from the 13th. It's been almost a week since we've left Grand Junction. Since we've left the state we could say that is almost a second home. A lot has changed...mostly in myself. I've never been so confident or stoked on life. I've looked for every choice I can make, every cause and effect that I make in my life. These are honestly the greatest days of my life. I have my friends, my family, my world to thank for this. You're the ones that make this so possible. Thank you everyone who's been apart of my life, or have influenced or have made me a better person. The person I am today. _Thank you all. Ricco. 251 -October 15th. Last day of the week. Four days off for U.E.A weekend. Really didn't do too much. Ended up meeting with Ivan and Nato and just hung out. We ended up driving to BFE for nothing and then decided to call it a night. I once again ended my night with someone who makes everything that much better. Fell asleep about twice on that phone call. 252 THESE ARE OUR GREATEST DAYS! -October 14th. It's been more than a week and I've finally got the chance to sit down and tell everyone about the girl of my dreams. Have you ever met someone that can take your breath away with everything they say? Have you met that someone who makes your knees shake in their presence? What about feeling like every kiss is your first kiss? Has that person ever made your lips tremble everytime when they are close to theirs? Have you ever experienced such a starving feeling in your stomach, only to find out that it's hardcore butterflies? Have you ever been so happy and so confident to write and talk about how special that person is!!! I've met that person, and I'm way past confident in what I have! I'm so honored that I have something like this in my life. I'm glad I have the chance to create something out of our dreams, and put them into reality. You're the only person that's been on my mind since I've left. Your the one on my mind when I wake up, and right before I go to bed. I've never felt so comfortable, and so close to someone in my life. I know when there is something I can't through, that your going to be the one to help guide me through those obstacles. You know I will be there for you at all times. Through the lowest and highest points of our friendship, and relationship. I will be the extra set of hands to help you through obstacles you can't handle on your own, I'm going to be the shoulder you need to cry on, I will be your legs when you have nothing to support your body, I will....I am the man of your dreams. I've never met someone like you. I used to a think that someone so down to earth, someone so trust worthy didn't exist. I never thought that the girl of my dreams would be right in front of me, staring at my eyes. You've been the only one who has been able to take away my breath everytime I hear your voice. You've been the one who turns my cloudest days into my brightest. I've never looked so foward into a relationship. I'm ready for what's in store for us. Any obstacle in our path we will be able to handle together. However how tough it may be, I know that I will be the boy that will be holding your hand through out it all. There's so much I miss about you already and it grows everyday. I miss having you be the last person I see before I rest my eyes. I miss having your arms wrapped around me throughout the night and mornings.I miss the comfort and security; being in your arms, I miss the passion in your lips. I miss being able to look into your eyes and watching our Worlds collide. I've seen some of the most breath taking views. And some of the most amazing art work. But none of that compares to when I'm looking at your eyes. I've never seen anything so pure and as beautiful as you Kayla. So people express how they feel in letters, gifts and sex.(NO FOR THE ONES READING, WE HAVEN'T HAD SEX) I've expressed my heart and feelings through every letter of the alphabet. The words I put together to form the sentences and paragraph only comes out with the same meaning.(Kayla) Anything I think about or talk about some how finds it's way back to ground.(Kayla) I'm still so speechless and stunned that I have you to call mine. I never would have thought that everything I've wanted in a women would be the one I have. I'm glad you're the one that I will be building memories with, the one that will be my support system in situations, the one and only girl I look foward bragging about. You are the one I call mine. The one I call babe. Your are my Girlfriend and there's nothing more I would want you to own. I wish I could pour out more of my feelings in the letters of your full name. But I've already have over-filled those letters. And I've already explained so much more of them to you over the phone, and in person. Your the girl of my dreams...and I've found something that I can actually say I've earned. Thank you for everything so far. My Girlfriend > your girlfriend It's only been One Week. But in our Hearts it's been longer. Together we are stronger as ever. =] I'm glad I get to see these days grow! ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------ Her Response THIS IS THE MOST AMAZING BOY I HAVE EVER MET! You know exactly how to make me feel ontop of the world, and to have emotions I've never felt. You leave me speechless, breathless. I can't even begin to think of the words to describe my feelings for you, my thoughts just race at the sound of your name. I'm so excitied for what is happening and what will. I'm your blue skys and your my sunshine. Ricco Demetrius Cordova, you mean the world to me. I don't even care that its only been a week or what people might say. I know how I feel, I know how you feel, and that is the only thing that matters to me. The butterflies are still dominating my stomach. MINE! 253 -October 13th. I've never been so tired..so devastated. I did come home to receive this though. Check it out. October 13, 2008 - Monday - 9:57 PM You've inspired me to write about my feelings. Have you ever stayed up all night just to hear someone's voice on the other end of the phone for just a minute? Have you ever been so happy you completely forgot about reality? Have you ever had a void in your stomach, thinking it was hunger, only to find it's emptiness, loneliness, and a way you never thought you would feel about someone. I have, thats what I'm going through right now. I had such an amazing time with you and all your friends. You are the most breath-taking person I have ever met, you are so pure and mean every word you say to me. I miss looking into your eyes, touching your face, holding your hand, falling asleep next to you, and having the comfort of knowing your around. I miss kissing you with so much emotion, hugging you tight, listening to you laugh, and watching you smile. I miss being to nervous to tell you what I was thinking, so I would text it in my phone so you could read it and respond. Above all, Ricco I miss you, so much it's starting to hurt. I know, believe me I know how gay this is, but I just can't help it. You make me so happy, just looking at you puts a smile on my face. I know I only have to wait a little while until I see you, but that little while is going to carry on forever. I'm excitied to be doing this, what we have. I'm psyched to make this work. I'm ready for any challenges that may come between us, and I know I can handle and work with you through them. I'm extremely happy with what happened, and what we can remember about your time being here. (For everyone that will probably ask, NO WE DID NOT, for the 15th time, hahaha) Waking up without you next to me made me so upset, and realizing today I have to deal with my stress, with not having a job, with my dad. It really sucks you aren't here to kiss my forehead, make me smile, and tell me everythings going to be okay. As of right now all I can say is, I miss you, I like you a lot, I love what we have and what we've shared, I can't wait to see what the future holds, and I'm excitied to hear your voice tonight. My Boyfriend > You. :) I've never had someone so amazing in my life. Even without her being next to me, she still knows how to make my day. That was two hundred and fifty four from the ninesevenOH! -October 12th. Waking up to your friends screaming your name is the worst way to wake up. It puts you in a fucked up mood. Gladly for me I had someone there with me to drag me out of this funk. After picking up the house for Joe's parents, we bounced on out of there and headed over to the apartment. We ended up waking everyone up there and stealing their beds so we could actually get some sleep in before the show. I'm sure Joe stole a blow up doll and it shortly became Corbin's new fucke buddy, and Devan's Girlfriends. Her name was Catherine. Jon Jon got fucked with when he fell asleep, so did I (fuckers) After that I jumped in the shower and half of us ended up talking about the streets in Salt Lake. After everyone got ready for the show it was time to head on over there! I'm not going to write about the show cause there's way to much. Thank you for Made For War for setting up such an amazing show. Thanks to Sovereign Strength, Saving Grace(New Zeland), Wrench in the Works, Man of Sorrows and And Embers Rise for playing such an amazing show. Honestly one of the best shows I've been too. (Group Photo: Sovereign Strength, Saving Grace, Man of Sorrows, Made for War, Wrench in the Works and And Embers Rise!) In between sets and whenever I was tired I spent my time with Kayla. Today was our last day with eachother. It was the only thing we could speak of. Neither of us didn't want to leave eachother because of our memories we made in the last week. It was the hardest thing for both of us knowning that I would be leaving. Words can't even explain what was going through my mind when the group photos were done and I said bye to all my Colorado Brothers. The rest of the time it was holding onto Kayla...trying to convince myself that it wasn't happening....sadly we knew it was reality. Carlos gave us the best of luck and his support. So did the rest of our friends... it was honestly the hardest thing I've done in life. One of the brothers was playing all this slow dancing sad music on the piano..I strongly asked Kayla to slow dance. She turned red with nothing but happiness. Then Ivan said that we had to go. We walked outside hand and hand; held onto eachother for a few more minutes and sadly I said good bye one last time and wrapped myself up under her arms. We made our features collide one more time and I was off. As soon as I got into the car I told Justin just to go...I couldn't take the fact that I was leaving and the impact was now starting to hit me. As I teared up and we drove off we headed home. We stopped at Mickey D's to grab some food..then