January

-January 31st. My alarm clock woke me up around 10:46ish. I pushed snooze and ignored it. I would wake up everyone so often to check the time. Before I knew it; it was almost 2 or three. I found myself helplessy falling asleep. Later on I woke up once again. But this time to my fan being shut off. I turned over and it was fucking Nato. He had wondered over to hang out and go to the show. I got out of bed through some clothes on and started getting ready. Nato and I chatted a bit and then got fucked up on Life. We had a few bowls of Life Cereal (cinnamon style). Afterwards I finished getting ready. It got to the point where Nato called everyone who was supposed to ride up with us and NO ONE answered. Nato was pretty furious and was like fuck dude, do you just want to head up there right now? I said I'm down. I grabbed my hoodie and my camera and we left. We chatted for most the ride and played some The Mood and bumped some funky beats. Once we got to about 106th Ivan called Nato to see where we were at. Nato told them that we were on our way down there already. We almost had to turn around to go get him but he found a ride down. Nato and I pulled over to the Chevron to fill up the tank and grab some drinks. Once we had our Pepsi Cola, oil in the car, and gas we were back heading south. We still talked, laughed and listened to music till we got to Provo. We arrived in Provo City and headed over to Death or Glory to see what was happening. It was 80's day at the shop. Ronnie and Ernest were Blades of Glory, Mike was of course "Coach". We were at the shop for quite a bit which conisted of hanging out, laughing, talking and watching some pretty funny videos. Provo's B-Money is so much better than Salt Lake B-Money; sorry homie. After Mike free styled some Straight Edge Acoustic shit Nato and I headed over to this girls house he knew. No one knew how to drive in the city. Nato was telling all the BYU fans that we were better cause we are 14 and 0. I had to correct him and let him know that we are 13 and 0. We laughed for a moment and than I got a call from a really close friend with some really bad news. I'm so sorry this has to happen to you. I can't explain my sorrow and wow. To have a bestfriend already be in a coma, and than a family member who is so close to you take a fall, have brain damage, and not make it. I honestly don't think you could understand what my friend is going through. I give you my wishes and the best of luck for the situation. Only time can tell what happens. After the call Nato and I talked and than we were finally at her house. Walking up her drive way was death. I honestly don't see the point of a drive way so long and why it has to be on a slant. We hung out for a bit there because Nato and her had to talk some things out. I hung out listening to music and eating peanuts. Nato was finally ready to head down to the show so we did. We headed over to Pier 49 Pizza and arrived shortly. The place had to be lame and call themselves a "business" so the only way you were getting in that place is if you were in a band. Other than that you had to buy something to get in. We arrived around 7 something and EVERYONE had to wait outside till about 9. Most of everyone went to the Food and Drug Store to hang out and warm out. Cory and I hung out in his tonka truck and blasted the heater. We talked shit on everyone outside freezing their balls off and listend to Lionheart. We got out of the car and started talking to everyone and just hanging out. This went on for a good amount of time. Saying what up to people you haven't seen in awhile, making sure everything was good in their lives and you know how all that goes. Ivan and I decided to head over head over the Store to get some foods and drinks. Dizzle and Glasses came with us. We arrived there and it was like the "Cool Spot" to be. EVERYONE in their god forsaken minds was in there. We got what we needed and bounced over to the Bk Lounge because we wanted some good food that was cheaper. We arrived and there was a bunch of scenesters up in their and fucking C-Los and Toby. We had some big hugs and way too many laughs. Ivan got come cheeseburgers for us and I stole Toby's Fries and his Straight Edge Drank. Some time passed and we were having a good time in the Bk Lounge and finally decided to head back to Pier 49. We got back and had to wait in line for quite a bit. After yelling at chick watching the door and calling her a bunch of dirty names. Yes I know it was inapproiate and offensive but we were having a good time. The doors finally opened. Money was thrown down, hands were stamped, people were moving. It was such a good turn out; I'm going to have to say probably one of our greatest turn outs. We packed that place fool. We had two stories full of people. Feign opened the place going and got shit moving. It was the first for our homie Anthonee and it was a good ol time. After Feign Fear Me Dear, Decima and Bring on the Night played. During Bring on the Night a fight broke out and it was fucking Nato this time. I guess some chick got pushed and her mexican friend or boyfriend thought he could get tuff and push Nato. Nato was furious and went ape shit. I was in the front, right behind BOTN and stood up on the chair to watch half my friends pull Nato back from tearing this kid apart. The set was done and we all went outside to get the scoop. While we were outside I guess some shit went down inside and we came back in and that same bitch was talking shit to Anthonee this time. Dan P wasn't having that shit so punched a bitch for not being on her lease and a few other kids cracked her in the mouth and it was pushed outside. Security thought they were cool cause they had hammers and could shut the show down. We all shared a good laugh and some are you ok's and headed back in side. A little later Joe came inside and was like dude I just stole these Rock Stars from the store and told them to fuck off. Not even 15, 20 minutes later the BLUE GUYS showed up. They pulled Joe outside and were talking to him. Adam G, Jake, Dizzle and a few others watched from the window. They turned Joe around and started putting the cuffs on. I grabbed Adam and told him we need to find Matt or Toby and let them know. We took off and found them. Let them know what was up. I headed outside to put a hold on the arrest and the security guards were fucking dick heads. FUCK THEM TOO! Finally I got to an Officer and told them hey you need to wait so we can let who he came with what was going on. They put Joe in the car and we ended up talking to the police. To see the fear in someones eyes of being arrested is the worst fucking feeling. Especially when you have been put in that position of being placed in cuffs. The cop drove off and headed to the grocery store and Toby and I started laughing. Not too much later Joe came flying in the venue saying FUCK THE POLICE! THEY CAN'T HOLD ME DOWN! haha it was a good time. This mu'fucka didn't get shit. He got off clean. It was good to know that a close friend wasn't going to be spending the next week in Utah County Jail. Made for War was up next and the ones who have supported these fucking Grand Junction homies we call our brothers and family (YES INCLUDING YOU MATT). The set started off and Matt's michrophone was being lame and we couldn't hear him. Adam G and I tried telling the sound dude and he was a fucking douche bag. FUCK THAT GUY! We got someone to get the mike working and it Game on. I'm pretty sure these boys had a good time and probably one of their best shows. Pile On's! Dancing, Two Steps. It was a good first local show. I can't even describe the energy of everyone. Sorry Matt for sitting on top of your shoulders for the Pile on! The cops came back and tried to shut the show down. We put it on hold for a second and all of a sudden C-los screams. FUCK THIS! PICK UP YOUR FUCKING FEET! And that started shit off. By this point we didn't care if the show got shut down. Because if it was going to get shut down we were going to have fun and not give a fuck. That's exactly what we did. One of my best times with these boys and my family was on this nihgt. The show was so amazing and WOW that's all I can. So amazing and holy shit. Anyone who missed this show you should greatly be pissed off at yourself and greatly jealous. I'm defiantly feeling the after fects of this show take a toll on my body. It was worth it though. Chelsea Grin played last and that's all to say. Not to exciting. It was just Chelsea Smile. I will be able to get some sleep. It's not the sleep I want but I will tell you about that tomorrow. Goodnight and I will see you in Feb. -January 30th. -January 29th. -January 28th.It was early day at school today. So after I was out of class I ran home to make some food and watch some of the Bench Warmers. Around 2:25 I got back in my car to get back to school to start remediation. Today went by pretty fast and then once I was almost done I started getting really tired. Then it was finally six and it was my time to leave. My mom came and picked me up and we went home. I ended up falling asleep till around 10 and here I am writing about my days and talking to girl that gets me through the day. These last two weeks could have not been any better. I usually come home to find myself hanging out around my house and than I log in to find my msn icon pull up with a notification from Kayla. I couldn't have been any happier with doing the littelest things in my day. I'm so thankful for what I have in my life. My life is perfectly content. I'm in love; but not just with a girl. With my surrounds and my way of living. I'm glad to be the person I am this day in my age. I really can't wait for warm weather though! That's what's up!!!!! -January 27th. Started remediation after school today. Once I got home I just hung out around the house until Justin came over. We didn't do much; I raided his laptop cause I needed new cd's and then we went to FYE to check something out but Justin forgot everything closes at 9. He dropped me off and I came home to lie down and ending up falling asleep till like 12. I was very upset that I didn't get to talk to Kayla and when I logged in I had a few little things saying "I love you" and goodnight. It was a very laid back day. -January 26th. Went and took some flicks today and watched the motion of trains pass me by. Ended up being wrapped up in words and words talking to Kayla. Very short day but very eventful. -January 25th. The phone woke me up today. After jumping out of bed I realized that my neck was fucking killing me. It was the worst pain ever. It was to the point where I crawled back in bed and sat there for hours. Not moving, not messing with my muscles. Then Devin called and was like hey I got a new camera and wanna go take flicks. So he came over with Adam G and some beezy. We ended up driving around in the snow for hours. Took some flicks and headed up to the Top of the World. I've never seen the City be caught up in a storm. You could hardly see the place I call home. It was a good Sunday. I came home pretty early and ended up chatting with Melanie. She called while she went for a walk. We chatted and then I got off the phone. Since then I have been talking to Kayla ever since. aldhadkfhakdf I can't even explain!! -January 24th. I woke up to a dark cloudy day. I opened my windows and listened to the rain fall outside of my window. It was a perfect way to start out the day. I didn't do much. I hung out with my for part of the day and watched Sandlot about 6 times. Later in the evening Devin came and got me and we headed to do the usual. Hung out for a bit and bounced way early. I came home and talked with Kayla for the rest of the night. 3 am to about 7:33ish. I'm glad we got to talk about the things we did and so glad that she feels better. I love falling asleep to her voice. -January 23rd. Had possibly two hours of sleep at most. Could hardly stay awake in most of my classes. Came home and fell asleep for most the of the day. I woke up to the phone ringing. Devin wanted to see if I was coming out and didn't think I was. Around 9:12 Kayla called. Talked for maybe half an hour and then she had more important things to do. Called up the homies and bounced. It was a good ol time seeing everyone at the end of the week. Devin and Ivan came and got me and we went to get some food. We hit up the gas station afterwards so Ivan could get some frozen slurpee and the lady behind the counter gave it to him for free. hah Devin and I was laughing at this redneck and this little mutant. hahaha ofuk but Booga and Shuga is the highlight of the night. The fog has been the most amazing thing ever. The last time I remember it being so bad is when I was little. Cruz, Lorenzo and I all went and started building our fort in the woods. I miss the good ol days of the neighborhoods. Today was just ok...nothing to special -January 22nd. Almost the end of the week. We had Senior Talent Show this morning so that ment I got to sleep in for a bit. My sleep schedule has been completely ruined, so I needed this more than anything. I came home to find my self jumping in my bed and calling it a day. Woke up and talked to Kayla for the rest of the night. I know exactly why I don't get much sleep. Tonight was an amazing night. I'm glad to share more firsts with eachother. -January 21st. Came home and pretty much hung out around the house. I ended up cleaning my room and listening to music. My mom came home around 4 and we talked for a bit. I went and checked the mail to see if my merch has arrived yet. It still hasn't and I'm getting pretty fucking pissed. A few hours later we were all getting pretty hungry. So my mom ordered some pizza because she is obesessed with it and I went and got Wendy's. When I pulled into my parking spot Nato, Ivan and Anthonee were pulling up the same time I did. We all ate dinner and have been hanging out since. Ivan doesn't know how to stay out of trouble, Nato and Anthonee almost caused a riot at Wal-Mart and I passed the fuck out. The rest of the night consisted of us talking about how lame Wal-Mart is and watched Superbad. I'm talking to Kayla once again and I can tell it's going to be a late night. I get to sleep in tomorrow. Senior Talent Show tomorrow! -January 20th. Today was Obama's inauguration. I didn't think it was that big of a deal till I watched it. It was my first experience of ever watching one of these. People from all 50 States traveled from their homes to Celebrate this day in History. There was a old couple from Los Angeles who arrived the night before to stand in 30 degree weather for hours upon hours. They were missing the 80 degree weather back home. Watching Barracks face as he walked Penn. Ave and the joy that was brought to his face and all the excitement and happiness of the crowd made me feel good to be an American. I know that sounds lame and all but I would have never thought I would have seen the first African American President in my life time. I mean this was a big election. A women and black man ran. It makes me feel good to be where I am. After school I came home to find myself waiting for Kayla. She has been the only thing on my mind all day. I ended up taking a nap around 5 waiting for a phone call to wake me up from my sleep. I woke up around 10 to find my love online with the best news ever. Since then I've been caught up with her. Only finding myself to focus in on her smile, her laugh, her voice, her love and heart. I love this women. I love you Kayla. What a day for everyone! I hope everyone had a good day. See ya tomorrow suckas! -January 19th. Ran some errands with my mom and went got the car from the repair shop. I came home and hung out by myself for a bit, made a few calls to some friends and then Justin came over. We ended up walking from down town to 21st on a adventure. After we reached our destination I didn't feel like walking home so I said fuck that and I heard a freight coming. We were about 50 feet away from the crossing and sure enough my beauty came rolling passed. We hauled our asses to the train and jumped on it. We rode it for a bit till we had to get off because we thought he seen us. It was Justin's first train riding experience. -January 18th. Family Meeting. Rode Trains with Ivan, Adam G, and Devin. We had to run away from the train because the dude was on his way to come chase us. -January 17th. There has to be a way I just know it. It can't be the end for such a glorious thing just yet. Not now; this can't be happening. We gotta save them. There has to be a way to -January 16th. Woke up to Billy and Nikki just chilling and talking. They told me that I had a phone call from my mother and instantly I knew I had to wake up and get shit ready. It was time to Celebrate our Utah Utes 13 and 0 Record. There was a parade going on downtown. I arrived right in time for it and the traffic was ridiculous. It was to the point where traffic was shutting off their vehicles and sitting on top of them. It was a great turn out of people. With people on top of buildings and streets poles. I ran into Shae and Stephen and chatted with them for a bit. Then bumped into Nick and few other homies from school. Afterwards I found my mom and we came home so I could shower and get ready for the day. Came home and showered and talked with Shoni, Lorenzo and my Mother. When I was getting dressed my mother walked in and said that there three girls were here for me. I asked who and she just walked off to let them in while I was getting dressed. Come to find out it was McEllie, Ashlyn and Lilly. We sat