the gas station to grab some drinks and fill up the tank. The drive home consisted of us talking about how were are going to miss everyone. Everyone seemed to ask about Kayla and I. Everyone was really supportive about this...and it made me tear up once more. Thank you Ivan, Justin, Devan and everyone else who is willing to help me out in this. I love you guys more than ever. This is what Family is for. You can't take this away from this. We drove the rest of our hours listening to Comeback Kid and our great Road Trip music. (Straight Edge Group Photo) THIS WAS THE BEST 5 DAYS OF MY LIFE. This trip made me a stronger and a better human being. -Thank you Made For War, a big thanks for Carlos being really supportive...and especially to you Kayla. I ended my greatest five days on 255 -October 11th. It was a stormy day...a day of unfinished business. Kayla and I woke up to Devan busting in the door and singing some of his songs. It was a great thing to wake up to. After everyone was dressed and ready. We all kinda ended up doing our own things, with our own problems. It was a slow day...and a very thoughtful day. After everyone was squashed; Brian decided that it was his time to call it good and leave. We all wished he could have stayed for the show..but there was no talking him out of it. On the other hand with all the drama I was not going to let it drag me down...and be miserable. I got another chance to lie down to that very special girl who makes even the stormiest and darkest days; my brightest. It was our 2 day..and we stayed up once again watching the minutes turn into hours as we talked and slept the night away. Everyone kept coming in the room full of excitement. It was Devan eating pie crust and singing us songs, to B-Money breaking closest doors, Joe farting on Mom, and telling rasict jokes the whole night! It was mine and Kayla's last night to be able to fall alseep next to eachother. So we made it the best of what we had (for the ones reading WE DID NOT DO IT) It was something we both didn't want to give up, knowing that after tonight was the last night together in the prime of the night. It was a night to rember. Falling asleep next to someone who makes your days the brightest....is almost as better as waking up and knowning that they're going to be right next to you. I'm still in shock about everything that has happened...that's 256 out of my glorious 365. -Thank you -October 10th. Woke up to everyone running around the house and Joe was screaming at something. Everyone decided to bounce and hit up the mall and grab some food. Justin on the other hand went to the store and bought something we could make. He ended up making some bomb ass spaghetti and we just hung out. We sat around and talked for most of the day. Listened to music and took turns fucking with the ones who left their myspace's on. It was time for the sun to call it a day and lie to rest. The rest of the cats showed up with even more groceries. I guess they had the bright idea to BBQ for this night. So we fired up the grill and cooked that shit. After everyone had filled up their stomachs we put in Beavis and Butthead, then finished up the night with our classic of Green Street Hooligans. Finally everyone got to the put where we all called it a night. Mine on the other hand...was just beginning. I found myself lying in bed with kayla, trying to make sense that it was actually happeneing. This was our night to do nothing but look into eachothers eyes and talk. I had to open my big mouth and say something I was so nervous to say, but little ms smartass some how got me to spill the words that were holding me down. I've never been anymore happier with the decisions I've made. Tonight was the beginning..of a relationship that everyone supports. This is a day that I will never forget in my history books. I wouldn't want to live my 257 any other way. -October 9th. After waking up to a beautiful face and half the boys running and jumping on shit. I sat in bed, trying to give everything I had to pull myself out and get ready for the day. It was a pretty laid back day. Nothing but resting and good jokes and times. 258 -October 8th. Went to school all day. I had an on going battle with the clock and hoping that the day would go by quicker. The clock always seemed to be beating me. Finally it was 2 and it was time to grab my bags and get out of here. Justin met me at my house and the adventure was on. We had a 4 hour drive ahead of us that we didn't know would change our lives. I ended up getting sick on the way up here and had to make a restroom break. Some where in price we found a cemetry with about 20 whole families buried in them. Ivan and I joked about if one of us got bite by a rattle snake who would do what and cha cha what do in case of snake bite. After these little pit stops and a gas station to fill up some drinks and get our sweet tooth craving on; it was back on the road. We still had about 3 hours ahead of us. We passed the time of these hours with sing-a-longs, drawing a penis on jon jon, passing big trucks, and good ol laughs and talks. The sun was finally going down and I've never seen anything more beautiful in my life. For the ones who know how I am with sunsets....this is one that had me at hello. Every fade and colored blended just right with eachother. It was something I would love to have everyday in my life. Then we had our