around and talked while I got ready and I was going with them for a bit. We ended up driving for hours. We drove to the 64 impala', McEllie wants that car and it's my dream car. After that we started driving around and SEX some how started. Lilly caught a car with a broken headlight and started up the game. We had to explain the rules to McEllie cause she didn't know how to play. Once they were explained the game was in full effect. Lilly and I made a pack that we weren't going to lose this game. We were right. An hour went by and we had Ashyln undressed and McEllie driving around butt ass naked with a scarf covering her self. We had to restart the game because McEllie lost so bad and kept losing. We pulled in some random parking lot so they could get dressed and we talked, and we went got food. We ended up at Wendy's and were waiting quite a bit for our food. My goal was not to spill my food with McEllie's crazy driving. Once the food was gone it was back to the game. Which ended in McEllie losing again and we dropped off Ashlyn and Lilly. McEllie ended up taking me home. We laughed and sang dumb songs and that was the end of that part of the night. After getting home and ready and I headed down to Nikki's to hang out with everyone. After a bit Cody, Ivan and I bounced to go meet up with Anthonee and ended up finding ourselves going over to Josies and to hang out and watch Jared get inked. We shared a few laughs and some good ol times with eachother and then bounced. A few hours later after hanging out Ivan and I went to my house to crash. Came home around 4 -January 15th. Hung out at Nikki's all day and ended up crashing there. -January 14th. Finished Remediation and headed down to Nikki's. When I arrived everyone was cleaning and I ate my dinner. Nato and I started talking about some shit and then we got into a good talk about life and morals with Nikki. Sat around for a bit till a bunch of the usuals headed down. Nato and I shot pictures of some cunt. That was a fucking blast. Soon enough everyone was in the house and were talking and sharing our laughs. Ended up watching Assault and then Indecline. After that it was a bunch of random shit on the internet and music. Then Devin found the lysol and started lighting shit on fire. The rest of the night was in flames. We left late around 2. B-money and I chased down Ivan and Devin. Raced for a couple of blocks and then went our different ways. Around 21st we ran into Cody and his brotha and laughed at the green light and then went home. Came home around 3:30ish. Went to bed around 4ish. What a day -January 13th. Hung out with the Family and did the usual. We busted out the bb gun today and were breaking everything. Ivan broke some glass jar. I shot the Lysol can and it exploded in the kitchen and scared the drunk out of everyone. Spencer passed out and B-Money painted his legs and back silver. It was a very eventful day. -January 12th. Longest day of school this year. Felt like a monday and it might has well been. Came home and fell asleep around 7. -January 11th.Trying to get things clear. I'm back to wishing -January 10th. Week boyfriend, New Year Stress, special day, no effort, more excuses, more three worded sentences. I'm taking my heart off the line. I'm putting my walls back up. This song is another for the life booking.. Take it how you will...I'm done apoligizing "Thought you had a million chances. To stand up and take it all in stride And just when it seemed that you could do it. You just found another place to hide. So I put my hand out And I tried my best I'd stay up late at night To let you get it off your chest And I lived and lived for your smile For the light of your life ANd even if I could give more time It wouldn't have filled the space in your life WHen you left me out on a limb When you left me out in the cold Did you know I couldn't Understand at 16 years old Nothing I could've said, Would've changed your mind Years later, you've finally given me peace of mind Now a few years later When you apologized that With the tears streaming down my face It made everything, everything" there's still a lot I'm waiting for -January 9th. It was finally the end of the week and to throw all of the day to day problems out the window and say fuck it! Got out of school and ran some errands with my mom. Came home and had dinner witht he family. My mom and brother got ready to head out and I awaited for Devin to come and get me. Once Devin arrived and we laughed at eachother we headed over to Wally-World. He had this idea and it really didn't make sense and still doesn't make sense as I write this. As we turned the corner some girls hit on me and Devin and he laughed at them and we carried on with our shopping. Once we were leaving they got all girly and hid there faces and ran. Devin and I both laughed at the fact that we just got hit on at Wal-Mart and bounced. It was a typical Friday night. Forgetting about the problems and shit that has brought me down and finally didn't have to put a fake smile on. We went got Adam G. around 10ish to get him out. We all sat and chatted about some family problems and how we are going to handle them. Later in the night we headed over to Shaynes so Ivan could wash his fresh ink and leg. Jared and I ended up watching Pineapple Express and laughing our asses off. Once everyone was done from the Strip Club we all met up and went back to our Winter Nights together. Nato, Ivan and I decided we were all going to go to bed so we bounced from Shaynes down to drop me off. On the way there I had vented about some shit on my personal life and my brothers decided to spend the night. We talked for quite a bit and all passed out. There's so much I want to say but will keep my tongue behind my teeth. -January 8th. I'm sick and tired of sitting and waiting for nothing. -January 7th. I'm listening to my heart cause today sucks more dick than a puerto rican hooker -January 6th. The first picture of the year on blogspot for me. Goes to xWESTONx because he's always wanted his picture up in my blog. Love ya brotha, merry late x-mas -January 5th. Did nothing -January 4th. Got home around 8am this morning and stayed up so I could talk to Kayla. And that's pretty much the rest of the day. -January 3rd. Woke up around 10 something to Justin beating me with a pillow. We had to pack our shit and check out. Today was the beach day. We made our second runs through the Motel to make sure we didn't leave anything. Got into our swimming suits and shorts and checked out. We headed down to San Monica first and hung out. We walked along the piere to check out what was going on and the beach. Funny story actually. We decided to do a group photo in front of the ocean. So I set my polaroid camera down for stabillity( didn't have my tripod) and then set my Canon on top of it. Had it all set up and the punk ass ocean came rushing at my cameras and got both of them wet. The ocean fucked up the film in my polaroid and my Canon survived the accident. After we hit up San Monica we headed back down to Laguana Beach. The water was so much cleaner and bluer down there. We ended up walking around the beach for a good couple of hours. We rocked climbed over shit, slid down hills, slipped in moss, ran through water, had a fucking amazing time. We ended up on this random rock pretty far out from the beach. Saw a little fish and tried to catch it. That didn't work to well. We ended up finding crabs in that same hole though and tried to catch them. I changed my mind after a few trys because I didn't want to get pinched by one of those fuckers. We headed on our around the beach still. Finally we decided that we would go back to the car and decide what we would do. Before we left Anthony and I decided that we would go swimming. It was colder than fuck, but the highlight and a goal of the trip. While walking back to our car we find our Homeless Homie (the meat dude) chilling with a bunch of other homeless cats. We got in the car and started headed somewhere. We decided that we didn't want to leave quite yet. We decided that we would watch the sunset and then bounce. We ended up driving through California for a long ass time. One of the best drives ever though. Anthony passed out and Justin and I hit up some grocerie stories to get me some food and some drinks. We headed down to Daytona Beach and hung out for a bit. After that Justin decided he didn't want to stay for the Sunset. We headed our way back home with the Sunset falling behind us. I was a little upset that I didn't get to watch it so I just went to sleep so I didn't have to see it. I woke up a few hours later to Justin on the phone with Kayla saying that I was asleep when I was awake. A few minutes after that we decided that we would hang out in Las Vegas for a bit. We arrived in Las Vegas around 9ish or 10ish. We made damn good time. We decided that we would walk the strip and hang out. We walked around for a bit and we decided we would watch the Treasure Island Show. They had to end up cancelling the show because they were scared of a little wind. Fucking pussies. After that we headed back to the car so we could move onto our next destination. "Welcome To Las Vegas" sign. We went through the homeless park and seen a bunch of homeless people sleeping in tents. That was some real indecline shit. After that we drove down the Old Las Vegas Strip. That was pretty interesting and then we headed South to find the sign. Once we reached our destion Justin wanted to buy porn while were in Vegas. That was about a good hour and a half adventure. It was pretty fucking funny in the same sense though. Once we did everything we needed to in Vegas and realized we were there for hours we headed over to Jack in the Box to get some food and head home. After eating and talking we hit the road. Everyone fell asleep besides Justin. I woke a little later and not even 10 minutes later we pulled over for doing 92 in a 75 mph. We laughed and tried to get pictures of the cop lights behind us. That didn't work. I already miss this -January 2nd. I failed my attempt of staying up for the Sunset. It was like 6 something and the mofuckin sun wasn't up. I later opened my eyes to palm trees passing us by. Justin had been driving around all morning I guess. He was on a search to find a Motel cause the car wasn't cutting it for him. He found one and got it for a night. Anthony and I snuck in afterwords and all got some sleep before the show. We got up in the afternoon and started getting ready. I started flipping through ESPN to see when the Utah vs. Alambama game started. It hadn't started so I watched the pre-game. Anthony watched a little bit with me and then him and Justin decided to go get some Taco Bell. By this time the football game had started with Utah winning the Toin toss and scoring. Alambama didn't know what the fuck hit them. Anthony and Justin finally arrived back and it was second quarter. Utes up 14 to 0. We had to leave before half time so we could make it down to Anaheim in time for the show. We arrived in time and bought our tickets for Will Call. We hit up the record store (Off The Chain) next door to Chain Reaction. Find some pretty interesting things up in there. Anthony found a Cherem shirt that no one in hell will fit him and bought it anyways. We headed back over to Chain Reaction to wait for the doors to open. We chatted with a few locals and did a survey for some kids on venues. Finally it was time to head on in to Chain Reaction. The show was fucking AMAZING!! The energy of the show and the music blew it apart. Every band was so fucking good. It was fun to see everyone react to everyone and to see how diverse the scene was. Something Salt Lake has; Unity. Justin and Big Anthony stayed in the pit and threw down. I was all over the place. From the pit, to pile ons, to stage dives. It was an amazing show. Anthony had his Iphone so we were streaming the football from there. We would check up on the game in between sets and whenever we good. Before the show ended we found out that The Utah Utes had WON the Sugar Bowl. We took it Undefeated. An amazing 13-0 season. The rest of the show just kept getting more amazing. This was a show that physically beat the shit out of me. I've never been so sore. But it only lasted a day and it was the best feeling ever. I will be back hopefully as soon as possible. After the show we decided that we would hit up a store, grab some pepsi's and hang out on the beach. We stopped at a Food For Less to see where the closest 24-Hour Wal-Mart was. Come to find out; the closest one was two hours away. You would think in such a big state they would have a 24-Hour Wal-Mart in every City. I guess we were wrong. We spent a good half an hour in Food For Less talking with one of the Security Guards and his Co-Worker. The Security Guard was a nice ol' black man. This man was funny as shit. The Co-Worker added to the laughs. It was a good time in Food For Less and the day seemed just to get better and better. They were finally closing and we had our supplies for the night. We shook hands and hugged and bounced back to the hotel. We arrived at our santuary to eat and watch t.v. We got tired quicker than we thought and decided we would put off the beach till tomorrow. Justin passed out on his broken bed and I fixed the lights. Anthony showered and then played on his phone for a bit and watched some t.v. I walked around for a bit, showered and shut everything off. I got ready for bed and find myself picking up the three polaroids I had of my love. Looked down upon them and wished for her presences. I ended up reading her letter again and plugging my ipod in for the night. I turned off my lights and ended the best day of my life. -January 1st. Woke up in my loves arms and to Justin knocking on the door to get us up for the day. Justin came in and got on the computer and was getting shit set up for the trip. Kayla and I laid in bed for a couple of hours and watched Superbad with Justin, Bam Bam and Jordan. Finally I got out of bed so I could start packing and get dressed. I got ready and packed all I needed for the trip. Double checked to see if I had everything and shut down all the lights and heat. We headed over to Mickey D's on Redwood too meet up with Big Anthony and to grab some food. We all sat, laughed and conversed during our meal before we all parted our ways. Once everyone was done with their food it was time to refill the cups and head on out. Kayla and I had a short good-bye because I was being rushed. Told her I loved her one last time and shut the door. We filled up on gas and checked the oil before we headed on out. Once the car was checked it was time to hit the freeway. Along the way to California we made a few pit stops to grab drinks, grab food, and pee on the side of the road. Once we made it out of Las Vegas we hit some Outlet mall that was ran by Asians. We walked into this Taco Bell/ KFC place and that's all what was in the fucking joint. Hit up McDonalds afterwords and there were more fucking Asians. The place scared the fuck out of me. We were back on the road for more hours and more miles to reach our destination. A few more hours went by and we were finally in Southern California! We arrived in nothing but fog. Could barely see 15 feet in front of you and the smog was eating the car. We arrived in Anaheim and seen the glorious and famous Chain Reaction. Justin and I expected it to be different but we knew were going to have a blast. After talking for a bit and wanting to hit up the beach I said we should hit up Laguana Beach because it was half an hour away. We headed towards down the beach in the mist of the fog. Laughing and complaining about how bad people suck at driving in California. We arrived to this night little City called Laguna Hills. It reminded Justin of a Park City but with an Ocean. We asked some dude dressed as a Elf in a golf cart where the beach was. He pointed straight ahead and we followed that direction. We got out of the cars; pumped as fuck to hear the Ocean waves crash against the rocks and land. We walked over to see something I've missed for so long. A first for the homies, and headed down towards the beach. We talked to some people from Arizona and chatted for a bit. They told us about this camping place where we could camp out so we jumped back in the car to find this place. We didn't end up finding the camp site so we walked around the beach for a bit. And then hit the streets to walk around and check out the surroundings. We were the only ones on the streets and with the sound of the ocean waves crashing and the ocean birds flying. It was a tropical paradise. On our way back from our adventure we ran into a homeless dude. He was complaining about how some fool stole his lighter and how bad he hates lending his shit out. We laughed and your teamed him and then he went off on how he had a big package of meat he was going to eat by himself. Shortly after that we arrived to our car and grabbed our blankets. We sat and chatted for a bit and shortly everyone was going down. I told everyone I was going to stay up for the most part and make sure know people tried to rob us. Shortly after that our homeless homie from down the street came stubbling past us. We talked for a bit more and then he bounced. We thought it would be funny to jack his meat and bounce but we didn't know where he put it. So we called it a night and spent the night on the beach. There was nothing more peaceful than the Pacifics High Tide crashing against rocks and land with the ocean birds singing in the distance. Happy fucking New Year!!!