backs towards the sun and we weren't looking back. I think we blasted the Warriors for a good hour in this time and we all took a power nap...besides justin who had to drive(sucker). Ivan was complaining about how we weren't out of utah yet, anthonee and jon were debating if Colorado even had a Welcome To sign and me and justin just blasted some good ol road trip music( Tiefighter for the ones who don't know) After an hour and a half of this we hit a sign that said Grand Junction Colorado turn here for exit. The car was up with cheers that now we could park and walk around and show our asses some love. We ended up getting lost and had to call our MFW boys to come rescue us. This whole F street and 3 and half shit is not what I'm used to. Joe and everyone pulled up in their Gangsta ass Ponitac and there was something in the back seat that took me off my feet. Everyone exchanged their words of "I've missed you, and how are you" and then it was off to get food. Someone shouted Taco Shit and I wasn't down. We drove over to Taco Bell and not even being in Grand Junction for 3 or 5 minutes. Anthonee already beat the shit out of some kid. We had to bounce that taco bell and head to another one. After everyone filled their tummy's it was time to head over to the apartment. We all sat around and had our times of laughter, and times of quite(wasn't that often). It was like being at the old apartment again, just with a whole another set of brothers. The night went good for all. I got a sprite, got me a massage and had a walk to remember. Every thing is so clearier out here, I've never seen the sky so lit up with stars. I had someone to enjoy this moment with me and I'm glad I took the chance. I fell asleep on the concrete and would wake up to a set of the prettiest eyes I've seen in awhile, we decided to head back to the apartment and call it a night. When we got back everyone was asleep, except jon jon cause he was playing some video game for 5 hours. Anthonee was passed out on the bed and then woke up to yell and be a little kid. I layed down with someone who completes my day(kayla) with a blanket the size of a fucking towel. Talked for a bit, lost my gauge and passed out hardcore. WHAT I LIVE FOR I DIE FOR! 259 pictures of our adventure will be up when I get back in the week. -October 7th. Today I received a phone call from a good friend of mine that she was shipping out to the army this week. It would be the last week of seeing someone that's been there for so much to not seeing them until x-mas. I don't like having the feeling of knowning someone close to me is leaving for something I don't agree with, but I respect their choices. I didn't think I would have someone else bouncing to go save our Country after Micheal left. But all is good and we had some good times before you left kimmeh. Weston is a fucking goob and now you're finally in my amazing blog...as in your words!!!! 260 -October 6th. Monday. School day and I had to stay there until 6. Fuck that weak shit!261

-October 5th. Today was Morgan Olsen's fundraiser. I didn't show up when I wanted to so me and Jon Jon headed over there around 4 or 4:30 ish. We got their when everything was just dying down. The Car Show was done with and everyone was already gone. It was a good turn out. Over Five Thousand dollars were donated to the Olsen Family. I seen some kids I haven't seen since Graduation or since the Summer. Brian Wilson and I ended up just talking and offered that we should go get some Noodles & Company. I love Noodles & Comp. so much. We bumped into some of the Hermione Boys and they were off to their own little adventure. Ian is one crazy kid and you'll find out more about that later. Today was a very good day for a Sunday. Uh Uh that's 262 -October 4th. My plans fell short of hanging out with Nicole. So the boys decided it was their day to come and hang out cause we haven't seen eachother in a minute. The storm rolled in and I don't think any of us could have been any happier. Nothing was going on for this rainy Saturday. We all crowded up in my room and drew, talked and listened to music. It was another laid back for a weekend which was very relaxing.263

-October 3rd. The last day of the week and the week was slower than slow. Went to remediation for a bit and then left cause there's no way I was sitting in there till 6. Come home and picked up the house a bit and just relaxed at home. Cami came over and we hung out and talked for a long time. Nothing really happened. It was a pretty laid back Friday and I enjoyed it very much.264 -October 2nd. It was football day today! There was only one thing on my mind. Oregon State. This game was our biggest game of the year. Oregon beat the national team last weekend. So we had to bring the rukus and show them whose house they were in! I had to stay after school till about 5 o' clock and I couldn't have been anymore impatient to get to the game. It was nice though because KT and Taryn brought me and Eric home made brown paper bag lunches. So thank you girls! After we eat our pb and j's my mother arrived to get me out of class so we would go support our undefiated team of 5-0! We rushed home to grab our blankets and throw on our gear and get up to the meeting spot so they could have a little tailgate party. We arrived up there at a decent time. Finally it was time to walk up to the Stadium! Kick off came and we already