December's days

-December 31st. I woke up only to find the girl of my dreams that I fell asleep with in my arms, still in my arms. I love the way she snuggles against me and wakes up to my touch. I love seeing those big beautiful green eyes the first thing in the morning. We cuddled in bed for a few hours and decided that today we would go on our lunch date. We got out of bed and headed to the kitchen to make cereal and watch the office. Something you will always find us two doing when we wake up. After we were done eating and I put our bowls in the dishwasher, I headed off to the shower. Kayla remained on the couch keeping our spots warm. After I got out it was time to get ready for both of us to get ready. Justin came over sometime in the evening and we were finishing getting ready. Once we were ready for the day we all headed over to Noodles and Company for dinner. We got our food and it was so fucking amazing. Justin and I just had to show Kayla how bad she was missing out. After dinner Justin wanted to go for a drive so we headed up towards Immigration Canyon. I've never been up there so it was new for me. It was a nice drive. It was filled with sing-a-longs, laughs, and talks. We watched the sun go down and it was amazing. Finally we were on our way back and we decided to check out the house show out in T-Ville. We stopped at Albersations before we got to the show because I had to make a bathroom trip and get some Snapple. We were back on the quest to find this house show, we got lost due to Shayne giving us the wrong Address. Finally we found the house and it was time to tear shit up. we arrived and all of my original family was there and a bunch of close friends. All the bands were amazing for a house show and we had a very fucking good show for the last show of 2008. We tore that fucking house apart!!! After the show we all headed up to Shaynes to celebrate the ending of 2008 and the beginning of 2009. Mom bought CARNIVORE PIZZA!!! and we sat around telling our stories and sharing our laughs with others. Some out in between hanging out with everyone a fire work war broke out. Fireworks were flying in and out from the second floor of the house onto the front yard. This went on for a long time. Finally Ivan and Devin got the idea's of throwing Molotov's. Midnight finally struck and I couldn't ask for anything more than to spend it with the girl I love. We were eachothers first New Years Kiss. I've never been so happy and nervous. After the night slowly died out and a few people almost blew themselves up playing with fireworks. Jordan, Kadee, Justin, Kayla and I headed back to my place so we could call it a night. Everyone went to bed right away. Kayla and I fixed ourselves some Hot CoCoa and snuggled up and drank it. We spent the rest of the night cuddling, kissing, talking, laughing, and watching Step Brothers. It was the best way to end the year and start the year. You have nothing on our relationship! MY RELATIONSHIP > YOUR RELATION SHIP: MY FRIENDS > YOUR FRIENDS - December 30th. After a good nights rest I awoke to a phone call from Justin telling me about a road trip to Cali. We confirmed that it was a go and I got out of bed to find my brother and mother packing yet again. My mom was packing for New Orleans because she was attending The Sugar Bowl to support our Undefeated Utah Utes. My brother was packing because he would be staying the weekend at Jess and Brett's place. Justin headed over around 3ish and we talked about the trip and planned things out. I hung around the house waiting for Kayla to call to let me know if they were in town. They took for fucking ever so me and Justin bounced to The UPS store so he could send something and then we headed on over to Dan's place. We arrived and Billy and Tracie were down from The Wonderful "Sin City." Billy got his lip pierced and it was Tracie's turn to get her ears D punched. We watched Anthonee set up and do his business. Dan had to peace out to gay band practice and we waited. Ms. Logan showed up and hung out with us and finally Jordan and Kayla found their way to the house. I barely waited for Kayla to open the door before I dragged her out into my arms. We sat outside a bit longer than everyone else and held eachother tightly stunned. The night was just beginning...we went back inside to hang out with everyone and we all remained in the basement doing our usual things. Finally the whole family and everyone that was expected to show up finally got over there. From here on out it was hell. Devin got his punk ass over and we headed to go get food. We got some food and headed back to Dan's. I had this plan and didn't know where to find one and I looked up and sure enough Dan had what I needed hanging in his house. I grabbed Kayla and pulled her underneath this plan of mine. Told her to look up only to find a mistle toe above our heads. My first mistle toe kiss, and the first of hers. After kissing for a few minutes Ivan, Kayla and I bounced out with Weston so we could go meet up some other people so we could head to my place and watch movies. We all headed over to Betos so the girls could eat. We bumped into Austin, Dan, and Dallyn over there. Jordan and Devin met up with us at Betos and we all chatted for a bit, eat and bounced. We finally arrived to our destination, stopped at Wal-Mart to get drinks and treats for the night. I got Kayla some flowers and this bright idea to set up her Christmas presents. We had her wait in the living room and Ivan, Caitlin and I set up the gifts. Once they were set I covered her eyes and walked her into the room so she could she her late Christmas. It turned out a lot better than I had planned. I recieved my Christmas card and letter from her and had to read it. It was honestly one of the most beautiful things I've read from Kayla. I never knew she could put so much emotion and love into her words. It defiantly took me off my feet just like she does. We set up a little bed so we could have a talk, everyone watched movies and then bounced. We got ready for bed and it was more than an hour before I was knew the boys weren't coming back. So I shut down the lights and locked the doors and called it a night. Kayla and I spent another amazing night in Fort Ricco in eachothers arms. Talking and making eachother laugh. Nights with here are the thing I look foward into the day. Just knowing that I get to fall asleep next to the women I love, and to find my self waking up with her still in my arms. It completes my day. -December 29th. We packed our bags and grabbed some things. Tightly stacked them in the trunk of the vechile, made our second and third trips around the house to make sure we didn't leave anything, said our goodbyes to our love ones and headed for the road. After about 8 hours of driving and stopping for food and gas we finally made it home from vegas around 7ish. Kayla ended up calling me and I spent the rest of my night un-packing and talking to her. It was the best way to come home. -December 28th. Woke up sicker than sick this morning. Did everything I could so I could get back on my feet before the new years. It sucked. For the third night we had another amazing Mexican dinner. Got ready and headed down to Vegas. It has been the coldest in Vegas. I've never witnessed the weather being so cold during the Winter Months. We walked around the strip for the night and had a good ol family time. Lorenzo and I split up so we could move ahead and let our mom and grandma do their own thing. We ended up at The Miracle Shops walking around and getting "free drinks cards" it was pretty funny because I'm not 21 nor is my brother. A few hours later we met up with the family and headed back to the car. We grabbed a bite to eat and it was on the way home for a good nights rest. I spent the rest of the night watching Taboo for the third night and Hunt or Hunted or something like that. Some shit with Alligators eating stupid people. It was sick wit it!!!! -December 27th. Woke up to my Grandpa making Coffee and some of the family walking around the house. Honestly really did nothing today but lie around. Chatted, snacked on food, and got some things ready for when I got back. We all headed to this giant store type of thing so my mom and Grandma could buy some things. Kayla called and I talked to her for about an hour while I played in a wheelchair. Then some fuck head was jealous and told me to get out cause he wasn't having fun. Afterwards we hit up Wal-Mart and then came home and we spent the rest of the day watching movies with my Grandma. It was a pretty relaxing day. -December 26th. My mother walked in to confirm that the roads were good and we were on our way to Las Vegas. My brother and I got ready in like 10 minutes and were ready to go. We had to wait on our mother to get ready and make sure she had everything she needed for the trip. Once she was ready we headed over to Sears to pick up our car that we would be renting. They weren't there when we arrived so we headed over to Smith's to pick up some Drinks and Snacks for the trip. Once we were done there we headed back over to get the car. They were there so we grabbed the car and we were off to the house to throw our luggage in. Once we were packed it was time to hit the road. It was four hours before we stopped in Cedar City to grab some food and gas. About an hour after that my mother and I switched spots so she could rest. That only lasted about an hour and a half before my mom insisted that she drove because she thought she could get around the snow traffic. She was wrong. A few hours later we arrived in Vegas and to my Grandma's house. They had been cooking all day for our arrival. We had some amazing Mexican food. Probably one of the things I miss besides my Grandma being in Vegas. I forgot how amazing and good it is. We sat around and visited for the rest of night. -Decebmer 25th. MERRY CHRISTMAS! Hope everyone had a good one. -December 24th. Christmas Eve...what beautiful and amazing words. They just bring the vibe and comfort of being home. That is exactly what I did today. Woke up to Devin tapping on my window and waking me up. Went for a drive and talked and then I came home to get ready for the day. The rest of the day was a cozy day at the house with the scent of cinnamon and spice in the air, presents being wrapped, the mother and brother walking around. Today was a good day. FUCK EVERYTHING BE CLOSED EARLY THOUGH! -December 23rd. Woke up early to head over to the Dentist. Afterwords my mother and I ran some errands around the town and grabbed some food. We came home after running our errands and Devin came by to pick me up. I grabbed my clothes and mobbed down town with Devin. We stopped to get him some sick as Taco Bell and headed towards the house. Along the way we seen some random ass Crack Head standing in the street just staring and smoking a ciggy; we laughed for a few minutes and finally got to Nikki's. We arrived an no one was there besides B-Money and Spencezord. We hung out with them and watched the Jazz lose to the Bucks. Spence was fucking furious. It was quite hillarious. Afterwards all of the usuals showed up and we watched the TCU vs. Boise State Bowl Game. That was a good game. I talked to Kayla for a bit and then things got in the dumps. Nikki made dinner and I called Kayla to talk to her for a couple of hours. I'm so glad to have the girl that I have. I love you so much Kayla Rae Anderson. After talking to her I talked to her mom for her bit. Got off the phone with both of these lovely ladies to go back into a room of I love you Ricco and hugs. We hung out for a bit and then Devin and I bounced to found ourselves freezing our fucking asses off in 12 degree weather. Yeah fuck that shit! I swear I almost got frostbite from just standing. -December 22nd. Met up with everyone in the aves and Nikki made us dinner. It was beautiful and so amazing! After everyone filled their stomachs it was time to gear up and hit the hills. It was sledding night! After a few hours of sledding it was time to head back to the place to warm up and hang out. B-money and I ended up watching Dexter and than I had to peace out to come home and go to bed. DENTIST TOMORROW!!!!!! -December 21st. I'm kinda inspired to form a list of things I want to do before I die. This is called a "Bucket List". I don't know if you(reader) has seen the movie but it's a damn good one. Werst got me thinking about shit I want to do in my life. We have greatly inspired eachother in our life times so here's to you little brother. 1. Travel the West Coast in a three week period of time. 2. Visit a Buddist Temple(Asia) 3. Have my own place with a partner, or the boys. 4. Have my place like a art gallery! 5. Move to Seattle or Portland. 6. Jump from a Waterfall 7. Fix up sick ass Fixie or Roadie 8. Sound and Fury Fest and Rivalary Fest 9. Travel across the States. 10. Road trip to Canada! that's all I have but I know my life will be like this everyday (all rights reserved to K.R) -December 20th. Werster woke me around 11ish when he shook the bed and went to the bathroom. I passed out for another hour or so and woke up cause I was starving. Werst got up and got online, I grabbed a bowl of cereal and got to the eating. We stayed in doors for most of the day. Missed Kuhr paint and laughed how lazy Scrubs is. A couple hours rolled by and Werst went back to bed due to a headache. I guess the fool was thinking to hard or something. My Mother and I laughed and chatted in the living room for a bit and then she gave me some money so my brother and I could go grab some food when she left. I woke Werst up and we bounced! After food we went over to Wally-World to get some pepsi-cola and batteries for our camera's. Hours went by and we were still just chilling and listening to music. Once we were done with that we headed over to his house so he could shower and grab some clothes. We spent the rest of the day at his place. We grabbed a pizza and split that shit right down the middle. We put in Bench Warmers and watched that; I thought it was fucking hillarious, had some good laughs. We pulled out the Canvas's and started getting to work while munching on some bomb ass almonds from the mall (you know the ones that are only around X-mas time at Fashion Place? Yeah that's up.) My second mom and her man were watching movies in the other room and Werst and I sat around enjoying our brotherly company. After a short period of time we put in "We are just friends" and then Beau-Beau-Ski-Wotten-Dotten came home from work. He told us that some old dude tried to pick him up and we shared a good ol laugh. The rest of the night consisted of me calling Dumplin and seeing if she still wanted me to head over. Around 3 I called for the last time to wake her out of her sleep and to hear all of the boys in the background. I wasn't leaving any time soon from where I was at so I let the night die at that. Shortly after that Werst and I headed over to Wally-World once again to buy some more Canvas and check the price on a new camera. In the process of him putting the camera on hold I bumped into Jesse and his girlfriend. We chatted about the same ol shit everyone asks about(drama) I rambled on how I don't care and how me and the boys are drama free and howeverything is just perfect. In the process of catching up my amazing and beautiful friend Mellany came up on me with Shelby. We chatted about how if we aren't married by our 30's than we are hitting eachother up and getting married. We both confirmed that we were DEAD set on this thought. Laughed about it and then bounced. I talked to Jesse for a bit more about setting up a New Years Show in Provo with all the homies and then Werst and I bounced back to his place. Conclusion of the night. Beastie Boys and Canvas; pulled in my parking stall around 5:43ish. What a fucking Saturday! -December 19th. After school I was caught in a blizzard. I was driving for 2 hours when it really should have taken about half an hour. Headed over to Oakley's to watch the homies paint. Scrub was putting in work. Werst and Omen was sitting around just chilling. I came over and complained about the streets and we watched Scrub do his thing. Oakley went and picked up Kiloe and he come over all pissy cause he just woke up and didn't do shit. Omen left to hit up a show at Kilby. Werst, Scrub, Oakley and I sat around and watched Oakley spin some shit. It was pretty fresh! We all headed out around 9 o'clock. Oakley went up to PC for a party and Scrub went home for food and sleep. Werst and I headed back over to my place to hang out and crash. Before we reached my house we checked out this abandoned place. We headed towards the back and found a glorious parking lot filled with about 2 feet of snow just chilling. I said fuck it and we raced through it only to find our selves drifting through this glorious parking lot with snow flying over the car. I don't know if you surf..but it was like going through the tunnel of the wave. But in this case it was nothing but the greatest snow on earth!!! We came home hung out and I passed the fuck out before he did. He woke me up to show me some chick and I went back to bed. That was the kick off to the weekend. -December 18th. I don't remember; this is all I wanted (all rights reserved to K.R) -December 17th. Stayed home sick with Food Poisioning all day. =/ -December 16th. My brother and I woke up pretty early.(6:30) A first for me not to hit snooze and crawl back into the warmths of my layered blankets. I got some good sleep; considering I was out by 8 P.M. We walked outside to find out a fucking blizzard. I'm assuming it started snowing after I went to bed and it didn't stop all day at school. After school Garrett and I grabbed his car and went drifting for a few hours. Headed to Wendy's for some Drift food and filled our stomachs. After eating and getting some free food from the cool dude behind the counter(UPS TO THAT DUDE!) Garrett took me to my car. We raced down a snow filled street while two old people watched us in shock! I ended up coming home and walking into the warmth, security, and comfort of "HOME". Since then I've been in my house walking around, talking with my mother and making plans with the boys, and trying to figure out what I'm going to get Kayla for Christmas. I have an idea but I'm not sure yet. I want to give her something that is going to xONE UPx everything she's gotten from a past boy. I want to give her the feeling she gives me. Even on the snowiest days with this girl. She makes it feel like a Tropical Paradise. Being Snowed in with her and being FORCED to stay another day was Morgan Freeman's(GOD) gift to the both of us. I don't know what else to say...but she defiantly gave me the best snow day of my life and made it seem like I was at the beach all weekend long. Check it out (all rights reserved to K.R) -December 15th. Woke up out of coldness! Grabbed my hoodie looked at the time after suggling up next to Kayla to find out it was 11:30. I was like fuck..we didn't go meet your mom on her break so I could meet her, and Spencer wants to go. I called Spencer up and he was like I'm on my way. I packed up my stuff and threw on some comfy clothes for the drive. After packing I layed down with Kayla for the remaining time. We chatted, cuddled and laughed till he arrived. Spencer arrived shortly and it was time to do the one thing I hate the most. Say goodbye! We said our goodbyes, came back for more kisses and then I was gone. Spencer and I drove down to the Bk Lounge to grab some food before we left. We sat there and talked shit on the servor. When I asked for A Rodeo Burger she got all pissy and was like "WE DON'T HAVE THOSE!" We got our food and hit the freeway. We eat and blasted some I Declare War and talked more on how he eats babies. The roads were way good until we hit price. We were doing 30 for the time being. Then the snow just kept coming down. More and more snow just kept coming our way. Spencer was a little nervous and said we might have to spend the night in Price. The GPS was gay and died again. So we through that shit out the back window and bumped some Mortal Kombat and decided people should dance to this at Raves. haha We made pretty good time coming home. Arrived home to a BEAUTIFUL covered snows and a sunny day. Apparently there was a Avalanche the day I was in Fruita, and it took a womens life. Our Mountains don't fuck around cause she was Skiing in bounds. For some reason..I was sleep deprived and had bags under my eyes. I made a few comments, told Kayla I loved her and was in bed by 8. It was a laid back Monday; though to me was my Sunday! 192 -December 14th. Kayla and I woke up at a pretty good time today. Only to find us not leaving bed for hours. We sat in bed watching Dumb and Dumber, making jokes, and cuddling on this Snow Day. We finally got up and grabbed some breakfast around 4 o' clock in the evening. After our breakfast it was time to get ready for the day. Got ready, waited for Kayla, watched the whole (n1nth) cloud show that I missed, and hung out with C-los and Holly. They brought some kind of snacks over and we all hung out. Brenda went to Dinner with her Fam so the four of us headed over to Kayla's so I could meet her family. Her mother wasn't there, but I was honored to meet her Father and her brother Dakota. After having the chance to meet these people the four of us headed over to the Bk Lounge to feed our faces. Got our food and came back to eat. Watched Labyrinth and have spent the rest of the night laughing, making cruel jokes, having awkward moments, wanting a pepsi and loving the snow. Tomorrow I will hopefully come home. 193 -December 13th. Woke up late afternoon. Had a few bowls of cereal with Kayla and then got ready for the day. We spent most of the time terrorizing Brenda's room and throwing her care bears around. We sat and did nothing all day. We waited for Brenda to get off work, and Holly to come over. Holly and Brenda made some bomb ass potatoes and later Arther had Kayla make Snickerdoodles! Around 10ish the storm blew in. It was Fruita's first snow of the season and I was sitting there thinking when the fuck is this going to stop. It just kept coming down. I really wanted a pepsi so I took the chance of going to get one. Kayla and I fired up Brenda's SWEET RIDE and headed off towards the Gas Station. On the way there we could not see through the back window, the front window had ice on it and the defroster took too long to defrost. We stopped by City Market first cause it was on the way and they had vending machines outside. Well Fruita has to be gay and close stores early, and their machines. So it was back to the Gas Station where we got Pepsi and Dr. Pepper. We drove and drifted some corners on the way home. We arrived at Brenda's to snack on some Snickerdoodles and get ready for the bed. Tonight was the night I got snowed in Fruita with the girl I love. 194 -December 12th. Woke up and got ready. I had to make sure all the clothes that I was bringing on the trip were dry. They showed no signs of being damp so it the go ahead to pack. Went to school for a couple of a periods and then at lunch it was time to eat and meet up with Spencer in the parking lot. Headed out and Spencer was supposely waiting for an hour he was saying(asshole) We were both a little hungry so we decided to grab some food before we headed on the trip. NOODLES AND FUCKING COMPANY!!! Got some discounted food and got to see Mister. Adam H. After we ate our Penne Rosa and whatever that green shit was we were off to the car. On our way out Spencer was talking about getting munchies for the trip. The pepsi dude just left his car wide open so I was like pull over and I'll grab that case of Gatorade. We pulled over and everyone in their god for saken minds was just staring. A little sketch so we bounced and hit up Phillips, stole some drinks, filled up and raced down the freeway. Once we got out of Provo and were headed through the Canyons we stopped playing with the GPS cause it was gay and wouldn't shut up; I fell alseep for a good half an hour. I fell asleep to some good ol breakdowns and woke up to some Gangsta Ass Luda!!!!! The window was dirty as fuck and you couldn't see the lines on the road. I asked Spencer how it managed that and he said it started to rain right after I was out and then the dirt just smeered. He had the brite idea to through his Noodles cup at the window to get it wet. Doing 70 and throwing a drink down at your own window isn't a good idea. The wind pulled back the cup and only covered a little portion of the top left window. The rest was on Spencer and down the inside of the door. We laughed about this for a good 5 minutes and I went back to going in and out of sleeps. I would wake up every once in awhile to through my stunna shades on and talk to spence. We got caught up behind some diesels and spencer it was time to take advantage of the passing lane and dropped down to third and we flew by everyone like nothing. We didn't end up stopping. We just kept increasing our speed till about 120 and then coasted for a bit. Five minutes later Spencer flew off the road like a mad man and was like FUCK I HAVE TO PISS. We both ran out of the car to take a bathroom break. While we taking care of Nature a few trucks came by and honked their horns(they knew what was up). Me and Spencer rushed back to the car. Put on some BBABH and was destined to catch up and honk back. This time we increased our speed and our arrival time by doing 140 for a good 20 minutes. Finally we passed our last stretch of Desert with a shit load of trains in the distance and made it to Green Mile. We were still not doing the speed limit but who gave a fuck? About another hour went by and we bumped some gangsta ass shit. We put in I Declare War and decided that their singer has been "breeing" since he was three. He eats babies heads for breakfast, and eats nails for snacks. Right before this I got on the subject on how Lesbians are funny because when they fuck it's like taking two cars and running them into eachother. It's fucking stupid, and it's just plain funny. 30 Minutes went by and we were to our destination. We went to the mall cause Brenda was answering her phone so I could see Kayla smile. We found Brenda but Kayla was off doing something. We met up with Toby, Jake and some beezer and sat in the food court. About 15 minutes later the oh so familar face that keeps me up at night was approaching my way. Toby and I decided I should just get up and leave when she came to the table. So I did only to see an expression of a jaw dropping face saying "REAL MATURE". After the jokes and Kayla being retarded we walked around the mall ALL FUCKING DAY!(fucking stupid) I told Toby to hit up C-los because that's the only reason I was in town. Los and Holly came about 2 hours later. We all went and got dinner and had to wait 40 mintues for them to catch a nigga chicken, kill it, cook it and give it to me. Once my stomach was fool and we were getting looks from everyone in Wendy's we bounced back to the mall to grab Holly's car. We drove around for a bit and headed to Wal-Mart to buy groceries and other things. We headed back to the mall to get a hold of Brenda and was going to tell her that we were going with Holly and Los and would meet back up with her later. That didn't happen and we just sat in the car and listened to Carlos yell at everyone. Brenda finally pulled up with her boyfriend and we were off to her place. First we had to stop at her moms to deliever a present or something. Hung out for a bit and chatted in Kayla and I's room and then called it a night. Kayla set up the bed, I put in Superbad only to find out it didn't work and fell asleep around 5ish? I don't know..but I slept amazing. 