down 3 to 0. We ended up tiing the game later. The second half came and Brian Johnson was not showing his team his A game. Everyone was disapointed and we had no hope of winning. Oregon State came back from two touchdowns and the score was now 21 to 20 (Oregon State) Oregon ended up intercepting the ball to make the score 28 to 20. Then the last two minutes came into effect. We had a big pass that put our fans and our players back into the game. With the last 1:45 on the clock. We scored a touchdown making us 26. We were still down two points so we went for the two extra points. First attempt Oregon got a pass interference penalty. Giving us another chance at the two points. Our second attempt made us 28 to 28. We kicked off the ball to Oregon only to drive them no where. They were forced to punt it to us and it was our game once again. With 53 seconds on the clock we ran the ball into field goal territory. Then our boy Louie came in to win the game. All noises dropped for this moment...the ball snapped and Louie kicked a beautiful 33 yard field goal to win the game! THE STANDS WENT NUTS! We ended up winning the game of no hope and rushed the field. While running to the fence security was already taking out people getting on the field. By the time I got down there they gave up. The most historic and best FOOTBALL GAME I've ever witnessed. That made my day but I'm pretty damn sure I won't have a voice tomorrow =] We are 6-0. Undefeated. Who's scared now! 265 -October 1st. I've never been so tired in my life. I'm not going to complain though because it's been worth the while. 266

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-September 29th. Today was an amazing day due to certain exceptions. I'm really glad I could be there for you Kayla =] I had a good time at dinner and just hanging out. 365 - 268 I've completed 197 days. It's going by all too fast -September 28th. LAUNDRY DAY!! I fucking love laundry! 269 -September 27th. It FOOTBALL DAY! We played Weber State today and it was the first time McBride has been back to the stadium since he was fired. It was one hell of a football game and we came out on top; like usual! We have a pretty big game on Thursday. We are playing Oregon State and they've been on their A Game on season. Stop to check in on Thursday for that update! After the game we headed over to The Pie to catch some dinner and celebrate. We ordered the biggest pizza they had thinking that we were going to be able to eat it. Than it came and we all instantly knew it was a bad idea. haha It was a good Saturday. Came home and got to hang out by myself. That's been a first in awhile so it was nice. 270 -September 26th. Today was the day I had to make the desicion of going to the show...or not going to the show. I received a few messages from some kids I haven't seen since they've graduated. So I was destined to go. I ran around trying to figure a way I could get down there...so I had to take into to my hands to fix my bike. I tried to pump it up with one of the car pumper things that plug into the cigg thingy. It didn't work. So I said fuck it I'm taking the car too 711 and will pump it up there. I arrived at 711 only to find out that dude wouldn't give me change; I bought two gatorades to break the bill. He gave me nothing but dimes back that fucker!!!! I ended up walking to the Cleaners right next door and they gave me the quarters I needed. Pumped my tire up and went back to my house to grab the rest of the bike. Got to trax and chilled on it till I got to Galivan. Got off and rode over to the shop to meet up with everyone. We ended up hanging out side for about an hour and a half or something. Finally it was time to begin the show. The show began and we danced, sang a long, jumped on kids...the usuall things at shows. After we all went to Sonic to catch some food and ended up at Dan's for the night. A few kids watched a movie and the rest of us laughed at anthonee and eric play Star Wars Wii. After all the AER kids bounced we sat around telling stories and drink Coke out of the bottle. It was a very good night!! 271 -September 25th. I love the feeling of taking off your shoes and socks after a long day, I love feeling of thinking of that someone who makes your day, I love knowing that however dumb my friends are, they will know I'm here for them. I haven't been able to fall alseep when I would like to. Have you ever had that scent in your bed of that person that makes your day when you don't even have to talk to them? That scent has been lingering in my bed for the last week. It's attached to my blankets and my pillows. Even when I don't want to think of her and I lye my head down, the scent arises in this arouma and brings the memory of that day next to her. I honestly don't know what else to say about this...it's a good thing though..a very good thing. Today I found out that a good family member has been locked up. Adam G is doing time in DT because he's an escape artist. It's in his blood and it's something that he has decided to do with his life. Times aren't always the best, everyone has to get their cherry busted by those Public Enforcers that I call Faggots. I know Adam is pissed off cause he can't have his gauges in. But we love the mother fucker!!!!!! 272 -September 24th. After school I was really frustrated with this History bullshit I had to do. I hate...more like despise History. I think it's a pointless thing to learn. You should only learn about your Heritage and that's has far as it goes for History. As I was sitting at my computer and trying to understand this stupid assignment Jeze and to bust down my door like she was the god damn Sheriff and scared the living mexican out of me. Fucking Jeze scaring me and shit. Jeze told me her situation and why she was over. So I agreed to help her go buy gold fish and help her answer get stuff ready to answer her Home Coming Date. We drove to Petco to go pick up the fish...we looked around a bit and I complained about how I want another lizard. After that we bounced over to this kids work to deliever the message. Once that was completed we headed over to Red Robin so she could check out another dress out for Home Coming. That was pretty much my evening. Soon as I got home I called Nato up cause I missed my boys. He agreed to come and pick me up. A bunch of the guys ended up at my house and then we headed over to the real house to have a discussion. I think it went really well and honestly think people need to get their shit straight and not be stupid. My brothers know that I love them all..We've made our memories...and will always remain as one! 273 -September 23rd. It was movie day today. I watched Green Street about 6 times. Once with Jeze while we were waiting on Tabby who didn't know what time to come over because she's a newbie like that! And then a few more times after she left. I had so much on my mind...and there was only one thing on my mind. So later at night I finally got to get off my chest that was bugging me and I'm honestly really glad it went the way it did. =] Let's just see how things will go...I have a good feeling 274 -September 22nd. To jump it off, today felt like a Tuesday to me. About 6 minutes I found out why it feels like a Tuesday to me because I only have 4 days of school this week. I'm pretty pumped on today. It was a very nice rainy day and it put me in a good mood. Even though it wasn't a Thursday rainy day. It still just has good. Bonnie, Mel Bell and a very good talk like usual in Slcc Art. I love these women to death. There's so much I want to bring up but I never do...I honestly don't know what I would do if I didn't have these very special people in my life. After school I hung out with Jess and Tabby. It was a day I wouldn't forget. Tabby and Jess tried on Home Coming Dresses and then pretty much lounged around in them all day. After being set into their dresses Tabby went on a ramble about everything and Jess and I laughed cause it would be something that would happen after a Home Coming dance and Tabby was acting like a drunk valley girl. I'm very grateful that I had the oppurtunity to spend my evening with Tabby and Jess. I love having a change in my life. Jess and I ended up leaving Tabby's house because she had dinner to eat. So we went to my house to have our second day of Pb & J's. For some reason whenever I'm with certain people...I tend to pour my guts out to them. I told Jess things I usually keep to myself. I don't know if it was a bad or good thing. I kinda felt stupid talking about it...but it was too late to go back. The talk then ended and I took some medicine to help recover over my sickness and it put me straight to sleep. I found myself waking up to Jess laughing at Rautolie or however you spell that fucking name!!! It was defiantly like watching a child moment. I'm beginning to learn so much about the people around me. Before I really never cared to learn about these young bloodz. Learning about them is a whole different experience. They live way different lives then anyone I've ever met so far. I know this date entry has been really long so far. I've done some thinking and honestly I hope everything that is going on in my life works out for the best. 275 -September 21st. I was very iffy about every thing today. I honestly didn't feel like doing anything but I had plans already set for the day. Kimmeh came over for the first time in god know how long! It was a nice day to catch up and talk with her. I learned a lot of knew information I didn't know about and some things I would have never expected to happen. Kimmeh was over till like 3 and it was an alright day for being a Sunday. Two Hundered and Seventy Six Days have been completed. GET SOME GET SOME! -September 20th. A chance to waste a Saturday. I've been up since 1 so far and just spent the day with her. My body is tired, my legs are weak. But my mind has been in a non-stop race for 48 hours. I've been try decide wether or not if I want to do something. I don't feel like going out to a place and doing the exact same fucking thing that I would be doing at Home. I don't feel like being cramped in a house with 15 dudes that I'm sick of. Really honestly don't feel like being in a place anymore where I feel like I've lost touched with. I need a change... I need something new. Quite frankley I don't know if I've already have found it and I'm just ignoring the truth and pushing it away. All I do know is I've shot down plans with Cami. Cause fuck Nightmare on 13th! I honestly would rather just watch the day die with my eyes fixed towards the window. Hopefully this changes...cause I feel nothing right now. -September 19th. Another Friday has gone off the list. Me and Jeze hung out after school for the first time ever. She showed me a different way of having