195 -December 11th. Trisha came and got me and we headed over to the mall to visit Dan at work. We sat there for a bit talking and chatting and trying to get our plans straight for our Road Trip. Pretty much got down the the point where I knew my ride was going to bail. Dan informed with me some infor that a homie of mine was going down to Grand Junction the same time I was. I hit him up and made sure that he was till heading down to GJ for the weekend. We confirmed that he could give me a ride and that we would go our sperate ways until Sunday. After everything was set up and I was now going to Grand Junction for sure Trisha and I bounced from the mall and headed down to Nikki's. We talked along our ride down there and we finally reached our destination. All of the usuals were there. We all shared some good laughs and takls. Then Nikki was getting ried or some thist and put in the Hulk and then left the room. Justin, Nato, John Brown, Myself and Trishaa(was gay on the computer) watched that for a bit. I came to the conclusion with a few of the boys that Edward Norton is CHUCK NORRIS!!! That's what was up. I bounced to my house to do some laundry and get packed for another adventure to my xKool-Aidsx Arms once again. Around 1:32 Lyndsye and Micheala came over with some Pepsi and some candy. We visited for awhile because I don't remember when the last time I've caught up with them too. They left, I passed out. Tomorrow will be another day =] 196 -December 10th. Went to school, came home, took pictures, went to bed. 197 -December 9th. Around 5 o'clock my mother was awake, getting ready for work. I ran outside really fast to retrieve the phone from the car so Kayla could see what time she had to leave. We were blessed with a few more hours. I came inside to find out that in the short period of time that I was gone; my mother had came in and met the one I call mine. So far so good... Shortly after laughing about the situation we fell back in bed. We sat and talked, traced our fingers over eachothers skin, and smiled my brother was now waking up. He walked in and we didn't even feel the need to look up. Kayla remained wrapping her arms around me and cuddling with me. Introduced my brother to the girl who has kept me smiling and cracked a few jokes. It was nothing but good vibes. About half an hour later my brother was ready for me to take him to school. Kayla came along for the ride. We dropped my brother off and it was back to my house to fall back into blankets for a bit longer. We came back, layed in bed for a bit, had some breakfast and then I had to take her to somewhere I highly hate. That place was leaving..We were both pretty bummed on the drive to meet up with Matt. There we were..letting eachother go for yet again, another time. We hugged one last time, kissed the lips we call ours, and I drove away from the girl that should be here as we speak. From then...all I could do was look back in my mirror and wait till the distance took them out of my sight. I hate saying goodbye.. I called up Bonnie to see if they were over at Ihop still and met up with them. Hung out at Ihop and felt like shit. I was so sleep deprived I didn't even want to attempt school. We all bounced from Ihop and I headed back to my house for some breakfast and to get ready from school. Still with no sleep hours with me I grabbed my keys and bounced. Almost fell alseep a couple of times at the wheel I had finally made it to school. Went to the rest of my fourth period. Went to Print Making and PASSED THE FUCK OUT!! After that I decided I couldn't make the rest of the day and went home to pass out. I slept for awhile, talked to Kayla off and on, went to Shiela's, fell asleep again, came home and talked to Kayla for the rest of night. Tonight we both knew that she still should have been in my bed in my arms, but only time will tell when that thought is reality. I could re-live this day of no sleep with the girl I'm head over heels for everyday. -December 8th. Sleep deprived from excitement and lack of rest. School went by so god damn slow and I was so tired I didn't want to go to remediation. Went home for a bit and got things set up and hung out for awhile. Made a few calls around and finally found someone to save me from my house. Ivan, Nikki and Trisha came and picked me up around 10:15ish. We stopped at Wal-Mart to get some drinks and then head down to the aves. We got to Nikki's and a handful of people where there. Everyone expected and some new faces. We all ended up hanging out, chatting, surfing the web and doodling. While I was on the web I was speaking with Tara about Kayla's arrival and making sure what was happening so I could go see her. Towards the end of the night everyone had their face glued to their paper sketching shit out. Dumplin ended up falling alseep and stole the dog(lyndsey marie) that loves me more away. Ivan and I made way more than enough calls to Matt's phone to see where they were at but no answer. After everyone was done drawing they put in Iron Man. I sat there and tried to finish as much as I could before the light went out. Drew in the dark for a bit with my ipod as my back light and then received a phone call from a oh so familar voice. It was the voice that has came me up so many nights prior to this, the voice of happiness. I talked to Kayla for a bit and after she asked where I was I told her I was on my way too meet her. It was now about 1:20ish and I decided that I was not going to sleep on this night. Some where in between getting off the phone with her and having Ryan took me home. I came up with a plan; a plan to steal Kayla away from everyone from the night so we could spend it together. I had Ryan take me to 711 so I could pick up some Hot Chocolate for Kayla and I. I ended up over filling one of the cups and then burnt my tongue on the boiling chocolate beverage. We paid for the Hot Chocolate, got Ryan some food and gas money and it was off to buy flowers. The whole time I had made a plan to be a ninja so they couldn't see me but then he found another store. I ran in and saw some beautiful pink roses, turned out they were dying and out of the corner of my eye I seen these sparkling Red ones. I grabbed them without checking the price, checked out and bounced. I got a call asking where I was and replied "Down the street, I will see you in a minute". Come to find out they were at the wrong Wal-Mart. This gave me time to grab my vechile and get everything set up. We waited for quite awhile because Tara and Sara had no idea how to find my house. Finally I got them where I could see them and was all smiles. I finally was in arms length of the one I call mine. All smiles and the warmth of her body; my head was in the fucking clouds. After we chatted with everyone we said good night to Tara, Sara, Ryan and Matthew. I walked to my car and got in...Kayla walked around right into the plan. She opened the door and was forced to move the blankets. Only to find a dozen of Roses with her name on them. She claimed them and was nothing but a red face and smiles. We parted our ways from the rest of the group and told her that she had hot chocolate waiting for her. We headed North for the rest of the date. She had no idea where we were going. I've never seen her so happy. Seeing that smile and her eyes light up was the night for me. She was glued to the window looking out the surroundings that I call Home. We hit the city and I showed her usually what the day consists of and who I am. After the drive through the city and some talks it was time to finish off the trip. Ended up past the Capital to the "Top of the World" aka Enzyme Peak. We parked the car and I told her to grab her hot cocoa and her blanket. She was in nothing but awh..looking around and only finding herself to be looking at me. I asked for her hand and told her it gets so much better and guided her through the fresh greatest snow on earth. We were then found in eachothers arms, wrapped up in blankets and drinking hot chocolate. Being cute and just having the most amazing thing ever. After cuddling and kissing eachothers cold lips we headed back to the car. She started walking over to the door thinking she was getting in before I stopped her and told her I don't think so. Opened the door and sat her down. I found her then waiting for the kiss before we left. We headed down the road and started talking about what to do next. We drove around for a good 20 minutes before I decided on either another peak. It was that or back to my house. We both felt more comfortable going back to my place so we headed there. Once we arrived at my place and got out of the car, we found eachother holding hands and I've never felt something so right. It didn't seem like she was leaving...this seemed and should be the way it is now. We quitely snuck into the house, and into my room. It was then were we could finally have our late night conversations and didn't have to wish for eachother by one another's side. She finally got to see what the boy of her dreams does on a nightly routine with her on the phone. We got in bed and was so fucking content being able to cuddle and hold one another. I honestly didn't want this to end. We sat up all night talking, watching A Knight's Tale, cuddling and just being who we are. Since we didn't sleep I have to carry this day on. So far this was one of the best days spent with her. I love you Kayla Rae Anderson. I'm so glad you were by my side through out the night. -December 7th. Sunday. Didn't want to do anything today. I was pretty sore for some reason. Later in the day I met up with all the boys down at trisha's. I some how ended up talking to Kayla later in the day after receiving a few things that she was passing through town. Talked to her till we both fell alseep and that was the day. -December 6th. I woke up to Mark telling me how Winston beats me at snoring. Laughed a bit and headed up to the hotel to shower. After everyone was showered and I was partly dressed Mark grabbed his Stunna Shades and yelled bitches we are going to Vegas, better get ready!!! We all loaded up in the bus and headed our way to Rio Grande so we could park. Once we were parked and locked up the motion of freight trains came flying by. It was honestly one of the best ways to start off the days because some other random dude was more pumped on the trains then I was. It never fails at putting a smile on my face and giving a romantic and breathe taking movement. After the freights passed we headed into the Rio Grande to decide when we wanted to hit up the buffet and plan out our day. We walked around the Rio and checked out some shops, then we met up with some girls that Mark had knew. Said what's up and bounced to the Shuttle to the strip. We headed North on the strip first on our adventure. Checking out our favorite hotels and getting some excerise so we would be pumped for dinner. We walked the entire strip with plenty of activities. We headed over to The Fashion Show mall and went into Hot Topic to see if they had the Chelsea Grin cd and Hermione Merch. We complained and then Mark and insisted that EVERYONE had to go through their own door and look like a bad ass when you came out of it! We all picked up our doors and on the count of 3 busted through them like g's! Then Mark's flipping off the camera just started. We hit up all the hotels and ran into a bunch of priceless things. There was some bum over by Bally's that was talking about he doesn't give a fuck if he is drunk or not, shit he could have been drunk. It was some funny shit. Dan and I's main goal was to get every stripper/hooker card that we could so we could give the stack to his mother. They were the baseball cards. We had a good time hitting up all the hotels. Dan almost got in a fight with a bunch of scene d-bags and then Mark and Brad ragged on him for the rest of the weekend. We hit up Game Works at some random point and played some video games, then after that we went to the Coke place. Dan and I decided we were going to try 16 different beverages from around the worlds. A few of the other boys ended up doing the same and we all hated this white like sprite drink. The first of it was ok then fucking disgusting. It was like strong cough medicine and it burned like no other. It was pretty fucking disgusting but all the others were pretty damn good. After we visted hotel after hotel, gambled, and walked the trip it was time to head back to the Rio for dinner. Once we waited a good 45 minutes for the shuttle and figured it would have been faster if we walked. We were finally there. We arrived at the Rio and rushed to Dinner. Got our table and ate a ridicolous amount of food. Brad, Anthony and Jason ate so much Crab it was priceless. Everyone else did their own thing and stuffed their stomachs. After about 5 plates from everyone, a couple of bathroom trips, and desert we headed back to the bus to go pick up Bill and Tracie. We all ended up back at the hotel for some more swimming and tubbing. It was our last night in Vegas. Dan and I weren't so pumped on it. We ended the night in the bus with a big group of people. One of