fun. I mean who puts little face stickers on their chin and lays upside down and talks about the most random shit? haha that's right Jeze and I do. It was a good time. We learned more about eachother and it strenghtened our relationship. Then Cami came over. I had no idea what I was in store for, and then she arrived. We all sat down and chatted and listened to music. Jeze ended up having to go and she left. We ended up going for a walk and it put me in a really deep thinking mode. That's all I could do....we talked some more and than went back to my house cause I had to pee like a fucking race horse. Thing were pretty good...and then night time came around and it was semi-awkward and kinda of stand offish. I haven't came to a conclusion of the night... I still don't know.. Oh yeah Kyle and Dave are more than likely in Jail right now. haha Fuck Da' Police. They be locking up all my homies!!! 278 -September 18th. Felt pretty shit still. Can't recall what went on.279 -September 17th. The progessing of the sickness. I woke up today to find myself feeling like a slug. Without a voice or any motivation to reach up for my sprite to damping my vocal cords. I found myself on the phone with my mother, suprisingly letting me stay home. After tossing and turning in my sleep, and every once in awhile waking up to Jackass 2 I realized that being is sick is the closest thing to being crippled. I feel so helpless. Honestly I would have rather been ast school than I would have be sick and coughing. I will upload a picture that reminds me of this terrible time in my life. 280 -September 16th. I woke up sick. I figured that it wasn't too bad so I would bring myself to it and go to school. As the day went on, my cold progressed. Leaving me with the werst headache due to all the build up of boogies in my nose. Being sick is honestly the worst thing ever. I find it embarrassing. To have to get up ever couple of minutes to grab a tissue just to wipe away running snot. To have all your teacher be like ooo your not looking so well today. I would honestly run through glass than have to be sick. Today was the starting of the cold. I also found Jesus Fucking Christ today! His name is Kevin Russ! 281. -September 15th. Absolutely nothing happened besides: Waking up for school, going to school, getting out of school, getting home, sleeping and uploading new photos for a few of the fellas Today was a day too myself. 282 -September 14th. Sunday. It was an amazing day. The breeze of fall was in the air. And there was only thing that was on my mind. Over the last couple of days I have forgot to mention that I've been thinking alot about a very beautiful, and amazing girl who has made a big impact in my life. I called that very women today, and she picked up. That familar feeling of hearing her pick up the phone excited, and suprised that I was calling was priceless. The Fall has been the only thing I've looked foward and I honestly don't know why. It brings every memory back of this women. So much was built during this wonderful season that I call my favorite. We finally got the chance to take the time and talk about how things are going in our lives. It was a very good thing...I honestly don't know what else to write about though because it's a very touchy subject and when I think about this women. My words usually never come out correct and I find myself stumbling over my own tongue. I'm glad I got to talk to her..it's been too long. 283 -September 13th. After a good night of sleep and listening to Devan and Ivan laugh as if they were fucking crack heads. We complained about how sore we were and how we need to find a ride so we could get to our bbq. The Bbq turned out way better than I expected. It was a very good turn out, and Justin was cooking some bomb ass meat. Hell yeah. Can I get a Hell YEAH! I'm glad we had the chance to get together and finally have this bbq that we have been planning for so long. I want to thank everyone who came out and had a good time. It was a day I won't forget. 284 -September 12th. Very good school day. Today was a day of desicion. It was either hang out with a very adorable girl and go watch our Varisty team get their asses handed to them. Or go kick it with the boys at the Hermione show. Since plans didn't go through with the girl, I had no choice but to go hang out with my boys. The show as better than expected. We all got in free, super fucking guest list shit. I met some really interesting people and I'm glad I did. I got to see Joy Dupree, whom I haven't seen in ages and got to do the things that I love most in the world. I ended up pulling my Calf Muscle though during the pile ons. So I'm a little bummed about that but I can't complain. It was a good way to kick off the weekend. 285 -September 11th. It was a day where the whole Country was remembering the incident that happened years ago. There really wasn't too much talk about it. We talked about in maybe two classes. There was a Football game today and we fucking lost cause we suck more dick than hookers for crack! I didn't even go to the game. I caught up on some amazing sleep. Sorry this is so whack and short, it's been awhile since I've had the keyboard in front of me. 286 -September 10th.It was a family outting today. I got to spend time with my grandmother and my cousins. It was just like the old days. So we kicked off with getting some food before the movie. And OH MY FUCKING GOD was that best shit I've had in awhile. I'm not going to let you know because I'm pretty sure I will bringing some people to it. Afterwords we went to a movie. Tropical Thunder. For the first like 20 minutes maybe I thought it was the stupidiest fucking thing ever, still funny but dumb. Than it turned out to be fucking amazing and hillarious. I hightly reccomend that shit. 287 -September 9th. I've been really busy and took a lesson in life. How ever much you are pissed at something. It doesn't change the fact that it's gone. But I'm not going to give up something that I've grown to love. I have to keep writing for the people who have been checking in and reading my life. I thank every single one of you for your support. Every word...ever dot is dedicated to you. I'M FUCKING BACK! So we are going to kick this shit off again and there will be alot more to hear from me. 288 -September 8th. I honestly did not feel like writing for this year. I felt like so much of my past was erased. This is my history book for a year and how can you have a history when days were blogged? So I was kinda upset about writing and didn't do anything until now. But I'm not going to give up something that I've grown to love. I have to keep writing for the people who have been checking in and reading my life. I thank every single one of you for your support. Every word...ever dot is dedicated to you. I'M FUCKING BACK! So we are going to kick this shit off again and there will be alot more to hear from me. 289 -September 7th. THE DEATH OF BLOGS! I logged in today to start up my daily writing. To come out that my first FOUR days have been erasing themselves. I was very devastated about what happened. I was talking to a homie from SUHC and he told me to cut some of them out and save it because myspace likes to be fucking gay and hide my shit. So I tried it out and it didn't work. Still frustrated I went to paste them back in...and nothing showed up. So I lost a good WEEK OF MY AUGUST BLOGGING and MY FIRST WEEK OF SEPT! FUCK 290 -September 6th. FOOTBALL DAY! Today we played UNLV! We showed up a couple minutes to the game. Found our seats and seen a few friends from school. We were down 7 already. The game was an amazing game. We were trailing behind UNLV for the first half. Than the second half came and we did what we do best and fucked shit up. We ended up winning UNLV. 42 to 21. Making us 2 and 0. After coming home and going over to the house, it was almost midnight. It was Ivan's birthday. The day everyone was waiting for to see him get his birthday beatings from the ones he beat. We ended up missing the beating..but seen some videos of him getting dropkicked. After the Birthday bash was over. I caught a ride home from Shaq. I don't know if anyone got to see the sky. But it was the most amazing night I've seen. You could see every star. Every constilation. 291 -September 5th. Today was a day that felt like a Thursday and defiantly not a Friday. The day was slow..eery kind of. Than family drama went down and it was the most immature I've ever seen from the people that mean the most to me. It was like watching two kids fight at the Sandbox. Honestly something I would have never expected from two grown ass men.292 -September 4th. I got some new kicks today. Me and my brother got to spend time with our grandmother. It was an all around good day. On the drive home, I seen one of the prettiest sunsets I've seen in awhile. It had me glued to the window like a child looking through the glass at the thing he wants the most. Today was a good day.293 -September 3rd. Have you ever met someone, who at all costs can make you smile and feel like the biggest fucking newb in the world? There's times where she will come around from the corner with her beautiful smile and attention stealing blue/green eyes. When she shouts my name. She makes me smile. As she opens her arms for a hug. She makes me nervous. As she squeezes her arms around me. She makes me feel so small. When she is around me I feel like a 5 yr old child, trying to hide for safety behind his mother. There's times where I don't want to her face. Only because I can't help but stare. There's times I don't want her to talk. Only because she makes me stutter. There's times I don't want her to hug me. Because I feel so small, with the strength of the world on my shoulders. There's times I don't want to see those big blue/green eyes of hers. Only because I hate getting lost in them. I've seen some of the most beautiful things this world has to offer. I've seen sunsets and sunrises that are so unreal. I've seen nights to die for. I've seen the oceans, and the mountains. I've seen waves crash on beaches that still my breathe, I've seen the snow on our hilltops. But nothing more breathe taking than those beautiful bright eyes of hers. 294 -September 2nd University of Utah Schedule!Bold=Home.Not Bold=Away -August 30th. Away at Michigan(WON) -September 6th. At Home(UNLV)(WON)-September 13th. Away at Utah State -September 20th. Away at Air Force -September 27th. Home (WEBER STATE) -October 2nd. Home (OREGON STATE) -October 11th. Away at Wyoming -October 18th. Home (COLORADO STATE) -November 1st. Away at New Mexico -November 6th. HOME (TCU) -November 15th. Away at San Diego State -November 22. HOME BYU RIVAL GAME 295 -September 1st. University of Utah beat Michigan State at Michigan. 296