the greatest days and best trips ever. -December 5th. Today was the day I gaven the chance to visit my second home. A place where you would look at my lifestyle and wonder why the fuck I would want to go back. It's been my second home, it still makes me feel like a little kid at Disney Land for the first time. Even though my second home isn't in California. I know I can always reside to Viva Las Vegas!!! I've been in shock all day and have never been so pumped for a trip. It was the beginning of the weekend! We hit were already and on the road around 1:15. We had a legit set up in the bus. 6 bunk beds, 1 tv, dexter, a whole lot a food, and "the neighborhood". Our adventure down South wasn't too bad and then we got caught up in Payson and everyone was flipping the fuck out. There is never traffic in Payson and we were there sitting in it. We were all pretty content with our spots. Some would take a minute to rest their ends and others like myself were glued to the tv. After 4 hours of Dexter and few gas station trips were finally in St. George meeting up with some beezy's at Jack in the Box. Mark and I laughed at them and Dan and Anthony chatted away. We thought it was funny that they would text Dan the whole way down saying how excited they were for us to get there and didn't even end up talking. We laughed about that for a good 20 minutes and it was time to focus on more Dexter and snacks. We only had half the battle with the road completed. About 3 hours and 47 minutes later we were on our final stretch of pavement. Mark and I laughed about the 24 hours porn department and Mark was making sure that he was taking a run away mexican out of state hahah. It was last call and we could finally see the aura of Las Vegas! We were all pumped as fuck and I stayed glued to the windshield, sitting on some random things to just to be in awh. We drove through the strip, I was looking at the one thing that I know where ever I am at I will feel connected to =] and hit up our hotel for check in. Once we had our bags pulled in and everyone decided where they were going to sleep we hit up Billy the kid, Tracie, and Kristy to come hang out. Once they arrived it was HOT TUB PARTY! Just imagine about 7 dudes running around in their underwear and bringing the ruckus. We tubbed for a couple of hours then headed back to the hotel to shower off and get some rest for the day a head of us. Jason, Brad and Jordan crashed in the hotel and the rest of us brought our party to the bus and stayed up for a couple more hours before we fell asleep. It was the beginning of our amazing guys only trip in my second home. 202 -December 4th. I don't really care about anything. Once again fucking stupid! I want to write something so private that the world will never know of. But that defeats the point of my writing...I want everyone to see it and know how I feel. So I'm not going to say anything at all.203 -December 3rd. Waited up once again for nothing. Fuck fuck fuck fuck December 3rd. Stupid fucking day! All I want to do is run...run into the thing that always leaves, yet always comes back. I want to meet the sunrise that I so desperately wait for on the weekends and wake up too during the week. The sunset is an all day process and I am glued to the windows waiting for it fall at the right time. When that time comes..I'm weightless, happy, content. I would love nothing more than to capture these feelings in a jar. To be able to put my prize possession next to my bed. To have it whenever I please....to the eye I'm a man. To the heart I'm a sailor. I'm a slave to rhe rocky blue sheets with diamonds strewn across them. They move my life in beautiful and dangerous motions. I'm a slave to the day...it has complete control of me.204 -December 2nd. Today's blog will have a part of December 1st and later the real December 2nd will take a part. Today was a legit as fuck Monday! I had a 12 hour school day. Came home to a fixed dinner and waited for Rochelle to get off work and give me the call. Trisha and Nikki messaged me telling me that they wanted to come kidnap me but then I got the call and I grabbed my shit and bounced. Not thinking because I was in a hurry to get the fuck out of my house I forgot to do a couple of things my mother had asked of me. I got in the little Rabbit and we zoomed off with no destination until we were entering Sandy when we decided we would go down town to see the lights. We arrived to our destination and were on the hunt for a bathroom. On the way to Carl Jr's we passed something that had the stench of death, and piss. It was the corner of New York haha. After we took a bathroom break we were off to get hot chocolate and walk around South Temple and check out all of the Christmas lights. We walked around and talked for a good hour; possibly longer and then that. It was my goal to be in the the back ground of everyone's pictures that they were taking and being a smartass to everyone watching fucking statues. After we walked around for a bit longer and I stole Rochelle's apple and ate it we decided to head back to the car. We were supposed be heading home but instead we ended up talking about everything for I don't even know. Time was lost when we started talking. Talking and being able to vent about things to someone of the same sign(aries) is such a better positive thing than to talk to someone else who isn't. These past couple of days I've kicked my ass emotional, and am getting my shit together to be all what I can be. Thank you Rochelle and Melanie for getting my head in the game. -December 1st and 205 -December 1st. I'm kicking off December a little early. I still believe in one man, one women. I still believe in true love. I still believe in love at first sight. I still believe in trust. I still believe in loyality. I still believe in Big Foot. I still believe everything happens for a reason. I still believe in what I stand for. I still believe in my friends. I still believe in my family. I still believe within myself. You can't change this! x206x

November Fest!

-Novmeber 30th. Came home around 7 this morning and literally walked in stripped down, jumped in my bed and was out cold. My mother woke me up around 5 and that is it. Cleaned up the house and we put up our Christmas tree and lights. Later in the evening I called up Kayla to make sure she was alive, talked for a bit and then read Lydia's letter. It's been an easy sunday and the last day of an amazing but slow November. Thank you all for reading my stolen days and hope you will be there for December. Thank you -November 29th. Went to bed around 6 or 7 after playing on the computer and doing stupid shit with Devin. A few hours later people started waking up and everyone let me sleep. Then Amadine sat down and started to wake me up like it was time for fucking school. Wasn't to happy about this. Every once in awhile I would be shook till I opened my eyes to hear everyone screaming and Amadine telling me to wake up. Once again I wasn't happy about this and because it was cold as fuck and I had no blanket on the couch I slept on. So I demanded that she fetch me a blanket. "NO" said Amadine. So I told her to fuck off and then I got my blanket and slept for another 3 hours. I woke up for the last time to Anthonee screaming how gay Starbucks is and Dan running around finding his shoes. Once I was finally up for the day I grabbed one of the Macs and watched Uncut Jerry Springer Fights with Anthonee for hours on end. I sat in my little bundle of a blanket and a shit load of pillows on this couch for most of the day. I stood up around 3:47ish...fuck it maybe even around 4 pm. Anthonee started grabbing his bags and the New Mexico kids were getting ready to bounce. We hugged our brother for the last time in awhile. Made Amadine cry because she didn't want to leave and then walked everyone out. Anthonee was perfectly fine but I'm assuming that changed when they were on the road. Amadine was still crying and still hugging everyone. After we watched a part of the family leave our lives it was decided that Mark, Dan and I were going to go down to The Avalon for The Ghost Inside, Bring Me The Horizon, Misery Signals and Confide or some shit(they sucked). Mark and I was a little pissed off that we paid 20 bucks, they took our ID's and that we couldn't throw down. We walked around and said our what's up to our homies and kids we haven't seen in awhile. Finally the first band(Confide) started their set. About half way through it they got everyone pretty excited and kids started throwing down. Mark, Dan and I was like fuck that shit. We will fuck shit up for The Ghost Inside. Once Confide was done with their set it was time for The Ghost Inside to tear shit apart. THEY WERE AMAZING LIVE. We are really impressed that they didn't suck live. They finished up their set and now we were faced with our decision if we wanted to stay for Bring Me The Horizon. We decided that we would stay and not dance. Shortly after this decision they started their set and we said fuck our plan. We are going to jump on bitches. As we walked down the aisle some scene bitch was being carried up cause she jumped off the speakers into the crowd only to meet the concrete. She was having a seizure but it didn't phase any of us. We did what we had to do and we did it the best. About half way through the set and after a lot people met the concrete and got knocked out cause they didn't know how to stage dive. I was standing behind my homie Josh I felt this warm splat hit my face. I instantly thought who the fuck through water and wiped my face only to find that it wasn't the clear liquid I thought it was. It was crimson red, on my face, and on my shirt. I was fucking furious that some fucks blood was on me. Later I seen some ugly scene cunt with a busted mouth and was like hey I think your blood in on my shit and she was in shock, then poured freezing fucking cold water down my chest to try to clean it. Once again I was furious because this bitch was stupid! Another two songs went by and we decided to cut out early on the last song cause it wasn't the greatest song. We hit up McDonalds for some Extra Large Cokes and to pick up Dan some food. About 45 minutes of sitting in the lobby and talking about numerous topics we headed back to my house to meet up with a few of the guys. These boys of mine brought over Ashley and Chandler. To girls I've watched grow up since I was little. It made my day to see Ashley over at the house cause she hasn't been over in ages. Her and Chandler came over to say what's up to my little brother but of course he wasn't their. About 20 minutes later everyone bounced to call it a night and get a good nights rest. I hit up the space to wait for the girl of my dreams for the fourth night in a row. Only to find myself waiting for nothing....... Nikki and Devin came and picked me up to save me from the night that was going downhill. From there....we've been at the apartment bumping gangsta shit and making memories. It's been one hell of a day for the last weekend of November. Thank you for keeping in check with my days. -November 28th. I woke up with some of my best friends crowded around me talking, playing guitar hero and bumping some good old shit. I ended up falling back asleep. I brought myself to wake around fucking three or some crazy shit to drive home shower and grab some green. I showered and got dressed, played some Solitaire, listened some music and grabbed the car keys and bounced!
After I got back on the road and looked around at what was going on around and I realized how much I love Salt Lake City. Everyone that talks shit on this amazing mormon filled state can't talk shit when they come to our city. I don't know anyone that has disagreed with how amazing our city is. Salt Lake City > the few cities.

I arrived at Dans to find Amadine, and the rest of the New Mexico kids. I was welcomed with tight hugs from the friends and family. Food was provided with the beverage of 23 amazing flavors! Gotta love the Doctor Pepper! The rest of the day consisted of hanging out with the boys, waiting for our homies, and sharing our last night with our brother. It's been a very fulfilling day without even thinking about the worst of the weekend. After Devin and Adam G finally arrived we could finally get down to business and start our meeting. This is when shit got emotional...Anthonee started it off and honestly broke down. After that it put me in a thinking mood that has left me speechless since...I want to get out of the place I love so much to be a nobody. I want to not worry about going in public and seeing people I know. I know that I will miss it though...I love being the person I am and having the people in my life that I have. This is something I'm scared about giving up and seeing Anthonee break down knowing that he will be leaving his brothers behind; it really got to me cause I know for a damn fact I wouldn't be able to hold my own head up. The hugs and the love was passed around and since then we've been keeping our chin's up and having a good time. Everyone is watching Star Wars and doing other random shit in the basement. Devin and I are sitting on laptops side by side laughing and talking about shit. Justin and Adam G are hanging by our sides just chilling and enjoying our so called 'stolen days'. These last couple of days have been some of the greatest days I've had since Childhood. This is something I'm not willing to give up and something I fear of losing when I leave.
This has been one of my favorite and mot memorable thanksgivings. Even thought it was yesterday I've had the chance to extend this tradition.
Thank you to everyone who has showed their appreciation and love on the holidays. Thanks to all of my boys who came out and hung out with us during this busy days. Thank you to Amadine and the New Mexico kids for driving 9 hours to spend this weekend with us. It has been amazing..209 -November 27th. Thanksgiving day. After I woke up, showered and got ready I waited for my mother to come pick me up so we could go to Shiela's for Thanksgiving. My mother and I drove over to the West side to enjoy a good family dinner. After my mother and Shiela finished preparing dinner, we all sat down to enjoy our feast and watch Football. We shared talks and laughs about numerous things. Once we were stuffed to the max that our stomachs would allow us it was time to lay back and let it digest. Around 6:07 I called up my boys to see what was going on. I got the heads up to come on up and kick off the rest of our Thanksgiving weekend off. I arrived at Dan's to walk downstairs to find Anthonee playing Wii and everyone sitting around talking shit and laughing. Once everyone woke up from there Thanksgiving naps and got the blood flowing, the night had officially started. We sat around, shared our laughs and jokes. Messed up the house and watched stupid videos on youtube. Someone got the bright idea to grab my camera and starting taking flicks of our night. Devin, Ivan and I headed down to my house to grab the rest of my equipment so we wouldn't have to make the trip back to my house tomorrow to grab it. By the time we got back it was time to head downtown and take our so called "promos". Hahah it was a damn good time with only about eight(8) of us. We got some sick as flicks that would make the camera flip shit. Blasted some bomb ass shit!!!! We came back after our promos was done with to throw them down on the laptop and upload that shit up. Since then we've sat in the basement, talked like vatos while Anthonee was on the phone with was some beezy, drank sprite and listened to (n1nth)cloud. Braden and I hit up Beto's to get some late night food, hit up 711 after wards to get some pepsi and some fountain drinks. Took a turn down the wrong road and got lost and finally found our way home. From then we've been in the basement doing the same old fun shit. It is now 6:01 and Braden, Anthonee, Nato, Mark, Makenzi and I are the only ones up. Probably not going to be cause we are waiting for amadine, mario and a few other New Mexico kids to get here. It's been one hell of a Thanksgiving with both of my families. I couldn't be anymore thankful for the life, friends, and family that I have. Happy Thanksgiving and Black Friday is for fucking nuts! -November 26th. It started off good. But somewhere between coming home from school and sitting down at my house things went down hill. Probably one of the worst days that I've had. -November 25th. I came home after a long day of school, going to the shop, and hanging out with my boys only to come home and log in to find something amazing. I didn't plan on writing about this, but she thinks she can one up me. She has defiantly reassured to everyone how madly in love she is with me and honestly one of the best things I've read for her. I am glad to have another person get involved in this 365 thing I've started for myself. It will take you by suprise, you will hate the words that come out of your mouth, you will love the passion that will flow, you will look back to see your life. One of the greatest things I've done, and I want to maintain this in my life. This is my memoir. For me, my friends, my family and one day a family of my own that I will have. I am completly happy with my life, it is content and perfect. I am in love with a woman that lives 4 hours away in her words. I would have never expected this to come upon us two. I would have never thought that my late night myspace buddy would be the girl of my dreams. The one I've been praying for, the one that keeps me trying. It all started as a joke. A prank to pull on our friends, and to get a fellow friend to stop liking her. According to her I had her around my finger within the first two nights. It was the worst cliche of love at first sight. We both new that we wanted eachother, and how badly we would die to have one another as theirs. In other words MINE. It's odd to think that by getting to know her in such a short amount of time, and to pull this prank on our friends that we were actually dating... that we would actually be setting ourselves up for the real deal, and it's something we didn't expect. We ended up falling for eachother during this plan and only time has taken us to where we are. It's been an amazing 1 Month and 15 days with you Kayla. You are the protector of my heart, the shoulder I can cry on, my eye candy, my love, my babe, the one I call mine and my Kool-Aid. You have a set of eyes that I can always find myself getting lost in, a hand that fits perfect with mine(like a puzzle piece) you have lips I could get stuck to forever, a hug worth not letting go of. You've held my heart with care and protection. You've kept it safe and out of dangers way. We both know we have something that most people read about, or see in a movie and would do anything to have what we have. You are so many things that words and metaphors can barely explain. You've been the one to keep me falling for you though. Day in and day out. You've been the one to catch me when I fall. The best part is when I fall for you, I don't have to worry about getting hurt. There is always the chance of getting scrapes and bruises. But with the proper set of gear, we never have to worry about going to the E.R. FUCKING WOW Kayla..I don't know what else to say about you babe. I know for one thing though.. you are the one that holds my heart, the one I call mine and you are the only one I love. -Thank you for so much. Love the boy of your dreams, your Romeo, your monkey, your boyfriend and the one you call yours. I'm hoping this completes your day, as much as you complete mine -November 24th. I had an amazing conversation with the women I love. Everytime she calls, I swear I fall for her more and more everytime I hear that smile, the laugh, her voice, her sweetness, hearing that I'm her boy. You've been the only thing on my mind since we've got off the phone and I will shortly meet you in our dreams. I can't wait for tomorrow. ps. Thanks Giving is going to be hard as fuck! I get two of them with my family! -November 23rd. A long night of painting and moving shit, I finally let my eyes rest only to be disturbed of the beautiful sounds of hip-hop and mtn paint being shaked. I hopped down from my 2nd level bed to come out of the GS room to find Dekoy blasting the wall! After that Retards got up on the back wall and it was time for everyone to put in there work that we've been waiting for. Hung out, talked, laughed for hours and watched the homies paint. I finally left the shop to come home to get some good sleep and some food. I ended up catching every green light from 4th south; all the way to 48th. It was a damn good day. -November 22nd. After getting a pretty good sleep, my Mother told me to get up for the day. Woke up and got ready for the Tail Gating Party. Grabbed my hoodies and my camera and we were off to meet up with the rest of our group. We headed over to Shiela's to pack up our food and all of our other accesories for the day. When everything was checked off and packed tight into the vechiles we headed over to Subway to get our sandwhiches for our lunch. A few of us decided to eat half of it and save the rest for when we get up there. Once they were settled in our stomachs we were once again off to the road. Only this time we were heading over to Smith's to grab some drinks. Once we got to Smith's me and mother got distracted after withdrawing money and picked up some movies. Superbad and 21 for like 14 bucks. That's a fucking steal! Finally it was time to head up to the Tail Gating lot to hang out. We hung out at the lot from about 12 to 3 something. Everyone got together and we started our Ute walk down to the Stadium. We arrived thinking we were late because both teams were on the field but only to find out that were a little early. We got settled after EVERYONE decided that our row was the walk way. Finally it was time for Kickoff. The biggest game we've been waiting on for the year and it was finally here. The game was a damn good game. But of course University of Utah came on top by a good point spread of 48-24. Making us 12-0 and on our way to the BCS Bowl!!! After the penalty of having fans on the field with 2 minutes left the game was finished and I've never seen so much Red on something. I honestly don't think the field is big enough. It has been an amazing Football Season here at Home. We still have a few games ahead of us that I will not be attending due to money. I will still support my team! Our yell, you'll hear it ringing through the mountains near and far! We're up to snuff, we never bluff, we're game for any fuss. No other gang of college men dare meet us in a muss. So fill your lungs and sing it out and shout it to the sky, We'll fight for dear old crimson for a Utah Man am I! Ki-yi! And when we prom the avenue, all lined up in a row, And arm in arm and step in time as down the street we go. No matter if a freshman green, or in a senior's gown, The people all admit we are the warmest gang in town. We may not live forever on this jolly good old sphere, But while we do we'll live a life of merriment and cheer, And when our college days are o'er and night is drawing nigh, With parting breath we'll sing that song: 'A Utah Man Am I'. Chorus Who am I, sir, A Utah Man am I! A Utah Man, sir, Will be 'til I die. GO UTES!!!! I arrived home around 8:43ish and called up the homies. Since they are all fucking handicapped and only care about hanging with their women, I got some dinner and editing some photos. Around 1 o'clock my night was just beginning. I ended up talking to McEllie and we decided to hang out since we had to bail on our plans last time. I drove around for a good fucking 20 minutes trying to find her stupid new house because the streets don't know how to put houses near eachother with the same numbers!!! Finally I seen her creeping down the street and picked her up. We ended up driving around trying to find this trail I once knew of, listened to music and caught up with eachother. I'm glad I got to catch up with her. It has been something I've needed to do. After I decided fuck finding this park we drove around Salt Lake. I talked about how much I miss living down there and exchanged our stories of us being in the town. It was a cheap rip off version of a memory lane drive. Soon we ended up on State Street and Uprok was still open. All of my homies were out so we checked it out. Come to find out they were re-paiting it all, making it newer and just a new look. I talked to Chase and he said I could come down all night and help. Me and McEllie left to drive around for a bit and then she had to be home. I dropped her off, we exchanged hugs and said our good byes and good nights. My night was just starting! I ended down to the shop and locked up my car. Walked in and they got the spray gun working and were all ready buffing it. Hours upon hours came through and it consisted of everyone getting to know eachother, a shit load of paint, cold breezes, the heater warm as fuck, hip-hop and a lot of talking and laughter. After the walls were buffed to perfection and everyone planned out what spots they wanted and how to get a hold of the homies they needed. Dekoy and I ended up in the Ghettoslider section chilling on the couches, laughing and painting. I climped on top of the closet cause they was this comfy ass half bed up there and chilled up there. Sat up there and laughed at stupid shit everyone was doing. Around 5 am Dekoy decided he wanted Coffee and went to see who all wanted shit. I was down to hit up 711 and get a pepsi. In between it all I passed the fuck out, about a good 25 feet on top of a square. That was my 22nd day of November. Read on to the 23rd. This is so far a two day job! TWO FUCKING FOURTEEN! -November 21st. I vagely rememeber Friday. School went by very quick. The first 30 minutes of school we took notes on why The U of U was going to beat BYU. After that it was a typical school day. I had all of my favorite classes to finish off the week and it couldn't have got any better. After school let out and I was back at home I waited on the boys to figure out what they were doing. Everyone ended up at my place for dinner and to hang out. Later in the night we got a text that it was one of our good friends birthdays. We loaded up in two cars and headed out the destination. We got there and called up Dan and he said that The Hotel Security were being faggots and kicking everyone out. So if you were staying the night, you had to go in and not come out. If you weren't...well then you were fucked. So we said fuck it we are going else where. We reloaded our vechiles and headed down to Crystal's. We beat everyone there but they arrived with a few boxes of pizza and it was party hard from then. Just sat around, talked, laughed, played some video games, watched the office, had some starbursts and a few Mountain Dews and just hung out. It was a pretty damn good Friday night. Just got to be surrounded the ones I love and throw some new memories in memory lane. It was hot as fuck for some reason in the house...like a fucking sweat shop or something hahahaha We ended up leaving around 11 something and it felt like 3 am. It was Ivan's fault, he had the neighbors calling the cops because he is black. Came home and got ready for the big day ahead of me. It was a glorious Friday Night. It made another day go by in my books; you finished 214! -November 20th. Everyone was getting hyphy already for the U of U vs Byu game! Pretty much I did the same ahahahha I can't wait for the day I look back on what I've written. 215 -November 19th. Today was one of those days where it was way to perfect to be inside of school. I like to call these days my Ferris Bueler days. So I cut out a little early to go on my own adventure; to a place that is probably one of the most scummiest thing in people's eyes, but one of the most beautiful things I have. Out where no one can find it, but the ones who do keep in touch and check in. I love being connected to my surrounds. It's something I will have where ever I go. All day it's been a collage of beauty and ship wrecks. I need to stop handling peoples problems, and stop letting my mind wonder till the point it's lost. It helped having my boys around and having a semi-party on Wednesday. Tonight made me realize how happy I am to be Straight Edge and so self confident within myself. It made me realize that if I get something that I want more than anything...well I don't know if I want to leave home for an extended time. I just want to be out of school...and making sure none of my dreams get left on the shelf. 216 -November 18th. I sat in the same exact boat as I did the night before. 217 -November 17th. There are so many and thoughts and emotions I would love to share with you tonight. But I will bite my tongue till the rush of blood rises to the surface. I will one day look back on this day and remember why I'm stubborn tonight. In my eyes...memory lane is still perfection. There's some things I would love to have back. There's one sentence you need to know about tonight and why I love my friends. ' He ain't stopping, he's doing a 106 mph. Fucking faggot!' 218 -November 16th. Thank you everyone who racked up those views last night. It was pretty fun watching them rise to an all time all for the day and week! Today has been one of those days where you wake up numerous times and fall alseep numerous times. Where you just want to lie down knowing your not tired, to find yourself waking up confused. I've never been so sore after a show! My back feels like hell, and my calf feels like death. My new bestfriend has become Hot Showers and Muscle Rub/Relaxer. Today was a damn good day though. Justin and I got to grab a bite to eat at our favorite place(Noodles and Company) right before doors were locked for the night. While eating I ran into a friend I haven't seen in a minute(Ash) Tonight was a good night even though they haven't been so clear these last two nights. My sleep schedule has been destroyed...and even when you aren't any where to be found. For some reason I find myself waiting. I know tonight will be another restless night. A night that consists of you on my mind, tossing in bed, wishing you were by my side, wondering why you aren't here! For some reason I love it...Tonight will end amazing without hearing from you! To the closest of my friends and family! These words explain where I'll be with you! 'It's the ones we love that we hurt the most when we lose control of our tongues, vent our emotions, and let our frustrations go. It's not right, and there's no excuse. It's not important enough to get angry about. It's not important enough to come between me and you. Don't forget the times we've shared. Don't forget the fun we've had. Don't forget who's always there. Don't forget who's always got your back. 'Cause no one makes it in this fucked up world alone. Without your help I sink like a stone. 'Cause all we've shared is too much to throw away, and you don't mean those hurtful things you say. So don't forget everything we meant, the places we've been, the times we've spent. Even if you push me away I won't let you go. It's not about you or me…it's about you and me together, staying friends as we grow old. I understand where you're coming from, and I respect the way you feel. I hope you would do the same for me. We all say things we don't mean, just learn to let them fly. No, I'm not your enemy. I want to know you for the rest of my life. You're the one I can't afford to lose. And I know, no matter what happens, we'll work this through. So don't forget the times we shared, the fun we've had, the places we've been. I'm always here, no matter what happens, through thick and thin' Thank you for an amazing weekend! 219 -November 15th. Kayla and I didn't end up going to bed until 8, maybe even 9ish in the morning. The heat finally got to me and woke Kayla and I up around 11 and then we drifted in and out of sleep until Noon. We ended up sitting in Fort Ricco until Daniel gave the go ahead that we were leaving. We said our good byes and then we ended up coming back because AK forgot his pants with his wallet in them. So we had to say our goodbyes once again and then it was time for another 4 hours of black pavement! (I'll write more later) Ps. Keep those Blog Views Coming. They've gone up 15 in about 20 minutes 220 -November 14th. End of the week and I don't think it could have been more of an amazing day!! The sky was nothing but blue for miles, and school was quite easy and fast. I mean in English Class we watched Jackass 2. haha Yeah that's how we roll on Fridays in Beh's class! In photo I made a call to see if there was room for me in a vechile so I could follow up on my secret mission that I forgot to tell you readers about. When it came down to it I had a ride and had to bail out of class like a fucking ninja! The ninja plan didn't work so I just left.. haha I met up with my ride at the front of the school and it was off to fill up the tank, grab my clothes, and get on the road that I've traveled so many times. Traffic was pretty bad getting out Provo but it cleared up and then we got stuck behind some real royal fucking asshole truck drivers that wouldn't let anyone pass. Once we passed those fucks we hauled ass! 221 The whole way there I could only think of one thing; that the girl of my dreams was going to be so suprised and hopefully everyone kept their mouth shut about me coming down. After 4 hours on the road we were in Grand Junction, a little lost but we were there. We got a call from either Dan or Corbin that said hurry the fuck up cause we aren't starting until Ricco get's here. Instantly I was like loud ass mo'fucka's can't keep their mouth shut! We arrived at the VFW and man was Kayla suprised that I was actually back in her arms. After we could finally let go of eachother it was time to have a good ol time with my friends and family. Days like these, are my best days! It was an amazing show and an amazing time with everyone. I ended my night in Fort Ricco with Kayla! About two or three hours later all of my boys came rushing at the Car to inform me that I just missed out on this girl taking 10 cocks in and around her mouth. I guessed she has dick taking ability's. I guess Dan started fucking her, she called for Ian to double stuff her, Andrew threw down in her booty hole, Ak and Corbin masterbated on her stomach, The Asian was getting a hand job, Jake was getting a foot job or something, Davis and Kory were alseep, some girl was fingering her self on the floor, Jordan was getting a hand job, and Daniel got a hand job also and then cried hahaahahahha What a fucking night Fort Ricco was back once again ahah that was my 222 sucka's!!! -November 13th. John Mayer- Your Body Is A Wonderland. 223 -November 12th. Today I woke up feeling like shit, called my mother and got the ok that I could stay one. Ended up falling alseep after getting on the web and didn't wake up till about 5 o'clock. There was only one thing on my mind all day and it was 10x as werst as ever before. Finally through the day my lady met up with me to start our night. I don't know if you've ever sat there and just start thinking about someone who is in your life and feel your heart race pick up and kick your chest. FUCKING WOW! 224 -November 11th. I feel like wrapping this week at a Tuesday. It's been raining like cats and dogs down here in Salt Lake City, Utah. I've never been so happy and have looked foward to my days. Pretty much...this is explains it all. Here's the song of my week. Cant you see that its just raining Aint no need to go outside... But Baby, You hardly even notice When I try to show you this Song is meant to keep ya From doing what your supposed to Like waking up too early Maybe we can sleep in Ill make you banana pancakes Pretend like its the weekend now And we could pretend it all the time Cant you see that its just raining Aint no need to go outside But just maybe, laka ukulele Mommy made a baby Really don't mind the practice Cause your my little lady Lady lady love me Cause I love to lay here lazy We could close the curtains Pretend like there's no world outside And we could pretend it all the time Cant you see that its just raining Aint no need to go outside Aint no need aint no need Mmmm MMmmm Cant you see cant you see Rain all day And I don't mind. The telephone is singing Ringing its too early Don't pick it up We don't need to we got everything We need right here And everything we need is enough Just so easy When the whole world fits inside of your arms Don't really need to pay attention to the alarm Wake up slow, yeah wake up slow You hardly even notice When I try to show you this Song is meant to keep ya From doing what your supposed to Like waking up too early Maybe we can sleep in Ill make you banana pancakes Pretend like its the weekend now And we could pretend it all the time Can't you see that it's just raining Aint no need to go outside Aint no need, Aint no need Rain all day and I really really really don't mind Can't you see cant you see, You gotta wake up slow I had to do this one today because the last couple of days I've only wanted to write about the rain and the girl of my dreams. So I'm mixing it up a little for you viewers. Enjoi my 140th day of writing. Here's 225 -November 10th. Today was mine and Kayla's One Month ann. The day couldn't have started off with a better way. Stayed up till 4 in the morning talking to this women; wishing she could be here for it, instead of 'Maverick City' I wish she was there so I could have gave her something to remember...instead we are settling for msn conversations and fucking web-cam I hate being .. calling it a night and waiting for her in my dreams. I awoke about 2 hours later to go to fucking school! It was a perfect Monday in my eyes..a nice stormy day! I couldn't pass this oppurtunity. I ended up skipping first to fall asleep in my car with the rain hitting the car and music in the background. I was so perfect with the moment and thought of Kayla and how bad I wish she could be here for days like that. Days where the rain is coming down so hard and we are able to lie in bed all day together. After I decided to go class, feeling like shit cause I'm sicker than sick. School wasn't too bad. Afterwards everyone came over. Ivan, Nato, Alee, Boston, Alex, B-Money, Dan, Ryan, Chelsea, Corbin, fucking everybody showed up. Even a homie I haven't seen since he left for training. It was an amazing fucking day. But the one I should have been spending it with...is 4 hours away. Fucking fuck 226 -November 9th. Went to the mall for about two hours. Got judged hardcore by some bitches in Famous Footwear. Later we headed over to Justin's girls house to meet her. It was a good ol time with everyone who was there. We ended up eating, playing Rock Band, laughing at shit on youtube and getting to know eachother. The day went a lot better than expected after some faggot forgot how to merge on the highway and almost took us off the road. Punk ass bitch! I had an amazing talk with the girl I love and pretty much spent the night wrapped up in feelings of comfort and trust. I couldn't have been anymore happy. 227 -November 8th. Hung out with the boys. Had a meeting and everyone went off to do their own thing. It was a kicked back day. 228 -November 7th. Physically I'm sitting in cold winter weather. Watching the sky put up a fight against grey clouds to keep the snow away. In reality; I don't mind watching the war. Cause mentality...I'm on the best vacation ever! (All rights reserved to Kevin Russ) 229 -November 6th. School sucked but what do you expect from a place like that? Didn't use my vocal chords to much at school cause I was in my own world the whole day. After school sucked for awhile due to my own reasons. Finally though it was time for FOOTBALL! I couldn't be upset on Football day. Something like that is un heard of. Today was our biggest game besides Oregon State and BYU. We played TCU who stomped all over Brigham Young and made them cry. haha I was way nervous going into this game. TCU has been on their game all season. Kick off started off the game and TCU kicked a field goal. By the end of the first half we were playing like shit and the score was 10 to 6. There was a lot of false hope in our fans. We didn't think we were going to pull back with the way we were playing. Then from out of the sky a gift of something was delievered and we took the game 13 to 10. Keeping us Undefeated and 10-0. BYU you better be damn scared cause San Diego doesn't stand a chance. U-T-A-H UTAH UTAH FIGHT FIGHT FIGHT!! 230 -November 5th. Things started to turn around today. I had the chance to go up to the University to check out some Work Shops because of my ethnic. I had amazing time with my group of friends from school and had an amazing time in the work shops. I still understand why they put me in the Asian group? But it was a good ol laugh, and a fun time. I wish the day didn't end as soon as it did and I really wish school was like that everyday. Going back to a regular school day after this is really going to suck. It was the first snow of the season and it has just been coming down ever since I woke up. Not going to lie I was pretty stoked on it. I had some good conversations with a lot of my friends and a very heart-to-heart conversation with a friend of mine that I only see at school. It was a little odd to talk about our love lifes and learn about eachother in those aspects. She didn't know how I was and I didn't know how she was. When it came down to it..we both had similar situations. After ending an amazing day at school, I came to a warm house. Worried the rest of the day and fell asleep for the rest of the day. 231 -November 4th. Bad day number two! Obama was elected president so that was defiantly a good thing. And finally got some things off my chest but I don't know what will happen in the future now that they are out there 232 -November 3rd. Honestly one of my worst days. It started off pretty good and then some where, some how in Slcc Art I started thinking and I instantly got kicked off Cloud Nine. Everything I attempted to do was good, then some where in the middle of it all I would start thinking. End up giving up and half assing it so I could lie my head down and try to figure out why I'm like this. I'm pretty sure I know why but I don't even know. I miss last November....I wish this person was awake to help me through this. I hate writing about this terrible day. It's all sad and depressing; not my style at all and it pisses me off just reading it. Right now I'm too the point where I would give up everything I have just to have what I want the most. Just me against all odds. Fuck this day 233 -November 2nd. I feared going to sleep on the night of November 1st. I knew I would be waking up to my last day with someone who means so much to me. I know the distance is becoming a big factor; fucking stupid miles! But other than knowing that, Kayla and I woke up pretty early, thank you to Adam G. I guess everyone peaced out a lot earlier than we did. But it was daylight savings, so we got an extra hour of rest. After about a few hours of talking to Kayla we cleaned and tucked away Fort Ricco for the last time this weekend. Ended up back in the apartment hanging out with everyone before we left. We made sure we had everything and packed up our bags for the last time. Carlos came over to say by, cause he received a text from Adam G saying they were gone. Carlos got a call from some recording dude, and invited the remaining of us to come fill in for the chants! It was a go with the remaining crowd. We made sure everything was packed, and followed Carlos to the place. We got into this dudes house, I'm assuming. Waked into the kitchen to find his board and spoke about how we were going to do this. MFW set things up and we all gathered into a little room, listened to the beat through some old ghetto blaster head phones and let our sings scream out TOMORROW MEAN NOTHING TODAY IS ALL WE! We ended up doing another track and getting it to sound pretty fucking brutal. After we recorded it was our time to finally leave. It took Kayla by suprise that it was happening this soon and quick. We had a good long goodbye and as tough as it is to say goodbye to the person you love. Not knowning when the next time you will see this person, and be able to feel the warmth and security in there arms really takes a toll on you. It defiantly makes you a stronger person though. In all aspects of traits. You can never compare what you have, to what I have. I will be a cocky asshole but what I have is better! What I have > What you have! I only feel like I can write down how I feel and the thoughts that rush through out my head about my experiences in my life. I can't even explain how happy I am that I started this 365 blog. It has taken a big part of my life to do something like this. To let my friends read what I write, and people who I hardly know. But I can't stop..... until then, write ya tomorrow! -November 1st. I don't think there is any better way to start off a month, by waking up four or five times to the person you love and your friends coming in and out of Fort Ricco to say what's up and show their love. After Justin went on his walk him and Nato came by Fort Ricco to say what's up and see what was going on. Justin had some bad gas due to some Starbucks Coffee shots or some bullshit! I'm so honored to have the things I have in my life. I'm thankful for everyone who came down to Grand Junction with us. There was a lot of people who came that I haven't seen in weeks, and at the most months. After cleaning and folding away Fort Ricco it was time to go inside: shower, eat, see everyone, and get ready for the day. Most of the day consisted of everyone coming in and out of Fort Ricco, watching t.v., playing video games, laughing, telling stories, and waiting in line to shower. It was a good day to catch up with everyone and just being around the ones who mean the most. We ended up doing this until it was time to go to xTyrantx. We ended up hanging around the venue until the locals setted up. Justin, Kayla and I went off to go get some food. I don't know what everyone else did. Came back and enjoyed one hell of a show! Thank you for everyone besides some douche bags who played! I wish One Choice could have made it; but what can you do. There is always trouble on the road. Everyone else brought a show to remember. Thank you Made For War, Bring on the Night, Sworn For Chance, Some local band, THRIVE!!! and xTYRANTx for playing! After the show we had some fun and laughs at some cornfed american faggs! All met up at the house, showered and set up Fort Ricco. It's the best feeling knowing that you can tell your friends and family goodnight, that you love them all and you will see them in the morning. After everyone said goodnight it was time for me to go to bed. Kayla and I set up Fort Ricco, lyed down and had some talks I didn't expect. I couldn't ask for a more perfect thing =] This wasn't even half of the cars we had, but this is all we had together at the moment!